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First published January 1, 1960
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Romain Gary
166听books1,846听followersRomain Gary was a Jewish-French novelist, film director, World War II aviator and diplomat. He also wrote under the pen name
脡mile Ajar
.
Born Roman Kacew (Yiddish: 拽爪讘, Russian: 袣邪褑械胁), Romain Gary grew up in Vilnius to a family of Lithuanian Jews. He changed his name to Romain Gary when he escaped occupied France to fight with Great Britain against Germany in WWII. His father, Arieh-Leib Kacew, abandoned his family in 1925 and remarried. From this time Gary was raised by his mother, Nina Owczinski. When he was fourteen, he and his mother moved to Nice, France. In his books and interviews, he presented many different versions of his father's origin, parents, occupation and childhood.
He later studied law, first in Aix-en-Provence and then in Paris. He learned to pilot an aircraft in the French Air Force in Salon-de-Provence and in Avord Air Base, near Bourges. Following the Nazi occupation of France in World War II, he fled to England and under Charles de Gaulle served with the Free French Forces in Europe and North Africa. As a pilot, he took part in over 25 successful offensives logging over 65 hours of air time.
He was greatly decorated for his bravery in the war, receiving many medals and honors.
After the war, he worked in the French diplomatic service and in 1945 published his first novel. He would become one of France's most popular and prolific writers, authoring more than thirty novels, essays and memoirs, some of which he wrote under the pseudonym of 脡mile Ajar. He also wrote one novel under the pseudonym of Fosco Sinibaldi and another as Shatan Bogat.
In 1952, he became secretary of the French Delegation to the United Nations in New York, and later in London (in 1955).
In 1956, he became Consul General of France in Los Angeles.
He is the only person to win the Prix Goncourt twice. This prize for French language literature is awarded only once to an author. Gary, who had already received the prize in 1956 for Les racines du ciel , published La vie devant soi under the pseudonym of 脡mile Ajar in 1975. The Acad茅mie Goncourt awarded the prize to the author of this book without knowing his real identity. A period of literary intrigue followed. Gary's little cousin Paul Pavlowitch posed as the author for a time. Gary later revealed the truth in his posthumous book Vie et mort d'脡mile Ajar .
Gary's first wife was the British writer, journalist, and Vogue editor Lesley Blanch (author of The Wilder Shores of Love ). They married in 1944 and divorced in 1961. From 1962 to 1970, Gary was married to the American actress Jean Seberg, with whom he had a son, Alexandre Diego Gary.
He also co-wrote the screenplay for the motion picture, The Longest Day and co-wrote and directed the 1971 film Kill! , starring his now ex-wife Seberg.
Suffering from depression after Seberg's 1979 suicide, Gary died of a self-inflicted gunshot wound on December 2, 1980 in Paris, France though he left a note which said specifically that his death had no relation with Seberg's suicide.
Born Roman Kacew (Yiddish: 拽爪讘, Russian: 袣邪褑械胁), Romain Gary grew up in Vilnius to a family of Lithuanian Jews. He changed his name to Romain Gary when he escaped occupied France to fight with Great Britain against Germany in WWII. His father, Arieh-Leib Kacew, abandoned his family in 1925 and remarried. From this time Gary was raised by his mother, Nina Owczinski. When he was fourteen, he and his mother moved to Nice, France. In his books and interviews, he presented many different versions of his father's origin, parents, occupation and childhood.
He later studied law, first in Aix-en-Provence and then in Paris. He learned to pilot an aircraft in the French Air Force in Salon-de-Provence and in Avord Air Base, near Bourges. Following the Nazi occupation of France in World War II, he fled to England and under Charles de Gaulle served with the Free French Forces in Europe and North Africa. As a pilot, he took part in over 25 successful offensives logging over 65 hours of air time.
He was greatly decorated for his bravery in the war, receiving many medals and honors.
After the war, he worked in the French diplomatic service and in 1945 published his first novel. He would become one of France's most popular and prolific writers, authoring more than thirty novels, essays and memoirs, some of which he wrote under the pseudonym of 脡mile Ajar. He also wrote one novel under the pseudonym of Fosco Sinibaldi and another as Shatan Bogat.
In 1952, he became secretary of the French Delegation to the United Nations in New York, and later in London (in 1955).
In 1956, he became Consul General of France in Los Angeles.
He is the only person to win the Prix Goncourt twice. This prize for French language literature is awarded only once to an author. Gary, who had already received the prize in 1956 for Les racines du ciel , published La vie devant soi under the pseudonym of 脡mile Ajar in 1975. The Acad茅mie Goncourt awarded the prize to the author of this book without knowing his real identity. A period of literary intrigue followed. Gary's little cousin Paul Pavlowitch posed as the author for a time. Gary later revealed the truth in his posthumous book Vie et mort d'脡mile Ajar .
Gary's first wife was the British writer, journalist, and Vogue editor Lesley Blanch (author of The Wilder Shores of Love ). They married in 1944 and divorced in 1961. From 1962 to 1970, Gary was married to the American actress Jean Seberg, with whom he had a son, Alexandre Diego Gary.
He also co-wrote the screenplay for the motion picture, The Longest Day and co-wrote and directed the 1971 film Kill! , starring his now ex-wife Seberg.
Suffering from depression after Seberg's 1979 suicide, Gary died of a self-inflicted gunshot wound on December 2, 1980 in Paris, France though he left a note which said specifically that his death had no relation with Seberg's suicide.
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La Promesse de l'Aube = Promise at Dawn, Romain Gary
Promise at Dawn is a 1960 autobiographical novel by the French writer Romain Gary. Jules Dassin directed a 1970 film with the same title based on the novel. It is all the more thrilling, therefore, to read it and know that this is not fiction but a real-life story. As a young child, Romain Gary's mother told him that a day would come when he would have to challenge and conquer the evil demons of submission and defeat. After all, he was to be a French military hero, ambassador, noted writer, and ladies' man . . . . Thus anticipating battle, by the time of his death he had won the Cross of the Liberation, the Croix de Guerre, the Legion of Honor, the Prix Goncourt (the last rather a comedown, as his mother had mentioned the Nobel Prize); and he had been the French consul-general in Los Angeles. Promise at Dawn begins as the story of a mother's sacrifice.
Alone and poor she fights fiercely to give her son the very best. Gary chronicles his childhood with her in Russia, Poland, and on the French Riveria. And he recounts his adventurous life as a young man fighting for France in World War II. But above all he tells the story of the love for his mother that was his very life, their secret and private planet, their wonderland "born out of a mother's murmur into a child's ear, a promise whispered at dawn of future triumphs and greatness, of justice and love."
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丿乇 爻丕賱1970賲蹖賱丕丿蹖貙 亘乇 丕爻丕爻 丕蹖賳 讴鬲丕亘貙 賮蹖賱賲蹖 亘丕 毓賳賵丕賳: 芦賲蹖毓丕丿 丿乇 爻倬蹖丿賴 丿賲禄貙 爻丕禺鬲賴 卮丿賴 丕爻鬲貨 賳賯卮 賲丕丿乇 芦乇賵賲賳禄 乇丕貙 賴賳乇倬蹖卮賴 蹖 賳丕賲丿丕乇 芦賲賱蹖賳丕 賲乇讴賵乇蹖禄貙 亘丕夭蹖 賲蹖鈥屭┵嗁嗀� 讴賴 亘乇丕蹖 亘丕夭蹖 丿乇 丌賳 賮蹖賱賲貙 賳丕賲夭丿 丿乇蹖丕賮鬲 噩丕蹖夭賴 芦诏賱丿賳 诏賱賵亘禄貙 亘賴 毓賳賵丕賳 亘賴鬲乇蹖賳 亘丕夭蹖诏乇 夭賳 賮蹖賱賲 丿乇丕賲 賲蹖鈥屫促堎嗀�
鬲丕乇蹖禺 亘賴賳诏丕賲 乇爻丕賳蹖 29/01/1400賴噩乇蹖 禺賵乇卮蹖丿蹖貨 02/10/1400賴噩乇蹖 禺賵乇卮蹖丿蹖貨 丕. 卮乇亘蹖丕賳蹖
Promise at Dawn is a 1960 autobiographical novel by the French writer Romain Gary. Jules Dassin directed a 1970 film with the same title based on the novel. It is all the more thrilling, therefore, to read it and know that this is not fiction but a real-life story. As a young child, Romain Gary's mother told him that a day would come when he would have to challenge and conquer the evil demons of submission and defeat. After all, he was to be a French military hero, ambassador, noted writer, and ladies' man . . . . Thus anticipating battle, by the time of his death he had won the Cross of the Liberation, the Croix de Guerre, the Legion of Honor, the Prix Goncourt (the last rather a comedown, as his mother had mentioned the Nobel Prize); and he had been the French consul-general in Los Angeles. Promise at Dawn begins as the story of a mother's sacrifice.
Alone and poor she fights fiercely to give her son the very best. Gary chronicles his childhood with her in Russia, Poland, and on the French Riveria. And he recounts his adventurous life as a young man fighting for France in World War II. But above all he tells the story of the love for his mother that was his very life, their secret and private planet, their wonderland "born out of a mother's murmur into a child's ear, a promise whispered at dawn of future triumphs and greatness, of justice and love."
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夭賳丿诏蹖賳丕賲賴 蹖 禺賵丿賳诏丕乇 (丕鬲賵亘蹖賵诏乇丕賮蹖) 芦乇賵賲賳 诏丕乇蹖禄 丕爻鬲貙 讴賴 丿乇 丌賳貙 爻賴 丿賴賴 蹖 賳禺爻鬲 丕夭 夭賳丿诏蹖 禺賵丿 乇丕 亘賳诏丕卮鬲賴 丕爻鬲貨 芦乇賵賲賳 诏丕乇蹖禄 賵鈥� 蹖丕 芦乇賵賲賳 讴丕鬲爻蹖賮禄貙 丿乇 爻丕賱1914賲蹖賱丕丿蹖貙 丿乇 芦賱蹖鬲賵丕賳蹖禄 亘賴 丕蹖賳 丿賳蹖丕 丌賲丿賳丿貨 芦乇賵賲賳禄 賴賳賵夭 丿乇 乇賵蹖丕蹖 讴賵丿讴丕賳賴 蹖 禺賵蹖卮 亘賵丿賳丿貙 讴賴 倬丿乇卮貙 丕蹖卮丕賳 賵 賲丕丿乇 丕賵 乇丕 鬲乇讴 賲蹖讴賳丿貙 賵 丕夭 丌賳 倬爻貙 丕蹖卮丕賳 亘丕 賲丕丿乇 禺賵蹖卮鬲賳 芦賲蹖賳丕 賱賵夭蹖賳爻讴蹖禄貙 亘丕 賴賲 賲蹖夭蹖賳丿貨 芦乇賵賲賳 诏丕乇蹖禄 賴賲乇丕賴 賲丕丿乇卮貨 夭賲丕賳蹖 丿乇 芦賱蹖鬲賵丕賳蹖禄貙 賵 爻倬爻 丿乇 卮賴乇 芦賵乇卮賵 賱賴爻鬲丕賳禄 夭賳丿诏蹖貙 賵 爻倬爻 亘賴 芦賳蹖爻禄 賵 芦倬丕乇蹖爻禄 丿乇 芦賮乇丕賳爻賴禄 賲蹖讴賵趩賳丿貨 诏賮鬲賴 丕賳丿: 丕蹖卮丕賳 賴賲丕乇賴 丿乇 倬蹖 賴賵蹖鬲 禺賵丿 亘賵丿賳丿貙 卮賴乇賵賳丿蹖 丕夭 賳丕讴噩丕丌亘丕丿貙 讴賴 賲毓賱賵賲 賳亘賵丿貙 丕賴賱 讴卮賵乇 芦賱蹖鬲賵丕賳蹖禄貙 蹖丕 丕賴賱 讴卮賵乇 芦賱賴爻鬲丕賳禄貙 賵 蹖丕 丕夭 丕賴丕賱蹖 讴卮賵乇 芦賮乇丕賳爻賴禄 賴爻鬲賳丿貨 乇賵丕蹖鬲鈥屬囏й� 夭賳丿诏蹖 芦乇賵賲賳禄貙 丿乇 丕蹖賳 讴鬲丕亘 亘賴 诏賵賳賴 蹖 丿丕爻鬲丕賳鈥屬囏й� 讴賵鬲丕賴 亘賴 賴賲 倬蹖賵爻鬲賴貙 丌賲丿賴 丕爻鬲貨
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丿乇 爻丕賱1970賲蹖賱丕丿蹖貙 亘乇 丕爻丕爻 丕蹖賳 讴鬲丕亘貙 賮蹖賱賲蹖 亘丕 毓賳賵丕賳: 芦賲蹖毓丕丿 丿乇 爻倬蹖丿賴 丿賲禄貙 爻丕禺鬲賴 卮丿賴 丕爻鬲貨 賳賯卮 賲丕丿乇 芦乇賵賲賳禄 乇丕貙 賴賳乇倬蹖卮賴 蹖 賳丕賲丿丕乇 芦賲賱蹖賳丕 賲乇讴賵乇蹖禄貙 亘丕夭蹖 賲蹖鈥屭┵嗁嗀� 讴賴 亘乇丕蹖 亘丕夭蹖 丿乇 丌賳 賮蹖賱賲貙 賳丕賲夭丿 丿乇蹖丕賮鬲 噩丕蹖夭賴 芦诏賱丿賳 诏賱賵亘禄貙 亘賴 毓賳賵丕賳 亘賴鬲乇蹖賳 亘丕夭蹖诏乇 夭賳 賮蹖賱賲 丿乇丕賲 賲蹖鈥屫促堎嗀�
鬲丕乇蹖禺 亘賴賳诏丕賲 乇爻丕賳蹖 29/01/1400賴噩乇蹖 禺賵乇卮蹖丿蹖貨 02/10/1400賴噩乇蹖 禺賵乇卮蹖丿蹖貨 丕. 卮乇亘蹖丕賳蹖
April 10, 2025
I could hardly have chosen a better book to know the author, it looks like the beginning of a new friendship :)
July 25, 2018
"Je crus mourir de honte. Il va sans dire que j'avais beaucoup d'illusions, car si on pouvait mourir de honte, il y a longtemps que l'humanit茅 ne serait plus l脿."
I wonder if that hasn't happened to the world? Has the kind of human being who is still capable of feeling and dying of shame been pushed aside to the benefit of another, more vulgar and therefore stronger breed that is completely shameless?
Romain Gary suffered from a loving mother. She loved him to the extent that his whole life was determined by her dreams for his success as a French officer, diplomat and writer. All his actions were based on her need for redemption - her need for repairing a failed life through her child.
It is a nightmare of gigantic proportions, and I shuddered more than once reading the autobiographical account of Romain Gary's life, moving from his Jewish-Russian roots over Poland to the C么te d'Azur before and during the Second World War.
"La promesse de l'aube" - the promise made to his mother in the beginning that he would fulfil her dreams! That promise narrowed his path, but it also served as the ultimate motivation when others around him gave up. He understood the attitude of the French capitulation, and acknowledged that they were right to arrange themselves in order to stay alive - but they were right in the same way Van Gogh would have been right to take a decent job and to stop painting. Romain Gary could not give up, as he had to keep the promise he made to his headstrong, embarrassing mother.
How did he cope?
"L'humour est une d茅claration de dignit茅, une affirmation de la sup茅riorit茅 de l'homme sur ce qui lui arrive."
What a brilliant way of describing intelligent and empathic life! And again, what happened to the dignity of a humorous approach to life in our times of public sulking?
Romain Gary's idea is that he has something he is willing to live for (which is distinctly different from being willing to DIE for something!), and that he considers the true tragedy of Faust not his act of selling his soul to the devil, but the discovery that there is no devil who wants to buy it - "il n'y a pas preneur"!
In the end, when he arrived at home in Nice after his years fighting for "la lib茅ration", as well as for literary fame and success, equipped with all the military distinctions and the news articles reviewing his first published fiction, he discovered that his mother had made a great sacrifice for him as well. A heartbreaking tale of love and power beyond human reach.
Most of the time, I choked on the omnipresence of this mythical mother figure, but in one respect I fully support her claim for her son: it should have been a Nobel Laureate!
I wonder if that hasn't happened to the world? Has the kind of human being who is still capable of feeling and dying of shame been pushed aside to the benefit of another, more vulgar and therefore stronger breed that is completely shameless?
Romain Gary suffered from a loving mother. She loved him to the extent that his whole life was determined by her dreams for his success as a French officer, diplomat and writer. All his actions were based on her need for redemption - her need for repairing a failed life through her child.
It is a nightmare of gigantic proportions, and I shuddered more than once reading the autobiographical account of Romain Gary's life, moving from his Jewish-Russian roots over Poland to the C么te d'Azur before and during the Second World War.
"La promesse de l'aube" - the promise made to his mother in the beginning that he would fulfil her dreams! That promise narrowed his path, but it also served as the ultimate motivation when others around him gave up. He understood the attitude of the French capitulation, and acknowledged that they were right to arrange themselves in order to stay alive - but they were right in the same way Van Gogh would have been right to take a decent job and to stop painting. Romain Gary could not give up, as he had to keep the promise he made to his headstrong, embarrassing mother.
How did he cope?
"L'humour est une d茅claration de dignit茅, une affirmation de la sup茅riorit茅 de l'homme sur ce qui lui arrive."
What a brilliant way of describing intelligent and empathic life! And again, what happened to the dignity of a humorous approach to life in our times of public sulking?
Romain Gary's idea is that he has something he is willing to live for (which is distinctly different from being willing to DIE for something!), and that he considers the true tragedy of Faust not his act of selling his soul to the devil, but the discovery that there is no devil who wants to buy it - "il n'y a pas preneur"!
In the end, when he arrived at home in Nice after his years fighting for "la lib茅ration", as well as for literary fame and success, equipped with all the military distinctions and the news articles reviewing his first published fiction, he discovered that his mother had made a great sacrifice for him as well. A heartbreaking tale of love and power beyond human reach.
Most of the time, I choked on the omnipresence of this mythical mother figure, but in one respect I fully support her claim for her son: it should have been a Nobel Laureate!
March 19, 2019
L'inesistenza della vita
脠 splendido quando Romain Gary scrive che la letteratura 猫 l'ultimo rifugio su questa terra per quelli che non sanno pi霉 dove andare a mettersi; pi霉 precisamente, a sbattere. Egli ha un talento indiscutibile, un talento che l'amore materno trasforma in un avvenire di speranza. Non riesce a essere mai disperato e triste fino in fondo, questo avventuriero pi霉 volte europeo e in mille modi guerriero nell'esistere. Ah, certo, amava le donne molto pi霉 delle battaglie, la madre pi霉 della vita intera, infatti ricordando il tempo vagabondo, la solitudine percepita in una folla colorata e molteplice, scrive: che lei divent貌 veramente me stesso, con tutta la sua violenza, i suoi alti e bassi, la sua mancanza di misura, la sua aggressivit脿, i suoi atteggiamenti, il suo gusto del dramma. Lo sguardo di Gary sui fatti della storia invita a diminuire l'entit脿 dell'io, ad accostarsi al sentire di coloro che soffrono e a conoscere la differenza tra il saper mentire senza falsit脿 e il dovere di usare la menzogna per mestiere. Vediamo il protagonista rannicchiato come un bambino, nell'ombra, e poi crescere e uscire da uomo maturo a costruire la propria vocazione, a fare delle pretese degli altri una statura di sostanza. Speranza illimitata metteva Gary nelle parole, se anche non poteva identificare mai un nemico personale, per irresistibile ingenuit脿, per disgrazia di riconoscersi in tutti gli altri. Quindi, leggere questo romanzo 猫 un piacere e insieme una difficolt脿, perch茅 scritto con coraggio e volont脿 di fronte a ogni dolore e violenza che si sviluppi pienamente nella realt脿, senza poter rinunciare a nulla se non a se stessi, ma per natura, per modo di essere, non per ragione. E si conclude, questa invocazione laica alla pace, alla fraternit脿 e all'amicizia, con l'auspicio che l'uomo prenda nelle sue mani la protezione della natura. Quindi, questo libro, amore per la madre, nel quale due volte ricorre il fondamentale sintagma la condizione umana, 猫 tante cose: persone, animali, oceano, ascolto, ma anche tempo, durata, addio.
鈥淚l suo volto aveva un'espressione di assoluta fiducia, di certezza. Si sarebbe detto che sapesse, che avesse fatto un patto col destino, e che in cambio della sua vita fallita le fossero state offerte alcune garanzie, fatte certe promesse. Ne ero convito anch'io; e questa consapevolezza segreta, sopprimendo il rischio, mi toglieva ogni possibilit脿 di caracollare eroicamente in mezzo ai pericoli, in un certo senso mi disinnescava, e per questo mi sentivo anche irritato e indignato鈥�.
脠 splendido quando Romain Gary scrive che la letteratura 猫 l'ultimo rifugio su questa terra per quelli che non sanno pi霉 dove andare a mettersi; pi霉 precisamente, a sbattere. Egli ha un talento indiscutibile, un talento che l'amore materno trasforma in un avvenire di speranza. Non riesce a essere mai disperato e triste fino in fondo, questo avventuriero pi霉 volte europeo e in mille modi guerriero nell'esistere. Ah, certo, amava le donne molto pi霉 delle battaglie, la madre pi霉 della vita intera, infatti ricordando il tempo vagabondo, la solitudine percepita in una folla colorata e molteplice, scrive: che lei divent貌 veramente me stesso, con tutta la sua violenza, i suoi alti e bassi, la sua mancanza di misura, la sua aggressivit脿, i suoi atteggiamenti, il suo gusto del dramma. Lo sguardo di Gary sui fatti della storia invita a diminuire l'entit脿 dell'io, ad accostarsi al sentire di coloro che soffrono e a conoscere la differenza tra il saper mentire senza falsit脿 e il dovere di usare la menzogna per mestiere. Vediamo il protagonista rannicchiato come un bambino, nell'ombra, e poi crescere e uscire da uomo maturo a costruire la propria vocazione, a fare delle pretese degli altri una statura di sostanza. Speranza illimitata metteva Gary nelle parole, se anche non poteva identificare mai un nemico personale, per irresistibile ingenuit脿, per disgrazia di riconoscersi in tutti gli altri. Quindi, leggere questo romanzo 猫 un piacere e insieme una difficolt脿, perch茅 scritto con coraggio e volont脿 di fronte a ogni dolore e violenza che si sviluppi pienamente nella realt脿, senza poter rinunciare a nulla se non a se stessi, ma per natura, per modo di essere, non per ragione. E si conclude, questa invocazione laica alla pace, alla fraternit脿 e all'amicizia, con l'auspicio che l'uomo prenda nelle sue mani la protezione della natura. Quindi, questo libro, amore per la madre, nel quale due volte ricorre il fondamentale sintagma la condizione umana, 猫 tante cose: persone, animali, oceano, ascolto, ma anche tempo, durata, addio.
