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When Ellis Earnshaw and Heathan James met as children, they couldn’t have been more different. Ellis was loud and beautiful � all blond hair, bright laughs and smiles. Heathan was dark and brooding, and obsessed with watching things die.
The pair forged an unlikely friendship, unique and strange. Until they were ripped apart by the sick cruelty of others, separated for years, both locked in a perpetual hell.
Eleven years later, Heathan is back for his girl. Back from a place from which he thought there was no return. Back to seek revenge on those who wronged them.
Time has made Heathan’s soul darker, polluted with hatred and the thirst for blood.
Time has made Ellis a shell of her former self, a little girl lost in the vastness of her pain.
As Heathan pulls Ellis out of her mental prison, reviving the essence of who she once was, down the rabbit hole they will go.
With malice in their hearts and vengeance in their veins, they will seek out the ones who hurt and destroyed them.
One at a time.
Each one more deadly than the last.
Tick Tock.
Dark Contemporary Romance. Contains explicit sexual situations, violence, disturbingly sensitive and taboo subjects, offensive language and very mature topics. Recommended for ages 18 and over.
The pair forged an unlikely friendship, unique and strange. Until they were ripped apart by the sick cruelty of others, separated for years, both locked in a perpetual hell.
Eleven years later, Heathan is back for his girl. Back from a place from which he thought there was no return. Back to seek revenge on those who wronged them.
Time has made Heathan’s soul darker, polluted with hatred and the thirst for blood.
Time has made Ellis a shell of her former self, a little girl lost in the vastness of her pain.
As Heathan pulls Ellis out of her mental prison, reviving the essence of who she once was, down the rabbit hole they will go.
With malice in their hearts and vengeance in their veins, they will seek out the ones who hurt and destroyed them.
One at a time.
Each one more deadly than the last.
Tick Tock.
Dark Contemporary Romance. Contains explicit sexual situations, violence, disturbingly sensitive and taboo subjects, offensive language and very mature topics. Recommended for ages 18 and over.
314 pages, ebook
First published October 7, 2017
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Tillie Cole
55books25.1kfollowersAmazon & USA Today Best Selling Author, Tillie Cole, is a Northern girl through and through. She originates from a place called Teesside on that little but awesomely sunny (okay I exaggerate) Isle called Great Britain. She was brought up surrounded by her English rose mother -- a farmer's daughter, her crazy Scottish father, a savagely sarcastic sister and a multitude of rescue animals and horses.
Being a scary blend of Scottish and English, Tillie embraces both cultures; her English heritage through her love of HP sauce and freshly made Yorkshire Puddings, and her Scottish which is mostly demonstrated by her frighteningly foul-mouthed episodes of pure rage and her much loved dirty jokes.
Having been born and raised as a Teesside Smoggie, Tillie, at age nineteen, moved forty miles north to the 'Toon', Newcastle-Upon-Tyne, where she attended Newcastle University and graduated with a Bachelor of Arts honours degree in Religious Studies. She returned two years later to complete a Post-Graduate Certificate in Teaching High School Social Studies. Tillie, regards Newcastle to be a home from home and enjoyed the Newcastle Geordie way of life for seven 'proper mint' and 'lush' years.
One summers day, after finishing reading her thousandth book on her much loved and treasured Kindle, Tillie turned to her husband and declared, "D'you know, I have a great idea for a story. I could write a book." Several months later, after repeating the same tired line at the close of another completed story, she was scolded by her husband to shut up talking about writing a novel and "just bloody do it!" For the first time in eleven years, Tillie actually took his advice (he is still trying to get over the shock) and immediately set off on a crazy journey, delving deep into her fertile imagination.
Tillie, ever since, has written from the heart. She combines her passion for anything camp and glittery with her love of humour and dark brooding men (most often muscled and tattooed � they’re her weakness!). She also has a serious side (believe it or not!) and loves to immerse herself in the complex study of World Religions, History and Cultural Studies and creates fantasy stories that enable her to thread serious issues and topics into her writing -- yep, there's more to this girl than profanity and sparkles!
After six years of teaching high school Social Studies and following her Professional Rugby Player husband around Europe, they have finally given up their nomadic way of life and settled in Calgary, Alberta where Tillie spends most of her days (and many a late night) lost in a writing euphoria or pursuing a dazzling career as a barrel-racing, tasselled-chap wearing, Stetson-sporting cowgirl... Ye-haw!
Being a scary blend of Scottish and English, Tillie embraces both cultures; her English heritage through her love of HP sauce and freshly made Yorkshire Puddings, and her Scottish which is mostly demonstrated by her frighteningly foul-mouthed episodes of pure rage and her much loved dirty jokes.
Having been born and raised as a Teesside Smoggie, Tillie, at age nineteen, moved forty miles north to the 'Toon', Newcastle-Upon-Tyne, where she attended Newcastle University and graduated with a Bachelor of Arts honours degree in Religious Studies. She returned two years later to complete a Post-Graduate Certificate in Teaching High School Social Studies. Tillie, regards Newcastle to be a home from home and enjoyed the Newcastle Geordie way of life for seven 'proper mint' and 'lush' years.
One summers day, after finishing reading her thousandth book on her much loved and treasured Kindle, Tillie turned to her husband and declared, "D'you know, I have a great idea for a story. I could write a book." Several months later, after repeating the same tired line at the close of another completed story, she was scolded by her husband to shut up talking about writing a novel and "just bloody do it!" For the first time in eleven years, Tillie actually took his advice (he is still trying to get over the shock) and immediately set off on a crazy journey, delving deep into her fertile imagination.
Tillie, ever since, has written from the heart. She combines her passion for anything camp and glittery with her love of humour and dark brooding men (most often muscled and tattooed � they’re her weakness!). She also has a serious side (believe it or not!) and loves to immerse herself in the complex study of World Religions, History and Cultural Studies and creates fantasy stories that enable her to thread serious issues and topics into her writing -- yep, there's more to this girl than profanity and sparkles!
After six years of teaching high school Social Studies and following her Professional Rugby Player husband around Europe, they have finally given up their nomadic way of life and settled in Calgary, Alberta where Tillie spends most of her days (and many a late night) lost in a writing euphoria or pursuing a dazzling career as a barrel-racing, tasselled-chap wearing, Stetson-sporting cowgirl... Ye-haw!
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Shelved as 'dnf'
October 26, 2017DNF @ 25%
***Edited to add*** Because I'm getting fucking tired of people's asshole comments on this, let me be clear:
I am NOT telling people not to read this book. I have read and loved a LOT of dark romance. I am merely saying that this books contains a HUGE no go zone for some people. And readers have a right to be made aware of that before they decide to spend their hard earned money on a book that has such a trigger. For the people that are aware of it and want to continue on, that's wonderful and I hope they enjoy the book.
But stop leaving me condescending comments about how I shouldn't read things I "can't handle." As open and free as I am on here, you DON'T know me. You don't know what I do for a living, what I have seen, or what I can and cannot handle. I am merely saying this particular subject matter was not fun for me to read. Can I "handle it?" Sure. But I don't WANT to.
Other readers have a right to decide for themselves too.
I still love and will read Tillie Cole, but I chose not to continue with this one.
Original "review:"
I love Tillie Cole, but I can’t continue with this. Reading about children being drugged and then gang raped is not my idea of a good time.
And no, I’m not putting that in a spoiler tag. People should be aware that this book has fairly graphic scenes depicting those things. No judgment by any means, I just think that’s kind of a big deal and people should have that information when deciding to read this or not.
***Edited to add*** Because I'm getting fucking tired of people's asshole comments on this, let me be clear:
I am NOT telling people not to read this book. I have read and loved a LOT of dark romance. I am merely saying that this books contains a HUGE no go zone for some people. And readers have a right to be made aware of that before they decide to spend their hard earned money on a book that has such a trigger. For the people that are aware of it and want to continue on, that's wonderful and I hope they enjoy the book.
But stop leaving me condescending comments about how I shouldn't read things I "can't handle." As open and free as I am on here, you DON'T know me. You don't know what I do for a living, what I have seen, or what I can and cannot handle. I am merely saying this particular subject matter was not fun for me to read. Can I "handle it?" Sure. But I don't WANT to.
Other readers have a right to decide for themselves too.
I still love and will read Tillie Cole, but I chose not to continue with this one.
Original "review:"
I love Tillie Cole, but I can’t continue with this. Reading about children being drugged and then gang raped is not my idea of a good time.
And no, I’m not putting that in a spoiler tag. People should be aware that this book has fairly graphic scenes depicting those things. No judgment by any means, I just think that’s kind of a big deal and people should have that information when deciding to read this or not.
July 30, 2017
I cannot WAIT to share this book with you all!
I will warn you now, this book is DARK.
Really. Bloody. DARK!
Do NOT read this novel if you have issues with violence (really inventive acts of violence), taboo topics (yes, this book goes down some seriously interesting routes), and an (un)healthy dose of effed-up-ness (yes, I invented this word just to help make this point!).
Our main couple are off the charts crazy. The story will have your jaws dropping and you shouting, "WHAT THE EFF????" frequently at your kindle/paperback's page.
BUUUUTTTTTTTT, if you LURVE having your minds blown and questioning just how black your heart is when you finish and realize you championed our main couple in all their depravity from the first to the last page, then this is the book for you!
Release date will be announced VERY soon!
Get ready to go down the rabbit hole with #Hellis (the ship name for our lovely psycho couple). Your world is about to be SHOOK!
Dark, standalone contemporary romance.
Read at your own risk!
I will warn you now, this book is DARK.
Really. Bloody. DARK!
Do NOT read this novel if you have issues with violence (really inventive acts of violence), taboo topics (yes, this book goes down some seriously interesting routes), and an (un)healthy dose of effed-up-ness (yes, I invented this word just to help make this point!).
Our main couple are off the charts crazy. The story will have your jaws dropping and you shouting, "WHAT THE EFF????" frequently at your kindle/paperback's page.
BUUUUTTTTTTTT, if you LURVE having your minds blown and questioning just how black your heart is when you finish and realize you championed our main couple in all their depravity from the first to the last page, then this is the book for you!
Release date will be announced VERY soon!
