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384 pages, Hardcover
First published July 19, 2019
“Yes, Father. I should not commit the same sins I committed last week.�The Eternal Audience of One is a story of moment. In an epic spanning just over 500 pages and six countries, Rémy takes us on a journey concerning family, friendship, education and migration. What makes this story of migration so special is the fact that it upends the most prevalent stereotype/trope of migrant literature: Rémy's story doesn't revolve around an African MC who migrates to Europe or the US; instead, it destabilises that common narrative by focusing on an African that migrates from East Africa to southern Africa.Rémy shows us that the experience and concept of migration is far more expansive than the narrow passage from the Global South to the Global North. And that's damn valuable.
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“I will commit new ones.�
“Of all the black guys.�Despite the cultural specificity (I loved the effortless incorporation of French and Kinyarwanda into the narrative), many readers will recognize the intergenerational conflicts and warring emotions at the center of this bildungsroman. Séraphin feels guilty about his ambivalence toward his family, wondering if "his desire to be distant from [them] marked him as an ungrateful son." His sense of identity and his place in his family and future are all up in the air. What he knows "for certain, though, was how easy he breathed as soon as his family was behind him, when the adventure and uncertainty of Cape Town lay ahead."
“Rich,� Séraphin said, “you need to get your white boy.�
“I have a name,� Andrew said turning to face Séraphin once more.
“And I’ll use it when you start manifesting individual personality,� said Séraphin.
Andrew threw himself at Séraphin.
Home, to him, was a constant source of stress, a place of conformity, foreign family roots trying to burrow into arid Namibian soil which failed to nourish him.Rémy brilliantly explores the irony and paradoxes in Séraphin's identities. He's a displaced Rwandan who feels most himself in Cape Town, South Africa, a place that doesn't welcome Black immigrants. He's also soon to be a graduate of law school but doesn't want to practice law. His entire life has been a compromise. One of my favorite scenes in the entire novel is the family gathering at which Séraphin feels immense pressure to reassure not only his parents but also all their relatives that he will practice as a lawyer after finishing a degree, something he knows is a lie. And his mother knows it's a lie but needs her son to lie to their relatives to keep up appearances. She looks at him, her eyes asking "Turihamwe?", which is Séraphin's name but also means "Are we together, Séraphin? We are together or we are not. If we are not together, then you are alone. Are you ready to be alone? Do you even know what that means, Séraphin, to be alone? How brightly you burn, Séraphin, but for whom do you shine?� Turihamwe?" It's a powerful scene that brought tears to my eyes. Séraphin needs his family as much as they need him. But what they need him to be he cannot be. Growing up is coping with these disappointments. I felt Séraphin's pressure, the weight of all these expectations, not wanting to disappoint the people who have sacrificed so much for you, knowing that their idea of success is suffocating you. It's a lot. It's a feeling many people after familiar with. It's a feeling and atmosphere Rémy captures extremely well.
The only certainty is this: everything that is not the end must be the start of something else.
His torso occupied every inch of his shirt, and his maroon bell-bottom jeans accentuated a prim pair of buttocks and strong thighs.
...{I}f nobody ever makes it to the start of a story, and if everyone is in the same boat just bailing and steering as best they can, then I guess the whole point of life is to make some sort of a start and then work towards some kind of ending, whenever and wherever it might be. Part plagiarism will permit to agree with Shakespeare: "All the world's a staage..." upon which we perform for the eternal audience of one. ... I guess, then, that the point of life is to dive in, hold on, and hope that a flop...is worth the laugh at the very end.
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"She actually likes black people," Séraphin said. "And it isn't because she's traveled a lot. Slavers traveled too and look where that got us."
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"I have a better chance of being Pablo Escobar than being Pablo Neruda."
"You and drug dealers." {She} laughed. "Not a fan of poetry, then?"
"I approach poetry like other people's dogs. With great caution."
"All arguments can be fixed. Circumstances, not so much."
Formerly tall father stood next to tall son.
"You have to decide whether you want to be right or whether you want to be happy. It is a simple choice."
The idea of the temporal is forceful and unmistakable in this stunning debut novel by Rwandan-born Namibian writer, Rémy Ngamije. Our foolish ideas about time, how past is prologue as the bard says, how time runs like sand through our hands, how it is near-impossible to escape our pasts; these are themes explored in this coming-of-age story about a young Namibian boy becoming a man, whose parents escaped the genocide in Rwanda, where he was born. But, while his family has climbed up the social ladder in Namibia, they're still strangers in a strange land and the exploration of the diaspora comes across strongly.
Young Séraphin often feels his family is holding him back. In fact, Ngamije writes that family is something to be "survived". He longs for more than what Windhoek, Namibia's capital, can offer him. So when he gets a scholarship to study at a prestigious university in Cape Town, South Africa, he grabs it with both hands. His parents are pressuring him to pursue something 'solid' that will result in a good job, like law. Séraphin convinces them to let him pursue an arts degree in English, with the promise that he'll continue with law after that. But he finds law stifling.
What really lifts Séraphin's spirits, is the group of vibrant friends he makes in Cape Town, a kaleidoscope of characters described vividly and with brio. They are Séraphin's tribe, and become closer to him than his family has ever been. Together, they traverse Cape Town, cram for exams and broach subjects like race. Two of the group's members are white, and at least one doesn't seem to comprehend the microaggressions and even more overt racism experienced by his Black friends, causing Séraphin much frustration.
The book is also about the yearning for freedom, like freedom from the expectations placed on us by our parents and by society. Séraphin is expected to return to Namibia once his studies are complete so he can make some kind of contribution there, possibly to prove that the 'foreigners' can also be accomplished. But, the author isn't without sympathy for Séraphin's family. Both his father and mother are given a voice and we're taken on the journey of how they met, the development of their relationship and how they came to be in Namibia.
"The Eternal Audience of One" is a book full of dry humour and wit. Windhoek, a city called a city "because the country needs one" is described as having three temperatures: "hot, mosquito and fucking cold". The story is bewitching, told in luminous prose. The characters jump off the page. And through it all, readers must decide for themselves: who is the eternal audience of one? Who sees us completely; who witnesses all of our lives?
This book is now one of my favourites for this year. An absolute must-read. I cannot wait for more from this brilliant young writer.