鈥淚l suo volto aveva un'espressione di assoluta fiducia, di certezza. Si sarebbe detto che sapesse, che avesse fatto un patto col destino, e che in cambio della sua vita fallita le fossero state offerte alcune garanzie, fatte certe promesse. Ne ero convito anch'io; e questa consapevolezza segreta, sopprimendo il rischio, mi toglieva ogni possibilit脿 di caracollare eroicamente in mezzo ai pericoli, in un certo senso mi disinnescava, e per questo mi sentivo anche irritato e indignato鈥�.
February 17, 2020
At first I thought I had never read anything like it, but after a while parallels began to suggest themselves. For effortless brilliance and endless streams of believe-it-or-not anecdotes, I thought of Surely You're Joking, Mr Feynman; but Feynman, despite being a wonderful storyteller, isn't literary, and Gary is with good reason proud of his ability to create perfectly balanced French sentences. Feyerabend's Killing Time has the same stylistic sophistication, absurd bragging and refusal to acknowledge authority, but Feyerabend is primarily a philosopher, and Gary has no interest in the philosophical. Ingmar Bergman's Laterna Magica has the searching self-examination, matter-of-fact heartlessness towards women and artistic integrity, but Bergman comes across as completely anchored in reality.
Towards the end of the book, however, I remembered another exiled francophone Russian, guiltily recalling all the terrible things he had done during the course of his life and trying to justify them in terms of his one great love, and I began to identify Gary more and more with the narrator of Nabokov's Ada. Alas, there would be no miraculous reunion in Geneva...
Towards the end of the book, however, I remembered another exiled francophone Russian, guiltily recalling all the terrible things he had done during the course of his life and trying to justify them in terms of his one great love, and I began to identify Gary more and more with the narrator of Nabokov's Ada. Alas, there would be no miraculous reunion in Geneva...
May 29, 2017
M矛nh 膽峄峜 cu峄憂 n脿y v脿o nh峄痭g ng脿y c岷璶 T岷縯, t峄ヽ l脿 膽峄峜 trong l煤c ch峄� m谩 膽i tha ti t峄� th峄� t岷 h贸a v峄� m脿 ch岷� bi岷縯 膽峄� l脿m g矛, trong c谩i kh贸i ngun ng煤t khi 膽ang n瓢峄沶g s瓢峄漬 cho ba nh岷璾, trong ti岷縩g tho岷 nh峄憂 nh谩o c峄 c谩i tivi b脿 n峄檌 m峄� cho vui tai c岷� ng脿y, 膽峄峜 v脿i trang l脿 ch岷 膽i b谩n h脿ng cho m岷 v峄� kh谩ch 岷 啤 c峄� nh猫 cu峄慽 n膬m m峄沬 mua 膽峄� v脿 t岷 nhi锚n trong ti岷縩g m岷痭g ra r岷� c峄 m谩 v峄沬 m峄 膽铆ch d峄搉 c岷� n膬m ch峄璱 m峄檛 l岷 cho h岷� d岷�. 狈丑瓢ng kh么ng, m矛nh kh么ng o谩n tr谩ch g矛 膽芒u, t岷 c岷� nh峄痭g tr岷 t峄 膽贸 膽茫 膽瓢峄 膽峄乶 膽谩p x峄﹏g 膽谩ng khi m矛nh g岷璸 L峄漣 h峄゛ l煤c b矛nh minh l岷, n峄� m峄檛 n峄� c瓢峄漣 vi锚n m茫n v脿 c岷 th岷 膽瓢峄 an 峄 cho c岷� m峄檛 n膬m qua. 膼岷筽 qu谩, 膽岷筽 膽岷縩 m峄ヽ mu峄憂 n岷眒 xu峄憂g cu峄檔 tr貌n m矛nh l岷 r峄搃 l岷痭g nghe d瓢 芒m gi峄峮g n贸i c峄 Romain Gary lan 膽i kh岷痯 c啤 th峄� cho 膽岷縩 khi n贸 tan ra ch峄� c貌n m峄檛 v农ng huy岷縯 t瓢啤ng n啤i m矛nh 膽茫 n岷眒. T岷 nhi锚n l岷 hai, m谩 m矛nh 膽芒u 膽峄� c煤 n岷眒 xu峄憂g 膽贸 膽瓢峄 ho脿n thi峄噉 khi 膽岷縩 gi峄� c煤ng cu峄慽 n膬m.
Denis Diderot 膽茫 b岷 C谩i 膽岷筽, c谩i th岷璽 v脿 c谩i t峄憈 r岷 g岷 nhau v脿 Romain Gary 膽茫 g峄檖 膽瓢峄 c岷� ba 膽i峄乽 岷 v脿o cu峄憂 s谩ch n脿y. L脿 do 么ng t脿i n膬ng, hay ch铆nh ng瓢峄漣 m岷� 么ng vi岷縯 v峄� 膽茫 truy峄乶 ch煤ng cho 么ng trong su峄憈 cu峄檆 膽峄漣 qua d芒y r峄憂 ch瓢a bao gi峄� b峄� c岷痶 膽峄﹖? Cu峄檆 膽峄漣 m脿 t峄� l煤c b矛nh minh 膽岷縩 膽锚m t峄慽, t峄� c霉ng c峄眂 kh峄� 膽au 膽岷縩 vinh quang ch贸i l峄峣 c峄 么ng ch瓢a m峄檛 gi芒y ph煤t thi岷縰 v岷痭g h矛nh b贸ng ng瓢峄漣 m岷� Nga mang t矛nh y锚u n瓢峄沜 Ph谩p ng芒y th啤 膽岷縩 kh贸 hi峄僽. B岷 l脿 ti峄僽 thuy岷縯 nh瓢ng th峄眂 ra l脿 t峄� truy峄噉, b岷 l脿 t峄� truy峄噉 c峄 t谩c gi岷� nh瓢ng th峄眂 ra l脿 t峄� truy峄噉 c峄 ng瓢峄漣 m岷�, b峄焛 kh么ng c贸 h脿nh 膽峄檔g n脿o, n峄� l峄眂 n脿o, 膽峄檔g c啤 n脿o c峄 Romain Gary m脿 l岷 kh么ng t峄� t矛nh y锚u ng瓢峄漣 m岷� c峄 m矛nh. M矛nh r岷 mu峄憂 b岷 r岷眓g nh峄痭g ai 膽茫, 膽ang v脿 s岷� l脿m m岷� ph岷 膽峄峜 cu峄憂 s谩ch n脿y ngay tr瓢峄沜 khi t岷 ra m峄檛 sinh linh v峄沬 tham v峄峮g n贸 s岷� tr峄� th脿nh anh h霉ng, l脿 v末 nh芒n c峄 nh芒n lo岷 v脿 chu岷﹏ b峄� tinh th岷 r岷眓g ph岷 y锚u th瓢啤ng, hi sinh cho n贸 h啤n t岷 c岷� t矛nh y锚u, s峄� hi sinh b岷 c贸 th峄� t瓢峄焠g ra 膽瓢峄. 狈丑瓢ng m矛nh c农ng ng岷 ng岷 m峄檛 膽i峄乽, m峄檛 膽峄゛ tr岷� 峄� thu峄� b矛nh minh cu峄檆 膽峄漣 m矛nh 膽瓢峄 t瓢峄沬 t岷痬 trong d貌ng s么ng y锚u th瓢啤ng d峄搃 d脿o 膽岷縩 v岷瓂 th矛 su峄憈 膽峄漣 n贸 tr谩nh l脿m sao 膽瓢峄 c岷h ch岷縯 kh谩t b锚n b峄� nh峄痭g con su峄慽 ngh猫o n脿n kh谩c?
Romain Gary c峄� khi岷縩 m矛nh ngh末 膽岷縩 Saint-Ex, m峄檛 ph岷 v矛 c岷� hai 膽峄乽 l脿 nh脿 v膬n Ph谩p, m峄檛 ph岷 c岷� hai l脿 phi c么ng trong WWII, nh瓢ng ph岷 l峄沶 l脿 ch岷 th啤 n岷 n峄� trong t峄玭g c芒u ch峄� c峄 hai ng瓢峄漣. N岷縰 ch岷 th啤 c峄 Saint-Ex m峄峜 l锚n trong gang th茅p kh么ng gi岷 n峄昳 ch岷 bi tr谩ng s谩nh v峄沬 thi锚n nhi锚n th矛 Romain Gary l岷 mang m脿u s岷痗 h脿i h瓢峄沜 ch芒m bi岷縨 v脿 kh岷� n膬ng li锚n t瓢峄焠g v么 h岷. Saint-Ex v岷� n锚n nh峄痭g tr岷璶 chi岷縩 v峄沬 b岷 tr峄漣 v峄玜 r峄眂 r峄� v峄玜 tho谩t t峄 膽峄� che 膽i nh峄痭g kh峄� 膽au m岷 m谩t c峄 膽峄漣 么ng th矛 Gary l岷 ph啤i b脿y nh峄痭g tr岷 t峄, b峄� c峄眂, nh岷 nh峄 b岷 c么ng, th峄憂g kh峄� l锚n tr锚n trang s谩ch, ch峄� tr峄� t峄玭g th峄� r峄搃 b峄 c峄 ch煤ng, v铆 von li锚n t瓢峄焠g ch煤ng v峄沬 th峄� n脿y th峄� kia. Nhi峄乽 膽o岷 m矛nh kh么ng bi岷縯 n锚n c瓢峄漣 hay n锚n m茅o khi 膽峄峜 ph岷. Ch岷 th啤 c峄 么ng c貌n 膽瓢峄 b峄� tr峄� b峄焛 c谩ch h脿nh v膬n c峄 Gary, r岷眓g c芒u ch峄� d脿i, c峄眂 d脿i, c贸 c芒u c貌n d脿i n峄璦 trang s谩ch v峄沬 膽岷 膽峄� ng峄� ph谩p v脿 媒 t峄� d峄搃 d脿o. N茫o m矛nh d峄� b峄� nh峄痭g c芒u v膬n ch岷 ngo岷眓g ngo猫o c峄 么ng l脿m cho t锚 li峄噒, bu么ng tr么i 膽峄� cho Gary mu峄憂 tung h峄﹏g ra sao th矛 ra, ho脿n to脿n y锚n t芒m khi 膽ang bay b峄昻g v矛 么ng lu么n cho ng瓢峄漣 膽峄峜 ti岷縫 膽岷 nh岷� nh脿ng v脿 m茫n nguy峄噉. C贸 nhi峄乽 l茫o kh谩c vi岷縯 r岷 膽峄僽, tung ng瓢峄漣 膽峄峜 l锚n r峄搃 kh么ng 膽峄� h峄� 膽瓢峄 to脿n th芒y ho岷穋 cho h峄� bay m岷 h煤t m脿 kh么ng 膽瓢峄 tr峄� v峄� n啤i ban 膽岷.
M矛nh 膽茫 v峄玜 膽峄峜 v峄玜 l岷璽 t岷 h矛nh c峄 Gary 峄� 膽岷眓g tr瓢峄沜 ra xem c贸 th岷璽 kh么ng, c贸 th岷璽 l脿 么ng 膽瓢峄 nu么i d岷 b峄焛 ng瓢峄漣 m岷� tuy峄噒 v峄沬 膽岷縩 th岷� kh么ng, 膽茫 tr岷 qua nh峄痭g v岷縯 th瓢啤ng chi岷縩 tranh kinh khi岷縫 m脿 v岷玭 gi峄� 膽瓢峄 l峄漣 h峄゛ thu峄� b矛nh minh 岷 kh么ng. V脿 th岷璽, c谩i nh瓢峄沶g m脿y 膽峄� l峄� 膽么i m岷痶 to trong xanh l啤 v岷玭 c貌n nguy锚n v岷� m啤 m峄檔g, c谩i b末u m么i n农ng n峄媢 v岷玭 c貌n nh瓢 th峄� tr瓢峄沜 m岷穞 么ng v岷玭 l脿 ng瓢峄漣 m岷� 膽谩ng k铆nh 岷. Cu峄憂 s谩ch v峄沬 m矛nh th岷璽 vi锚n m茫n, v矛 膽岷縩 cu峄慽 c霉ng ng瓢峄漣 m岷� 膽茫 m岷 tr瓢峄沜 khi th岷 l峄漣 h峄゛ c峄 Gary 膽瓢峄 ho脿n th脿nh nguy锚n v岷筺, v脿 膽岷縩 cu峄慽 么ng ch峄峮 c谩ch t峄� s谩t 膽峄� k岷縯 th煤c c啤n kh谩t c峄 m矛nh.
狈丑瓢 m峄檛 hi峄噓 峄﹏g d芒y chuy峄乶, m矛nh c农ng 膽茫 k峄媝 t岷 m峄檛 l峄漣 h峄゛ l煤c 膽锚m khuya gi峄痑 l煤c m谩 n峄噉 g峄慽 v脿o m矛nh v矛 t峄檌 th峄ヽ khuya: M谩, con h峄゛ v峄沬 m谩, con s岷� kh么ng gi岷縯 ng瓢峄漣 膽芒u, d霉 con c贸 s峄憂g b岷眓g s谩ch 膽i n峄痑 :'(
Denis Diderot 膽茫 b岷 C谩i 膽岷筽, c谩i th岷璽 v脿 c谩i t峄憈 r岷 g岷 nhau v脿 Romain Gary 膽茫 g峄檖 膽瓢峄 c岷� ba 膽i峄乽 岷 v脿o cu峄憂 s谩ch n脿y. L脿 do 么ng t脿i n膬ng, hay ch铆nh ng瓢峄漣 m岷� 么ng vi岷縯 v峄� 膽茫 truy峄乶 ch煤ng cho 么ng trong su峄憈 cu峄檆 膽峄漣 qua d芒y r峄憂 ch瓢a bao gi峄� b峄� c岷痶 膽峄﹖? Cu峄檆 膽峄漣 m脿 t峄� l煤c b矛nh minh 膽岷縩 膽锚m t峄慽, t峄� c霉ng c峄眂 kh峄� 膽au 膽岷縩 vinh quang ch贸i l峄峣 c峄 么ng ch瓢a m峄檛 gi芒y ph煤t thi岷縰 v岷痭g h矛nh b贸ng ng瓢峄漣 m岷� Nga mang t矛nh y锚u n瓢峄沜 Ph谩p ng芒y th啤 膽岷縩 kh贸 hi峄僽. B岷 l脿 ti峄僽 thuy岷縯 nh瓢ng th峄眂 ra l脿 t峄� truy峄噉, b岷 l脿 t峄� truy峄噉 c峄 t谩c gi岷� nh瓢ng th峄眂 ra l脿 t峄� truy峄噉 c峄 ng瓢峄漣 m岷�, b峄焛 kh么ng c贸 h脿nh 膽峄檔g n脿o, n峄� l峄眂 n脿o, 膽峄檔g c啤 n脿o c峄 Romain Gary m脿 l岷 kh么ng t峄� t矛nh y锚u ng瓢峄漣 m岷� c峄 m矛nh. M矛nh r岷 mu峄憂 b岷 r岷眓g nh峄痭g ai 膽茫, 膽ang v脿 s岷� l脿m m岷� ph岷 膽峄峜 cu峄憂 s谩ch n脿y ngay tr瓢峄沜 khi t岷 ra m峄檛 sinh linh v峄沬 tham v峄峮g n贸 s岷� tr峄� th脿nh anh h霉ng, l脿 v末 nh芒n c峄 nh芒n lo岷 v脿 chu岷﹏ b峄� tinh th岷 r岷眓g ph岷 y锚u th瓢啤ng, hi sinh cho n贸 h啤n t岷 c岷� t矛nh y锚u, s峄� hi sinh b岷 c贸 th峄� t瓢峄焠g ra 膽瓢峄. 狈丑瓢ng m矛nh c农ng ng岷 ng岷 m峄檛 膽i峄乽, m峄檛 膽峄゛ tr岷� 峄� thu峄� b矛nh minh cu峄檆 膽峄漣 m矛nh 膽瓢峄 t瓢峄沬 t岷痬 trong d貌ng s么ng y锚u th瓢啤ng d峄搃 d脿o 膽岷縩 v岷瓂 th矛 su峄憈 膽峄漣 n贸 tr谩nh l脿m sao 膽瓢峄 c岷h ch岷縯 kh谩t b锚n b峄� nh峄痭g con su峄慽 ngh猫o n脿n kh谩c?
Romain Gary c峄� khi岷縩 m矛nh ngh末 膽岷縩 Saint-Ex, m峄檛 ph岷 v矛 c岷� hai 膽峄乽 l脿 nh脿 v膬n Ph谩p, m峄檛 ph岷 c岷� hai l脿 phi c么ng trong WWII, nh瓢ng ph岷 l峄沶 l脿 ch岷 th啤 n岷 n峄� trong t峄玭g c芒u ch峄� c峄 hai ng瓢峄漣. N岷縰 ch岷 th啤 c峄 Saint-Ex m峄峜 l锚n trong gang th茅p kh么ng gi岷 n峄昳 ch岷 bi tr谩ng s谩nh v峄沬 thi锚n nhi锚n th矛 Romain Gary l岷 mang m脿u s岷痗 h脿i h瓢峄沜 ch芒m bi岷縨 v脿 kh岷� n膬ng li锚n t瓢峄焠g v么 h岷. Saint-Ex v岷� n锚n nh峄痭g tr岷璶 chi岷縩 v峄沬 b岷 tr峄漣 v峄玜 r峄眂 r峄� v峄玜 tho谩t t峄 膽峄� che 膽i nh峄痭g kh峄� 膽au m岷 m谩t c峄 膽峄漣 么ng th矛 Gary l岷 ph啤i b脿y nh峄痭g tr岷 t峄, b峄� c峄眂, nh岷 nh峄 b岷 c么ng, th峄憂g kh峄� l锚n tr锚n trang s谩ch, ch峄� tr峄� t峄玭g th峄� r峄搃 b峄 c峄 ch煤ng, v铆 von li锚n t瓢峄焠g ch煤ng v峄沬 th峄� n脿y th峄� kia. Nhi峄乽 膽o岷 m矛nh kh么ng bi岷縯 n锚n c瓢峄漣 hay n锚n m茅o khi 膽峄峜 ph岷. Ch岷 th啤 c峄 么ng c貌n 膽瓢峄 b峄� tr峄� b峄焛 c谩ch h脿nh v膬n c峄 Gary, r岷眓g c芒u ch峄� d脿i, c峄眂 d脿i, c贸 c芒u c貌n d脿i n峄璦 trang s谩ch v峄沬 膽岷 膽峄� ng峄� ph谩p v脿 媒 t峄� d峄搃 d脿o. N茫o m矛nh d峄� b峄� nh峄痭g c芒u v膬n ch岷 ngo岷眓g ngo猫o c峄 么ng l脿m cho t锚 li峄噒, bu么ng tr么i 膽峄� cho Gary mu峄憂 tung h峄﹏g ra sao th矛 ra, ho脿n to脿n y锚n t芒m khi 膽ang bay b峄昻g v矛 么ng lu么n cho ng瓢峄漣 膽峄峜 ti岷縫 膽岷 nh岷� nh脿ng v脿 m茫n nguy峄噉. C贸 nhi峄乽 l茫o kh谩c vi岷縯 r岷 膽峄僽, tung ng瓢峄漣 膽峄峜 l锚n r峄搃 kh么ng 膽峄� h峄� 膽瓢峄 to脿n th芒y ho岷穋 cho h峄� bay m岷 h煤t m脿 kh么ng 膽瓢峄 tr峄� v峄� n啤i ban 膽岷.
M矛nh 膽茫 v峄玜 膽峄峜 v峄玜 l岷璽 t岷 h矛nh c峄 Gary 峄� 膽岷眓g tr瓢峄沜 ra xem c贸 th岷璽 kh么ng, c贸 th岷璽 l脿 么ng 膽瓢峄 nu么i d岷 b峄焛 ng瓢峄漣 m岷� tuy峄噒 v峄沬 膽岷縩 th岷� kh么ng, 膽茫 tr岷 qua nh峄痭g v岷縯 th瓢啤ng chi岷縩 tranh kinh khi岷縫 m脿 v岷玭 gi峄� 膽瓢峄 l峄漣 h峄゛ thu峄� b矛nh minh 岷 kh么ng. V脿 th岷璽, c谩i nh瓢峄沶g m脿y 膽峄� l峄� 膽么i m岷痶 to trong xanh l啤 v岷玭 c貌n nguy锚n v岷� m啤 m峄檔g, c谩i b末u m么i n农ng n峄媢 v岷玭 c貌n nh瓢 th峄� tr瓢峄沜 m岷穞 么ng v岷玭 l脿 ng瓢峄漣 m岷� 膽谩ng k铆nh 岷. Cu峄憂 s谩ch v峄沬 m矛nh th岷璽 vi锚n m茫n, v矛 膽岷縩 cu峄慽 c霉ng ng瓢峄漣 m岷� 膽茫 m岷 tr瓢峄沜 khi th岷 l峄漣 h峄゛ c峄 Gary 膽瓢峄 ho脿n th脿nh nguy锚n v岷筺, v脿 膽岷縩 cu峄慽 么ng ch峄峮 c谩ch t峄� s谩t 膽峄� k岷縯 th煤c c啤n kh谩t c峄 m矛nh.
狈丑瓢 m峄檛 hi峄噓 峄﹏g d芒y chuy峄乶, m矛nh c农ng 膽茫 k峄媝 t岷 m峄檛 l峄漣 h峄゛ l煤c 膽锚m khuya gi峄痑 l煤c m谩 n峄噉 g峄慽 v脿o m矛nh v矛 t峄檌 th峄ヽ khuya: M谩, con h峄゛ v峄沬 m谩, con s岷� kh么ng gi岷縯 ng瓢峄漣 膽芒u, d霉 con c贸 s峄憂g b岷眓g s谩ch 膽i n峄痑 :'(
September 26, 2022
"陌yi olan, annelerin 莽ocuklar谋 d谋艧谋nda da birilerini sevebilmesi. Annemin bir a艧谋臒谋 olsayd谋 e臒er, oluk oluk akan her 莽e艧menin ba艧谋nda susuzluktan 枚lmezdim hayat boyu."