Get ready to go down the rabbit hole with #Hellis (the ship name for our lovely psycho couple). Your world is about to be SHOOK!
Dark, standalone contemporary romance.
Read at your own risk!
Shelved as 'dnf'
October 6, 2017DNF @36%
It pains me to DNF a Tillie Cole book. She is one of my favorite authors. I was looking forward to this book, and I don't mind dark romance, so I had high hopes it would work for me. Sadly, it just wasn't the book for me. I had a few personal issues- but I think a lot of people will love it! Of course I'll continue to read everything else this author writes- I adore her and love most of her books!
It pains me to DNF a Tillie Cole book. She is one of my favorite authors. I was looking forward to this book, and I don't mind dark romance, so I had high hopes it would work for me. Sadly, it just wasn't the book for me. I had a few personal issues- but I think a lot of people will love it! Of course I'll continue to read everything else this author writes- I adore her and love most of her books!
November 24, 2017
"Something much darker and more sinister, caused by stripping a beautiful creature of its ability to fly, to thrive."
My grandmother used to always tell me, 'you will never know if a psychopath is sitting next to you on the train'.
This book killed me. I hated it. I hated everything about it, and the worst fucking thing I realized after I hit the final chapter was that I hated that I was going to give it a stellar review. It deserves it. Truly.
_________________
A Toast
It takes guts.
It takes the biggest goddamn balls out there to write a story that is so fucked to hell, and then continue to publish it knowing the backlash that would occur.
So cheers to you, Ms. Cole.
I don't know what the actual hell happens in that brilliant brain of yours, but cheers to that too.
This was a well written book. The first thing I disagree with, is the fact that there should have been an explicit trigger warning stated at the start of the book with the contents that the book was going to cover. Especially when you are dealing with sensitive topics such as child gang-rape.
Tillie Cole pushed limits with this dark romance, to the length that I would count it more as horror than erotica. Because even the sex scenes, if looked at from a psychological perspective was more than just 'kinky and dark'. These are flawed and broken characters that have so many mental traumas, that all their senses were re-imaged.
I will truthfully admit, the blood and gore got to a bit too much at times. If that aspect of the book was diluted, then perhaps it wouldn't have the same effect. I guess we will never know though, so the ambiguity of that whole case holds my last star.
Disassociation of Reality
The romance in this book reminded me heavily of that which is The Joker's and Harley Quinns. These horrible and awful, and completely ruined people have a reason behind their madness. It's safe to say that Alice in Wonderland is forever ruined for me!
The level of fucked-upness behind their story and how much they are fucked up was necessary to portray the cruel reality of our world. This shit happens. We are ignorant to topics such as child rape, sex trafficking, mass murder and a bunch of other taboo topics, because it has become the social norm to just pretend it's not there because it doesn't affect us.
So if anything, I would say read this book to get slapped in the face.
Not just for a dark romance read.
Yours, Truly
I will be honest and say that I was negotiating giving this a 3 star rating as I was reading it. Towards the late- middle and end, there was a bunch of elements that rubbed completely the wrong way and made me want to just call my mom and ask for the biggest hug.
But I realized that, that was it's intention. Dark Romance in itself is written to make you feel out of your own skin. It's meant to make you question your sanity. Coupled with the topics that are dealt with in this, I couldn't help but give a better rating. So in a way, Heathen and Ellis stole it from me.
I would never want to share a train with those two, but like my grandma says. I would never know If I already have.
My grandmother used to always tell me, 'you will never know if a psychopath is sitting next to you on the train'.
This book killed me. I hated it. I hated everything about it, and the worst fucking thing I realized after I hit the final chapter was that I hated that I was going to give it a stellar review. It deserves it. Truly.
“If all else perished, and he remained, I should still continue to be; and if all else remained, and he were annihilated, the universe would become a mighty stranger.�
_________________
A Toast
It takes guts.
It takes the biggest goddamn balls out there to write a story that is so fucked to hell, and then continue to publish it knowing the backlash that would occur.
So cheers to you, Ms. Cole.
I don't know what the actual hell happens in that brilliant brain of yours, but cheers to that too.
This was a well written book. The first thing I disagree with, is the fact that there should have been an explicit trigger warning stated at the start of the book with the contents that the book was going to cover. Especially when you are dealing with sensitive topics such as child gang-rape.
Tillie Cole pushed limits with this dark romance, to the length that I would count it more as horror than erotica. Because even the sex scenes, if looked at from a psychological perspective was more than just 'kinky and dark'. These are flawed and broken characters that have so many mental traumas, that all their senses were re-imaged.
I will truthfully admit, the blood and gore got to a bit too much at times. If that aspect of the book was diluted, then perhaps it wouldn't have the same effect. I guess we will never know though, so the ambiguity of that whole case holds my last star.
"I wondered what it would look like if I sliced open one of her veins with the tip of my thimble and let the blood pour. Not a main vein, but one where I could watch the vivid red render her pale skin into a sadistic artist’s masterpiece. I imagined lapping at the blood. Then in turn, her opening a vein in my neck and feeding from me just the same."
Disassociation of Reality
“That’s the thing about a prison full of psycho killers.� I unsheathed my cane and brought the spiked blade to hover at his throat. “We can manipulate an escape and kill those who stupidly kept us all captive.�
The romance in this book reminded me heavily of that which is The Joker's and Harley Quinns. These horrible and awful, and completely ruined people have a reason behind their madness. It's safe to say that Alice in Wonderland is forever ruined for me!
"I always see you.�
The level of fucked-upness behind their story and how much they are fucked up was necessary to portray the cruel reality of our world. This shit happens. We are ignorant to topics such as child rape, sex trafficking, mass murder and a bunch of other taboo topics, because it has become the social norm to just pretend it's not there because it doesn't affect us.
So if anything, I would say read this book to get slapped in the face.
Not just for a dark romance read.
“You’re ready to get your darlin�?� Chapel had asked me several days ago. “My Dolly,� I had shot back. “Your little Dolly darlin’�. He had smiled and bowed like he always did. “Then, young Dapper Dan, send her my loving regards, and Godspeed.� A slow smile. “May the devil be firmly on your side . . .�
Yours, Truly
I will be honest and say that I was negotiating giving this a 3 star rating as I was reading it. Towards the late- middle and end, there was a bunch of elements that rubbed completely the wrong way and made me want to just call my mom and ask for the biggest hug.
But I realized that, that was it's intention. Dark Romance in itself is written to make you feel out of your own skin. It's meant to make you question your sanity. Coupled with the topics that are dealt with in this, I couldn't help but give a better rating. So in a way, Heathen and Ellis stole it from me.
I would never want to share a train with those two, but like my grandma says. I would never know If I already have.
October 22, 2021
so this story started good... and by good i mean absolutely fucking disgusting i needed a lobotomy, an exorcism, and maybe the healing hands of jesus christ himself after that
but i mean this in a good way, because when i pick up a dark book i basically want everything to be so fucked up that i experience symptoms of physical illness from all the dread and anxiety im feeling. this book achieved that. i was disgusted. i was invested. i wanted revenge for these two children and was so excited for the murder to get started.
but in retrospect... those initial feelings of excitement was around the time i should've started drinking
because that's the only way i could've gotten myself on board with this ridiculous ass book.
ill start from the beginning.
*warning* spoilers below
this story opens when ellis earnshaw (h) meets heathan james (H). she is 9 years old, he's 11. ellis is an imaginative girl, prefers fantasy to reality, and alice in worlderland is her favorite. and heathan... heathan is just a psychopath. he has always been that way, will always be that way, and he's pretty textbook about it. when we first meet him he's ripping wings off butterflies, burning ants with a magnifying glass, and saying shit like
seems reasonable 🤷🏽♀� so once heathan and ellis meet, she loves him so much she dubs him her white rabbit from her favorite fantasy story. and in response, rabbit tells her that ellis is a stupid name, so her new name is now dolly. because everybody knows dolly is the antithesis of a stupid name
rabbit and dolly become best friends, and once rabbit's dad dies, dolly's dad is kind enough to welcome him into their home. now once rabbit moves in with dolly, her dad, and her six uncles (her dads business partners) is when this story gets a little sick
dolly's uncles drug rabbit, rape him, (he's 12 btw), and continue this abuse for months. dolly is unaware of all of this, busy being an innocent child swept up in her fantasy world, but on her 10th birthday, her papa tells her that she is a big girl now. ready for big girl things.
bruh the anxiety i felt when i read those words i swear....
so dolly and rabbit get raped by these crusty old men together. later on in the story when they're older and are trying to be intimate with each other but are too traumatized to touch, they jerk off infront of each other instead, and halfway through start saying the things that these old men said to them while raping their child bodies
“You’re so fucking tight, tiny bitch.�
“You like that, don’t you, baby whore? You like me filling you? You fucking love it.�
“You’re so fucking tight, little boy.�
“You love this. Lap it up.�
“Faster, little girl.�
“Faster, little boy.�
god this part of the story was just so fucked up i can't. i bet you never realized how much you didn't need to see the words 'baby' and 'whore' in one sentence til right now.
so once rabbit realizes what has happened to his dolly, he snaps and kills one of the uncles. after this, her papa has him put in prison, but not real prison, but like a secret exclusive prison funded by rich ppl thats filled with killers and psychos. why pay for rabbit to be put in prison instead of killing him, you ask? bc if rabbit died the story would be over.
once rabbit is in prison, he meets his cellmates, chapel and henry/hyde (split personality). they take him under their wing and teach him how to properly kill. why, you ask again? because
so rabbit and dolly are separated for 11 years. rabbit is in prison, leaving dolly to be used by her uncles (they're not rly her uncles btw she just calls them that). after this time jump, rabbit and his cellmates break out of prison and immediately rabbit goes back for his dolly. he finds her in the same house, just chilling there in a catatonic state (understandable). then rabbit waves his magic wand, twists her mechanical lever to bring his wind up dolly back to life. dolly reanimates and her psyche is reverted to an alice in wonderland character with an English accent. this was around the time where i realized this story was about to become so fantastical, ott, and eye-rollingly ridiculous that i could either get on board with it or have a terrible time, so at that point my energy was still
the child rape was just so traumatizing i wanted so badly to appreciate the revenge part, and i really did try, but in the end i felt like i was grasping at straws. dolly's character was so ott i couldn't buy into it, and rabbit was just kinda boring. im not sure he ever really had a personality, but it becomes more pronounces as the story progresses that his only personality trait is that blood makes his dick hard and he wants to kill everybody but dolly
he also was unimpressive because every time something would happen he would call his friend chapel for advice and at that point i would've just preferred a story about chapel (an actually impressive-seeming and distinguished psychopath) instead.
