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108 pages, Hardcover
First published October 26, 1977
All the world began with a yes. One molecule said yes to another molecule and life was born. But before prehistory there was the prehistory of prehistory and there was the never and there was the yes. It was ever so. I don鈥檛 know why, but I do know that the universe never began.
She thought she鈥檇 incur serious punishment and even risk dying if she took too much pleasure in life. So she protected herself from death by living less, consuming so little of her life that she鈥檇 never run out. This savings gave her a little security since you can鈥檛 fall farther than the ground. Did she feel she was living for nothing? I鈥檓 not sure, but I don鈥檛 think so. Only once did she ask a tragic question: who am I? It frightened her so much that she completely stopped thinking.
鈥� You know what else I learned? They said you should be glad to be alive. So I am. I also heard a pretty song, I even cried.
"Hay los que tienen. Y hay los que no tienen. Es muy simple: la muchacha no ten铆a."Una historia melodram谩tica-rom谩ntica-par贸dica acerca de una v铆ctima de todos, un relato sobre alguien 鈥渢an insignificante como una idiota. S贸lo que no lo era.鈥�, a la que el narrador, tercer protagonista de la novela y que se siente obligado a escribir la historia, quiere satisfacer con 鈥渆l derecho al grito鈥� que la propia antihero铆na se queda muy lejos de ejercer. Y este dejar constancia de una de esas personas que nunca dejan constancia, y de las que nunca nadie se preocupa por dejar constancia, est谩 escrito con un particular铆simo estilo que hace verdaderamente grande a la novela.
鈥溾€� capt茅 el esp铆ritu de la lengua y as铆, a veces, la forma forja un contenido.鈥�Este narrador, que escribe porque no tiene otra cosa que hacer en el mundo y con la esperanza de que ello lo aleje de s铆 mismo, consigue que me deleite y emocione incluso con p谩rrafos que no entiendo (aunque permanece en m铆 la peque帽ita sospecha de que quiz谩s s铆, siempre prefiero la comprensi贸n que proviene de la emoci贸n y as铆 poder decir con el narrador aquello de que 鈥淟o definible ya me cansa. Prefiero la verdad que hay en el presagio.鈥�). Un narrador que envidia el vac铆o que representa Macabea porque 鈥淓l vac铆o tiene el valor de lo pleno y se asemeja a ello鈥�, y que, sin embargo, se incomoda y hasta se enfurece por la falta de reacci贸n de Macabea. Quiz谩 le recuerda demasiado a s铆 mismo.
"Every once in a while she wandered into the better neighborhoods and gazed at the shop windows glittering with jewels and satin clothes 鈥� just to mortify herself a bit. Because she needed to find herself and suffering a little is a way of finding."
"If she was dumb enough to ask herself 鈥渨ho am I?鈥� she would fall flat on her face. Because 鈥渨ho am I?鈥� creates a need. And how can you satisfy that need? Those who wonder are incomplete."
鈥淪he had a room all to herself. She could hardly believe that all this space was hers. And not a word was heard. So she danced in an act of absolute courage since her aunt couldn鈥檛 hear her. She danced and twirled because being alone made her: f-r-e-e!鈥�
"Sadness was the privilege of the rich, of those who could afford it, of those who had nothing better to do. Sadness was a luxury"
"The third time they met 鈥� wouldn鈥檛 you know it was raining? 鈥� the guy, irritated and losing the light varnish of politeness that his stepfather had taught him with great effort, said:
鈥� All you ever do is rain."
"Speaking of novelties, the girl one day saw in a corner bar a man so, so, so good-looking that 鈥� that she wanted to have him at home. It would be, like 鈥� like having a big emerald-emerald-emerald in an open jewel box. Untouchable. From the ring she saw he was married. How to marry-marry-marry a being who was only to-to-to be seen, she stammered in her thoughts. She鈥檇 die of embarrassment to eat in front of him because he was good looking beyond any person鈥檚 possible balance."
"I am absolutely tired of literature; only muteness keeps me company. If I still write it鈥檚 because I have nothing better to do in the world while I wait for death."
"I have to say that the girl isn鈥檛 aware of me, if she was she鈥檇 have someone to pray to and that would mean salvation. But I鈥檓 fully aware of her: through this young person I scream my horror of life. Of this life I love so much."
"she was happy but how it ached."
"She sat there leaning her head on her shoulder the way a dove gets sad."
"She believed in angels, and because she believed in them, they existed."
Brasilia is built on the line of the horizon.
When I died, I opened my eyes one day and there was Brasilia.
The two architects who planned Brasilia were not interested in creating something beautiful. That would be too simple; they created their own terror, and left that terror unexplained.
Besides the wind, there is another thing that blows. It can only be recognised in the supernatural rippling of the lake. - Wherever you stand, you have the impression of being on the edge of a dangerous precipice.
Its founders tried to ignore the importance of human beings. The dimensions of the city's buildings were calculated for the heavens.
It is a shore without any sea.
How I should love to set white horses free here in Brasilia. At night, they would become green under the light of the moon - I know what those two men wanted: that slowness and silence which are also my idea of eternity.
Fear has always guided me to the things I love; and because I love, I become afraid.
Clarice Lispector: this woman, our contemporary, a Brazilian woman鈥� it is not books that she gives us, but the act of living saved by books, narratives, constructions that make us step back. And then, through her window-writing, we enter into the frightening beauty of learning how to read: and we pass, through the body, to the other side of the I. To love the truth of what is alive,... to love the origin, to be personally interested in the impersonal, in the animal, in the thing.
(Helene Cixious)
鈥淓verything in the world began with a yes. One molecule said yes to another molecule and life was born.鈥�
"She believed in angels, and, because she believed, they existed.鈥�.And like that, she writes on:
鈥淪o long as I have questions to which there are no answers, I shall go on writing.鈥�
"I swear that this book is made up without words. It is a mute photography. This book is a silence. This book is a question.鈥�(my own free translations from Portuguese.)
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