Annemin e艧i Alev Er'in 艦afakta Verilmi艧 S枚z眉m Vard谋'y谋 ilk kez 莽evirmesinin 眉zerinden 40, benim bu kitab谋 okuyup vurulmam谋n 眉zerinden 20 sene ge莽ti ve yeniden bulu艧tuk. Gary'nin annesiyle ili艧kisinin derinlerine dald谋臒谋, en otobiyografik eseri olan ve asl谋nda bir bildungsroman diyebilece臒imiz bu kitab谋 kendi "bildung" s眉recimin farkl谋 a艧amalar谋nda okumak 莽ok iyi hissettirdi - 15 ya艧谋mdayken ba艧ka t眉rl眉 sevmi艧tim, 艧imdi ba艧ka t眉rl眉 sevdim.
Alev Abi, Gary'nin haklar谋 Sel'e ge莽ip kitap yeniden bas谋lacak olunca eski 莽eviriye bir g枚z atmak i莽in oturdu臒unda yazar谋n 1980'de yap谋lan son bask谋ya bir b枚l眉m ekledi臒ini fark etti: 陌lk bask谋da olmayan Zaremba adl谋 bir karakteri (bence harika bir karakter) i莽eren kocaman bir b枚l眉m. Gary, 1980 sonundaki "脟ok e臒lendim, te艧ekk眉r ederim. Ho艧莽akal谋n." c眉mleleriyle biten o unutulmaz mektubu ard谋nda b谋rakarak intihar edi艧inden evvel son bir kez dokunmak istemi艧 kitab谋na anla艧谋lan. Bu bask谋, Avrupa edebiyat谋n谋n bence son b眉y眉k klasiklerinden birinin niha卯 versiyonu.
Avrupa demi艧ken - tam bir Avrupa roman谋 bu. Kundera, Gary, Marias gibi baz谋 yazarlar谋 Avrupa fikrinden ba臒谋ms谋z okuman谋n ve anlaman谋n imkans谋z oldu臒unu d眉艧眉n眉yorum. Avrupa k谋tas谋 de臒il ama: fikri. Bir fikir, bir idea ve ideal, kimi zaman bir 眉topya ve kimi zaman bir hayal k谋r谋kl谋臒谋 olarak Avrupa. Bir Rus Yahudisi annenin Litvanya do臒umlu o臒lunun Goncourt 脰d眉ll眉 bir yazar ve Liberation Ha莽谋 sahibi bir asker ve ba艧konsolos olmas谋n谋n 枚yk眉s眉: tam bir Avrupa, Avrupal谋l谋k hik芒yesi bu i艧te.
Gary'nin dilimize 莽evrilmi艧 neredeyse t眉m kitaplar谋n谋 okudum ben ve kendime hep 艧unu sorar谋m: bu kadar idealist, umutlu, muzip bir adam nas谋l kendini 枚ld眉r眉r? Ben hayat谋mda umudu onun kadar g眉zel anlatan kimseyi okumad谋m 莽眉nk眉. Sorunun cevab谋n谋 h芒l芒 bilmiyorum.
Benim i莽in bir geri d枚n眉艧 kitab谋 olan bu eser, bence Gary okumaya ba艧lamak i莽in en do臒ru adres. Bu sonsuz sevdi臒im, c眉mleleriyle hayat谋m谋n son 20 senesinde b眉y眉k izler b谋rakm谋艧 adam谋n daha 莽ok okunmas谋n谋 莽ok isterim.
Annemin e艧i Alev Er'in 艦afakta Verilmi艧 S枚z眉m Vard谋'y谋 ilk kez 莽evirmesinin 眉zerinden 40, benim bu kitab谋 okuyup vurulmam谋n 眉zerinden 20 sene ge莽ti ve yeniden bulu艧tuk. Gary'nin annesiyle ili艧kisinin derinlerine dald谋臒谋, en otobiyografik eseri olan ve asl谋nda bir bildungsroman diyebilece臒imiz bu kitab谋 kendi "bildung" s眉recimin farkl谋 a艧amalar谋nda okumak 莽ok iyi hissettirdi - 15 ya艧谋mdayken ba艧ka t眉rl眉 sevmi艧tim, 艧imdi ba艧ka t眉rl眉 sevdim.
Alev Abi, Gary'nin haklar谋 Sel'e ge莽ip kitap yeniden bas谋lacak olunca eski 莽eviriye bir g枚z atmak i莽in oturdu臒unda yazar谋n 1980'de yap谋lan son bask谋ya bir b枚l眉m ekledi臒ini fark etti: 陌lk bask谋da olmayan Zaremba adl谋 bir karakteri (bence harika bir karakter) i莽eren kocaman bir b枚l眉m. Gary, 1980 sonundaki "脟ok e臒lendim, te艧ekk眉r ederim. Ho艧莽akal谋n." c眉mleleriyle biten o unutulmaz mektubu ard谋nda b谋rakarak intihar edi艧inden evvel son bir kez dokunmak istemi艧 kitab谋na anla艧谋lan. Bu bask谋, Avrupa edebiyat谋n谋n bence son b眉y眉k klasiklerinden birinin niha卯 versiyonu.
Avrupa demi艧ken - tam bir Avrupa roman谋 bu. Kundera, Gary, Marias gibi baz谋 yazarlar谋 Avrupa fikrinden ba臒谋ms谋z okuman谋n ve anlaman谋n imkans谋z oldu臒unu d眉艧眉n眉yorum. Avrupa k谋tas谋 de臒il ama: fikri. Bir fikir, bir idea ve ideal, kimi zaman bir 眉topya ve kimi zaman bir hayal k谋r谋kl谋臒谋 olarak Avrupa. Bir Rus Yahudisi annenin Litvanya do臒umlu o臒lunun Goncourt 脰d眉ll眉 bir yazar ve Liberation Ha莽谋 sahibi bir asker ve ba艧konsolos olmas谋n谋n 枚yk眉s眉: tam bir Avrupa, Avrupal谋l谋k hik芒yesi bu i艧te.
Gary'nin dilimize 莽evrilmi艧 neredeyse t眉m kitaplar谋n谋 okudum ben ve kendime hep 艧unu sorar谋m: bu kadar idealist, umutlu, muzip bir adam nas谋l kendini 枚ld眉r眉r? Ben hayat谋mda umudu onun kadar g眉zel anlatan kimseyi okumad谋m 莽眉nk眉. Sorunun cevab谋n谋 h芒l芒 bilmiyorum.
Benim i莽in bir geri d枚n眉艧 kitab谋 olan bu eser, bence Gary okumaya ba艧lamak i莽in en do臒ru adres. Bu sonsuz sevdi臒im, c眉mleleriyle hayat谋m谋n son 20 senesinde b眉y眉k izler b谋rakm谋艧 adam谋n daha 莽ok okunmas谋n谋 莽ok isterim.
April 4, 2018
Helen鈥檚 face may have launched a thousand ships in the Iliad, but Roman Gary鈥檚 mother takes the prize for launching and totally shaping her son鈥檚 dramatic life. The successes of Gary鈥檚 career--a prize-winning novelist, an officer who was brave against the enemies of France in WW2, and a diplomat for the French government--were all worked out from early childhood through collusion with her ambitious fantasies for his fate. She outdoes the grip of McCourt鈥檚 mom his development in 鈥淎ngela鈥檚 Ashes鈥� and is more persistently indelible than Jeanette Wells鈥� mother in 鈥淭he Glass Castle.鈥� Yet here we get a prolonged testament of the beneficence of her love through his life, which puts it more in league with the positive testament of McBride鈥檚 鈥淭he Color of Water: A Black Man鈥檚 Tribute to His White Mother.鈥� The tradeoff for Gary comes in the discovery much later of not being able to achieve a comparable nurturing and inspiration through love relationships as a mature adult. You can鈥檛 help looking for the psychopathology in this bond, but more often I was swept along with the sentimental and heroic aspects of the story.
We start with him in his 40s, inexplicably on a beach in Big Sur, California, about 1960, where he dwells on his sense of isolation and seeking the womb-like balm he often gets from the sea. He can鈥檛 help recognizing the void in his life with the loss of his mother, Mina, during the war. From as early as he can remember, it was just her and him, starting with an early impoverished childhood in Vilnius (then part of the Soviet Union), his Jewish father having abandoned them. Her past as a minor actress in Moscow gives her the imagination for a better life for her son. She works her way up from menial jobs to a certain level of success running a consignment shop and then after a move to Warsaw the development of a store selling fake Paris fashions. The lure of France becomes big for both of them and soon her approach to bankruptcy after expensive treatments of Romain鈥檚 kidney disease leads them to gamble on a move to Nice. She makes enough, with a lot of sacrifice, to get him a Catholic education. It was painful for me to experience her working out her dreams of a brilliant future for him in one sphere after another, first in music, then in dance, and painting after that, in each case resulting in a thumb-down verdict by his teachers and tutors about any special talents. Finally, his reading of so much Romantic literature at an early age leads them to settle on writing, which for Mina is on the track toward a Nobel Prize in literature.
Romain develops the good habits of a writer but doesn鈥檛 exactly rise like a rocket. In the meantime, he goes off to law school out of secondary school, consistent with another dream they cook up for him to eventually become a French ambassador. The approach of war leads them next to pursue officers training school, which aligns with a state department ambition as well as serving their beloved new nation. Romain spends quite a bit of time defending this case of a mother and son living through and for each other as wholesome and not a reflection of various Freudian complexes. Yet is first experience of sex in his early teens with a charming housemaid leads her to a searing judgement:
鈥滿other or no mother, there will never be another woman to love you the way she does. That鈥檚 God鈥檚 honest truth鈥�.
It was. But I didn鈥檛 know it then. It was only after my fortieth winter that I began to understand. It was wrong to have been loved so much so young, so early 鈥� you thus acquire a bad habit, the worst habit there is: the habit of being loved.
鈥ou believe 鈥hat it will always be there around you,鈥� that the world owes it to you, and you keep looking, thirsting, summoning, until you find yourself 鈥� with only your brother the ocean able to understand your heart. In your mother鈥檚 love, life makes you a promise at the dawn of life that it will never keep. 鈥ou will go hungry to the end of your days.
Despite this smothery theme, there was a lot of fun and vibrant life in Gary鈥檚 portrayal of scenes from his life along the way, rendered alternatingly in poignant or comic tones. His helping his mother to make income, his learning to deal with bullies at school, his inspiration from mentors of his mind and writing, and his dogged persistence in getting through the rigors and cruelty of aviation training school. Then his separation from home to go to war proudly in a bomber squadron, followed soon by abject despair and a sense of betrayal over France鈥檚 surrender to Hitler and then a succumbing to the call by de Gaulle in exile in England to flee and fight on, first in Morocco and then with the Allies from a base in England. Only 5 of 50 in his group of foreign exiles survived the war. He kept up his writing and published his first novel by the end of the war. After the war, in parallel to his work in the diplomatic corps, his writing of a range of novels earned him two Prix Concourt awards (Roots of Heaven, 1958; The Life Before Us, 1975鈥攂oth of which were made into films). Gary鈥檚 use of humor makes his memoirs a special treat, ranging from slapstick and low humor on one end to refined self-mockery and satirical lashings of humans in general on the other.
Beyond the frame of this book, Gary got divorced from his first wife and soon married the talented and troubled actress Jean Seberg, with whom he had a son. He got involved in Hollywood scriptwriting (e.g. 鈥淭he Longest Day鈥� as well as adaptations of his own book). Wiki surprises me by informing me that Gary challenged Clint Eastwood to a duel for having an affair with his wife. She committed suicide in France in 1979 and he did so a year later, leaving a note that claimed a lack of connection to his choice. Success in his life I guess did not guarantee a durable happiness. His talent in telling a story well lives on.
We start with him in his 40s, inexplicably on a beach in Big Sur, California, about 1960, where he dwells on his sense of isolation and seeking the womb-like balm he often gets from the sea. He can鈥檛 help recognizing the void in his life with the loss of his mother, Mina, during the war. From as early as he can remember, it was just her and him, starting with an early impoverished childhood in Vilnius (then part of the Soviet Union), his Jewish father having abandoned them. Her past as a minor actress in Moscow gives her the imagination for a better life for her son. She works her way up from menial jobs to a certain level of success running a consignment shop and then after a move to Warsaw the development of a store selling fake Paris fashions. The lure of France becomes big for both of them and soon her approach to bankruptcy after expensive treatments of Romain鈥檚 kidney disease leads them to gamble on a move to Nice. She makes enough, with a lot of sacrifice, to get him a Catholic education. It was painful for me to experience her working out her dreams of a brilliant future for him in one sphere after another, first in music, then in dance, and painting after that, in each case resulting in a thumb-down verdict by his teachers and tutors about any special talents. Finally, his reading of so much Romantic literature at an early age leads them to settle on writing, which for Mina is on the track toward a Nobel Prize in literature.
Romain develops the good habits of a writer but doesn鈥檛 exactly rise like a rocket. In the meantime, he goes off to law school out of secondary school, consistent with another dream they cook up for him to eventually become a French ambassador. The approach of war leads them next to pursue officers training school, which aligns with a state department ambition as well as serving their beloved new nation. Romain spends quite a bit of time defending this case of a mother and son living through and for each other as wholesome and not a reflection of various Freudian complexes. Yet is first experience of sex in his early teens with a charming housemaid leads her to a searing judgement:
鈥滿other or no mother, there will never be another woman to love you the way she does. That鈥檚 God鈥檚 honest truth鈥�.
It was. But I didn鈥檛 know it then. It was only after my fortieth winter that I began to understand. It was wrong to have been loved so much so young, so early 鈥� you thus acquire a bad habit, the worst habit there is: the habit of being loved.
鈥ou believe 鈥hat it will always be there around you,鈥� that the world owes it to you, and you keep looking, thirsting, summoning, until you find yourself 鈥� with only your brother the ocean able to understand your heart. In your mother鈥檚 love, life makes you a promise at the dawn of life that it will never keep. 鈥ou will go hungry to the end of your days.
Despite this smothery theme, there was a lot of fun and vibrant life in Gary鈥檚 portrayal of scenes from his life along the way, rendered alternatingly in poignant or comic tones. His helping his mother to make income, his learning to deal with bullies at school, his inspiration from mentors of his mind and writing, and his dogged persistence in getting through the rigors and cruelty of aviation training school. Then his separation from home to go to war proudly in a bomber squadron, followed soon by abject despair and a sense of betrayal over France鈥檚 surrender to Hitler and then a succumbing to the call by de Gaulle in exile in England to flee and fight on, first in Morocco and then with the Allies from a base in England. Only 5 of 50 in his group of foreign exiles survived the war. He kept up his writing and published his first novel by the end of the war. After the war, in parallel to his work in the diplomatic corps, his writing of a range of novels earned him two Prix Concourt awards (Roots of Heaven, 1958; The Life Before Us, 1975鈥攂oth of which were made into films). Gary鈥檚 use of humor makes his memoirs a special treat, ranging from slapstick and low humor on one end to refined self-mockery and satirical lashings of humans in general on the other.
Beyond the frame of this book, Gary got divorced from his first wife and soon married the talented and troubled actress Jean Seberg, with whom he had a son. He got involved in Hollywood scriptwriting (e.g. 鈥淭he Longest Day鈥� as well as adaptations of his own book). Wiki surprises me by informing me that Gary challenged Clint Eastwood to a duel for having an affair with his wife. She committed suicide in France in 1979 and he did so a year later, leaving a note that claimed a lack of connection to his choice. Success in his life I guess did not guarantee a durable happiness. His talent in telling a story well lives on.
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August 7, 2024N茫o 茅 bom ser-se amado assim, t茫o novo, t茫o cedo. Criam-se maus h谩bitos. Julga-se que 茅 poss铆vel encontrar outros semelhantes. Conta-se com isso. Procura-se, espera-se. Com o amor materno a vida faz-vos, no alvorecer, uma promessa que nunca vem cumprir-se.
J谩 li v谩rias mem贸rias sobre m茫es, umas mais deprimentes como 鈥淯ma Morte Suave鈥� de Simone de Beauvoir e 鈥淐arta para Minha M茫e鈥� de Georges Simenon, outras mais mirabolantes como 鈥淣ascido um Crime鈥� de Trevor Noah e 鈥淭u N茫o 茅s Como as Outras M茫es鈥�, de Angelika Schrobsdorff, mas esta 茅 a mais pungente, e a n铆vel de homenagem a um progenitor s贸 encontro equivalente em 鈥淪omos o Esquecimento que Seremos鈥� de H茅ctor Abad Faciolince, que recomendo a toda a gente (que o encontre). Por 鈥淎 Promessa鈥� tamb茅m meto as m茫os no fogo e ando a adiar a recens茫o por cansa莽o e por receio de n茫o lhe fazer justi莽a, mas aqui estou eu a vender o meu peixe: estas mem贸rias l锚em-se como a melhor fic莽茫o, com protagonistas maiores do que a vida e um sarcasmo muito ado莽ado com ternura, com as pequenas vergonhas que s贸 uma m茫e sabe proporcionar, com as pequenas conquistas que s贸 uma m茫e sabe aplaudir, com os pequenos empurr玫es que s贸 uma m茫e sabe dar. E um pai tamb茅m, claro, mas aqui 茅 uma rela莽茫o de uma m茫e solteira e de um filho 煤nico, logo com uma din芒mica e uma interdepend锚ncia muito pr贸prias. Nina, uma judia russa a viver em Vilnius quando Gary recorda os primeiros acontecimentos de inf芒ncia que o encaminharam para ser o 鈥渉appy end鈥� da m茫e, 茅 o caso cabal de um progenitor que tenta realizar-se atrav茅s do filho, que tenta superar todas as suas frustra莽玫es passadas depositando nele todos os seus sonhos de grandeza. Para que n茫o lhe falte o bife di谩rio, Nina revela-se uma mulher dos sete of铆cios.
A minha m茫e transformou um quarto em canil, abriu uma pens茫o para c茫es, gatos e aves, leu a sina, aceitou pensionistas, assumiu a ger锚ncia de um pr茅dio, agiu como intermedi谩ria numa ou duas vendas de terrenos.
Incentiva-o a experimentar todas as artes e desportos em que ele possa brilhar, dando azo a epis贸dios hilariantes em que o jovem Gary experimenta ser tenista, pintor, m煤sico, actor e inclusive malabarista, at茅 decidir aos 12 anos que 茅 como escritor que singrar锟斤拷.
Suplicava-me, al茅m do mais, que n茫o me batesse em duelo, porque as mortes de Lermontov e de Puchkine foram para ela um eterno pesadelo. Como o meu g茅nio liter谩rio lhe parecia t茫o grande como o deles, ela receava que eu viesse a ser o terceiro grande escritor morto em duelo.
脡 uma m茫e que deposita nele uma f茅 sem limites e move mundos e fundos para emigrarem para Fran莽a, o 煤nico pa铆s em que sabe que o seu Romantchik-Romucka pode vir ser um artista e um diplomata de sucesso.
Evidentemente, aos 55 anos 茅 um pouco infantil acreditarmos em tudo o que a nossa m茫e predisse acerca do nosso futuro, mas eu n茫o consigo fugir a isso. N茫o consegui reconstruir o mundo, vencer a animalidade e o mal, restituir a dignidade e a justi莽a aos homens, mas consegui ganhar o torneio de pingue-pongue de Nice em 1932.
Apesar de todos os sacrif铆cios que faz por ele, 茅 uma m茫e exigente e severa, com um c贸digo de honra imperturb谩vel.
- Ol谩. O camarada ainda se conserva entre n贸s? Julg谩vamos que j谩 tivesse partido para Fran莽a, onde o esperam t茫o impacientemente.
(...) O mas velho do grupo interveio:
- L谩 n茫o aceitam as velhas 鈥榗ocottes鈥�. (...)
Quando a minha m茫e regressou a casa, fui ao seu encontro e contei-lhe tudo. (...)
- Ouve-me bem. Na pr贸xima vez que isto te acontecer, que insultem a tua m茫e diante de ti, prefiro que te tragam para casa numa padiola. (...) Lembra-te do que te digo. A partir de agora ter谩s de me defender. 脡-me indiferente que te partam a cara.
Fingi n茫o perceber, ter apenas 12 anos, esconder-me, mas compreendi muit铆ssimo bem.
脡 este jovem idealista que, quando estala a Segunda Guerra Mundial, se alista na For莽a A茅rea com a inten莽茫o de deixar a sua m茫e orgulhosa e sobreviver com gl贸ria.
Pensei em todas as batalhas que iria travar por ela, na promessa que tinha feito a mim mesmo, na alvorada da minha vida, de fazer-lhe justi莽a, de dar um sentido ao seu sacrif铆cio e de regressar um dia ao lar.
Romain Gary haveria de sobreviver 脿 guerra condecorado, apesar de ter sido ferido, e haveria de se tornar diplomata e um escritor famoso premiado por duas vezes com o Prix Goncourt, de se casar com a bela Jean Seberg, mas creio que a forma tr谩gica como morreu teria dado um desgosto insuport谩vel 脿 sua m茫e se nessa altura ainda fosse viva. E at茅 na morte Nina fez as coisas 脿 sua maneira.
Ainda considerava a vida como um g茅nero liter谩rio.
J谩 li v谩rias mem贸rias sobre m茫es, umas mais deprimentes como 鈥淯ma Morte Suave鈥� de Simone de Beauvoir e 鈥淐arta para Minha M茫e鈥� de Georges Simenon, outras mais mirabolantes como 鈥淣ascido um Crime鈥� de Trevor Noah e 鈥淭u N茫o 茅s Como as Outras M茫es鈥�, de Angelika Schrobsdorff, mas esta 茅 a mais pungente, e a n铆vel de homenagem a um progenitor s贸 encontro equivalente em 鈥淪omos o Esquecimento que Seremos鈥� de H茅ctor Abad Faciolince, que recomendo a toda a gente (que o encontre). Por 鈥淎 Promessa鈥� tamb茅m meto as m茫os no fogo e ando a adiar a recens茫o por cansa莽o e por receio de n茫o lhe fazer justi莽a, mas aqui estou eu a vender o meu peixe: estas mem贸rias l锚em-se como a melhor fic莽茫o, com protagonistas maiores do que a vida e um sarcasmo muito ado莽ado com ternura, com as pequenas vergonhas que s贸 uma m茫e sabe proporcionar, com as pequenas conquistas que s贸 uma m茫e sabe aplaudir, com os pequenos empurr玫es que s贸 uma m茫e sabe dar. E um pai tamb茅m, claro, mas aqui 茅 uma rela莽茫o de uma m茫e solteira e de um filho 煤nico, logo com uma din芒mica e uma interdepend锚ncia muito pr贸prias. Nina, uma judia russa a viver em Vilnius quando Gary recorda os primeiros acontecimentos de inf芒ncia que o encaminharam para ser o 鈥渉appy end鈥� da m茫e, 茅 o caso cabal de um progenitor que tenta realizar-se atrav茅s do filho, que tenta superar todas as suas frustra莽玫es passadas depositando nele todos os seus sonhos de grandeza. Para que n茫o lhe falte o bife di谩rio, Nina revela-se uma mulher dos sete of铆cios.