the first bloodplay scene tho was when i really hit the mental eject button. ive read less bloodplay in vampire romances, i swear. these two were so goddamn extra about it. the weird speeches and the drinking of the blood, putting it in vials, the making of blood oaths.
there just became a point where everything became stupid. i like reading chaotic shit, but there was a line somewhere where we crossed into silliness. to say some good things about this though:
� rabbit's love for dolly was not up for debate and that was cute
� chapter 12, tweedledee & tweedledums deaths, was awesome. dolly was channeling harley quinn and if this book could've been like that all the time, i would've five starred it so quick. her earl gray tea quirk was actually funny af
� i liked that they could both see the time on the watch (while everyone else knew it was broken). it was a small detail but it really put in perspective how crazy they were and i liked that
in conclusion though:
dolly and rabbit, im really sorry all this shit happened to you, imma let you finish with all your murder..... but lana meyers from the series had the most satisfying revenge arc of all time
and also, you guys had hella plot holes and never woulda gotten away with it all okay bye
but i mean this in a good way, because when i pick up a dark book i basically want everything to be so fucked up that i experience symptoms of physical illness from all the dread and anxiety im feeling. this book achieved that. i was disgusted. i was invested. i wanted revenge for these two children and was so excited for the murder to get started.
but in retrospect... those initial feelings of excitement was around the time i should've started drinking
because that's the only way i could've gotten myself on board with this ridiculous ass book.
ill start from the beginning.
*warning* spoilers below
this story opens when ellis earnshaw (h) meets heathan james (H). she is 9 years old, he's 11. ellis is an imaginative girl, prefers fantasy to reality, and alice in worlderland is her favorite. and heathan... heathan is just a psychopath. he has always been that way, will always be that way, and he's pretty textbook about it. when we first meet him he's ripping wings off butterflies, burning ants with a magnifying glass, and saying shit like
These were just the daily thoughts I’d had about people ever since I could remember. Most nights I fell asleep imagining what they would all look like dead.
seems reasonable 🤷🏽♀� so once heathan and ellis meet, she loves him so much she dubs him her white rabbit from her favorite fantasy story. and in response, rabbit tells her that ellis is a stupid name, so her new name is now dolly. because everybody knows dolly is the antithesis of a stupid name
rabbit and dolly become best friends, and once rabbit's dad dies, dolly's dad is kind enough to welcome him into their home. now once rabbit moves in with dolly, her dad, and her six uncles (her dads business partners) is when this story gets a little sick
dolly's uncles drug rabbit, rape him, (he's 12 btw), and continue this abuse for months. dolly is unaware of all of this, busy being an innocent child swept up in her fantasy world, but on her 10th birthday, her papa tells her that she is a big girl now. ready for big girl things.
bruh the anxiety i felt when i read those words i swear....
so dolly and rabbit get raped by these crusty old men together. later on in the story when they're older and are trying to be intimate with each other but are too traumatized to touch, they jerk off infront of each other instead, and halfway through start saying the things that these old men said to them while raping their child bodies
“You’re so fucking tight, tiny bitch.�
“You like that, don’t you, baby whore? You like me filling you? You fucking love it.�
“You’re so fucking tight, little boy.�
“You love this. Lap it up.�
“Faster, little girl.�
“Faster, little boy.�
god this part of the story was just so fucked up i can't. i bet you never realized how much you didn't need to see the words 'baby' and 'whore' in one sentence til right now.
so once rabbit realizes what has happened to his dolly, he snaps and kills one of the uncles. after this, her papa has him put in prison, but not real prison, but like a secret exclusive prison funded by rich ppl thats filled with killers and psychos. why pay for rabbit to be put in prison instead of killing him, you ask? bc if rabbit died the story would be over.
once rabbit is in prison, he meets his cellmates, chapel and henry/hyde (split personality). they take him under their wing and teach him how to properly kill. why, you ask again? because
so rabbit and dolly are separated for 11 years. rabbit is in prison, leaving dolly to be used by her uncles (they're not rly her uncles btw she just calls them that). after this time jump, rabbit and his cellmates break out of prison and immediately rabbit goes back for his dolly. he finds her in the same house, just chilling there in a catatonic state (understandable). then rabbit waves his magic wand, twists her mechanical lever to bring his wind up dolly back to life. dolly reanimates and her psyche is reverted to an alice in wonderland character with an English accent. this was around the time where i realized this story was about to become so fantastical, ott, and eye-rollingly ridiculous that i could either get on board with it or have a terrible time, so at that point my energy was still
the child rape was just so traumatizing i wanted so badly to appreciate the revenge part, and i really did try, but in the end i felt like i was grasping at straws. dolly's character was so ott i couldn't buy into it, and rabbit was just kinda boring. im not sure he ever really had a personality, but it becomes more pronounces as the story progresses that his only personality trait is that blood makes his dick hard and he wants to kill everybody but dolly
he also was unimpressive because every time something would happen he would call his friend chapel for advice and at that point i would've just preferred a story about chapel (an actually impressive-seeming and distinguished psychopath) instead.
the first bloodplay scene tho was when i really hit the mental eject button. ive read less bloodplay in vampire romances, i swear. these two were so goddamn extra about it. the weird speeches and the drinking of the blood, putting it in vials, the making of blood oaths.
there just became a point where everything became stupid. i like reading chaotic shit, but there was a line somewhere where we crossed into silliness. to say some good things about this though:
� rabbit's love for dolly was not up for debate and that was cute
� chapter 12, tweedledee & tweedledums deaths, was awesome. dolly was channeling harley quinn and if this book could've been like that all the time, i would've five starred it so quick. her earl gray tea quirk was actually funny af
� i liked that they could both see the time on the watch (while everyone else knew it was broken). it was a small detail but it really put in perspective how crazy they were and i liked that
in conclusion though:
dolly and rabbit, im really sorry all this shit happened to you, imma let you finish with all your murder..... but lana meyers from the series had the most satisfying revenge arc of all time
and also, you guys had hella plot holes and never woulda gotten away with it all okay bye
October 4, 2017
Great cover on this one. Great representation of the story. Good compoition and title work as well.
OH-MY-GOD...just OMG. I don't even know where to start this review. This book was just SOOOO friggin AMAZING! In fact, this may be THE best book I have read all year. The writing was FANTASTIC. The Alice In Wonderland theme FANTASTIC. The pace FANTASTIC. The plot was so unique and again FAN-FUCKING-TASTIC. The character development FANTASTIC. The secondary characters FANTASTIC. I want more of Chapel and Hyde. The main characters FANTASTIC. Rabbit and Dolly may very well be my favorite dark couple to date. And I LOVED LOVED LOVED the ending.
And with that, I am going to leave my review pretty vague. This is a book that needs to be experienced without too many spoilers. I'll tell you one thing though; this would make one hell of an excellent movie. I'd also recommend you heed the warning given because this isn't one for the faint of heart. Yours truly is giving it all the thumbs, fingers, and toes I have.
November 10, 2018
5 Down the rabbit hole Stars
Spoilers all up in this bitch
Well that was different. I have been in a really bad book funk for the last few months. I just haven't been real excited to read anything. I have tried numerous rereads, and though I enjoyed my rereads they didn't pull me out of my funk. Now I'm at the point were I am reading things I don't read a lot of to change it up a bit and hope that it pulls me from this book funk from hell. Dark romances are reads I do every now and then but they are not my favorite romance genre. When I heard about Sick Fux well before it came out, I'm going to be honest I had no desire to read it. Then all the reviews started coming out. I read some spoiler-ish ones and was like yup I'm just gonna skip this one. After having some friends ask me to read this book so they could see my thoughts on it, I thought well fuck it! Nothing else sounds good and here I am. Sick Fux is one of the darkest reads I have read, now the reason I say that is because it deals with children being drugged and raped repeatedly, and it's pretty detailed. I will say that since I read spoiler reviews of this book a head of time and was full warned of the contents of the book I handled it better than if I would have if I walked into this read blind. It was still super hard to stomach but being warned helped. Now all that being said this was one twisted ass read. It got my attention and never let it go. Which was nice since nothing has held my attention lately.
“Heathan James, you have eaten my heart and drunk my soul. I am yours. I have been consumed by you . . . happily.�-Dolly
“She was my living, breathing doll. She wore the face of the purest angel, masking such evil living within. My soul’s perfectly fucked-up counterpart� -Heathan
This book started with Ellis Earnshaw and Heathan James meeting as small children. Heathan was a dark child, intrigued by death and blood. Given away by his mother who was scared of him he went to live with his father. His father didn't want him either and let him know that. Heathan didn't like people and couldn't stand to be touched. Ellis was a sweet bubbly child that lived in her own imaginary wonderland, like her favorite book Alice in wonderland. Her mother was dead and she lived with her dad and his business associates who she called her uncles. Heathan called Ellis Dolly because she dressed up like Alice in wonderland and she called him her white Rabbit. They became each other's world. Best friends that lived in Dolly's wonderland. A couple years past and Ellis's dad and "uncles" started drugging and raping Heathan. He put up with it so he could stay with his dolly. That was until he seen his sweet Dolly drugged, crying with blood running down her Alice and wonderland thigh highs with Uncle John holding her. He knew what they did to his sweet Dolly and he killed one of them trying to protect her. Ellis's dad sent Heathan away, to a off the radar prison funded by the rich to hold the people that cross them. 11 years later, Heathan broke out of prison with the help of his cell mates Chapel and Henry/Hyde. The white Rabbit came back to save his Dolly. He didn't know what shape she would be in, but he planned of healing her and killing all the men that hurt them. Dolly and Rabbit killing side by side getting rid of the bad guys in wonderland.
