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410 pages, Kindle Edition
First published February 3, 2015
鈥淪o what鈥� you get to act out some kind of vengeance by working me into an early grave?鈥�
鈥淪omething like that.鈥� He smirked. 鈥淚t鈥檒l be a comfortable grave, though.鈥� He told me the salary and I almost passed out鈥�
Caine鈥檚 eyes glittered triumphantly at my obvious excitement. 鈥淎s I said, it comes with a price.鈥� His grim was wicked and I suddenly felt a little breathless. 鈥淚鈥檓 a hard man to please. And I鈥檓 also a very busy man. You鈥檒l do what I want when I want and I won鈥檛 always be nice about it. In fact, considering what your surname is, you can pretty much guarantee I won鈥檛 be nice about it.鈥�
鈥淚 wished Caine could see what I saw 鈥� that we were the same in some ways. And I didn't want to be someone he hated. However, it was clear Caine needed me to leave him alone. And I would. Even if it was the absolute last thing I wanted to do.鈥�
鈥淐aine, is it?
鈥淢r. Carraway,鈥� I corrected myself.
She chortled. 鈥淵ou can call him Caine, sweetheart. He鈥檚 not a god.鈥�
鈥淒o you think you could tell him that? Because I don鈥檛 think he knows."
鈥淪ay you鈥檙e mine. Right here, right now, you鈥檙e mine,鈥� he growled.
He briefly closed his eyes, and there was remorse written all over his face. 鈥淛esus, Lex, I should never have said what I said. As soon as the words were out of my mouth鈥︹€滺e lowered is head and I found my eyes caught in his. 鈥淵ou are the last person in the world I want to hurt."
Getting Caine to see me for who I really was was proving more difficult than I had first thought.
鈥淵ou鈥檙e the one real think in my life right now鈥� You should know I don鈥檛 want to let that go.鈥�
The only thing I was starting to predict was that if I did by some miracle find a way to make Caine see who I really was, I was almost positive that I wasn't going to come out of it unscathed.
...sometimes you've got to let yourself be vulnerable even when it's the scariest thing in the world.
Tomorrow you'll receive your employment contracts. Once you sign those I'm your boss." When I didn't answer he said, "That means you act the way I want you to act. That means you shelve your attitude and the twenty questions."
"Should I shelve those next to 'personality'?"
I don't know what this is you're trying to do, but you and I are not the same." He took another step back from me. "And I am not for you. I'm not your white knight. I'm just the guy who wanted to fuck you."
"I keep waiting to not feel like this, because there are times I can't bear it. To care this much. To worry about you day in and day out. I love you so fucking much. I sometimes... I feel consumed by it."Seriously, Caine...
"I'm not looking for something else from life. I'm not looking for more. I'm not looking for a great adventure. I'm not looking, because I found it. You are my more. You are my great adventure."
鈥淚 would take this risk because I wanted him to see I wasn鈥檛 anything like my dad. I wanted Caine to see that if anything, I was like him.鈥�
鈥淚 don't know what this is you're trying to do, but you and I are not the same." He took another step back from me. "And I am not for you. I'm not your white knight. I'm just the guy who wanted to fuck you."
鈥淚 fantasize about f*cking you in this office a hundred times a day.鈥�
鈥淚鈥檓 not here to fall for him. I鈥檓 just trying to be there for him somehow. I get him, even if he doesn鈥檛 realize it, I really do get him. I would like to be his friend if he鈥檒l have me.鈥�
鈥淚 need a PA who will fulfill all my wishes and demands immediately. That鈥檚 not easy to find鈥攎ost people have social lives. You, however, are desperate and the way I see it, you owe me.鈥�
鈥淚鈥檒l come by your place when I鈥檓 finished up here.鈥�
鈥淢y place?鈥�
鈥淢mm. I鈥檒l text you when I鈥檓 on my way.鈥�
鈥淪houldn鈥檛 you wait to be invited first?鈥�
鈥淟exie, may I come to your apartment tonight so I can f*ck your brains out?鈥�
鈥淚鈥檓 not the guy you鈥檙e looking for, Lexie. I鈥檓 never going to be that guy.鈥�
鈥淚鈥檓 not looking for a hero. I never asked for that. I just wanted you鈥︹€�
鈰扳嫳鈰扳嫳鈰扳嫳*Don't Feel The Same*鈰扳嫳鈰扳嫳鈰扳嫳
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