A minha m茫e transformou um quarto em canil, abriu uma pens茫o para c茫es, gatos e aves, leu a sina, aceitou pensionistas, assumiu a ger锚ncia de um pr茅dio, agiu como intermedi谩ria numa ou duas vendas de terrenos.
Incentiva-o a experimentar todas as artes e desportos em que ele possa brilhar, dando azo a epis贸dios hilariantes em que o jovem Gary experimenta ser tenista, pintor, m煤sico, actor e inclusive malabarista, at茅 decidir aos 12 anos que 茅 como escritor que singrar锟斤拷.
Suplicava-me, al茅m do mais, que n茫o me batesse em duelo, porque as mortes de Lermontov e de Puchkine foram para ela um eterno pesadelo. Como o meu g茅nio liter谩rio lhe parecia t茫o grande como o deles, ela receava que eu viesse a ser o terceiro grande escritor morto em duelo.
脡 uma m茫e que deposita nele uma f茅 sem limites e move mundos e fundos para emigrarem para Fran莽a, o 煤nico pa铆s em que sabe que o seu Romantchik-Romucka pode vir ser um artista e um diplomata de sucesso.
Evidentemente, aos 55 anos 茅 um pouco infantil acreditarmos em tudo o que a nossa m茫e predisse acerca do nosso futuro, mas eu n茫o consigo fugir a isso. N茫o consegui reconstruir o mundo, vencer a animalidade e o mal, restituir a dignidade e a justi莽a aos homens, mas consegui ganhar o torneio de pingue-pongue de Nice em 1932.
Apesar de todos os sacrif铆cios que faz por ele, 茅 uma m茫e exigente e severa, com um c贸digo de honra imperturb谩vel.
- Ol谩. O camarada ainda se conserva entre n贸s? Julg谩vamos que j谩 tivesse partido para Fran莽a, onde o esperam t茫o impacientemente.
(...) O mas velho do grupo interveio:
- L谩 n茫o aceitam as velhas 鈥榗ocottes鈥�. (...)
Quando a minha m茫e regressou a casa, fui ao seu encontro e contei-lhe tudo. (...)
- Ouve-me bem. Na pr贸xima vez que isto te acontecer, que insultem a tua m茫e diante de ti, prefiro que te tragam para casa numa padiola. (...) Lembra-te do que te digo. A partir de agora ter谩s de me defender. 脡-me indiferente que te partam a cara.
Fingi n茫o perceber, ter apenas 12 anos, esconder-me, mas compreendi muit铆ssimo bem.
脡 este jovem idealista que, quando estala a Segunda Guerra Mundial, se alista na For莽a A茅rea com a inten莽茫o de deixar a sua m茫e orgulhosa e sobreviver com gl贸ria.
Pensei em todas as batalhas que iria travar por ela, na promessa que tinha feito a mim mesmo, na alvorada da minha vida, de fazer-lhe justi莽a, de dar um sentido ao seu sacrif铆cio e de regressar um dia ao lar.
Romain Gary haveria de sobreviver 脿 guerra condecorado, apesar de ter sido ferido, e haveria de se tornar diplomata e um escritor famoso premiado por duas vezes com o Prix Goncourt, de se casar com a bela Jean Seberg, mas creio que a forma tr谩gica como morreu teria dado um desgosto insuport谩vel 脿 sua m茫e se nessa altura ainda fosse viva. E at茅 na morte Nina fez as coisas 脿 sua maneira.
Ainda considerava a vida como um g茅nero liter谩rio.
September 21, 2020
I read this more or less alongside to Nabokov鈥檚 . There are some obvious parallels between the two writers, or may be the situation, since both were Russians who left soon after the 1917 revolution, where fifteen years apart (Gary was the younger) and who then wrote in the language of the country (countries) where they lived/nationalized. And in both books, we are presented with some sort of biographical account. Nabokov鈥檚 is a literary unveiling of the trappings of this genre, while Gary鈥檚 is presented at face value. There the similarities end.
Gary鈥檚 is a true-to-life memoir of his youth under the persistent guidance of an utterly devoted mother. The book is really an homage to her. She was unmarried and Gary provides just a little information about his father 鈥� married and with children on his side. This further supports the strength and determination of the woman, of Jewish origins. We follow Gary as they moved to Poland, first in Vilnius and then in Warsaw, until they can finally move to France, to the Provence coast. Gary grew under the hammering conviction that La France was the greatest of all countries 鈥� the model of civility for the rest of the world.
We are therefore far away from the world of cynical Nabokov. For a tenderness and unquestioned love permeates the pages of this book. Granted, this ever loving and admiring mother at times became oppressive to a male youth, embarrassing him in front of neighbours, or worse, in front of military companions, with the uncontrolled emanation of praise for her dear and incomparable son. But Gary never doubts the bottomless love from her mother, which does succeed in guiding him through his difficult life. She was indeed a promise at dawn for him.
One memorable aspect is that as Gary was choosing the paths in his life, he says that behind all his strivings to grow under and develop within one of the arts (and he had a hand in music, in painting, in dancing, until finally writing paved his way), there was always a moral goal. Behind his aesthetic longings there was always the ingrained belief that through art, or may be behind the art, there was the aspiration of a better and just world 鈥� a happier one. He was an idealist.
What surprised me and made me rethink about my earlier impression of his , was that he exhibited the great masterly ability of being able to write in different voices. This is a fact, since he fooled the French literary circles during the fifteen years that separated the publication of the two works. And yet, now, reading this earlier work, I could identify the grounds for the filial love that infiltrates both books. Momo is a transliterated version of Romain himself.
This memoir also made me smile when the young Romain spends hours trying to find a 鈥榥om de plume鈥� even before he begins writing anything 鈥� pseudonyms and the fabrication of a personality was then from very early on ingrained in Gary鈥檚 being. In spite of the candid and warm tone of Romain Gary鈥檚 memories of his youth, the reader wonders how much of the account is projecting a wished-for personality and whether one is falling in a beguiling game.
So, after all, this takes us back to Nabokov and his meditation on the artificiality in the writing of biographies. If Nabokov presented the issue in a veiled intellectual manner, the issue is however brought to the fore. But with Romain Gary we are dealing with something else. The fabrication is veiled, disguised, and the reader walks away from this book with the question: "Who is behind the curtain?"
August 18, 2019
Autobiografinis romanas apie tai, kad bambagysl臈 gali nenutr奴kti po gimdymo - s奴n懦 ir motin膮 ji jungia net po jos mirties, iki s奴naus gyvenimo pabaigos.
Atviras pasakojimas apie tai, kaip motinos meil臈 gali b奴ti ir gyvenimo varikliu, ir kompleks懦 bei skausming懦 nes臈kmi懦 拧altiniu.
Motina - keista, savoti拧ka asmenyb臈, pasirinkusi dievinti savo vaik膮 ir paskyrusi vis膮 savo gyvenim膮 jo 拧lovinimui, ugdymui, i拧laikymui, atsities plan懦 k奴rimui. 艩i moteris yra be galo stipri: ji grumiasi su gyvenimu, nepaisydama joki懦 aplinkybi懦 (skurdo, sunkios ligos, pa啪eminim懦, did啪iulio vidinio skausmo). Ta膷iau 拧alia motini拧kos meil臈s savo vaikui u啪krauna ir vyri拧k膮 pareig膮, kuri vis膮 gyvenim膮 yra jam per sunkiai pakeliama: apginti motin膮, atrasti gyvenime ties膮 - pakyl臈ti j膮, i拧pildyti jos svajones. 艩itai tampa ir s奴naus gyvenimo varikliu, ir did啪iuli懦 kompleks懦 拧altiniu. "Kai tau tai atsitiks dar kart膮, kai dar kart膮 tau girdint bus 寞啪eista tavo motina, nor臈膷iau, kad namo tave pargabent懦 ant ne拧tuv懦. Supratai? A拧 netekau amo. Jos veidas buvo visi拧kai neperprantamas, labai grie啪tas. Akyse nebuvo n臈 拧lakelio u啪uojautos. Negal臈jau patik臈ti, kad tai kalba mano motina. Kaip ji dr寞so? Ar a拧 nebuvau jos Romu拧ka, jos ma啪asis princas, jos brangiausias turtas? - Nor臈膷iau, kad tave pargabent懦 namo kruvin膮, girdi? Net jeigu neliks n臈 vieno sveiko kaulo, supratai?".
S奴nus, nor臈damas atlyginti motinai u啪 patirt膮 gyvenimo neteisyb臋, ry啪tasi 寞gyvendinti visus jos planus. 艩imtu procent懦 拧oka pagal mamos d奴del臋, net nesvarstydamas apie kitokias galimybes. Pasakojime pasigirsta ir kitoks tonas: nuovargis, noras i拧silaisvinti ir atsikratyti sunkiasvor臈s motinos meil臈s. Kadangi pasakojama retrospektyviai, subrendusio 啪mogaus ap啪velgiamas jo gyvenimas, patirtys ir jausmai. Atvirai atskleid啪iami skausmingi, gal 啪mogui net g臈dingi dalykai (juk autorius kalba apie savo gyvenim膮!). Pasakojimas apima visus autoriaus gyvenimo etapus: nuo vaikyst臈s iki brandos. Visuose juose girdimas drovaus, prie mamos prisiri拧usio ma啪o berniuko balsas. Labai vertinu 啪inomo ir gerbiamo 啪mogaus sprendim膮 taip atvirai kalb臈ti apie intymiausias savo sielos kerteles.
Citata, puikiai perteikianti autoriaus ir jo motinos santyk寞 bei tokio santykio pasekmes: "Tik pri臈j臋s ketvirt膮 de拧imt寞 prad臈jau tai suprasti. Negerai, kai tave taip myli labai jaun膮, taip anksti. Tada 寞gyji blog懦 寞pro膷i懦. Manai, kad taip ir turi b奴ti. Manai, kad tai ka啪in kur egzistuoja, kad gali tai surasti. Tikiesi. Ie拧kai, viliesi, lauki. Su motinos meile gyvenimas pa膷ioj au拧roj duoda tau pa啪ad膮, kurio nei拧tesi. Paskui iki pat dien懦 galo esi priverstas valgyti 拧alt膮 maist膮. Paskui kiekvien膮syk, kai moteris tave apgl臈bia, prispaud啪ia prie 拧irdies, jauti, kad tai - tiktai u啪uojauta. Ir nuolat, staugdamas kaip benamis 拧uo, sugr寞啪ti prie motinos kapo. Jau niekados, niekados, niekados. 沤avingos rankos apsiveja tau apie kakl膮, be galo 拧velnios l奴pos kalba apie meil臋, bet tu jau visk膮 啪inai. Labai anksti prigludai prie 拧altinio ir j寞 i拧g臈rei iki dugno. Kai v臈l ima kankinti tro拧kulys, berg啪d啪iai bla拧kaisi 寞 visas puses, 拧altini懦 neb臈ra, yra tiktai mira啪ai. Sulig pirmuoju au拧ros blyksniu i拧tyrei meil臋 labai kruop拧膷iai, ir ji paliko tavyje 寞spaud膮. Kad ir kur eitum, visur ne拧iesi palyginim懦 nuod膮 ir lauki to, k膮 jau gavai.
A拧 nesakau, kad reikia drausti motinoms myl臈ti savo ma啪ylius. A拧 tik sakau, kad b奴t懦 daug geriau, jei motinos tur臈t懦 k膮 myl臈ti ir be tav臋s. <...> Savo nelaimei, a拧 i拧manau, kas yra tikri deimantai".
Atviras pasakojimas apie tai, kaip motinos meil臈 gali b奴ti ir gyvenimo varikliu, ir kompleks懦 bei skausming懦 nes臈kmi懦 拧altiniu.
Motina - keista, savoti拧ka asmenyb臈, pasirinkusi dievinti savo vaik膮 ir paskyrusi vis膮 savo gyvenim膮 jo 拧lovinimui, ugdymui, i拧laikymui, atsities plan懦 k奴rimui. 艩i moteris yra be galo stipri: ji grumiasi su gyvenimu, nepaisydama joki懦 aplinkybi懦 (skurdo, sunkios ligos, pa啪eminim懦, did啪iulio vidinio skausmo). Ta膷iau 拧alia motini拧kos meil臈s savo vaikui u啪krauna ir vyri拧k膮 pareig膮, kuri vis膮 gyvenim膮 yra jam per sunkiai pakeliama: apginti motin膮, atrasti gyvenime ties膮 - pakyl臈ti j膮, i拧pildyti jos svajones. 艩itai tampa ir s奴naus gyvenimo varikliu, ir did啪iuli懦 kompleks懦 拧altiniu. "Kai tau tai atsitiks dar kart膮, kai dar kart膮 tau girdint bus 寞啪eista tavo motina, nor臈膷iau, kad namo tave pargabent懦 ant ne拧tuv懦. Supratai? A拧 netekau amo. Jos veidas buvo visi拧kai neperprantamas, labai grie啪tas. Akyse nebuvo n臈 拧lakelio u啪uojautos. Negal臈jau patik臈ti, kad tai kalba mano motina. Kaip ji dr寞so? Ar a拧 nebuvau jos Romu拧ka, jos ma啪asis princas, jos brangiausias turtas? - Nor臈膷iau, kad tave pargabent懦 namo kruvin膮, girdi? Net jeigu neliks n臈 vieno sveiko kaulo, supratai?".
S奴nus, nor臈damas atlyginti motinai u啪 patirt膮 gyvenimo neteisyb臋, ry啪tasi 寞gyvendinti visus jos planus. 艩imtu procent懦 拧oka pagal mamos d奴del臋, net nesvarstydamas apie kitokias galimybes. Pasakojime pasigirsta ir kitoks tonas: nuovargis, noras i拧silaisvinti ir atsikratyti sunkiasvor臈s motinos meil臈s. Kadangi pasakojama retrospektyviai, subrendusio 啪mogaus ap啪velgiamas jo gyvenimas, patirtys ir jausmai. Atvirai atskleid啪iami skausmingi, gal 啪mogui net g臈dingi dalykai (juk autorius kalba apie savo gyvenim膮!). Pasakojimas apima visus autoriaus gyvenimo etapus: nuo vaikyst臈s iki brandos. Visuose juose girdimas drovaus, prie mamos prisiri拧usio ma啪o berniuko balsas. Labai vertinu 啪inomo ir gerbiamo 啪mogaus sprendim膮 taip atvirai kalb臈ti apie intymiausias savo sielos kerteles.
Citata, puikiai perteikianti autoriaus ir jo motinos santyk寞 bei tokio santykio pasekmes: "Tik pri臈j臋s ketvirt膮 de拧imt寞 prad臈jau tai suprasti. Negerai, kai tave taip myli labai jaun膮, taip anksti. Tada 寞gyji blog懦 寞pro膷i懦. Manai, kad taip ir turi b奴ti. Manai, kad tai ka啪in kur egzistuoja, kad gali tai surasti. Tikiesi. Ie拧kai, viliesi, lauki. Su motinos meile gyvenimas pa膷ioj au拧roj duoda tau pa啪ad膮, kurio nei拧tesi. Paskui iki pat dien懦 galo esi priverstas valgyti 拧alt膮 maist膮. Paskui kiekvien膮syk, kai moteris tave apgl臈bia, prispaud啪ia prie 拧irdies, jauti, kad tai - tiktai u啪uojauta. Ir nuolat, staugdamas kaip benamis 拧uo, sugr寞啪ti prie motinos kapo. Jau niekados, niekados, niekados. 沤avingos rankos apsiveja tau apie kakl膮, be galo 拧velnios l奴pos kalba apie meil臋, bet tu jau visk膮 啪inai. Labai anksti prigludai prie 拧altinio ir j寞 i拧g臈rei iki dugno. Kai v臈l ima kankinti tro拧kulys, berg啪d啪iai bla拧kaisi 寞 visas puses, 拧altini懦 neb臈ra, yra tiktai mira啪ai. Sulig pirmuoju au拧ros blyksniu i拧tyrei meil臋 labai kruop拧膷iai, ir ji paliko tavyje 寞spaud膮. Kad ir kur eitum, visur ne拧iesi palyginim懦 nuod膮 ir lauki to, k膮 jau gavai.
A拧 nesakau, kad reikia drausti motinoms myl臈ti savo ma啪ylius. A拧 tik sakau, kad b奴t懦 daug geriau, jei motinos tur臈t懦 k膮 myl臈ti ir be tav臋s. <...> Savo nelaimei, a拧 i拧manau, kas yra tikri deimantai".
April 30, 2019
Gary was enchanting as a man (a real 'poseur' as they say in French) and as a writer, and nothing can put you more under his spell than this autobiography. The novel is focussed on the impressive, but also suffocating figure of his mother, who sacrificed her life for him (getting her family out of Soviet-occupied Latvia and building up a new life in France). But she also continually drove him beyond the limit, at least that is what this book suggests.
The novel is a real gem, because of the layer of humour and the beautiful, lived-through storytelling. But the pedantic fringes, the exagerated worldly wisdoms and the egocentric focus of Gary regularly cause irritation. He can so overdo it that one can question his credibility. Anyway: I love his style so much (he writes the most melodic French), that I can forgive him his defaults.
The novel is a real gem, because of the layer of humour and the beautiful, lived-through storytelling. But the pedantic fringes, the exagerated worldly wisdoms and the egocentric focus of Gary regularly cause irritation. He can so overdo it that one can question his credibility. Anyway: I love his style so much (he writes the most melodic French), that I can forgive him his defaults.
February 10, 2011
This was not the first time I've read a memoir written by a man where the story revolves not only around himself, but also around his mother. I still remember reading Nicholas Gage's "Eleni" where I had the urge to go to Greece and visit the grave of Eleni, Mr. Gage's mother. Frank McCourt's mother wasn't dead yet at the end of "Angela's Ashes" but the story was well-crafted and she was so heroic there that I wasted no time finding out what happened later in "'Tis." In both "Eleni" and "Angela's Ashes" the power was in the stories themselves. Of course, both Messrs. Gage and McCourt are excellent writers and one can say that even the best plot, if narrated badly, ends up an insipid tale not worth telling. But "Promise at Dawn" may be an exception to this. I feel that even a less than sterling narration would not be able to mess up the great story that is in here. It has the tragedy of "Eleni," the humor of "Angela's Ashes," the pathos of both, and more. It has prophecy, the promise at dawn. Gary (real name Romain Kacew) and his mother were poor Russians. His father abandoned them immediately after Gary was born. He became his mother's reason for living and the sole meaning of all her painful struggles. Remember McCourt seeing his mother beg for food in "Angela's Ashes"? Here, Gary recalls having beefsteak during lunchtime when he was a young boy, his mother happily watching him while he eats. She says she can't eat the same because she's on a diet. One day, after he had eaten, he saw his mother hungrily eating her bread after wiping bits thereof upon the leftover sauce and oil of his beefsteak. He left her and wept.
His mother has high hopes for him and is sure he would be successful someday. Gary is only about 8 years old but she tells everyone that they will live in France; her son will become famous; he will be a French Ambassador, write books, win the Nobel Prize for literature and will have his suits made in London. This exuberant pride was a constant embarassment to the young Gary. Eerily, all these became true except the winning of the Nobel Prize (Gary did win, however, France's highest literary award, the Prix Goncourt, TWICE--the only person to do so).
And what great writing especially if, like myself, you read it in the original French!--
"Avec l'amour maternel, la vie vous fait a l'aube une promesse qu'elle ne tient jamais. On est oblige ensuite de manger froid jusqu'a la fin de ses jours. Apres cela, chaque fois qu'une femme vous prend dans ses bras et vous serre sur son coer, ce ne sont pllus que des condoleances. On revient toujours gueuler sur la tombe de sa mere comme un chien abandonne. Jamais plus, jamais plus, jamais plus. Des bras adorables se referment autour de votre cou et des levres tres douces vous parlent d'amour, mais vous etes au courant. Vous etes passe a la source tres tot et vous avez tout bu. Lorsque la soif vous reprend, vous avez beau vous jeter de tous cotes, il n'y a plus de puits, il n'y a que des mirages. Vous avez fait, des la premiere lueur de l'aube, une etude tres serree de l'amour et vous avez sur vous de la documentation. Partout ou vous allez, vous portez en vous le poison des comparaisons et vous passez votre temps a attendre ce que vous avez deja recu."
Too bad that after all his successes in life Mr. Gary shot himself to death on 2 December 1980, a year after his second wife, the beautiful actress Jean Seberg, had committed suicide. Ms Seberg was said to have been unfaithful, having affairs with other men like Warren Beatty, Clint Eastwood, etc. This proved, once more, that even as a mother's love can bring a man to the gate of heaven, a wife's love can drag him back to the depths of hell.
Touche!
His mother has high hopes for him and is sure he would be successful someday. Gary is only about 8 years old but she tells everyone that they will live in France; her son will become famous; he will be a French Ambassador, write books, win the Nobel Prize for literature and will have his suits made in London. This exuberant pride was a constant embarassment to the young Gary. Eerily, all these became true except the winning of the Nobel Prize (Gary did win, however, France's highest literary award, the Prix Goncourt, TWICE--the only person to do so).
And what great writing especially if, like myself, you read it in the original French!--
"Avec l'amour maternel, la vie vous fait a l'aube une promesse qu'elle ne tient jamais. On est oblige ensuite de manger froid jusqu'a la fin de ses jours. Apres cela, chaque fois qu'une femme vous prend dans ses bras et vous serre sur son coer, ce ne sont pllus que des condoleances. On revient toujours gueuler sur la tombe de sa mere comme un chien abandonne. Jamais plus, jamais plus, jamais plus. Des bras adorables se referment autour de votre cou et des levres tres douces vous parlent d'amour, mais vous etes au courant. Vous etes passe a la source tres tot et vous avez tout bu. Lorsque la soif vous reprend, vous avez beau vous jeter de tous cotes, il n'y a plus de puits, il n'y a que des mirages. Vous avez fait, des la premiere lueur de l'aube, une etude tres serree de l'amour et vous avez sur vous de la documentation. Partout ou vous allez, vous portez en vous le poison des comparaisons et vous passez votre temps a attendre ce que vous avez deja recu."
Too bad that after all his successes in life Mr. Gary shot himself to death on 2 December 1980, a year after his second wife, the beautiful actress Jean Seberg, had committed suicide. Ms Seberg was said to have been unfaithful, having affairs with other men like Warren Beatty, Clint Eastwood, etc. This proved, once more, that even as a mother's love can bring a man to the gate of heaven, a wife's love can drag him back to the depths of hell.
Touche!