“I thought of all the kills I’d made. Of her blood that I had consumed, and all the times we had fucked . . . then the one time we had made love. Nothing compared� -Heathan
“You were born to stand by my side in Wonderland.� “Born to kill, by my side.� -Heathan
Dolly was totally bat shit crazy. She suffered so much in the 11 years Rabbit has been gone that she became a shell of a person. Not talking, moving or really living, just locked in her mind. She was so damaged that when Heathan finally broke through her catatonic state she believed her name was really Dolly and that Heathan was really the white Rabbit. She thought of Ellis as a friend of hers that lived there too. Almost like split personalities. The only way she could function at all was in her make believe wonderland. Though now she was no longer sweet and innocent. Dolly had a dark killer side. Heathan was sane but pretty much evil. He had always had a dark side and a need to watch things die, but after years of rape and being locked in a prison with two crazy ass serial killers he was all dark now. The only one that he cared about was his Dolly. Dolly was his obsession and other than his friendships with Chapel and Henry/Hyde she was the only one he had in his life. Even though Heathan was evil that loved to kill I still loved him. The way he loved his Dolly and went to elaborate measures to make Dolly feel safe and like she was really Alice in wonderland was totally swoon worthly in a crazy dark sort of way. I liked Dolly but at times she came off a little too child like and it was harder to connect to her. I did however love her darkside.
“My little Dolly, once broken, healed by a pretty dress and a crown. Standing before her king like the royalty she was. My queen of the dark.�-Heathan
“Heathan James was never the light in my life, but instead a heavy eclipse, blotting out the sun and anything bright, bringing with him endless, eternal night and murderous tar-black blood pumping through my veins. - Ellis
Heathan and Dolly together were dark and really sick fucks but their love worked. I also really enjoyed the way they rode around killing the guys that raped them. If you have read other reviews by me you would know I can be a bit blood thirsty when I read books where the bad guys do such horrible things. I always want to see them get their comeuppance and boy did they get it in this book. So even though the killing in this book was graphic and gory I was cool with it. Also I really liked Chapel in this book. I know he was a serial killer and all but he intrigued me. Now I want to know his back story. Overall this book kept me on edge, had me biting my nails and thinking what the Fuck did I just read. I love Tillie Cole and I think she is a great writer. I am glad I gave this book a change. Hopefully it will pull me out of my book funk!
"Heathan James was the genesis of my soul’s reawakening…a soul not meant for peace, but one handcrafted for death and murder and blood and bones…Soulmates forged in fire, under the watchful gaze of Satan’s mocking eyes. Heathan. Ellis. Just a couple of sick fux."
Spoilers all up in this bitch
Well that was different. I have been in a really bad book funk for the last few months. I just haven't been real excited to read anything. I have tried numerous rereads, and though I enjoyed my rereads they didn't pull me out of my funk. Now I'm at the point were I am reading things I don't read a lot of to change it up a bit and hope that it pulls me from this book funk from hell. Dark romances are reads I do every now and then but they are not my favorite romance genre. When I heard about Sick Fux well before it came out, I'm going to be honest I had no desire to read it. Then all the reviews started coming out. I read some spoiler-ish ones and was like yup I'm just gonna skip this one. After having some friends ask me to read this book so they could see my thoughts on it, I thought well fuck it! Nothing else sounds good and here I am. Sick Fux is one of the darkest reads I have read, now the reason I say that is because it deals with children being drugged and raped repeatedly, and it's pretty detailed. I will say that since I read spoiler reviews of this book a head of time and was full warned of the contents of the book I handled it better than if I would have if I walked into this read blind. It was still super hard to stomach but being warned helped. Now all that being said this was one twisted ass read. It got my attention and never let it go. Which was nice since nothing has held my attention lately.
“Heathan James, you have eaten my heart and drunk my soul. I am yours. I have been consumed by you . . . happily.�-Dolly
“She was my living, breathing doll. She wore the face of the purest angel, masking such evil living within. My soul’s perfectly fucked-up counterpart� -Heathan
This book started with Ellis Earnshaw and Heathan James meeting as small children. Heathan was a dark child, intrigued by death and blood. Given away by his mother who was scared of him he went to live with his father. His father didn't want him either and let him know that. Heathan didn't like people and couldn't stand to be touched. Ellis was a sweet bubbly child that lived in her own imaginary wonderland, like her favorite book Alice in wonderland. Her mother was dead and she lived with her dad and his business associates who she called her uncles. Heathan called Ellis Dolly because she dressed up like Alice in wonderland and she called him her white Rabbit. They became each other's world. Best friends that lived in Dolly's wonderland. A couple years past and Ellis's dad and "uncles" started drugging and raping Heathan. He put up with it so he could stay with his dolly. That was until he seen his sweet Dolly drugged, crying with blood running down her Alice and wonderland thigh highs with Uncle John holding her. He knew what they did to his sweet Dolly and he killed one of them trying to protect her. Ellis's dad sent Heathan away, to a off the radar prison funded by the rich to hold the people that cross them. 11 years later, Heathan broke out of prison with the help of his cell mates Chapel and Henry/Hyde. The white Rabbit came back to save his Dolly. He didn't know what shape she would be in, but he planned of healing her and killing all the men that hurt them. Dolly and Rabbit killing side by side getting rid of the bad guys in wonderland.
“I thought of all the kills I’d made. Of her blood that I had consumed, and all the times we had fucked . . . then the one time we had made love. Nothing compared� -Heathan
“You were born to stand by my side in Wonderland.� “Born to kill, by my side.� -Heathan
Dolly was totally bat shit crazy. She suffered so much in the 11 years Rabbit has been gone that she became a shell of a person. Not talking, moving or really living, just locked in her mind. She was so damaged that when Heathan finally broke through her catatonic state she believed her name was really Dolly and that Heathan was really the white Rabbit. She thought of Ellis as a friend of hers that lived there too. Almost like split personalities. The only way she could function at all was in her make believe wonderland. Though now she was no longer sweet and innocent. Dolly had a dark killer side. Heathan was sane but pretty much evil. He had always had a dark side and a need to watch things die, but after years of rape and being locked in a prison with two crazy ass serial killers he was all dark now. The only one that he cared about was his Dolly. Dolly was his obsession and other than his friendships with Chapel and Henry/Hyde she was the only one he had in his life. Even though Heathan was evil that loved to kill I still loved him. The way he loved his Dolly and went to elaborate measures to make Dolly feel safe and like she was really Alice in wonderland was totally swoon worthly in a crazy dark sort of way. I liked Dolly but at times she came off a little too child like and it was harder to connect to her. I did however love her darkside.
“My little Dolly, once broken, healed by a pretty dress and a crown. Standing before her king like the royalty she was. My queen of the dark.�-Heathan
“Heathan James was never the light in my life, but instead a heavy eclipse, blotting out the sun and anything bright, bringing with him endless, eternal night and murderous tar-black blood pumping through my veins. - Ellis
Heathan and Dolly together were dark and really sick fucks but their love worked. I also really enjoyed the way they rode around killing the guys that raped them. If you have read other reviews by me you would know I can be a bit blood thirsty when I read books where the bad guys do such horrible things. I always want to see them get their comeuppance and boy did they get it in this book. So even though the killing in this book was graphic and gory I was cool with it. Also I really liked Chapel in this book. I know he was a serial killer and all but he intrigued me. Now I want to know his back story. Overall this book kept me on edge, had me biting my nails and thinking what the Fuck did I just read. I love Tillie Cole and I think she is a great writer. I am glad I gave this book a change. Hopefully it will pull me out of my book funk!
"Heathan James was the genesis of my soul’s reawakening…a soul not meant for peace, but one handcrafted for death and murder and blood and bones…Soulmates forged in fire, under the watchful gaze of Satan’s mocking eyes. Heathan. Ellis. Just a couple of sick fux."
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October 13, 2017
OOH-EMM-GEH! It is October 9th!
Stand-alone.
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Blurb:
When Ellis Earnshaw and Heathan James met as children, they couldn’t have been more different. Ellis was loud and beautiful � all blond hair, bright laughs and smiles. Heathan was dark and brooding, and obsessed with watching things die.
The pair forged an unlikely friendship, unique and strange. Until they were ripped apart by the sick cruelty of others, separated for years, both locked in a perpetual hell.
Eleven years later, Heathan is back for his girl. Back from a place from which he thought there was no return. Back to seek revenge on those who wronged them.
Time has made Heathan’s soul darker, polluted with hatred and the thirst for blood.
Time has made Ellis a shell of her former self, a little girl lost in the vastness of her pain.
As Heathan pulls Ellis out of her mental prison, reviving the essence of who she once was, down the rabbit hole they will go.
With malice in their hearts and vengeance in their veins, they will seek out the ones who hurt and destroyed them.
One at a time.
Each one more deadly than the last.
Tick Tock.
October 7, 2017
SICK FUX Is a dark contemporary romance, standalone novel by Tillie Cole
5 Dolly and Rabbit Stars This review is going to be vague, I'm not even going to write this review up like I normally would, to best enjoy this crazy assed book go in blind, just be aware that nothing you do will prepare you for this book NOTHING, it may even be the most fucked up book you're going to come across, it may not be the darkest you've read BUT it may be the most sickest weird shit you've encountered.
The first time Ellis met Heathen he was pulling the wings off a butterfly, the next time he was scorching ants with a magnifying glass, watching in glee as one by one they died. Even then he had tendencies to kill things.
An unlikely friendship ensues over tea parties just like in Ellis's favourite book 'Alice in Wonderland.'
There was no rabbit without Dolly. There was no Dolly without Rabbit
When Heathen's father dies he's entrusted in Ellis's fathers care who is appointed his legal guardian, he witnesses things in the house that don't make sense to him, things he can't quite comprehend start happening until he lashes out one night and is vanquished to a place much darker than where he'd been, leaving his Ellis behind to fend for herself.
Years go by and he's back to rescue his Ellis, but at what state will he find her in? Is he too late?
TICK TOCK, TICK TOCK
MY THOUGHTS: Tillie has gone where many other authors are too scared to step, this was one fucked up cray cray ride, I don't think I've been on a ride like it before, I feel like I've been pulled through a hedge backwards, and dropped into the Twilight Zone, I even wondered if my drink had been spiked because I felt like I was tripping!!