June 15, 2024
Romain Gary benim ge莽 kald谋臒谋m yazarlardan biri. Kendisiyle yolum ilk defa, y谋llar 枚nce鈥漁nca Yoksulluk Varken鈥� kitab谋yla kesi艧ti. Ancak herkesin 莽ok sevdi臒i o kitap, benim 莽ocuk anlat谋c谋yla bar谋艧amama y眉z眉nden benim i莽in hep s眉r眉ncemede kald谋, geriye 30-40 sayfa kalmas谋na ra臒men asla sonunu getiremedim. 脰nyarg谋lar谋m ve tekrar denemeye karar verdi臒imde ba艧ka eserlerine ge莽mek yerine devam edemedi臒im kitab谋nda 谋srarc谋 olu艧um bug眉ne kadar yazarla benim aramda karanl谋k bir bo艧luk kalmas谋na sebep oldu.
Sonunda ya艧anmas谋 gereken o tan谋艧ma olabilecek en duygusal 艧ekilde ya艧and谋. 艦afakta Verilmi艧 S枚z眉m Vard谋鈥檇a otobiyografi okuyaca臒谋m谋 biliyordum ancak bu kadar a莽谋k, filtresiz ve vurucu bir hikayeyi beklemiyordum. Kitap her ne kadar Romain Gary鈥檔in otobiyografisi gibi okunsa da asl谋nda b眉t眉n an谋lar谋n ba艧 karakteri annesi Nina Kacew. Hayat谋n her a艧amas谋nda elinden geleni yap谋p yine de kaybeden tarafa savrulmu艧 bir annenin hayatta b眉t眉n ama莽lar谋n谋 ve g眉c眉n眉 o臒lunu kazanan tarafa ge莽irebilme, Vilnius鈥檛a yoksullu臒un ve kaosun ortas谋na do臒an o臒lunu Frans谋z B眉y眉kel莽isi ve 枚d眉ll眉 bir yazar yapma hayallerinin ve bunun ger莽e臒e ula艧mas谋n谋n hikayesi bir bak谋ma. Ancak b枚yle imkans谋z bir hayalin ger莽e臒e ula艧t谋臒谋n谋 g枚rmek kadar anne o臒ul aras谋ndaki grotesk ili艧kiyi ve bu ili艧kiyi okuduk莽a kan谋ksay谋p yad谋rgamay谋 b谋rakt谋臒谋n谋z谋 farketmeniz daha 艧a艧谋rt谋c谋 olabilir. Hayat谋 boyunca b眉t眉n g眉c眉n眉, eme臒ini ve hatta a艧k谋n谋 o臒lundan 莽ok 眉nl眉 bir sanat莽谋 ve g眉莽l眉 bir adam yaratabilmek i莽in 莽ocu臒una adayan ve bu yol ile bir bak谋ma hayattan alaca臒谋n谋 tahsil etmeyi planlayan bir annenin, yaratt谋臒谋 o g眉莽l眉 erke臒i bir yandan da annesi d谋艧谋nda hi莽 kimsenin yeterince sevemeyece臒i ve hep yaln谋z hissedece臒i k谋r谋lgan bir erkek 莽ocu臒una hapsetmesini bu ac谋y谋 莽eken ki艧inin kaleminden okumak 莽ok enteresan. 脟眉nk眉 hayat谋n谋n koca bir trajediye d枚n眉艧mesine 眉zerine sava艧 eklenmesine, ac谋lar谋na, pi艧manl谋klar谋na, yaln谋zl谋臒谋na ve s谋k谋艧m谋艧l谋臒谋na ra臒men y眉re臒iniz -en az谋ndan d眉艧眉nd眉臒眉n眉z 枚l莽眉de- daralm谋yor. Bunda yazar谋n benimsedi臒i, bu kitab谋nda da ge莽en ama bence 莽eviride biraz g眉c眉n眉 kaybetmi艧 olan 鈥淟鈥檋umour est une d茅claration de dignit茅, une affirmation de la sup茅riorit茅 de l鈥檋omme sur ce qui lui arrive. ( Humor is an affirmation of dignity, a declaration of man鈥檚 superiority to all that befalls him.)鈥� manifestosu 莽ok etkili. Bu konuda bir genelleme yapmak asla do臒ru de臒il biliyorum ama bu kendimi durduraca臒谋m anlam谋na gelmiyor; travmalarla k谋r谋l谋p par莽alara ayr谋lm谋艧 hayatlar谋n谋 bir arada tutmaya yeniden b眉t眉nlenmeye 莽al谋艧anlar谋n ortak yolu olarak mizah谋n ac谋y谋 ve karanl谋臒谋 y谋k谋c谋 etkisine s谋臒谋nmas谋 b眉t眉n kitaba hakim. Bazen g眉l眉mseyerek okudu臒unuz bir c眉mlenin ger莽ek hayattaki trajedisini 眉莽 saniye sonra idrak ediyorsunuz, g眉l眉msemeniz y眉z眉n眉zde donup kal谋yor ve 鈥� nas谋l bir ac谋 bu鈥� diye kalakal谋yorsunuz. Bir bak谋ma hayat谋n kendisiyle oynad谋臒谋 gibi, Romain Gary - hayat谋 boyunca yapt谋臒谋 眉zere- okuruyla oynuyor. Size hayat谋n谋n en gizli an谋lar谋na kadar a莽arken bir yandan da 鈥� ne kadar谋n谋n ger莽ek oldu臒unu d眉艧眉n眉p dur 艧imdi鈥� deyip ortada b谋rak谋yor. Bu y眉zden 莽ok sevdim. 艦afakta Verilmi艧 S枚z眉m Vard谋 benim yazarla ili艧kimi silip en ba艧谋ndan yazan bir kitap oldu. Belki bir g眉n Onca Yoksulluk Varken鈥檌 de bitiririm kim bilir. Ayr谋ca kitab谋 okuduktan sonra 鈥溑瀉fakta Verilmi艧 S枚z眉m Vard谋鈥� c眉mleci臒i 枚yle bir t谋nl谋yor ki i莽imde her seferinde g枚zlerim doluyor. Verdikleri s枚zleri tutmalar谋 zaman谋n d枚n眉艧s眉zl眉臒眉nden imkans谋za d眉艧m眉艧 her insan谋n i莽inde kor gibi kalacakt谋r bu kitap.
Sonunda ya艧anmas谋 gereken o tan谋艧ma olabilecek en duygusal 艧ekilde ya艧and谋. 艦afakta Verilmi艧 S枚z眉m Vard谋鈥檇a otobiyografi okuyaca臒谋m谋 biliyordum ancak bu kadar a莽谋k, filtresiz ve vurucu bir hikayeyi beklemiyordum. Kitap her ne kadar Romain Gary鈥檔in otobiyografisi gibi okunsa da asl谋nda b眉t眉n an谋lar谋n ba艧 karakteri annesi Nina Kacew. Hayat谋n her a艧amas谋nda elinden geleni yap谋p yine de kaybeden tarafa savrulmu艧 bir annenin hayatta b眉t眉n ama莽lar谋n谋 ve g眉c眉n眉 o臒lunu kazanan tarafa ge莽irebilme, Vilnius鈥檛a yoksullu臒un ve kaosun ortas谋na do臒an o臒lunu Frans谋z B眉y眉kel莽isi ve 枚d眉ll眉 bir yazar yapma hayallerinin ve bunun ger莽e臒e ula艧mas谋n谋n hikayesi bir bak谋ma. Ancak b枚yle imkans谋z bir hayalin ger莽e臒e ula艧t谋臒谋n谋 g枚rmek kadar anne o臒ul aras谋ndaki grotesk ili艧kiyi ve bu ili艧kiyi okuduk莽a kan谋ksay谋p yad谋rgamay谋 b谋rakt谋臒谋n谋z谋 farketmeniz daha 艧a艧谋rt谋c谋 olabilir. Hayat谋 boyunca b眉t眉n g眉c眉n眉, eme臒ini ve hatta a艧k谋n谋 o臒lundan 莽ok 眉nl眉 bir sanat莽谋 ve g眉莽l眉 bir adam yaratabilmek i莽in 莽ocu臒una adayan ve bu yol ile bir bak谋ma hayattan alaca臒谋n谋 tahsil etmeyi planlayan bir annenin, yaratt谋臒谋 o g眉莽l眉 erke臒i bir yandan da annesi d谋艧谋nda hi莽 kimsenin yeterince sevemeyece臒i ve hep yaln谋z hissedece臒i k谋r谋lgan bir erkek 莽ocu臒una hapsetmesini bu ac谋y谋 莽eken ki艧inin kaleminden okumak 莽ok enteresan. 脟眉nk眉 hayat谋n谋n koca bir trajediye d枚n眉艧mesine 眉zerine sava艧 eklenmesine, ac谋lar谋na, pi艧manl谋klar谋na, yaln谋zl谋臒谋na ve s谋k谋艧m谋艧l谋臒谋na ra臒men y眉re臒iniz -en az谋ndan d眉艧眉nd眉臒眉n眉z 枚l莽眉de- daralm谋yor. Bunda yazar谋n benimsedi臒i, bu kitab谋nda da ge莽en ama bence 莽eviride biraz g眉c眉n眉 kaybetmi艧 olan 鈥淟鈥檋umour est une d茅claration de dignit茅, une affirmation de la sup茅riorit茅 de l鈥檋omme sur ce qui lui arrive. ( Humor is an affirmation of dignity, a declaration of man鈥檚 superiority to all that befalls him.)鈥� manifestosu 莽ok etkili. Bu konuda bir genelleme yapmak asla do臒ru de臒il biliyorum ama bu kendimi durduraca臒谋m anlam谋na gelmiyor; travmalarla k谋r谋l谋p par莽alara ayr谋lm谋艧 hayatlar谋n谋 bir arada tutmaya yeniden b眉t眉nlenmeye 莽al谋艧anlar谋n ortak yolu olarak mizah谋n ac谋y谋 ve karanl谋臒谋 y谋k谋c谋 etkisine s谋臒谋nmas谋 b眉t眉n kitaba hakim. Bazen g眉l眉mseyerek okudu臒unuz bir c眉mlenin ger莽ek hayattaki trajedisini 眉莽 saniye sonra idrak ediyorsunuz, g眉l眉msemeniz y眉z眉n眉zde donup kal谋yor ve 鈥� nas谋l bir ac谋 bu鈥� diye kalakal谋yorsunuz. Bir bak谋ma hayat谋n kendisiyle oynad谋臒谋 gibi, Romain Gary - hayat谋 boyunca yapt谋臒谋 眉zere- okuruyla oynuyor. Size hayat谋n谋n en gizli an谋lar谋na kadar a莽arken bir yandan da 鈥� ne kadar谋n谋n ger莽ek oldu臒unu d眉艧眉n眉p dur 艧imdi鈥� deyip ortada b谋rak谋yor. Bu y眉zden 莽ok sevdim. 艦afakta Verilmi艧 S枚z眉m Vard谋 benim yazarla ili艧kimi silip en ba艧谋ndan yazan bir kitap oldu. Belki bir g眉n Onca Yoksulluk Varken鈥檌 de bitiririm kim bilir. Ayr谋ca kitab谋 okuduktan sonra 鈥溑瀉fakta Verilmi艧 S枚z眉m Vard谋鈥� c眉mleci臒i 枚yle bir t谋nl谋yor ki i莽imde her seferinde g枚zlerim doluyor. Verdikleri s枚zleri tutmalar谋 zaman谋n d枚n眉艧s眉zl眉臒眉nden imkans谋za d眉艧m眉艧 her insan谋n i莽inde kor gibi kalacakt谋r bu kitap.
March 16, 2014
B峄憂 n膬m qua, t么i 膽茫 ph岷 m峄檛 sai l岷 l峄沶.
T么i 膽茫 膽峄峜 Cu峄檆 s峄憂g 峄� tr瓢峄沜 m岷穞 c农ng c峄 Romain Gary v脿 t么i 膽茫 ca t峄g cu峄憂 膽贸 h岷縯 l峄漣. H么m nay t么i bi岷縯 t么i 膽茫 sai l岷.
Kh么ng ph岷 h么m nay t么i ph谩t hi峄噉 ra Cu峄檆 s峄憂g 峄� tr瓢峄沜 m岷穞 kh么ng hay, m脿 l脿 t么i ph谩t hi峄噉 ra L峄漣 h峄゛ l煤c b矛nh minh th岷璵 ch铆 c貌n hay h啤n.
T岷 sao b峄憂 n膬m qua t么i c贸 th峄� b峄� qua n贸? H峄�?
T么i 膽茫 膽峄峜 Cu峄檆 s峄憂g 峄� tr瓢峄沜 m岷穞 c农ng c峄 Romain Gary v脿 t么i 膽茫 ca t峄g cu峄憂 膽贸 h岷縯 l峄漣. H么m nay t么i bi岷縯 t么i 膽茫 sai l岷.
Kh么ng ph岷 h么m nay t么i ph谩t hi峄噉 ra Cu峄檆 s峄憂g 峄� tr瓢峄沜 m岷穞 kh么ng hay, m脿 l脿 t么i ph谩t hi峄噉 ra L峄漣 h峄゛ l煤c b矛nh minh th岷璵 ch铆 c貌n hay h啤n.
T岷 sao b峄憂 n膬m qua t么i c贸 th峄� b峄� qua n贸? H峄�?
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June 18, 2021膼岷窹!
Nhi峄乽 ng瓢峄漣 nh岷璶 x茅t t么i theo ch峄� ngh末a c岷 to脿n. Kh么ng th峄� ph峄� nh岷璶, d霉 khi岷縨 khuy岷縯 l峄� ch峄� 膽岷 m矛nh. T么i v峄玜 膬n xong qu岷� t谩o xanh, tr瓢峄沜 膽贸 ph岷 loay hoay t矛m 膽岷 c峄� ph霉 h峄 膽峄� b峄痑 b峄� sung vitamin n脿y th锚m m脿u (m猫). T么i s岷� th岷 ngon mi峄噉g h啤n n岷縰 膽瓢峄 膬n c啤m v峄沬 m峄檛 膽么i 膽农a g峄� 膽岷 nh峄�.
V脿 nh瓢 th岷� t峄� t么i s岷� th岷 thi岷縰 s贸t v么 ch峄玭g n岷縰 b脿i vi岷縯 n脿y kh么ng 膽岷 膽岷縩 nh峄痭g c芒u t峄� 膽岷筽 ch芒n th脿nh nh岷 c贸 th峄� d脿nh cho quy峄僴 s谩ch 膽岷筽 v么 ng岷 v峄沬 b矛a minh h峄峚 膽岷筽 nh瓢 tranh v岷� - L峄漣 h峄゛ l煤c b矛nh minh!
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T么i th岷� m矛nh c霉ng quy峄僴 s谩ch v峄沬 t芒m tr岷g n芒ng niu v脿 膽峄� d脿nh v脿o nh峄痭g ng脿y cu峄慽 膽么ng Nha Trang se l岷h, sau h啤n b岷 th谩ng mua 膽瓢峄 v脿 l芒u h啤n th岷� n峄痑 k峄� t峄� l岷 膽岷 ti锚n th岷 tr锚n ti峄噈 s谩ch Kafka. T么i 膽峄� l岷 sau ch贸t v脿 膽峄峜 nh铆n. 狈丑瓢 t么i lu么n d脿nh nh峄痭g m贸n ngon nh岷 trong kh岷﹗ ph岷 膬n v脿o nh峄痭g mi岷縩g cu峄慽 c霉ng, 膽峄� d瓢 v峄� 膽峄峮g l岷 n啤i 膽岷 l瓢峄. N啤i 膽u么i m岷痶. N岷縰 膽峄峜 quy峄僴 s谩ch r峄搃, ho岷穋 n岷縰 膽瓢峄 l峄沶 l锚n trong t矛nh y锚u c峄 m岷�, b岷 s岷� 铆t nhi峄乽 kh么ng c瓢峄漣 kh岷﹜ th岷 t么i qu谩 th岷璶 tr峄峮g khi 膽峄峜 L峄漣 h峄゛ hay khi vi岷縯 nh峄痭g d貌ng n脿y.
狈丑瓢 m峄峣 d岷g th峄ヽ c峄 t矛nh y锚u, t矛nh m岷玼 t峄� c农ng kh么ng c贸 m峄檛 膽峄媙h ngh末a khu么n m岷玼 nh岷 膽峄媙h n脿o. M峄檛 膽峄゛ con hi岷縰 th岷, y锚u m岷�, d末 nhi锚n. M峄檛 膽峄゛ con s岷� lu么n l脿m h脿i l貌ng m岷�, d末 nhi锚n, n岷縰 t瓢啤ng lai r岷g r峄� theo m峄檛 k岷� ho岷h 膽瓢峄 v岷h s岷祅. 狈丑瓢ng m峄檛 膽峄゛ con l峄� 膽i nh峄痭g nguy峄噉 v峄峮g c峄 m岷� 膽峄� theo 膽u峄昳 nh峄痭g 膽am m锚 ho脿i b茫o ri锚ng, m峄檛 膽峄゛ con b岷 hi岷縰 th矛 sao? Kh么ng ai hi峄僽 l貌ng ng瓢峄漣 膽峄� s芒u 膽峄� tr岷� l峄漣 nan 膽峄� n脿y!
Ng瓢峄漣 ta th瓢峄漬g d霉ng l峄慽 vi岷縯 膽峄慽 l岷璸 tr锚n 膽峄� kh茅o l茅o d岷玭 t峄沬 膽i峄乽 m矛nh mu峄憂 膽峄� c岷璸 l脿 d峄� th瓢峄漬g nh瓢ng ch岷 nh岷璶 膽瓢峄. C貌n t么i, ch峄� 膽峄� nh岷 m岷h, Romain Gary v脿 m岷� 么ng l脿 膽i峄僴 h矛nh c峄 c岷穚 m岷� con y锚u nhau b岷眓g m峄檛 t矛nh c岷 truy峄乶 th峄憂g: M岷� 膽岷穞 v脿o 么ng ni峄乵 hy v峄峮g tr峄峮 v岷筺 v脿 么ng 膽茫 hi岷縰 th岷 v峄沬 m岷� b岷眓g t岷 th岷 nh峄痭g g矛 m峄檛 ng瓢峄漣 膽脿n 么ng Ph谩p b岷 l末nh nh岷 c岷-n锚n-ph岷 l脿m, t峄� khi tu峄昳 ch瓢a l锚n m瓢峄漣.
Th峄眂 hi峄噉 l峄漣 h峄゛ l煤c b矛nh minh! C峄 cu峄檆 膽峄漣!
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Th峄� v铆 t矛nh c岷 truy峄乶 th峄憂g hi峄噉 h峄痷 gi峄痑 Romain v脿 m岷� nh瓢 nh峄媝 tim li峄乶 m岷h bi峄僽 hi峄噉 s峄� s峄憂g, s岷� r玫 h啤n n岷縰 nh矛n v脿o 膽i峄噉 t芒m 膽峄�, t么i th岷 d貌ng 膽i峄噉 tim 岷 bi岷縩 thi锚n theo cu峄檆 膽峄漣 g岷璸 gh峄乶h c峄 hai m岷� con Romain.
C贸 khi, m岷� y锚u Romain b峄焛 m峄檛 t矛nh y锚u c峄� h峄� m脿 b岷 c峄� 膽峄゛ con n脿o tr锚n th岷� gian n脿y c农ng 铆t nh岷 m峄檛 l岷 trong 膽峄漣 c岷 th岷 x岷 h峄�, m岷痗 c峄�, qu锚 膽峄�, 膽峄� b峄玭g m岷穞, h啤i n贸ng b峄慶 l锚n t峄� tai t峄沬 膽峄塶h 膽岷, mu峄憂 ch岷 tr峄慽 ch岷縯, mu峄憂 chui xu峄憂g 膽岷, mu峄憂 bay h啤i, mu峄憂 l岷痗 膽岷 nh瓢 tr峄憂g b峄廼 v脿 r峄搃 th峄憈 l锚n, a ha ha, b脿 岷 kh么ng ph岷 m岷� t么i, kh么ng ph岷 膽芒u. G贸c 膽峄� c峄� h峄� n脿y xu岷 ph谩t t峄� c谩i nh矛n c峄 膽峄゛ con - Romain hay l脿 t么i - th矛 t矛nh m岷� 膽么i khi th岷璽 ti锚u c峄眂, nh瓢ng 膽峄昳 l岷 t峄� m岷� th矛 膽贸 l脿: C岷� th岷� gi峄沬 c贸 th峄� x岷 h峄�, nh瓢ng m岷� th矛 kh么ng.
T矛nh y锚u 岷 c贸 l煤c 膽岷 膽岷縩 膽峄塶h 膽i峄僲 c峄 t矛nh m岷玼 t峄� c峄眂 膽oan. Romain d峄� th瓢峄漬g h峄漬 gh茅t m岷� 膽岷縩 mu峄憂 tho谩t kh峄廼 v貌ng t矛nh y锚u c峄 b脿, kh么ng ph岷 膽峄 膽岷縩 n膬m n膬m sau, khi 么ng m瓢峄漣 b岷 tu峄昳 v脿 mu峄憂 t矛m ng瓢峄漣 b岷 b岷 cho m岷� trong ph岷 膽峄漣 c貌n l岷 膽峄� kh么ng ph岷 ch峄慽 t峄� cu峄檆 s峄憂g 膽脿n 么ng, m脿 l脿 khi h脿nh ngh峄� t谩t thu锚 (b峄焛 m岷�) l芒u d脿i v脿 xu岷 s岷痗, khi b峄� 膬n li锚n ti岷縫 m岷 c谩i t谩t (t峄� m岷�), khi 膽瓢峄 (hay b峄� m岷�) m岷h m岷� y锚u c岷 ph岷 b岷 v峄� b脿 d岷玼 c贸 b岷眓g t铆nh m岷g. V矛 ng瓢峄漣 kh谩c x煤c ph岷 nh芒n c谩ch c峄 b脿.
Ch岷硁g khi n脿o t矛nh y锚u c峄 m岷� Romain l脿 m峄檛 d貌ng 膽i峄噉 tim th岷硁g 膽啤, c脿ng kh么ng 膽峄﹖ nh峄媝. C峄� h峄�, c峄眂 膽oan c农ng ch瓢a 膽峄� 膽峄� n贸i v峄� b脿 m岷� 膽岷穋 bi峄噒 n脿y.
狈丑瓢 nh峄痭g c峄眂 膽i峄噉 膽岷穞 峄� tay, ch芒n v脿 ng峄眂 s岷� cho th岷 nh峄痭g b峄噉h v峄� tim tr锚n 膽i峄噉 t芒m 膽峄�, b脿 lu么n g峄璱 g岷痬 v脿o c岷璾 con trai m峄檛 t矛nh y锚u ng芒y th啤 b岷眓g v么 s峄� nh峄痭g nguy峄噉 v峄峮g, m脿 t峄� b峄� ph贸ng 膽贸 Romain g岷穞 h谩i 膽瓢峄 nhi峄乽 th脿nh c么ng g岷 膽煤ng nh瓢 ti锚n 膽o谩n c峄 m岷�: 膽o岷 Hu芒n ch瓢啤ng B岷痗 膽岷﹗ B峄檌 tinh, tr峄� th脿nh T峄昻g l茫nh s峄� Ph谩p, hai l岷 膽o岷 gi岷 Goncourt. B岷眓g ni峄乵 tin v峄痭g ch岷痗 c峄 m岷�, Romain 膽茫 bi岷縩 m峄檛 b脿 m岷� ng芒y th啤 trong m岷痶 h脿ng x贸m th脿nh b脿 m岷� c贸 kh岷� n膬ng ti锚n 膽o谩n s峄� ph岷璶. Kh么ng. M岷� 么ng kh么ng ph岷 nh脿 ti锚n tri. M岷� c霉ng v峄沬 nh峄痭g c峄眂 膽i峄噉 ni峄乵 tin c峄 b脿 膽茫 gi煤p Romain lo岷 b峄� d岷 nh峄痭g c膬n b峄噉h thi锚n h瓢峄沶g l峄嘽h l岷, nh岷 nh峄峵 v脿 g岷痭g g瓢峄g n脿o h峄檌 h峄峚 芒m nh岷, n脿o ca k峄媍h 膽i峄噉 岷h 膽峄� th岷 膽瓢峄 thi锚n h瓢峄沶g ch芒n ch铆nh c峄 么ng: V膬n ch瓢啤ng.
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狈丑瓢 膽茫 n贸i, kh么ng ai hi峄僽 l貌ng ng瓢峄漣 膽峄� s芒u 膽峄� nh岷璶 膽峄媙h th岷� n脿o l脿 m峄檛 膽峄゛ con c贸 hi岷縰 hay b岷 hi岷縰. C农ng v岷瓂, kh么ng ai 膽峄� th么ng th谩i (nh芒n d峄媝 v峄玜 膽峄峜 xong Th么ng th谩i v脿 s峄� ph岷璶) 膽峄� nh岷璶 x茅t t矛nh y锚u c峄 m峄檛 ng瓢峄漣 m岷� trao con l脿 膽煤ng hay sai, nhi峄乽 hay 铆t, t铆ch c峄眂 hay ti锚u c峄眂. Kh么ng, n锚n t么i sai r峄搃.
Th岷璽 ra v铆 t矛nh y锚u c峄 Romain v脿 m岷� v峄沬 nh峄媝 tim ch峄� 膽煤ng khi b脿 c貌n 峄� 膽贸, s峄憂g, y锚u 么ng v峄沬 m峄檛 t矛nh y锚u c峄� h峄�, ng芒y th啤 v脿 c峄眂 膽oan. 狈丑瓢ng l脿 sai, sai m峄檛 c谩ch 膽ui m霉, v矛 t矛nh y锚u 岷 c貌n 膽岷璸 nh峄痭g nh峄媝 ch岷璵 r茫i, 峄昻 膽峄媙h, dai d岷硁g m脿 kh么ng m谩y 膽o 膽i峄噉 t芒m 膽峄� n脿o 膽峄� nh岷 c贸 th峄� hi峄僴 hi峄噉 cho t么i th岷.
V岷瓂 h茫y b峄� qua c谩c lo岷 m谩y m贸c, t么i th峄� chi岷縰 谩nh s谩ng t矛nh y锚u n脿y l锚n v霉ng quang ph峄�. N贸 c贸 膽峄� c谩c s岷痗 t峄� 膽峄�, cam, v脿ng, l峄, lam, ch脿m, t铆m. Ch煤ng h峄檌 t峄� v脿 bi岷縩 thi锚n li锚n t峄 t岷 n锚n m峄檛 谩nh s谩ng tr岷痭g tinh khi岷縯, lung linh, r岷g r峄� - 谩nh n岷痭g. V脿 d岷玼 c贸 l煤c n脿o 膽贸 谩nh n岷痭g t矛nh y锚u 岷 kh么ng c貌n 膽峄� s谩ng 膽峄� soi r峄峣 膽瓢峄漬g 膽i cho Romain th矛 c农ng s岷� c贸 谩nh tr膬ng t峄� t瓢峄漬g n瓢峄沜 b瓢峄沜 cho 么ng. V农 tr峄� n脿y kh么ng ng脿y th矛 膽锚m, kh么ng m岷穞 tr峄漣 th矛 m岷穞 tr膬ng, kh么ng 谩nh n岷痭g th矛 谩nh tr膬ng - v末nh c峄璾 nh瓢 t矛nh y锚u c峄 m岷� d脿nh cho Romain, v脿 ng瓢峄 l岷.
T么i 膽茫 ch岷 h岷縯 m峄ヽ c贸 th峄� su峄慽 ng么n t峄� c岷 kh么 c峄 m矛nh 膽峄� th峄� hi峄噉 t么i y锚u L峄漣 h峄゛ 膽岷縩 nh瓢峄漬g n脿o...
Khi 膽峄﹏g tr瓢峄沜 c谩i 膽岷筽, ch煤ng ta kh岷� d末 (nh芒n ti峄噉, Romain s峄� d峄g t峄� n脿y nhi峄乽 膽岷縩 n峄梚 t么i nh峄痭g mu峄憂 g峄峣 么ng l脿 Ng脿i Kh岷� D末) s峄痭g s峄� kh么ng th峄憈 n锚n l峄漣 ho岷穋 l岷痯 b岷痯 kh么ng th脿nh c芒u. 狈丑瓢 th岷�, t么i thu峄檆 tr瓢峄漬g h峄 th峄� hai (t么i n贸i nhi峄乽 c峄� ch峄玭g n脿y t峄� c啤 m脿). Qu谩 瓢 么m 膽峄搈, t么i kh么ng t岷璸 trung th峄� hi峄噉 膽瓢峄 c谩i 膽岷筽 ch芒n th脿nh mu峄憂 b脿i vi岷縯 膽岷 t峄沬. Gi峄憂g nh瓢 t么i kh么ng t矛m 膽瓢峄 c谩ch n脿o tinh t岷� h啤n 膽峄� khen ng峄 b矛a s谩ch, ngo脿i b岷 膽岷筽 nh瓢 tranh v岷�, m脿 th岷璽 th矛 n贸 ch铆nh l脿 t峄� t谩c ph岷﹎ c峄 danh h峄峚 Gustav Klimt.
脭i, c贸 sao ch膬ng n峄痑, xin nh峄痭g con ng瓢峄漣 l脿m n锚n L峄漣 h峄゛ h茫y 膽峄玭g ch锚 b么i!
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狈丑瓢 B峄� thi锚u s峄憂g, Ba 啤i m矛nh 膽i 膽芒u? l脿 nh峄痭g t峄� truy峄噉 t么i 膽茫 膽峄峜, L峄漣 h峄゛ c农ng 膽茫 hay b峄焛 ch铆nh cu峄檆 膽峄漣 th岷璽 trong n贸. 狈丑瓢ng h啤n th岷� n峄痑, t谩c gi岷� k峄� v峄� cu峄檆 膽峄漣 么ng, cu峄檆 膽峄漣 m岷�, t矛nh y锚u c峄 么ng v脿 m岷� b岷眓g m峄檛 v膬n phong dung d峄�, d铆 d峄弇 m脿 th么ng minh, kh么ng nh瓢 v岷� v膬n ch瓢啤ng m峄� l峄� t峄玭g th岷 trong Bi峄僴. Bi峄僴 c峄 John Banville l脿 c谩i 膽岷筽 c峄 v膬n ch瓢啤ng 膽瓢峄 v岷� b岷眓g m峄檛 h岷 膽峄漣 bu峄搉, c貌n L峄漣 h峄゛ c峄 Romain Gary l脿 m峄檛 cu峄檆 膽峄漣 膽岷筽 膽瓢峄 d峄噒 th锚u b峄焛 s峄 t啤 v膬n ch瓢啤ng.
C贸 l煤c t么i t铆 n峄痑 th矛 phun m瓢a l锚n trang s谩ch khi 么ng so s谩nh m岷� tr么ng 么ng 膬n v峄沬 ni峄乵 h峄沶 h峄� nh瓢 ch贸 cho con b煤. C贸 l煤c t么i x煤c 膽峄檔g r峄沵 n瓢峄沜 m岷痶 khi Romain k峄� v峄� l岷 膽岷 ti锚n ph谩t hi峄噉 ra m岷� 膬n v峄g m峄� trong ch岷 chi锚n beefsteak. R峄搃 t么i 膽茫 ph峄 s谩t 膽岷 v峄沬 m峄檛 Romain l谩u c谩 khi b峄媋 ra l媒 do v矛 sao 么ng kh么ng 膽瓢峄 phong s末 quan v峄沬 lon thi岷縰 煤y: quy岷縩 r农 v峄� ch峄� huy Tr瓢峄漬g - m峄檛 t岷 khi锚n che ch岷痭 qu谩 s峄ヽ t峄憈 v矛 c貌n ki锚m nhi峄噈 v峄� 膽谩nh chu岷﹏ v脿o t芒m l媒 c峄 m岷�. (B脿 lu么n lu么n, lu么n lu么n mu峄憂 么ng c贸 m峄檛 ng瓢峄漣 ph峄� n峄� trong 膽峄漣.) R峄搃 th矛 t么i kh么ng kh峄廼 b霉i ng霉i 膽岷縩 s峄 s峄媡 khi l峄� m峄� nh岷璶 ra s峄� th岷璽 膽岷眓g sau nh峄痭g b峄ヽ th瓢 kh么ng 膽岷 kh么ng 膽u么i, ki峄噈 l峄漣 v脿 v么 膽峄� c峄 m岷� Romain.
T峄� th芒n cu峄檆 膽峄漣 trong L峄漣 h峄゛ v峄沬 b煤t ph谩p k峄� chuy峄噉 kh么ng th峄� b矛nh th瓢峄漬g h啤n nh瓢ng 膽岷 c谩 t铆nh 膽茫 膽峄� hay 膽峄� l么i cu峄憂 膽峄檆 gi岷�. Romain c貌n th峄昳 v脿o 膽贸 m峄檛 tr铆 nh峄�, m脿 v峄沬 t么i l脿 si锚u ph脿m. Kh么ng. H岷硁 ng瓢峄漣 l铆nh n脿o c农ng s岷� nh瓢 么ng, ba t么i c农ng th岷� 膽贸, nh峄� t锚n t峄玭g 膽峄搉g 膽峄檌, t峄玭g tr岷璶 chi岷縩, nh峄痭g ai 膽茫 hy sinh v脿 峄� 膽芒u, nh峄痭g ai c貌n s峄憂g v脿 b峄� th瓢啤ng ch峄� n脿o... C霉ng l脿 t岷璸 h峄 m峄檛 l么 l峄慶 nh峄痭g danh t铆nh t么i kh么ng 膽峄媙h nh峄� t锚n nh瓢 trong 峄� qu谩n c脿 ph锚 c峄 tu峄昳 tr岷� l岷 l峄慽 nh瓢ng nh峄痭g trang s谩ch c峄 Patrick Modiano khi岷縩 t么i c岷 gi谩c nh瓢 膽ang b峄� 么ng d岷痶 膽i trong m锚 cung ph峄� ph瓢峄漬g 膽岷 Ph谩p, c貌n c峄 Romain Gary l岷 g峄 l锚n trong t么i m峄檛 t矛nh c岷 t岷 ch峄g - v峄� m脿u da, s岷痗 t峄檆, bi锚n gi峄沬 - m脿 b峄乶 ch岷痗: T矛nh 膽峄搉g 膽峄檌.
Sara Imas 膽茫 n贸i th岷� n脿y trong V么 c霉ng t脿n nh岷玭, v么 c霉ng y锚u th瓢啤ng: 鈥�... ch峄� c贸 m峄檛 t矛nh y锚u lu么n h瓢峄沶g 膽岷縩 s峄� ph芒n ly l脿 t矛nh y锚u cha m岷� d脿nh cho con c谩i.鈥�
Cho 膽岷縩 tu峄昳 thi岷縰 ni锚n, Romain 膽茫 膽瓢峄 nu么i d岷 c峄眂 kh岷痶 khe, b脿i b岷, quy c峄� trong v貌ng t矛nh y锚u r岷 Ph谩p c峄 m岷�. 膼茫 kh么ng c贸 g矛 膽峄� t么i k茅o d脿i b脿i vi岷縯 t峄沬 nh峄痭g d貌ng (g岷) cu峄慽 c霉ng n脿y, n岷縰 么ng kh么ng tho谩t ly kh峄廼 m岷� 膽峄� nh岷璸 ng农, tr峄� th脿nh m峄檛 ng瓢峄漣 l铆nh chi岷縩 膽岷 v脿 膽峄� m谩u c霉ng 膽峄搉g 膽峄檌. T么i 膽茫 d峄玭g l岷 峄� 膽o岷 tr锚n, n岷縰 t矛nh y锚u c峄 m岷� v脿 Romain ch峄� g贸i g峄峮 trong ph岷 vi hai ng瓢峄漣, n岷縰 t矛nh y锚u 岷 kh么ng nh贸m l锚n trong Romain ng峄峮 l峄璦 chi岷縩 膽岷 h峄玭g h峄眂 trong th峄漣 chi岷縩 v脿 芒m 峄� t脿n l峄璦 t瓢峄焠g nh峄� trong th峄漣 b矛nh.
膼茫 n锚n d峄玭g g玫 ph铆m l芒u r峄搃, n岷縰 s峄� th岷璽 v峄� m岷� 膽岷縩 v峄沬 Romain k峄媝 th峄漣 ch峄� kh么ng ph岷 mu峄檔 ba n膬m!
膼茫 n锚n ch脿o t岷 bi峄噒 s峄沵 r峄搃 nh峄痭g con ng瓢峄漣 l脿m n锚n L峄漣 h峄゛, n岷縰 s峄 d芒y r峄憂 t矛nh m岷� 膽峄﹖ ph峄眛 ngay nh瓢 l煤c sau sinh!
M岷� Romain, m峄檛 b脿 m岷� v末 膽岷 膽岷穋 bi峄噒! Romain, m峄檛 c岷璾 con trai y锚u m岷� b岷眓g t矛nh y锚u c峄 t岷 c岷� nh峄痭g 膽峄゛ con tr锚n 膽峄漣 c峄檔g l岷 c峄憈 膽峄� 膽岷穞 c岷� th岷� gi峄沬 d瓢峄沬 ch芒n m岷�.
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V岷瓂 l脿 t么i 膽茫 峄� 膽芒y, nh峄痭g d貌ng cu峄慽 c霉ng c峄 b脿i vi岷縯. M峄檛 bao t岷 c岷 x煤c lan man 膽瓢峄 r岷 tr脿ng giang 膽岷 h岷 b锚n tr锚n th岷� m脿 kh么ng bi岷縯 n贸i g矛 l煤c n脿y. T么i xin m瓢峄 tr膬n tr峄� c峄 m矛nh, m峄檛 c岷 x煤c ngo脿i l峄� quy峄僴 s谩ch.
峄� c贸 g矛 b岷 ng峄� khi ng貌i b煤t d铆 d峄弇 v脿 th么ng minh t峄玭g 岷﹏ m矛nh d瓢峄沬 b煤t danh 脡mile Ajar l峄盿 ch峄峮 d芒y r峄憂 膽峄� bi峄僽 t瓢峄g h贸a t矛nh m岷玼 t峄� thi锚ng li锚ng. 狈丑瓢ng qu岷� mu峄憂 c岷璽 v岷 么ng: T岷 sao b峄� qua s峄 d芒y r峄憂 t矛nh m岷� b峄乶 ch岷痗 岷 膽峄� t峄� t峄�? 膼茫 t峄玭g h贸a th芒n l脿 m岷� trong c霉ng ng么i k峄� 峄� ph岷 cu峄慽 s谩ch c啤 m脿, b脿 s岷� kh么ng ch峄峮 l峄盿 nh瓢 th岷� 膽芒u, d岷玼 c贸 v矛 nguy锚n c峄� g矛.
脭ng 膽茫 th峄眂 hi峄噉 l峄漣 h峄゛ l煤c b矛nh minh nh瓢ng l岷 d脿nh m峄檛 d岷 ch岷 l峄璶g kh么ng m岷 duy锚n d谩ng cho l煤c ho脿ng h么n...
Nhi峄乽 ng瓢峄漣 nh岷璶 x茅t t么i theo ch峄� ngh末a c岷 to脿n. Kh么ng th峄� ph峄� nh岷璶, d霉 khi岷縨 khuy岷縯 l峄� ch峄� 膽岷 m矛nh. T么i v峄玜 膬n xong qu岷� t谩o xanh, tr瓢峄沜 膽贸 ph岷 loay hoay t矛m 膽岷 c峄� ph霉 h峄 膽峄� b峄痑 b峄� sung vitamin n脿y th锚m m脿u (m猫). T么i s岷� th岷 ngon mi峄噉g h啤n n岷縰 膽瓢峄 膬n c啤m v峄沬 m峄檛 膽么i 膽农a g峄� 膽岷 nh峄�.
V脿 nh瓢 th岷� t峄� t么i s岷� th岷 thi岷縰 s贸t v么 ch峄玭g n岷縰 b脿i vi岷縯 n脿y kh么ng 膽岷 膽岷縩 nh峄痭g c芒u t峄� 膽岷筽 ch芒n th脿nh nh岷 c贸 th峄� d脿nh cho quy峄僴 s谩ch 膽岷筽 v么 ng岷 v峄沬 b矛a minh h峄峚 膽岷筽 nh瓢 tranh v岷� - L峄漣 h峄゛ l煤c b矛nh minh!
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T么i th岷� m矛nh c霉ng quy峄僴 s谩ch v峄沬 t芒m tr岷g n芒ng niu v脿 膽峄� d脿nh v脿o nh峄痭g ng脿y cu峄慽 膽么ng Nha Trang se l岷h, sau h啤n b岷 th谩ng mua 膽瓢峄 v脿 l芒u h啤n th岷� n峄痑 k峄� t峄� l岷 膽岷 ti锚n th岷 tr锚n ti峄噈 s谩ch Kafka. T么i 膽峄� l岷 sau ch贸t v脿 膽峄峜 nh铆n. 狈丑瓢 t么i lu么n d脿nh nh峄痭g m贸n ngon nh岷 trong kh岷﹗ ph岷 膬n v脿o nh峄痭g mi岷縩g cu峄慽 c霉ng, 膽峄� d瓢 v峄� 膽峄峮g l岷 n啤i 膽岷 l瓢峄. N啤i 膽u么i m岷痶. N岷縰 膽峄峜 quy峄僴 s谩ch r峄搃, ho岷穋 n岷縰 膽瓢峄 l峄沶 l锚n trong t矛nh y锚u c峄 m岷�, b岷 s岷� 铆t nhi峄乽 kh么ng c瓢峄漣 kh岷﹜ th岷 t么i qu谩 th岷璶 tr峄峮g khi 膽峄峜 L峄漣 h峄゛ hay khi vi岷縯 nh峄痭g d貌ng n脿y.
狈丑瓢 m峄峣 d岷g th峄ヽ c峄 t矛nh y锚u, t矛nh m岷玼 t峄� c农ng kh么ng c贸 m峄檛 膽峄媙h ngh末a khu么n m岷玼 nh岷 膽峄媙h n脿o. M峄檛 膽峄゛ con hi岷縰 th岷, y锚u m岷�, d末 nhi锚n. M峄檛 膽峄゛ con s岷� lu么n l脿m h脿i l貌ng m岷�, d末 nhi锚n, n岷縰 t瓢啤ng lai r岷g r峄� theo m峄檛 k岷� ho岷h 膽瓢峄 v岷h s岷祅. 狈丑瓢ng m峄檛 膽峄゛ con l峄� 膽i nh峄痭g nguy峄噉 v峄峮g c峄 m岷� 膽峄� theo 膽u峄昳 nh峄痭g 膽am m锚 ho脿i b茫o ri锚ng, m峄檛 膽峄゛ con b岷 hi岷縰 th矛 sao? Kh么ng ai hi峄僽 l貌ng ng瓢峄漣 膽峄� s芒u 膽峄� tr岷� l峄漣 nan 膽峄� n脿y!
Ng瓢峄漣 ta th瓢峄漬g d霉ng l峄慽 vi岷縯 膽峄慽 l岷璸 tr锚n 膽峄� kh茅o l茅o d岷玭 t峄沬 膽i峄乽 m矛nh mu峄憂 膽峄� c岷璸 l脿 d峄� th瓢峄漬g nh瓢ng ch岷 nh岷璶 膽瓢峄. C貌n t么i, ch峄� 膽峄� nh岷 m岷h, Romain Gary v脿 m岷� 么ng l脿 膽i峄僴 h矛nh c峄 c岷穚 m岷� con y锚u nhau b岷眓g m峄檛 t矛nh c岷 truy峄乶 th峄憂g: M岷� 膽岷穞 v脿o 么ng ni峄乵 hy v峄峮g tr峄峮 v岷筺 v脿 么ng 膽茫 hi岷縰 th岷 v峄沬 m岷� b岷眓g t岷 th岷 nh峄痭g g矛 m峄檛 ng瓢峄漣 膽脿n 么ng Ph谩p b岷 l末nh nh岷 c岷-n锚n-ph岷 l脿m, t峄� khi tu峄昳 ch瓢a l锚n m瓢峄漣.
Th峄眂 hi峄噉 l峄漣 h峄゛ l煤c b矛nh minh! C峄 cu峄檆 膽峄漣!
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Th峄� v铆 t矛nh c岷 truy峄乶 th峄憂g hi峄噉 h峄痷 gi峄痑 Romain v脿 m岷� nh瓢 nh峄媝 tim li峄乶 m岷h bi峄僽 hi峄噉 s峄� s峄憂g, s岷� r玫 h啤n n岷縰 nh矛n v脿o 膽i峄噉 t芒m 膽峄�, t么i th岷 d貌ng 膽i峄噉 tim 岷 bi岷縩 thi锚n theo cu峄檆 膽峄漣 g岷璸 gh峄乶h c峄 hai m岷� con Romain.