This book was insane, dark, gritty, sick, weirdly good, fucked up, dirty, raw, your mind will be spinning, it’s different, it’s a wonderful adults twisted up regurgitated take on ‘Alice of Wonderland�
After reading this you’ll be stunned, gobsmacked, you'll sit there wondering what the fuck you’d just read, but like a sick fux you would’ve loved everything thing about it just like me or you'll be sitting there with a glazed look on your face wondering if it's come time for therapy, did I say this book was fucked up?? Such a unique out there read!!
* The first teaser is off the authors facebook page and not made by me *
January 9, 2021
4 Stars!
... Rabbit and Dolly's bloody adventure.
I'm pretty sure y'all wondering why I liked this book. Simple. Let me tell you why.
Note: This is a very dark romance.
This was one of the darkest romance book I've ever read. It was hideous, vile, and very disturbing. A book that I think only those who has the toughest mind could read. I swear, I almost dnf this because I couldn't handle the things Ellis and Heathan went through. It was so sad to think that probably there are people in this world that can do such acts, freely.
In all honesty, I loved the concept of the story. Two kids, been victims of a horrendous crime, one goal. To seek vengeance. Blessed my soul. But, I so much liked it when they made fun and killed all those men without mercy. I fucking loved it. I'm a bloody sicko!
Ellis and Heathan have been friends since they were kids. Ellis loved to role-play Alice in the Wonderland. She always believed that there was a Wonderland waiting for her. She first met Heathan ripping wings of a butterfly, killing it slowly. Heathan was quiet, terrifying, and dismissive. He did not allow anyone to touch him till Ellis. She brought him back to life, somehow. Heathan named Ellis "Dolly" and Ellis named him "Rabbit", inspired by Alice in the Wonderland, of course. After 3 years, they were set apart by circumstance. Stole their lights. And left them slaves of cruelty and iniquity.
Sanity wasn't in their vocabulary. They were sick fucks, sicker than what I imagined. They were devils incarnated. The product of eleven years of darkness and hell.
Love grows even in the darkest times. I loved that Dolly and Rabbit loved each other no matter what. Heaven or hell, sick or not. They deserve happy ever after. Just like in a fairytale. Like Alice in the Wonderland.
Overall, I liked the book. There were some lame parts, but I wholly enjoyed it. I do NOT recommend it to everyone though.
Trigger Warnings: Vivid depiction of sexual assault and murder. Not intended for ages 18 below.
... Rabbit and Dolly's bloody adventure.
I'm pretty sure y'all wondering why I liked this book. Simple. Let me tell you why.
Note: This is a very dark romance.
This was one of the darkest romance book I've ever read. It was hideous, vile, and very disturbing. A book that I think only those who has the toughest mind could read. I swear, I almost dnf this because I couldn't handle the things Ellis and Heathan went through. It was so sad to think that probably there are people in this world that can do such acts, freely.
In all honesty, I loved the concept of the story. Two kids, been victims of a horrendous crime, one goal. To seek vengeance. Blessed my soul. But, I so much liked it when they made fun and killed all those men without mercy. I fucking loved it. I'm a bloody sicko!
"I observed the people watching her. Looking at her as if she was mad. She was, of course. But so was I. It was what I loved most about us."
Ellis and Heathan have been friends since they were kids. Ellis loved to role-play Alice in the Wonderland. She always believed that there was a Wonderland waiting for her. She first met Heathan ripping wings of a butterfly, killing it slowly. Heathan was quiet, terrifying, and dismissive. He did not allow anyone to touch him till Ellis. She brought him back to life, somehow. Heathan named Ellis "Dolly" and Ellis named him "Rabbit", inspired by Alice in the Wonderland, of course. After 3 years, they were set apart by circumstance. Stole their lights. And left them slaves of cruelty and iniquity.
Sanity wasn't in their vocabulary. They were sick fucks, sicker than what I imagined. They were devils incarnated. The product of eleven years of darkness and hell.
“You are both victims of circumstance, Rabbit. It does not make you wrong.
Love grows even in the darkest times. I loved that Dolly and Rabbit loved each other no matter what. Heaven or hell, sick or not. They deserve happy ever after. Just like in a fairytale. Like Alice in the Wonderland.
"Love. Not deep enough to describe my feelings for Dolly. But it would have to do. I had no other word as mighty or as strong."
Overall, I liked the book. There were some lame parts, but I wholly enjoyed it. I do NOT recommend it to everyone though.
"Tick tock... tick tock... tick tock."
Trigger Warnings: Vivid depiction of sexual assault and murder. Not intended for ages 18 below.
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January 2, 2020dnf @ 60%
honestly sort of a weird place to DNF this book since the first half is the truly disturbing part. but once i figured out the true direction this book was going i just didn't... care anymore?
this is an incredibly dark romance that dealt with child abuse/sexual assault. the two main characters are help captive by the girl's dad and repeatedly raped as children. in their adulthood they come back together to go on a killing spree.
i understand that these things happen in real life but i personally was not comfortable with the level of graphicness here. i think this book would have been equally haunting had we just been told in passing what had happened. readers don't need to be in the room with characters that are going through this shit.
and had it been just one scene i probably could have overlooked it but we kept getting flashbacks and it felt gratuitous. it's kind of sad because i love a good revenge story and i think the idea of hunting down your attackers is pretty cool. i just think the author was going for too much shock and awe value and it honestly felt pretty insensitive.
also a super weird book coming from an author who usually writes REALLY sickly sweet shit. anyway. wouldn't recommend this.
honestly sort of a weird place to DNF this book since the first half is the truly disturbing part. but once i figured out the true direction this book was going i just didn't... care anymore?
this is an incredibly dark romance that dealt with child abuse/sexual assault. the two main characters are help captive by the girl's dad and repeatedly raped as children. in their adulthood they come back together to go on a killing spree.
i understand that these things happen in real life but i personally was not comfortable with the level of graphicness here. i think this book would have been equally haunting had we just been told in passing what had happened. readers don't need to be in the room with characters that are going through this shit.
and had it been just one scene i probably could have overlooked it but we kept getting flashbacks and it felt gratuitous. it's kind of sad because i love a good revenge story and i think the idea of hunting down your attackers is pretty cool. i just think the author was going for too much shock and awe value and it honestly felt pretty insensitive.
also a super weird book coming from an author who usually writes REALLY sickly sweet shit. anyway. wouldn't recommend this.
December 3, 2020
4.5 (SICK AS F) Stars!!!!
When 7-year-old Ellis met 9-year-old Heathen, he tore off a butterfly wings and then burned ants with a magnifying glass. 💥
Although Ellis is full of color and Heathen is dressed all in black, quiet and does not like touch - a brave friendships develops between them, which includes dancing and tea parties, just like in her favorite book 'Alice's Adventures in Wonderland'- she became his Dolly and he was her Rabbit. 🐇�
When Heathen's father dies, Ellis's father becomes his legal guardian and his life changes forever - until he disappeared and left Ellis behind. years later, Heathen returns for his Dolly and to revenge everyone who hurt them, but will he arrive too late for her? TICK TOCK... ⏰�
📚 “𝐘𝐨� 𝐰𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐛𝐨𝐫𝐧 𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐛𝐲 𝐦𝐲 𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐖𝐨𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐝� 📚
FUCK ME!!!!! This book is a crazy version of Alice's Adventures in Wonderland - but it had a lot from Harley Quinn and the Joker's story - it's fucked up, crazy, dark, sick, dirty... But also strangely intriguing and terribly enjoyable about damaged broken characters with lots of mental traumas... and among all that, a unique love story that made me question my sanity because I loved it so much. 😂
It has shocking descriptions but it was amazingly written! Even when I felt it was all too much, there was no way I would stop, but my morality does not allow me to give this book 5 stars, so I give it 4.5... even though I secretly want to put a crown on Tillie Cole's head, she deserves it!!!
It takes courage to write something like this. 👑😂�
📚 “𝐘𝐨� 𝐚𝐢𝐧’� 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐞𝐥𝐬𝐞. 𝐈 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝𝐧’� 𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐚 𝐟𝐮𝐜𝐤 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐞𝐥𝐬𝐞. 𝐍𝐨𝐭 𝐚 𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐥𝐞 𝐟𝐮𝐜𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐬𝐨𝐮𝐥... 𝐨𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐲𝐨𝐮� 📚
Although it's not an "easy read" (to say the least) I devoure this book - and that says it all! THE RABBIT MADE ME SWOON SO HARD!!! 😂🐇😍
I liked that it had also something realistic: it proves how child abuse can affect a person in the future and how important it is to eradicate such violence. 😭
But... I must admit that I was a little disappointed, I thought it should have ended differently. 😬😬😬
📚 “𝐀 𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐛𝐨𝐰𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐧𝐨 𝐨𝐧𝐞, 𝐞𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐜𝐢𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐭𝐨 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠.� 📚
This book will not suit everyone, pay attention to the triggers because even dark romance lovers have boundaries... and this book HAS NONE!!!
But if you have an open mind and you like dark, crazy, twisted and bloody books - go down the rabbit hole... and good luck!!! ❤🐇⏰
Trigger warning: descriptions of severe violence, pedophilia, gang rape... and blood - LOST AND LOTS AND LOTS OF BLOOD!
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💕 לקריאת הסקירה בעברית, כנסו לבלוג: 💕
October 8, 2017
4.5 STARS
{ARC Generously Provided by Author}
Her bottom lip trembled, fucking eviscerating my heart and draining the blackness from my soul. Light. She had always been the only light that ever got in.
SICK FUX is unlike anything I’ve ever read by the talented Tillie Cole. It’s a twisted and sinister version of the popular children’s fairytale, ”Alice In Wonderland�. The subject matter is dark and the Hero and Heroine are borderline psychotic but I found that it worked for them and the chemistry between them was mesmerizing. What I loved about this couple was that they still held a childlike innocence deep within them and though they each had a powerful bloodlust and left a trail of bodies behind them, believe me, each and every one of their victims deserved their gruesome demise.