C贸 khi, m岷� y锚u Romain b峄焛 m峄檛 t矛nh y锚u c峄� h峄� m脿 b岷 c峄� 膽峄゛ con n脿o tr锚n th岷� gian n脿y c农ng 铆t nh岷 m峄檛 l岷 trong 膽峄漣 c岷 th岷 x岷 h峄�, m岷痗 c峄�, qu锚 膽峄�, 膽峄� b峄玭g m岷穞, h啤i n贸ng b峄慶 l锚n t峄� tai t峄沬 膽峄塶h 膽岷, mu峄憂 ch岷 tr峄慽 ch岷縯, mu峄憂 chui xu峄憂g 膽岷, mu峄憂 bay h啤i, mu峄憂 l岷痗 膽岷 nh瓢 tr峄憂g b峄廼 v脿 r峄搃 th峄憈 l锚n, a ha ha, b脿 岷 kh么ng ph岷 m岷� t么i, kh么ng ph岷 膽芒u. G贸c 膽峄� c峄� h峄� n脿y xu岷 ph谩t t峄� c谩i nh矛n c峄 膽峄゛ con - Romain hay l脿 t么i - th矛 t矛nh m岷� 膽么i khi th岷璽 ti锚u c峄眂, nh瓢ng 膽峄昳 l岷 t峄� m岷� th矛 膽贸 l脿: C岷� th岷� gi峄沬 c贸 th峄� x岷 h峄�, nh瓢ng m岷� th矛 kh么ng.
T矛nh y锚u 岷 c贸 l煤c 膽岷 膽岷縩 膽峄塶h 膽i峄僲 c峄 t矛nh m岷玼 t峄� c峄眂 膽oan. Romain d峄� th瓢峄漬g h峄漬 gh茅t m岷� 膽岷縩 mu峄憂 tho谩t kh峄廼 v貌ng t矛nh y锚u c峄 b脿, kh么ng ph岷 膽峄 膽岷縩 n膬m n膬m sau, khi 么ng m瓢峄漣 b岷 tu峄昳 v脿 mu峄憂 t矛m ng瓢峄漣 b岷 b岷 cho m岷� trong ph岷 膽峄漣 c貌n l岷 膽峄� kh么ng ph岷 ch峄慽 t峄� cu峄檆 s峄憂g 膽脿n 么ng, m脿 l脿 khi h脿nh ngh峄� t谩t thu锚 (b峄焛 m岷�) l芒u d脿i v脿 xu岷 s岷痗, khi b峄� 膬n li锚n ti岷縫 m岷 c谩i t谩t (t峄� m岷�), khi 膽瓢峄 (hay b峄� m岷�) m岷h m岷� y锚u c岷 ph岷 b岷 v峄� b脿 d岷玼 c贸 b岷眓g t铆nh m岷g. V矛 ng瓢峄漣 kh谩c x煤c ph岷 nh芒n c谩ch c峄 b脿.
Ch岷硁g khi n脿o t矛nh y锚u c峄 m岷� Romain l脿 m峄檛 d貌ng 膽i峄噉 tim th岷硁g 膽啤, c脿ng kh么ng 膽峄﹖ nh峄媝. C峄� h峄�, c峄眂 膽oan c农ng ch瓢a 膽峄� 膽峄� n贸i v峄� b脿 m岷� 膽岷穋 bi峄噒 n脿y.
狈丑瓢 nh峄痭g c峄眂 膽i峄噉 膽岷穞 峄� tay, ch芒n v脿 ng峄眂 s岷� cho th岷 nh峄痭g b峄噉h v峄� tim tr锚n 膽i峄噉 t芒m 膽峄�, b脿 lu么n g峄璱 g岷痬 v脿o c岷璾 con trai m峄檛 t矛nh y锚u ng芒y th啤 b岷眓g v么 s峄� nh峄痭g nguy峄噉 v峄峮g, m脿 t峄� b峄� ph贸ng 膽贸 Romain g岷穞 h谩i 膽瓢峄 nhi峄乽 th脿nh c么ng g岷 膽煤ng nh瓢 ti锚n 膽o谩n c峄 m岷�: 膽o岷 Hu芒n ch瓢啤ng B岷痗 膽岷﹗ B峄檌 tinh, tr峄� th脿nh T峄昻g l茫nh s峄� Ph谩p, hai l岷 膽o岷 gi岷 Goncourt. B岷眓g ni峄乵 tin v峄痭g ch岷痗 c峄 m岷�, Romain 膽茫 bi岷縩 m峄檛 b脿 m岷� ng芒y th啤 trong m岷痶 h脿ng x贸m th脿nh b脿 m岷� c贸 kh岷� n膬ng ti锚n 膽o谩n s峄� ph岷璶. Kh么ng. M岷� 么ng kh么ng ph岷 nh脿 ti锚n tri. M岷� c霉ng v峄沬 nh峄痭g c峄眂 膽i峄噉 ni峄乵 tin c峄 b脿 膽茫 gi煤p Romain lo岷 b峄� d岷 nh峄痭g c膬n b峄噉h thi锚n h瓢峄沶g l峄嘽h l岷, nh岷 nh峄峵 v脿 g岷痭g g瓢峄g n脿o h峄檌 h峄峚 芒m nh岷, n脿o ca k峄媍h 膽i峄噉 岷h 膽峄� th岷 膽瓢峄 thi锚n h瓢峄沶g ch芒n ch铆nh c峄 么ng: V膬n ch瓢啤ng.
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狈丑瓢 膽茫 n贸i, kh么ng ai hi峄僽 l貌ng ng瓢峄漣 膽峄� s芒u 膽峄� nh岷璶 膽峄媙h th岷� n脿o l脿 m峄檛 膽峄゛ con c贸 hi岷縰 hay b岷 hi岷縰. C农ng v岷瓂, kh么ng ai 膽峄� th么ng th谩i (nh芒n d峄媝 v峄玜 膽峄峜 xong Th么ng th谩i v脿 s峄� ph岷璶) 膽峄� nh岷璶 x茅t t矛nh y锚u c峄 m峄檛 ng瓢峄漣 m岷� trao con l脿 膽煤ng hay sai, nhi峄乽 hay 铆t, t铆ch c峄眂 hay ti锚u c峄眂. Kh么ng, n锚n t么i sai r峄搃.
Th岷璽 ra v铆 t矛nh y锚u c峄 Romain v脿 m岷� v峄沬 nh峄媝 tim ch峄� 膽煤ng khi b脿 c貌n 峄� 膽贸, s峄憂g, y锚u 么ng v峄沬 m峄檛 t矛nh y锚u c峄� h峄�, ng芒y th啤 v脿 c峄眂 膽oan. 狈丑瓢ng l脿 sai, sai m峄檛 c谩ch 膽ui m霉, v矛 t矛nh y锚u 岷 c貌n 膽岷璸 nh峄痭g nh峄媝 ch岷璵 r茫i, 峄昻 膽峄媙h, dai d岷硁g m脿 kh么ng m谩y 膽o 膽i峄噉 t芒m 膽峄� n脿o 膽峄� nh岷 c贸 th峄� hi峄僴 hi峄噉 cho t么i th岷.
V岷瓂 h茫y b峄� qua c谩c lo岷 m谩y m贸c, t么i th峄� chi岷縰 谩nh s谩ng t矛nh y锚u n脿y l锚n v霉ng quang ph峄�. N贸 c贸 膽峄� c谩c s岷痗 t峄� 膽峄�, cam, v脿ng, l峄, lam, ch脿m, t铆m. Ch煤ng h峄檌 t峄� v脿 bi岷縩 thi锚n li锚n t峄 t岷 n锚n m峄檛 谩nh s谩ng tr岷痭g tinh khi岷縯, lung linh, r岷g r峄� - 谩nh n岷痭g. V脿 d岷玼 c贸 l煤c n脿o 膽贸 谩nh n岷痭g t矛nh y锚u 岷 kh么ng c貌n 膽峄� s谩ng 膽峄� soi r峄峣 膽瓢峄漬g 膽i cho Romain th矛 c农ng s岷� c贸 谩nh tr膬ng t峄� t瓢峄漬g n瓢峄沜 b瓢峄沜 cho 么ng. V农 tr峄� n脿y kh么ng ng脿y th矛 膽锚m, kh么ng m岷穞 tr峄漣 th矛 m岷穞 tr膬ng, kh么ng 谩nh n岷痭g th矛 谩nh tr膬ng - v末nh c峄璾 nh瓢 t矛nh y锚u c峄 m岷� d脿nh cho Romain, v脿 ng瓢峄 l岷.
T么i 膽茫 ch岷 h岷縯 m峄ヽ c贸 th峄� su峄慽 ng么n t峄� c岷 kh么 c峄 m矛nh 膽峄� th峄� hi峄噉 t么i y锚u L峄漣 h峄゛ 膽岷縩 nh瓢峄漬g n脿o...
Khi 膽峄﹏g tr瓢峄沜 c谩i 膽岷筽, ch煤ng ta kh岷� d末 (nh芒n ti峄噉, Romain s峄� d峄g t峄� n脿y nhi峄乽 膽岷縩 n峄梚 t么i nh峄痭g mu峄憂 g峄峣 么ng l脿 Ng脿i Kh岷� D末) s峄痭g s峄� kh么ng th峄憈 n锚n l峄漣 ho岷穋 l岷痯 b岷痯 kh么ng th脿nh c芒u. 狈丑瓢 th岷�, t么i thu峄檆 tr瓢峄漬g h峄 th峄� hai (t么i n贸i nhi峄乽 c峄� ch峄玭g n脿y t峄� c啤 m脿). Qu谩 瓢 么m 膽峄搈, t么i kh么ng t岷璸 trung th峄� hi峄噉 膽瓢峄 c谩i 膽岷筽 ch芒n th脿nh mu峄憂 b脿i vi岷縯 膽岷 t峄沬. Gi峄憂g nh瓢 t么i kh么ng t矛m 膽瓢峄 c谩ch n脿o tinh t岷� h啤n 膽峄� khen ng峄 b矛a s谩ch, ngo脿i b岷 膽岷筽 nh瓢 tranh v岷�, m脿 th岷璽 th矛 n贸 ch铆nh l脿 t峄� t谩c ph岷﹎ c峄 danh h峄峚 Gustav Klimt.
脭i, c贸 sao ch膬ng n峄痑, xin nh峄痭g con ng瓢峄漣 l脿m n锚n L峄漣 h峄゛ h茫y 膽峄玭g ch锚 b么i!
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狈丑瓢 B峄� thi锚u s峄憂g, Ba 啤i m矛nh 膽i 膽芒u? l脿 nh峄痭g t峄� truy峄噉 t么i 膽茫 膽峄峜, L峄漣 h峄゛ c农ng 膽茫 hay b峄焛 ch铆nh cu峄檆 膽峄漣 th岷璽 trong n贸. 狈丑瓢ng h啤n th岷� n峄痑, t谩c gi岷� k峄� v峄� cu峄檆 膽峄漣 么ng, cu峄檆 膽峄漣 m岷�, t矛nh y锚u c峄 么ng v脿 m岷� b岷眓g m峄檛 v膬n phong dung d峄�, d铆 d峄弇 m脿 th么ng minh, kh么ng nh瓢 v岷� v膬n ch瓢啤ng m峄� l峄� t峄玭g th岷 trong Bi峄僴. Bi峄僴 c峄 John Banville l脿 c谩i 膽岷筽 c峄 v膬n ch瓢啤ng 膽瓢峄 v岷� b岷眓g m峄檛 h岷 膽峄漣 bu峄搉, c貌n L峄漣 h峄゛ c峄 Romain Gary l脿 m峄檛 cu峄檆 膽峄漣 膽岷筽 膽瓢峄 d峄噒 th锚u b峄焛 s峄 t啤 v膬n ch瓢啤ng.
C贸 l煤c t么i t铆 n峄痑 th矛 phun m瓢a l锚n trang s谩ch khi 么ng so s谩nh m岷� tr么ng 么ng 膬n v峄沬 ni峄乵 h峄沶 h峄� nh瓢 ch贸 cho con b煤. C贸 l煤c t么i x煤c 膽峄檔g r峄沵 n瓢峄沜 m岷痶 khi Romain k峄� v峄� l岷 膽岷 ti锚n ph谩t hi峄噉 ra m岷� 膬n v峄g m峄� trong ch岷 chi锚n beefsteak. R峄搃 t么i 膽茫 ph峄 s谩t 膽岷 v峄沬 m峄檛 Romain l谩u c谩 khi b峄媋 ra l媒 do v矛 sao 么ng kh么ng 膽瓢峄 phong s末 quan v峄沬 lon thi岷縰 煤y: quy岷縩 r农 v峄� ch峄� huy Tr瓢峄漬g - m峄檛 t岷 khi锚n che ch岷痭 qu谩 s峄ヽ t峄憈 v矛 c貌n ki锚m nhi峄噈 v峄� 膽谩nh chu岷﹏ v脿o t芒m l媒 c峄 m岷�. (B脿 lu么n lu么n, lu么n lu么n mu峄憂 么ng c贸 m峄檛 ng瓢峄漣 ph峄� n峄� trong 膽峄漣.) R峄搃 th矛 t么i kh么ng kh峄廼 b霉i ng霉i 膽岷縩 s峄 s峄媡 khi l峄� m峄� nh岷璶 ra s峄� th岷璽 膽岷眓g sau nh峄痭g b峄ヽ th瓢 kh么ng 膽岷 kh么ng 膽u么i, ki峄噈 l峄漣 v脿 v么 膽峄� c峄 m岷� Romain.
T峄� th芒n cu峄檆 膽峄漣 trong L峄漣 h峄゛ v峄沬 b煤t ph谩p k峄� chuy峄噉 kh么ng th峄� b矛nh th瓢峄漬g h啤n nh瓢ng 膽岷 c谩 t铆nh 膽茫 膽峄� hay 膽峄� l么i cu峄憂 膽峄檆 gi岷�. Romain c貌n th峄昳 v脿o 膽贸 m峄檛 tr铆 nh峄�, m脿 v峄沬 t么i l脿 si锚u ph脿m. Kh么ng. H岷硁 ng瓢峄漣 l铆nh n脿o c农ng s岷� nh瓢 么ng, ba t么i c农ng th岷� 膽贸, nh峄� t锚n t峄玭g 膽峄搉g 膽峄檌, t峄玭g tr岷璶 chi岷縩, nh峄痭g ai 膽茫 hy sinh v脿 峄� 膽芒u, nh峄痭g ai c貌n s峄憂g v脿 b峄� th瓢啤ng ch峄� n脿o... C霉ng l脿 t岷璸 h峄 m峄檛 l么 l峄慶 nh峄痭g danh t铆nh t么i kh么ng 膽峄媙h nh峄� t锚n nh瓢 trong 峄� qu谩n c脿 ph锚 c峄 tu峄昳 tr岷� l岷 l峄慽 nh瓢ng nh峄痭g trang s谩ch c峄 Patrick Modiano khi岷縩 t么i c岷 gi谩c nh瓢 膽ang b峄� 么ng d岷痶 膽i trong m锚 cung ph峄� ph瓢峄漬g 膽岷 Ph谩p, c貌n c峄 Romain Gary l岷 g峄 l锚n trong t么i m峄檛 t矛nh c岷 t岷 ch峄g - v峄� m脿u da, s岷痗 t峄檆, bi锚n gi峄沬 - m脿 b峄乶 ch岷痗: T矛nh 膽峄搉g 膽峄檌.
Sara Imas 膽茫 n贸i th岷� n脿y trong V么 c霉ng t脿n nh岷玭, v么 c霉ng y锚u th瓢啤ng: 鈥�... ch峄� c贸 m峄檛 t矛nh y锚u lu么n h瓢峄沶g 膽岷縩 s峄� ph芒n ly l脿 t矛nh y锚u cha m岷� d脿nh cho con c谩i.鈥�
Cho 膽岷縩 tu峄昳 thi岷縰 ni锚n, Romain 膽茫 膽瓢峄 nu么i d岷 c峄眂 kh岷痶 khe, b脿i b岷, quy c峄� trong v貌ng t矛nh y锚u r岷 Ph谩p c峄 m岷�. 膼茫 kh么ng c贸 g矛 膽峄� t么i k茅o d脿i b脿i vi岷縯 t峄沬 nh峄痭g d貌ng (g岷) cu峄慽 c霉ng n脿y, n岷縰 么ng kh么ng tho谩t ly kh峄廼 m岷� 膽峄� nh岷璸 ng农, tr峄� th脿nh m峄檛 ng瓢峄漣 l铆nh chi岷縩 膽岷 v脿 膽峄� m谩u c霉ng 膽峄搉g 膽峄檌. T么i 膽茫 d峄玭g l岷 峄� 膽o岷 tr锚n, n岷縰 t矛nh y锚u c峄 m岷� v脿 Romain ch峄� g贸i g峄峮 trong ph岷 vi hai ng瓢峄漣, n岷縰 t矛nh y锚u 岷 kh么ng nh贸m l锚n trong Romain ng峄峮 l峄璦 chi岷縩 膽岷 h峄玭g h峄眂 trong th峄漣 chi岷縩 v脿 芒m 峄� t脿n l峄璦 t瓢峄焠g nh峄� trong th峄漣 b矛nh.
膼茫 n锚n d峄玭g g玫 ph铆m l芒u r峄搃, n岷縰 s峄� th岷璽 v峄� m岷� 膽岷縩 v峄沬 Romain k峄媝 th峄漣 ch峄� kh么ng ph岷 mu峄檔 ba n膬m!
膼茫 n锚n ch脿o t岷 bi峄噒 s峄沵 r峄搃 nh峄痭g con ng瓢峄漣 l脿m n锚n L峄漣 h峄゛, n岷縰 s峄 d芒y r峄憂 t矛nh m岷� 膽峄﹖ ph峄眛 ngay nh瓢 l煤c sau sinh!
M岷� Romain, m峄檛 b脿 m岷� v末 膽岷 膽岷穋 bi峄噒! Romain, m峄檛 c岷璾 con trai y锚u m岷� b岷眓g t矛nh y锚u c峄 t岷 c岷� nh峄痭g 膽峄゛ con tr锚n 膽峄漣 c峄檔g l岷 c峄憈 膽峄� 膽岷穞 c岷� th岷� gi峄沬 d瓢峄沬 ch芒n m岷�.
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V岷瓂 l脿 t么i 膽茫 峄� 膽芒y, nh峄痭g d貌ng cu峄慽 c霉ng c峄 b脿i vi岷縯. M峄檛 bao t岷 c岷 x煤c lan man 膽瓢峄 r岷 tr脿ng giang 膽岷 h岷 b锚n tr锚n th岷� m脿 kh么ng bi岷縯 n贸i g矛 l煤c n脿y. T么i xin m瓢峄 tr膬n tr峄� c峄 m矛nh, m峄檛 c岷 x煤c ngo脿i l峄� quy峄僴 s谩ch.
峄� c贸 g矛 b岷 ng峄� khi ng貌i b煤t d铆 d峄弇 v脿 th么ng minh t峄玭g 岷﹏ m矛nh d瓢峄沬 b煤t danh 脡mile Ajar l峄盿 ch峄峮 d芒y r峄憂 膽峄� bi峄僽 t瓢峄g h贸a t矛nh m岷玼 t峄� thi锚ng li锚ng. 狈丑瓢ng qu岷� mu峄憂 c岷璽 v岷 么ng: T岷 sao b峄� qua s峄 d芒y r峄憂 t矛nh m岷� b峄乶 ch岷痗 岷 膽峄� t峄� t峄�? 膼茫 t峄玭g h贸a th芒n l脿 m岷� trong c霉ng ng么i k峄� 峄� ph岷 cu峄慽 s谩ch c啤 m脿, b脿 s岷� kh么ng ch峄峮 l峄盿 nh瓢 th岷� 膽芒u, d岷玼 c贸 v矛 nguy锚n c峄� g矛.
脭ng 膽茫 th峄眂 hi峄噉 l峄漣 h峄゛ l煤c b矛nh minh nh瓢ng l岷 d脿nh m峄檛 d岷 ch岷 l峄璶g kh么ng m岷 duy锚n d谩ng cho l煤c ho脿ng h么n...
May 14, 2025
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螖蔚蠉蟿蔚蟻慰 尾喂尾位委慰 蟿慰蠀听Romain听Gary听蟺慰蠀 未喂伪尾维味蠅, 渭蔚蟿维 伪蟺蠈 蟿畏 螙蠅萎 渭蟺蟻慰蟽蟿维 蟽慰蠀 魏伪喂 纬喂伪 维位位畏 渭喂伪 蠁慰蟻维 未喂苇蟺蔚蟿伪喂 伪蟺蠈 渭喂伪 蠀蟺苇蟻渭蔚蟿蟻畏 魏慰渭蠄蠈蟿畏蟿伪, 魏慰渭蠄蠈蟿畏蟿伪 蟽蟿畏 纬蟻伪蠁萎 蟺慰蠀 蟺畏纬维味蔚喂 伪蟺蠈 渭喂伪 魏慰渭蠄蠈蟿畏蟿伪 蟿慰蠀 蟺谓蔚蠉渭伪蟿慰蟼 伪蠀蟿慰蠉 蟿慰蠀 蟽蠀纬纬蟻伪蠁苇伪.
螣听Romain听Gary听蔚委谓伪喂 慰 渭蠈谓慰蟼 螕维位位慰蟼 蟽蠀纬纬蟻伪蠁苇伪蟼 蟺慰蠀 蟿慰蠀 伪蟺慰谓蔚渭萎胃畏魏蔚 未蠉慰 蠁慰蟻苇蟼 蟿慰 尾蟻伪尾蔚委慰听Goncourt: 畏 蟺蟻蠋蟿畏 蠁慰蟻维 纬喂伪 蟿慰 芦Les听Racines听du听ciel禄 (螣喂 蟻委味蔚蟼 蟿慰蠀 慰蠀蟻伪谓慰蠉) 魏伪喂 畏 未蔚蠉蟿蔚蟻畏 纬喂伪 蟿慰 芦La听vie听devant听soi禄 (螚 味蠅萎 渭蟺蟻慰蟽蟿维 蟽慰蠀) 蟺慰蠀 蠈渭蠅蟼 苇纬蟻伪蠄蔚 魏维蟿蠅 伪蟺蠈 蟿慰 蠄蔚蠀未蠋谓蠀渭慰听Emile听Ajar.