Heathen James and Ellis Earnshaw meet when they are just wee children. They are like night and day. Heathen is a quiet and aloof little boy, while Ellis is carefree, vivacious, and full of love and light. From the moment the two meet, they are instantly drawn to each other and become the best of friends. While Heathen seems to have a disturbing fascination with dead things and is averse to being touched, Ellis is obsessed with the fairytale ”Alice in Wonderland� and dresses up like her favorite character every day. She pulls Heathen into her make-believe world filled with tea parties, dancing, and rabbit holes. Heathen and Ellis become “Dolly� and “Rabbit� while being cocooned in their warm and safe fairy tale like existence.
Their beautiful connection turns into the most unimaginable nightmare just a couple of years later when their innocence is forever tainted by the vilest people. Heathen tried to protect his beautiful and innocent Ellis from the ugliness of the world that he was forced to endure at the tender age of twelve. But one night changes their lives forever. Heathen and Ellis are torn apart, both sent to their own personal hells. Heathen ends up in a prison filled with the criminally insane. He will be cellmates with two of the most feared prisoners of all which will turn out to be a blessing. These two men take on the role of big brothers and will help Heathen grow into the powerful man who will come to rescue his sweet Dolly.
Years later when they are in their early twenties, Heathen and Ellis are reunited. He knew what Ellis would have endured all those years that they were apart and so he knew when he found her, she would not be the same sweet and carefree girl who captivated his heart from the moment they met. He was armed with the knowledge and arsenal he would need to pull his Dolly out of the darkness and have her dancing in the light once more. He creates an “Alice in Wonderland� fantasy world and has Dolly escaping through the rabbit hole to emerge from her dark prison created by her frail mind.
Rabbit and Dolly are together once again and feel almost whole, but to heal completely from the atrocities inflicted upon them in the past, certain villains must be dealt with. Each will suffer by the hands of the murderous couple labeled the Sick Fux but in reality, those that they slaughter deserved to own that title.
I found that my heart hurt for Heathen and Ellis. Two innocents who were tormented and forced to endure nightmarish lives. I think that readers will not blame them for their actions or view them as sadistic killers either. While the story is extremely violent and quite steamy, I appreciated that certain delicate subject matter is not described in extreme detail.
Here are my overall ratings on the book:
Hero: 5
Heroine: 4
Plot: 4
Gore: 5
Steam: 5
Chemistry Between Hero & Heroine: 5
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Her bottom lip trembled, fucking eviscerating my heart and draining the blackness from my soul. Light. She had always been the only light that ever got in.
SICK FUX is unlike anything I’ve ever read by the talented Tillie Cole. It’s a twisted and sinister version of the popular children’s fairytale, ”Alice In Wonderland�. The subject matter is dark and the Hero and Heroine are borderline psychotic but I found that it worked for them and the chemistry between them was mesmerizing. What I loved about this couple was that they still held a childlike innocence deep within them and though they each had a powerful bloodlust and left a trail of bodies behind them, believe me, each and every one of their victims deserved their gruesome demise.
Heathen James and Ellis Earnshaw meet when they are just wee children. They are like night and day. Heathen is a quiet and aloof little boy, while Ellis is carefree, vivacious, and full of love and light. From the moment the two meet, they are instantly drawn to each other and become the best of friends. While Heathen seems to have a disturbing fascination with dead things and is averse to being touched, Ellis is obsessed with the fairytale ”Alice in Wonderland� and dresses up like her favorite character every day. She pulls Heathen into her make-believe world filled with tea parties, dancing, and rabbit holes. Heathen and Ellis become “Dolly� and “Rabbit� while being cocooned in their warm and safe fairy tale like existence.
Their beautiful connection turns into the most unimaginable nightmare just a couple of years later when their innocence is forever tainted by the vilest people. Heathen tried to protect his beautiful and innocent Ellis from the ugliness of the world that he was forced to endure at the tender age of twelve. But one night changes their lives forever. Heathen and Ellis are torn apart, both sent to their own personal hells. Heathen ends up in a prison filled with the criminally insane. He will be cellmates with two of the most feared prisoners of all which will turn out to be a blessing. These two men take on the role of big brothers and will help Heathen grow into the powerful man who will come to rescue his sweet Dolly.
Years later when they are in their early twenties, Heathen and Ellis are reunited. He knew what Ellis would have endured all those years that they were apart and so he knew when he found her, she would not be the same sweet and carefree girl who captivated his heart from the moment they met. He was armed with the knowledge and arsenal he would need to pull his Dolly out of the darkness and have her dancing in the light once more. He creates an “Alice in Wonderland� fantasy world and has Dolly escaping through the rabbit hole to emerge from her dark prison created by her frail mind.
Rabbit and Dolly are together once again and feel almost whole, but to heal completely from the atrocities inflicted upon them in the past, certain villains must be dealt with. Each will suffer by the hands of the murderous couple labeled the Sick Fux but in reality, those that they slaughter deserved to own that title.
I found that my heart hurt for Heathen and Ellis. Two innocents who were tormented and forced to endure nightmarish lives. I think that readers will not blame them for their actions or view them as sadistic killers either. While the story is extremely violent and quite steamy, I appreciated that certain delicate subject matter is not described in extreme detail.
Here are my overall ratings on the book:
Hero: 5
Heroine: 4
Plot: 4
Gore: 5
Steam: 5
Chemistry Between Hero & Heroine: 5
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January 22, 2021
4 stars from the deepest, darkest part of my heart ★★★★
After horrifying events separate them, they reunite years later to rain down vengeance on those who crushed their lives for their own twisted pleasure.
Me and my little Dolly. Blasts from their pasts they would never see coming.
Their worst nightmares made flesh.
They deserved all that our fucked-up minds could conjure up. And they would get it. They would incur the full force of our revenge, and they wouldn’t see us coming.
Sick Fux is like a darker retelling of Alice In Wonderland, and the MCs can be best described as ‘Joker and Harley Quinn on a revenge-spree�.
“I love you, Rabbit.� A smile ghosted on her lips. “Maybe even more than Earl Grey tea.�
My heart fucking cracked. “I love you too.� My voice was rough, resonating through my insides. Edging closer, I kissed the back of her hand. “But there is nothing to compare it to, because I have never loved anything else. It has always been you. Only ever you.�
TW: Pedophilia, rape, blood, violence. The first half of this book literally gave me shivers, so please heed the warnings.
Heathan James was the genesis of my soul’s reawakening . . . a soul not meant for peace, but one handcrafted for death and murder and blood and bones . . .Ellis (Dolly) and Heathen (Rabbit) are two kids who share a very peculiar, but strong friendship. However, they have no clue about the house of horrors they reside in � about the monsters lurking in plain sight, just waiting to tear their childhood to shreds.
Soulmates forged in fire, under the watchful gaze of Satan’s mocking eyes.
Heathan.
Ellis.
Just a couple of sick fux . . .
After horrifying events separate them, they reunite years later to rain down vengeance on those who crushed their lives for their own twisted pleasure.
Me and my little Dolly. Blasts from their pasts they would never see coming.
Their worst nightmares made flesh.
They deserved all that our fucked-up minds could conjure up. And they would get it. They would incur the full force of our revenge, and they wouldn’t see us coming.
Sick Fux is like a darker retelling of Alice In Wonderland, and the MCs can be best described as ‘Joker and Harley Quinn on a revenge-spree�.
“I love you, Rabbit.� A smile ghosted on her lips. “Maybe even more than Earl Grey tea.�
My heart fucking cracked. “I love you too.� My voice was rough, resonating through my insides. Edging closer, I kissed the back of her hand. “But there is nothing to compare it to, because I have never loved anything else. It has always been you. Only ever you.�
TW: Pedophilia, rape, blood, violence. The first half of this book literally gave me shivers, so please heed the warnings.
September 17, 2018
This is horrible-horrible, nasty-nasty. I’m seriously sorry I even cracked it open (curiousity is my resident vice!). Thank goodness I had enough braincells to shut it back closed, glue it together and chuck it out my window (I might be exaggerating slightly at this point, though the temptation to do just this was strong with me!)
DNF graveyard...
DNF graveyard...
June 5, 2021
4.5 Stars
Nature vs Nurture? That’s the question asked in regards to serial killers. We’re they born that way? Or did they become that way due to abuse/neglect/exploitation? The question is always the same but the answer never is, because every case is different.
In the case of Heathen or more aptly, Rabbit; he was born with a sadistic, perhaps psychotic desires. But what really nurtured those desires into full blown needs, we’re the men who not only abused him but more importantly abused her, the only person he would ever care about, Dolly.
When he finally came for her, it wasn’t just heartbreaking. It was fucking devastating!
This one hits my trigger square in the face. The only thing that got me through it was ... Revenge ... I’m not sure when it became so thoroughly imbedded in my veins. I’ve been harshly wronged once in my life but this deep seeded hunger for revenge was there well before that. Since before I can remember. And from the get go starting with Mrs. Jenkins, this story feeds that hunger so incredibly well.
“Every one of you will pay in the most painful way possible. To me, and to my Dolly, my Wonderland darlin’�... and there’ll be your blood and all the others� blood pouring in rivers of penance, slipping through the cracks in houses� wooden floors all over my Lone Star State.�
It’s magical how in the midst of all the chaos and pain he manages to bring wonder back to light her way. It proves no matter how awful things will surely become, everything will be alright if they have each other.
“I could never forget those eyes.� I smiled and whispered, “My Rabbit.� I wasn’t sure if he heard or if the wind had carried my whisper away to the sky.�
That was one wild and crazy ride.
“I knew, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that if she died, I would surely follow.
There was no Rabbit without Dolly.
There was no Dolly without Rabbit.�
Nature vs Nurture? That’s the question asked in regards to serial killers. We’re they born that way? Or did they become that way due to abuse/neglect/exploitation? The question is always the same but the answer never is, because every case is different.
In the case of Heathen or more aptly, Rabbit; he was born with a sadistic, perhaps psychotic desires. But what really nurtured those desires into full blown needs, we’re the men who not only abused him but more importantly abused her, the only person he would ever care about, Dolly.
When he finally came for her, it wasn’t just heartbreaking. It was fucking devastating!
This one hits my trigger square in the face. The only thing that got me through it was ... Revenge ... I’m not sure when it became so thoroughly imbedded in my veins. I’ve been harshly wronged once in my life but this deep seeded hunger for revenge was there well before that. Since before I can remember. And from the get go starting with Mrs. Jenkins, this story feeds that hunger so incredibly well.
“Every one of you will pay in the most painful way possible. To me, and to my Dolly, my Wonderland darlin’�... and there’ll be your blood and all the others� blood pouring in rivers of penance, slipping through the cracks in houses� wooden floors all over my Lone Star State.�
It’s magical how in the midst of all the chaos and pain he manages to bring wonder back to light her way. It proves no matter how awful things will surely become, everything will be alright if they have each other.
“I could never forget those eyes.� I smiled and whispered, “My Rabbit.� I wasn’t sure if he heard or if the wind had carried my whisper away to the sky.�
That was one wild and crazy ride.
“I knew, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that if she died, I would surely follow.
There was no Rabbit without Dolly.
There was no Dolly without Rabbit.�
October 10, 2017
4 STARS
Tillie Cole takes a walk on the dark side with a tale of two young children’s abusive pasts that gives way into a killing spry as they are adults. Ellis Earnshaw a homeschooled child meets Heathan James and through her love for the tale of Alice in Wonderland he becomes her white rabbit.
"You and me, Rabbit. We will have the greatest adventure of all.�
I very much enjoyed all the connections to my beloved children’s story and how Heathan uses it to bring Ellis back from her broken mental state.
The killing spry was just on the okay side for me and I would have liked something more to hold onto in the middle of the book. However, I sure did like how the Mad Hatter came into play. Overall, this was a solid dark read for me but readers should be warned as there are childhood rape scenes which are very graphic. The author did introduce other characters who helped Heathen and their journey of revenge could be written if the author is so inspired.
"Tick, tock, tick tock. One By One. Down we go. Time for tea.�
Tillie Cole takes a walk on the dark side with a tale of two young children’s abusive pasts that gives way into a killing spry as they are adults. Ellis Earnshaw a homeschooled child meets Heathan James and through her love for the tale of Alice in Wonderland he becomes her white rabbit.
"You and me, Rabbit. We will have the greatest adventure of all.�
I very much enjoyed all the connections to my beloved children’s story and how Heathan uses it to bring Ellis back from her broken mental state.
The killing spry was just on the okay side for me and I would have liked something more to hold onto in the middle of the book. However, I sure did like how the Mad Hatter came into play. Overall, this was a solid dark read for me but readers should be warned as there are childhood rape scenes which are very graphic. The author did introduce other characters who helped Heathen and their journey of revenge could be written if the author is so inspired.
"Tick, tock, tick tock. One By One. Down we go. Time for tea.�
May 29, 2022
�4.5�
Sick Fux is a trip down the rabbit hole with dark romance, action, suspense, and complex characters living in a complex world. Warning this book is not for the faint at heart as the circumstances in which these characters live and breathe is violent and grotesque.
Overall, Sick Fux is an unforgettable read with action and dark romance. I highly recommend this read to anyone who enjoys a ride on the twisted and dark side. Tillie Cole has delivered quite a ride down the rabbit hole. Heathen and Ellis are the type of characters who live on in your mind forever. Tillie Cole is one of my go to authors as her diversity in storytelling never fails to amaze me.
*This is a BR with my girls CC and WAR!
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"Tick tock."
Sick Fux is a trip down the rabbit hole with dark romance, action, suspense, and complex characters living in a complex world. Warning this book is not for the faint at heart as the circumstances in which these characters live and breathe is violent and grotesque.
"I was ready. Ready to come back for my girl. Ready to lead her down the rabbit hole."Ellis Earnshaw and Heathan James met as young children. Happily obsessed with one another, they live isolated in their own little world. They were young children who formed a beautiful friendship. As circumstances changed for Heathen, innocence was lost and the brutal truth of the world in which they live is revealed. Heathen is willing to endure anything in order to keep Ellis safe. But as every moment passes the danger ensues and Ellis also becomes a victim to the horrors of their home. Heathen and Ellis will battle to the death in order to gain revenge on the people that have shattered their souls.
"I thought of the journey ahead. Thought of the blood we would shed, the hearts we would stop and the lives we would steal."Told in dual POV, Sick Fux is a shocking read full of unthinkable moments leading up to a blood bath. Heathen and Ellis are both complex and due to the abuse they have endured they both exist in a blended world of reality and their reality together. Heathen exists solely to protect and love Ellis. Ellis is so damaged that Heathen fights every moment to deliver her to a safe place both physically and emotionally. The dynamics between the two are intense and twisted and yet, together they make sense. Although they are ruthless on their quest for revenge, you cannot help but root for them every step of the way. The action is non stop and although the feelings they share are dark and twisted, I found their connection to be full of tenderness and deep love. In addition to the blood, action, and sick circumstances, the passion between Ellis and Heathen is intense and deeply felt as the plot unfolds.
Overall, Sick Fux is an unforgettable read with action and dark romance. I highly recommend this read to anyone who enjoys a ride on the twisted and dark side. Tillie Cole has delivered quite a ride down the rabbit hole. Heathen and Ellis are the type of characters who live on in your mind forever. Tillie Cole is one of my go to authors as her diversity in storytelling never fails to amaze me.
*This is a BR with my girls CC and WAR!
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October 19, 2017
2 Stars
DNF @ 50%
I’d read some of Ms. Cole’s work and loved them but they were Contemporary/Romance. This one was my first Dark read by her and I didn’t like it. I really tried and struggled so hard to finish it but couldn’t. I couldn’t feel the connection between MCs. I was so unattached to this story. It was just my opinion and you can pay not attention to it and read it, hope you enjoy it!
DNF @ 50%
I’d read some of Ms. Cole’s work and loved them but they were Contemporary/Romance. This one was my first Dark read by her and I didn’t like it. I really tried and struggled so hard to finish it but couldn’t. I couldn’t feel the connection between MCs. I was so unattached to this story. It was just my opinion and you can pay not attention to it and read it, hope you enjoy it!
January 12, 2022
4 Malice in his heart and darkness in his veins STARS
Sick Fux es una historia original, exquisitamente escrita, con una narrativa rápida que no se detiene en ningún momento, que nos permite sentir cada detalle de las tragedias que retrata.
Y No me gusto .
Se los explicaria a mas detalle, pero ya no quiero pensar en esta historia, me duele mi cocoro solo de recordarla.
Si piensan leerlo, mi consejo es, no lo hagan si son sensibles a leer historias violentas y que conllevan un tema tan fuerte como lo es
Yo despues de leer este libro:
Y pensar que una historia tan obscura, Tillie la escribió durante su embarazo, sin duda esas hormonas sacan lo peor de nosotras. #True story
"You were born to stand by my side in Wonderland. Born to kill by my side."
Sick Fux es una historia original, exquisitamente escrita, con una narrativa rápida que no se detiene en ningún momento, que nos permite sentir cada detalle de las tragedias que retrata.
Y No me gusto .
Se los explicaria a mas detalle, pero ya no quiero pensar en esta historia, me duele mi cocoro solo de recordarla.
Si piensan leerlo, mi consejo es, no lo hagan si son sensibles a leer historias violentas y que conllevan un tema tan fuerte como lo es
Yo despues de leer este libro:
Y pensar que una historia tan obscura, Tillie la escribió durante su embarazo, sin duda esas hormonas sacan lo peor de nosotras. #True story
October 14, 2017
Genre: Romance (Dark)
Theme: Revenge
POVs: Multiple, 1st person
Triggers? Yes.
Two kids endure a horrific childhood. The boy physically escapes his nightmare when he becomes an adult and frees the girl from her hellish existence. This story's about alter egos and revenge with an abundance of Alice in Wonderland references.
Loved
Unlike other books that are labeled as "dark," this story actually delivered marvelously in the dark arena!
Not so much
While I liked the AIW influences, some terms became repetitive before the story wrapped up. It also seemed liked this story was written mostly for the shock value and felt too contrived at times. It was almost as if the author had a psychopathy checklist of well-known qualities and made sure to stamp those exact traits onto the characters so there weren't any surprise elements to be found. The beginning of the book unfolded with the main characters meeting one another, however, they seemed to be the most mature and intuitive seven and nine year-old kids on this planet. They seemed wise beyond their years and didn't seem all that realistic to me, but their history set the tone for how the rest of this book would materialize.
� Most revealing lines spoken by the King of Hearts?
This story was captivating and well-paced, but with a whimsical tone in some scenes. It's perfect for the reader who appreciates VERY theatrical characters. It was a bit reminiscent of in that there were fitting reasons behind all of the vengeful acts and there was a coordinated countdown to exact revenge on a certain group of closely entangled men.
� I love this author's work, but this book was missing something for me. Or maybe there was just too much of a particular something in it for me. Despite all of that, this was a very entertaining read.
Theme: Revenge
POVs: Multiple, 1st person
Triggers? Yes.
Two kids endure a horrific childhood. The boy physically escapes his nightmare when he becomes an adult and frees the girl from her hellish existence. This story's about alter egos and revenge with an abundance of Alice in Wonderland references.
Loved
Unlike other books that are labeled as "dark," this story actually delivered marvelously in the dark arena!
Not so much
While I liked the AIW influences, some terms became repetitive before the story wrapped up. It also seemed liked this story was written mostly for the shock value and felt too contrived at times. It was almost as if the author had a psychopathy checklist of well-known qualities and made sure to stamp those exact traits onto the characters so there weren't any surprise elements to be found. The beginning of the book unfolded with the main characters meeting one another, however, they seemed to be the most mature and intuitive seven and nine year-old kids on this planet. They seemed wise beyond their years and didn't seem all that realistic to me, but their history set the tone for how the rest of this book would materialize.
� Most revealing lines spoken by the King of Hearts?
This story was captivating and well-paced, but with a whimsical tone in some scenes. It's perfect for the reader who appreciates VERY theatrical characters. It was a bit reminiscent of in that there were fitting reasons behind all of the vengeful acts and there was a coordinated countdown to exact revenge on a certain group of closely entangled men.
� I love this author's work, but this book was missing something for me. Or maybe there was just too much of a particular something in it for me. Despite all of that, this was a very entertaining read.
August 12, 2024
First thought: wow I REALLY loved the ending to this book
Second thought: yes, this is in fact the darkest, most fucked up sick book I’ve ever read 😂😂
The ONLY reason it’s not a 5 star read is because there’s one small detail that gave me the ick throughout but other than that, I loved this read.
I was terrified to read this, knowing a LITTLE what it was about and that it’s banned and out of print. But, a friend encouraged me to give it a go and I’m so glad I did.
Overall, would recommend this for my fucked up dark romance friends 😂 you know who you are
Second thought: yes, this is in fact the darkest, most fucked up sick book I’ve ever read 😂😂
The ONLY reason it’s not a 5 star read is because there’s one small detail that gave me the ick throughout but other than that, I loved this read.
I was terrified to read this, knowing a LITTLE what it was about and that it’s banned and out of print. But, a friend encouraged me to give it a go and I’m so glad I did.
Overall, would recommend this for my fucked up dark romance friends 😂 you know who you are
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October 26, 2017No. Words. NONE! It took me a couple days to read this because it was fucking insane. But I knew going in that it was going to be cray. I don't even know how to gather my thoughts after that. I have to say, if you're a sensitive reader this is absolutely NOT your book. But if you like dark and you have a high tolerance for fuckedupness and you're not someone who is easily triggered, you might find this utterly enthralling. I was wide eyed reading it. Tillie Cole took an Alice in Wonderland (ish) inspired "real world" story (does that even make sense? Hahahaha), tossed in two characters who reminded me a little of the Joker and Harley Quinn (but maybe even better than them), and gave me a storyline that I have NEVER read before. This is a crazy book. Disturbing. It sort of has the same feels as The Bad Ones by Stylo Fantome. Anyway... I'm just speechless. No words. And I don’t know how I feel about it.
May 30, 2020
This was one of the darkest books I've read and just not for me.
Going into this one, I was actually really excited. I love Tillie Cole and I love a good dark romance, but I was not prepared for how dark this one would be.
The dark nature of this book has to do with both of our main characters being repeatedly raped and abused by adult men. These characters become so traumatized by the experience that they create separate identities for themselves from Alice and Wonderland. The premise of the book is them exacting revenge as adults on the men who violated them as children. This, to me, is a warning everyone should know going into this book and I do not see it as a spoiler.
The persona of both of these characters was very reminiscent of Harleigh Quinn and the Joker, so I had a really hard time connecting with them. They are very over the top and crazy and found joy in killing and blood. The death scenes in this book were very graphic and drawn out and like a game to Rabbit and Dolly. Because I couldn't connect with the characters, I didn't really care about the romance either. I almost DNFd this book about halfway through because of the constant flashbacks to when Dolly and Rabbit were raped as children. We got those scenes the first 50 pages of this book, so I did not need to continuously see this abuse on the page for the rest of the book.
Looking at reviews, though, I decided to finish it and by the end, Dolly and Rabbit's journey for revenge just felt redundant. I had no real connection to this book because of the dark content and did not enjoy reading it as much as I thought I would.
Going into this one, I was actually really excited. I love Tillie Cole and I love a good dark romance, but I was not prepared for how dark this one would be.
The dark nature of this book has to do with both of our main characters being repeatedly raped and abused by adult men. These characters become so traumatized by the experience that they create separate identities for themselves from Alice and Wonderland. The premise of the book is them exacting revenge as adults on the men who violated them as children. This, to me, is a warning everyone should know going into this book and I do not see it as a spoiler.
The persona of both of these characters was very reminiscent of Harleigh Quinn and the Joker, so I had a really hard time connecting with them. They are very over the top and crazy and found joy in killing and blood. The death scenes in this book were very graphic and drawn out and like a game to Rabbit and Dolly. Because I couldn't connect with the characters, I didn't really care about the romance either. I almost DNFd this book about halfway through because of the constant flashbacks to when Dolly and Rabbit were raped as children. We got those scenes the first 50 pages of this book, so I did not need to continuously see this abuse on the page for the rest of the book.
Looking at reviews, though, I decided to finish it and by the end, Dolly and Rabbit's journey for revenge just felt redundant. I had no real connection to this book because of the dark content and did not enjoy reading it as much as I thought I would.
July 25, 2020
I first read Six Fux two years ago. I feel in love with this very dark book. I was fortunate enough to be at one of Stephen Kings talks where he said,� Why wouldn't you read your favorite book more than once, You will get a different perspective� he was right, so I re-read Sick Fux, where most people wouldn’t even if they love it. So glad I did. I missed a few details from my first time and whole new respect for their vengeance,
Let’s start with how dark this book is. There is a warning, and I suggested you read it. If you know me, you know, not much bothers me. There are parts of this book that do bother me. Child abuse and pedophilia, To name a few. Sick Fux is not for the faint of heart.
Sick Fux is a dark, twisted tale of Alice in Wonderland. Ellis, aka Dolly. Who is obsessed at the young age of the fairy tale. Dolly instantly connects with Heathan, aka Rabbit. When no one else would. My heart went out to both of them on what they endured after an event where they were separated for 11 years. Rabbit goes back to get his Dolly back and is not sure what to expect—at the same time, vowing to punish the people who abused them both.
Rabbit and Dolly both have mental and physical scars, fit well with each other, and form an unbreakable bond. I couldn't help fall in Love with Rabbit. As much as he appears always to have darkness in him, Dolly is his light. Loved everything he did for her, Even at his most vulnerable times.
The first half of the book was the hardest for me. (Even the second time around ) After Rabbit and Dolly reconnect, get ready for the crazy train, hold on tight not to fall down the rabbit hole. I was seriously hooked. In my opinion, this book is top-notch, The evil guys, the bad guys, the anti-heroes, dark romance, writing, and the plot.
November 1, 2017
Genre: Dark Erotic Suspense
Type: Standalone
POV: Multiple
Rating:
Ellis (Dolly) Earnshaw grew up with limited friends and limited experience. As the daughter of a busy businessman, her life was contained to her estate. But things were about to change when she befriended a new boy in town.
Heathan (Rabbit) James was not like any other boy. Even at a very young age, he was more fascinated with death than the living. When an unlikely friendship formed between him an Ellis, neither of them thought it would change the course of their lives.
The title of this book alone was enough to get my attention. After reading this, I can definitely say the characters surely lived up to the title lol!
Usually it's very hard for me to like characters as a couple especially when it comes to dark books. I tend to prefer the heroes to be on their own. This book is a rare exception. I think Rabbit and Dolly were made for each other. I want to be their best friend haha!
I love the storyline. From the beginning, it captured my attention with the harrowing situation, making me feel for the characters. I am aware some readers are not comfortable with it but it has its purpose and added impact to the overall story.
Sick Fux follows the journey of two individuals taking back control of their lives. It would appeal to readers who love dark, disturbing stories.
P.S: I love Chapel and Hyde.
♦️ 💥 ♦️. . . (F)BR With Twinsie CC & Liz . . . ♦️ 💥 ♦️
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Type: Standalone
POV: Multiple
Rating:
Ellis (Dolly) Earnshaw grew up with limited friends and limited experience. As the daughter of a busy businessman, her life was contained to her estate. But things were about to change when she befriended a new boy in town.
Heathan (Rabbit) James was not like any other boy. Even at a very young age, he was more fascinated with death than the living. When an unlikely friendship formed between him an Ellis, neither of them thought it would change the course of their lives.
The title of this book alone was enough to get my attention. After reading this, I can definitely say the characters surely lived up to the title lol!
I didn’t want her sane mind. I wanted her like this: fucked up, and dark perfection.
Usually it's very hard for me to like characters as a couple especially when it comes to dark books. I tend to prefer the heroes to be on their own. This book is a rare exception. I think Rabbit and Dolly were made for each other. I want to be their best friend haha!
“Blood . . . it is a fascinating thing. The way it smells when it’s fresh from the vein. How it spurts when you slice a spot of flesh just right.�
I love the storyline. From the beginning, it captured my attention with the harrowing situation, making me feel for the characters. I am aware some readers are not comfortable with it but it has its purpose and added impact to the overall story.
Sick Fux follows the journey of two individuals taking back control of their lives. It would appeal to readers who love dark, disturbing stories.
P.S: I love Chapel and Hyde.
♦️ 💥 ♦️. . . (F)BR With Twinsie CC & Liz . . . ♦️ 💥 ♦️
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October 16, 2017
Review to come.
June 28, 2024
DNF’d @ 63%
I lost interest halfway through. It was good but I really couldn’t get into it unfortunately.
Sorry to those of you who loved it 🫣
I lost interest halfway through. It was good but I really couldn’t get into it unfortunately.
Sorry to those of you who loved it 🫣
October 9, 2017
Wow!!! I really have no words for this. I wouldn’t want to spoiler one bit of this story as it just needs to be experienced. Tillie Cole’s imagination is crazy. If you like dark romance then this is a must read.
August 7, 2021
At the beginning of the book I was really intrigued by the story and I thought ahh he’s crazy, and she’s the good girl,, but boy was I totally wrong. I don’t have any triggers, but the first half of the book was really hard because these scenes were really graphic, but I think the whole book is hard I love me a good dark romance I love them, but this one is EXTRA.
Literally everybody in this book is a crazy psychopath like I meant it everybody, I thought maybe Eddie is not crazy but nope he’s crazy too. I loved Heathen and Ellis so much at the beginning, but when I get to half of the book I was so confused and scared from them both.
I felt so bad for them and I thought yeah this justice for them and these people deserve it but IDK I don’t like all the characters and I didn’t connect with them at all like their first kiss I felt nothing. This book is not for everyone It’s very dark, I love Tillie’s other books so much but this one wasn’t for me.
Literally everybody in this book is a crazy psychopath like I meant it everybody, I thought maybe Eddie is not crazy but nope he’s crazy too. I loved Heathen and Ellis so much at the beginning, but when I get to half of the book I was so confused and scared from them both.
I felt so bad for them and I thought yeah this justice for them and these people deserve it but IDK I don’t like all the characters and I didn’t connect with them at all like their first kiss I felt nothing. This book is not for everyone It’s very dark, I love Tillie’s other books so much but this one wasn’t for me.
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