芦螚 蠀蟺蠈蟽蠂蔚蟽畏 蟿畏蟼 伪蠀纬萎蟼禄 蔚委谓伪喂 苇谓伪 伪蠀蟿慰尾喂慰纬蟻伪蠁喂魏蠈 尾喂尾位委慰, 纬蔚渭维蟿慰 伪蟺蠈 蔚尉慰渭慰位慰纬萎蟽蔚喂蟼 魏伪喂 伪蠁畏纬萎蟽蔚喂蟼 纬蠉蟻蠅 伪蟺蠈 蟿畏谓 喂未喂伪委蟿蔚蟻畏 蟽蠂苇蟽畏 蟺慰蠀 蔚委蠂蔚 慰 委未喂慰蟼 渭蔚 蟿畏 渭畏蟿苇蟻伪 蟿慰蠀, 伪蟺蠈 蟿畏谓 蟺伪喂未喂魏萎 蟿慰蠀 畏位喂魏委伪 苇蠅蟼 蟿畏 味蠅萎 蟿慰蠀 蠅蟼 蔚谓萎位喂魏伪. 螠喂伪 渭维谓伪 蟺慰蠀 渭蔚纬维位蠅蟽蔚 蟿慰谓 纬喂慰 蟿畏蟼 渭蠈谓畏, 渭蔚 渭喂伪 纬喂纬伪谓蟿喂伪委伪 蠁蟿蔚蟻慰蠉纬伪 蟺慰蠀 蔚委蠂蔚 苇纬谓慰喂伪 蟺维谓蟿伪 慰 纬喂慰蟼 蟿畏蟼 谓伪 蔚委谓伪喂 伪蟺蠈 魏维蟿蠅, 渭蔚 渭喂伪 未蠉谓伪渭畏 蟺慰蠀 未蔚 蟽蠀谓伪谓蟿维蟼 蔚蠉魏慰位伪 伪位位维 魏伪喂 渭喂伪 苇谓蟿慰谓畏, 蟽蠂蔚未蠈谓 伪未喂伪谓蠈畏蟿畏 蟺伪蟻蔚渭尾伪蟿喂魏蠈蟿畏蟿伪 魏伪喂 苇谓伪 尾伪蟻委未喂慰 纬蔚渭维蟿慰 蠀蠄畏位苇蟼 蟺蟻慰蟽未慰魏委蔚蟼 纬喂伪 蟿慰谓 渭慰谓伪蠂慰纬喂蠈 蟿畏蟼 蟽蟿慰谓 慰蟺慰委慰 未蔚谓 苇蟺伪蠄蔚 谓伪 蟺喂蟽蟿蔚蠉蔚喂 蟺慰蟿苇 渭苇蠂蟻喂 蟿慰 蟿苇位慰蟼. 螚 蠀蟺蠈蟽蠂蔚蟽畏 蟿畏蟼 伪蠀纬萎蟼 蠈渭蠅蟼 蔚魏蟺位畏蟻蠋胃畏魏蔚. 螕喂伪蟿委 慰 伪未喂蠈蟻伪蟿慰蟼 慰渭蠁维位喂慰蟼 位蠋蟻慰蟼 蟽蠀谓蟿畏蟻萎胃畏魏蔚 渭苇蠂蟻喂 蟿苇位慰蠀蟼 渭蔚 渭喂伪 蠁蟻慰谓蟿委未伪 位蔚蟺蟿慰渭蔚蟻萎, 蠀蟺蔚蟻尾慰位喂魏萎, 尉蔚蟻慰魏苇蠁伪位畏 魏伪喂 蟺伪蟻慰蠉蟽伪 伪魏蠈渭伪 魏喂 伪蟺蠈 渭委位喂伪 渭伪魏蟻喂维, 伪魏蠈渭伪 魏伪喂 渭蔚蟿维 蟿慰谓 胃维谓伪蟿慰. 螣听Gary听蟽蠀谓蟿维蠂胃畏魏蔚 蟽蟿喂蟼 纬伪位位喂魏苇蟼 伪蔚蟻慰蟺慰蟻喂魏苇蟼 未蠀谓维渭蔚喂蟼 蟽蟿慰 蟺位蔚蠀蟻蠈 蟿慰蠀 蟽蟿蟻伪蟿畏纬慰蠉听de听Gaulle听魏伪蟿维 蟿慰谓 2慰听螤螤 魏伪喂 蟿喂渭萎胃畏魏蔚 蠅蟼听Compagnon听de听la听Lib茅ration听(蟽蟺维谓喂慰蟼 蟿喂渭畏蟿喂魏蠈蟼 蟿委蟿位慰蟼) 魏伪喂 蠅蟼 喂蟺蟺蠈蟿畏蟼 蟿慰蠀 蟿维纬渭伪蟿慰蟼 蟿畏蟼 螞蔚纬蔚蠋谓伪蟼 蟿畏蟼 韦喂渭萎蟼.
螇蟿伪谓 苇谓伪蟼 维谓胃蟻蠅蟺慰蟼 蟺慰蠀 伪谓伪味畏蟿慰蠉蟽蔚 蟿慰 伪蟻喂蟽蟿慰蠉蟻纬畏渭伪, 魏慰喂蟿慰蠉蟽蔚 蟺蟻慰蟼 伪蠀蟿萎 蟿畏谓 魏伪蟿蔚蠉胃蠀谓蟽畏, 蟺维谓蟿伪 伪蟻渭伪蟿蠅渭苇谓慰蟼 渭蔚 渭喂伪 蔚位蟺委未伪 伪魏蠈渭伪 魏喂 蔚魏蔚委 蟺慰蠀 未蔚谓 蠀蟺萎蟻蠂蔚 蟽蟿慰谓 慰蟻委味慰谓蟿伪. 螆魏伪谓蔚 味慰纬魏位蔚蟻喂魏维 渭蔚 苇尉喂 渭蟺维位蔚蟼 蟺蟻慰蟽蟺伪胃蠋谓蟿伪蟼 蟺维谓蟿伪 谓伪 蠂蠋蟽蔚喂 渭喂伪 苇尾未慰渭畏 蟽蟿慰 蟺伪喂蠂谓委未喂, 伪位位维 蟺维谓蟿伪 伪蠀蟿萎 蟿慰蠀 尉苇蠁蔚蠀纬蔚, 蟿慰谓 蟺蔚蟿慰蠉蟽蔚 苇尉蠅 伪蟺蠈 蟿畏谓 蟺蟻慰慰蟺蟿喂魏萎 渭喂伪蟼 蟿蔚位蔚喂蠈蟿畏蟿伪蟼. 螖蔚谓 魏伪蟿维蠁蔚蟻蔚 蟺慰蟿苇 谓伪 蟿蟽伪魏蠋蟽蔚喂 伪蠀蟿萎谓 蟿畏谓 苇尾未慰渭畏 渭蟺维位伪 魏喂 蠈渭蠅蟼 蟺维谓蟿伪 尉伪谓伪尉蔚魏喂谓慰蠉蟽蔚 伪蟺'蟿畏 伪蟻蠂萎.
芦螘委谓伪喂 渭喂伪 胃位喂尾蔚蟻萎 伪位萎胃蔚喂伪 魏伪喂 未蔚谓 蟺蟻苇蟺蔚喂 谓伪 蟿畏谓 伪蟺慰魏伪位蠉蟺蟿慰蠀渭蔚 蟽蟿伪 蟺伪喂未喂维. 螡伪 纬喂伪蟿委 伪蠀蟿蠈 蟿慰 尾喂尾位委慰 未蔚谓 蟺蟻苇蟺蔚喂 谓伪 蟺苇蟽蔚喂 蟽蔚 慰位慰谓蠋谓 蟿伪 蠂苇蟻喂伪.
螖蔚谓 蔚魏蟺位萎蟽蟽慰渭伪喂 蟺喂伪 蟽萎渭蔚蟻伪 蟺慰蠀 蟽蠀谓苇尾畏 蟽蟿慰谓 螤伪纬魏伪谓委谓喂 谓伪 蟺蔚蟿维尉蔚喂 蟿慰 尾喂慰位委 蟿慰蠀 魏伪喂 谓伪 渭畏谓 蟿慰 伪纬纬委尉蔚喂 尉伪谓维 纬喂伪 蠂蟻蠈谓喂伪, 谓伪 魏蔚委蟿伪喂 蔚魏蔚委, 渭蔚 蟿慰 尾位苇渭渭伪 维未蔚喂慰. 螖蔚谓 蔚魏蟺位萎蟽蟽慰渭伪喂, 纬 谓 蠋 蟻 喂 味 蔚.
螌蟿伪谓 尾位苇蟺蠅 蟿慰谓 螠伪位蟻蠋, 蟿慰谓 渭蔚纬伪位蠉蟿蔚蟻慰 蠈位蠅谓 渭伪蟼, 谓伪 魏维谓蔚喂 味慰纬魏位蔚蟻喂魏维 渭蔚 蟿喂蟼 渭蟺维位蔚蟼 蟿慰蠀, 蠈蟺蠅蟼 位委纬慰喂 维谓胃蟻蠅蟺慰喂 蟿慰 苇魏伪谓伪谓 蟺蟻喂谓 伪蟺蠈 伪蠀蟿蠈谓, 畏 魏伪蟻未喂维 渭慰蠀 蟽蠁委纬纬蔚蟿伪喂 渭蟺蟻慰蟽蟿维 蟽蟿畏谓 蟿蟻伪纬蠅未委伪 蟿慰蠀, 伪蠀蟿萎 蟺慰蠀 蔚委谓伪喂 蠂伪蟻伪纬渭苇谓畏 蟽蟿慰 蟺蟻蠈蟽蠅蟺蠈 蟿慰蠀, 蔚谓 蟿蠅 渭苇蟽蠅 蟿蠅谓 蟺喂慰 位伪渭蟺蟻蠋谓 伪谓未蟻伪纬伪胃畏渭维蟿蠅谓 蟿慰蠀: 畏 蟿蔚位蔚蠀蟿伪委伪 渭蟺维位伪 蔚委谓伪喂 苇尉蠅 伪蟺鈥櫹勎肺� 蔚渭尾苇位蔚喂维 蟿慰蠀, 魏伪喂 蠈位慰 蟿慰蠀 蟿慰 苇蟻纬慰 蔚委谓伪喂 蠁蟿喂伪纬渭苇谓慰 渭蔚 伪蠀蟿萎谓 蟿畏谓 伪纬蠅谓喂蠋未畏 尾蔚尾伪喂蠈蟿畏蟿伪.禄
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螚 渭畏蟿苇蟻伪 蟿慰蠀, 蔚渭尾位畏渭伪蟿喂魏萎 渭慰蟻蠁萎 蟽蟿畏 味蠅萎 蟿慰蠀 蟺慰蠀 蔚委蠂蔚 蟺维蟻蔚喂 蟺蟻慰蟽蠅蟺喂魏维 蟿畏谓 蔚蟺喂蟿蠀蠂委伪 魏伪喂 蟿慰 渭苇位位慰谓 蟿慰蠀 纬喂慰蠀 蟿畏蟼, 蟺伪委蟻谓蔚喂 维位位蔚蟼 蠁慰蟻苇蟼 蟿畏 渭慰蟻蠁萎 渭喂伪蟼 蟺谓喂纬畏蟻萎蟼 蟺伪蟻慰蠀蟽委伪蟼 魏伪喂 维位位蔚蟼 蔚谓蠈蟼 蠁蠉位伪魏伪-维纬纬蔚位慰蠀 蟺慰蠀 蠈位慰喂 胃伪 味畏位蔚蠉伪渭蔚. 螘蟺喂魏蟻伪蟿苇蟽蟿蔚蟻慰 纬喂伪 蟿慰谓 伪谓伪纬谓蠋蟽蟿畏 渭维位位慰谓 蟿慰 蟺蟻蠋蟿慰, 纬喂伪 蟿慰谓听Gary听渭维位位慰谓 蟿慰 未蔚蠉蟿蔚蟻慰. 危蟺蔚蠉未蔚喂 蠅蟽蟿蠈蟽慰 谓蠅蟻委蟼 谓蠅蟻委蟼 谓伪 蟺蔚蟻喂蟺伪委尉蔚喂 蟿喂蟼 蠄蠀蠂伪谓伪位蠀蟿喂魏苇蟼 蟽蠂慰位苇蟼 蟿畏蟼 渭蠈未伪蟼. 危蔚 蟺蔚委蟽渭伪 蟿蠅谓 蠀蟺慰蠄喂伪蟽渭苇谓蠅谓 蟺慰蠀 蠂伪渭慰纬蔚位慰蠉谓 魏蟻蠀蠁维 蔚纬纬蠀蠋渭蔚谓慰喂 纬喂伪 蟿慰 蟿蔚蟿蔚位蔚蟽渭苇谓慰 蟿慰蠀 螣喂未喂蟺蠈未蔚喂慰蠀 蟽蠀渭蟺位苇纬渭伪蟿慰蟼, 未畏位蠋谓蔚喂 蠅蟼 纬喂慰蟼 芦蟺伪蟻维-蠁蠉蟽畏禄鈭� 未蔚谓 蔚委蠂蔚 蟺慰蟿苇 伪喂渭慰渭喂魏蟿喂魏萎 苇位尉畏 蟺蟻慰蟼 蟿畏 渭畏蟿苇蟻伪 蟿慰蠀.
芦螞委纬伪 位蔚蟺蟿维 伪蟻纬蠈蟿蔚蟻伪, 维魏慰蠀纬伪 蟿畏 蠁蠅谓萎 蟿畏蟼 渭畏蟿苇蟻伪蟼 渭慰蠀 蟽蟿慰 蟿畏位苇蠁蠅谓慰. 螘委渭伪喂 伪谓委魏伪谓慰蟼 谓伪 渭蔚蟿伪蠁苇蟻蠅 蔚未蠋 伪蠀蟿维 蟺慰蠀 蔚委蟺伪渭蔚 渭蔚蟿伪尉蠉 渭伪蟼. 螇蟿伪谓 渭喂伪 蟽蔚喂蟻维 魏蟻伪蠀纬蠋谓, 位苇尉蔚蠅谓, 位蠀纬渭蠋谓, 未蔚谓 渭蟺慰蟻慰蠉谓 谓伪 蟺蔚蟻喂纬蟻伪蠁慰蠉谓 伪蟺蠈 渭喂伪 苇谓伪蟻胃蟻畏 纬位蠋蟽蟽伪. 螆蠂蠅 伪蟺蠈 蟿蠈蟿蔚 蟿畏谓 蔚谓蟿蠉蟺蠅蟽畏 蟺蠅蟼 魏伪蟿伪位伪尾伪委谓蠅 蟿伪 味蠋伪. 螌蟿伪谓, 渭苇蟽伪 蟽蟿畏谓 伪蠁蟻喂魏伪谓喂魏萎 谓蠉蠂蟿伪, 维魏慰蠀纬伪 蠁蠅谓苇蟼 味蠋蠅谓, 蟽蠀蠂谓维 畏 魏伪蟻未喂维 渭慰蠀 蟽蠁喂纬纬蠈蟿伪谓 蠈蟿伪谓 伪谓伪纬谓蠋蟻喂味伪 蟽鈥櫸毕呄勎� 蟿慰谓 蟺蠈谓慰, 蟿慰谓 蟿蟻蠈渭慰, 蟿慰 蟽魏委蟽喂渭慰 魏伪喂, 伪蟺蠈 蔚魏蔚委谓慰 蟿慰 蟿畏位蔚蠁蠋谓畏渭伪, 蟽蔚 蠈位伪 蟿伪 未维蟽畏 蟿慰蠀 魏蠈蟽渭慰蠀, 萎尉蔚蟻伪 蟺维谓蟿伪 谓伪 伪谓伪纬谓蠅蟻委蟽蠅 蟿畏 蠁蠅谓萎 蟿慰蠀 胃畏位蠀魏慰蠉 蟺慰蠀 苇蠂伪蟽蔚 蟿慰 渭喂魏蟻蠈 蟿慰蠀.禄
螚 违蟺蠈蟽蠂蔚蟽畏 蟿畏蟼 螒蠀纬萎蟼 蔚委谓伪喂 纬喂伪 渭苇谓伪 维位位畏 渭喂伪 蔚蟺喂尾蔚尾伪委蠅蟽畏 纬喂伪 蟿畏 渭蔚蟽蟿蠈蟿畏蟿伪 魏伪喂 蟿畏谓 慰渭慰蟻蠁喂维 蟿畏蟼 纬蟻伪蠁萎蟼 蟿慰蠀听Gary. 螣喂 蟽魏苇蠄蔚喂蟼 蟿慰蠀 魏蠀位慰蠉谓 伪谓蔚渭蟺蠈未喂蟽蟿伪, 畏 未喂维谓慰喂维 蟿慰蠀 蔚委谓伪喂 魏伪蟿伪蠁伪谓萎蟼, 蟿伪 魏蔚委渭蔚谓维 蟿慰蠀 蟽蟿苇魏慰谓蟿伪喂 蟺蔚蟻萎蠁伪谓伪 伪谓维渭蔚蟽伪 蟽蔚 伪蠀蟿维 蟿蠅谓 蟽蟺慰蠀未伪委蠅谓 螕维位位蠅谓 蟿畏蟼 蔚蟺慰蠂萎蟼 蟿慰蠀.
违蟺蠈蟽蠂蔚蟽畏 蟺蠅蟼 胃伪 蟽蠀谓蔚蠂委味蠅 谓伪 蟿慰谓 未喂伪尾维味蠅.
螖蔚蠉蟿蔚蟻慰 尾喂尾位委慰 蟿慰蠀听Romain听Gary听蟺慰蠀 未喂伪尾维味蠅, 渭蔚蟿维 伪蟺蠈 蟿畏 螙蠅萎 渭蟺蟻慰蟽蟿维 蟽慰蠀 魏伪喂 纬喂伪 维位位畏 渭喂伪 蠁慰蟻维 未喂苇蟺蔚蟿伪喂 伪蟺蠈 渭喂伪 蠀蟺苇蟻渭蔚蟿蟻畏 魏慰渭蠄蠈蟿畏蟿伪, 魏慰渭蠄蠈蟿畏蟿伪 蟽蟿畏 纬蟻伪蠁萎 蟺慰蠀 蟺畏纬维味蔚喂 伪蟺蠈 渭喂伪 魏慰渭蠄蠈蟿畏蟿伪 蟿慰蠀 蟺谓蔚蠉渭伪蟿慰蟼 伪蠀蟿慰蠉 蟿慰蠀 蟽蠀纬纬蟻伪蠁苇伪.
螣听Romain听Gary听蔚委谓伪喂 慰 渭蠈谓慰蟼 螕维位位慰蟼 蟽蠀纬纬蟻伪蠁苇伪蟼 蟺慰蠀 蟿慰蠀 伪蟺慰谓蔚渭萎胃畏魏蔚 未蠉慰 蠁慰蟻苇蟼 蟿慰 尾蟻伪尾蔚委慰听Goncourt: 畏 蟺蟻蠋蟿畏 蠁慰蟻维 纬喂伪 蟿慰 芦Les听Racines听du听ciel禄 (螣喂 蟻委味蔚蟼 蟿慰蠀 慰蠀蟻伪谓慰蠉) 魏伪喂 畏 未蔚蠉蟿蔚蟻畏 纬喂伪 蟿慰 芦La听vie听devant听soi禄 (螚 味蠅萎 渭蟺蟻慰蟽蟿维 蟽慰蠀) 蟺慰蠀 蠈渭蠅蟼 苇纬蟻伪蠄蔚 魏维蟿蠅 伪蟺蠈 蟿慰 蠄蔚蠀未蠋谓蠀渭慰听Emile听Ajar.
芦螚 蠀蟺蠈蟽蠂蔚蟽畏 蟿畏蟼 伪蠀纬萎蟼禄 蔚委谓伪喂 苇谓伪 伪蠀蟿慰尾喂慰纬蟻伪蠁喂魏蠈 尾喂尾位委慰, 纬蔚渭维蟿慰 伪蟺蠈 蔚尉慰渭慰位慰纬萎蟽蔚喂蟼 魏伪喂 伪蠁畏纬萎蟽蔚喂蟼 纬蠉蟻蠅 伪蟺蠈 蟿畏谓 喂未喂伪委蟿蔚蟻畏 蟽蠂苇蟽畏 蟺慰蠀 蔚委蠂蔚 慰 委未喂慰蟼 渭蔚 蟿畏 渭畏蟿苇蟻伪 蟿慰蠀, 伪蟺蠈 蟿畏谓 蟺伪喂未喂魏萎 蟿慰蠀 畏位喂魏委伪 苇蠅蟼 蟿畏 味蠅萎 蟿慰蠀 蠅蟼 蔚谓萎位喂魏伪. 螠喂伪 渭维谓伪 蟺慰蠀 渭蔚纬维位蠅蟽蔚 蟿慰谓 纬喂慰 蟿畏蟼 渭蠈谓畏, 渭蔚 渭喂伪 纬喂纬伪谓蟿喂伪委伪 蠁蟿蔚蟻慰蠉纬伪 蟺慰蠀 蔚委蠂蔚 苇纬谓慰喂伪 蟺维谓蟿伪 慰 纬喂慰蟼 蟿畏蟼 谓伪 蔚委谓伪喂 伪蟺蠈 魏维蟿蠅, 渭蔚 渭喂伪 未蠉谓伪渭畏 蟺慰蠀 未蔚 蟽蠀谓伪谓蟿维蟼 蔚蠉魏慰位伪 伪位位维 魏伪喂 渭喂伪 苇谓蟿慰谓畏, 蟽蠂蔚未蠈谓 伪未喂伪谓蠈畏蟿畏 蟺伪蟻蔚渭尾伪蟿喂魏蠈蟿畏蟿伪 魏伪喂 苇谓伪 尾伪蟻委未喂慰 纬蔚渭维蟿慰 蠀蠄畏位苇蟼 蟺蟻慰蟽未慰魏委蔚蟼 纬喂伪 蟿慰谓 渭慰谓伪蠂慰纬喂蠈 蟿畏蟼 蟽蟿慰谓 慰蟺慰委慰 未蔚谓 苇蟺伪蠄蔚 谓伪 蟺喂蟽蟿蔚蠉蔚喂 蟺慰蟿苇 渭苇蠂蟻喂 蟿慰 蟿苇位慰蟼. 螚 蠀蟺蠈蟽蠂蔚蟽畏 蟿畏蟼 伪蠀纬萎蟼 蠈渭蠅蟼 蔚魏蟺位畏蟻蠋胃畏魏蔚. 螕喂伪蟿委 慰 伪未喂蠈蟻伪蟿慰蟼 慰渭蠁维位喂慰蟼 位蠋蟻慰蟼 蟽蠀谓蟿畏蟻萎胃畏魏蔚 渭苇蠂蟻喂 蟿苇位慰蠀蟼 渭蔚 渭喂伪 蠁蟻慰谓蟿委未伪 位蔚蟺蟿慰渭蔚蟻萎, 蠀蟺蔚蟻尾慰位喂魏萎, 尉蔚蟻慰魏苇蠁伪位畏 魏伪喂 蟺伪蟻慰蠉蟽伪 伪魏蠈渭伪 魏喂 伪蟺蠈 渭委位喂伪 渭伪魏蟻喂维, 伪魏蠈渭伪 魏伪喂 渭蔚蟿维 蟿慰谓 胃维谓伪蟿慰. 螣听Gary听蟽蠀谓蟿维蠂胃畏魏蔚 蟽蟿喂蟼 纬伪位位喂魏苇蟼 伪蔚蟻慰蟺慰蟻喂魏苇蟼 未蠀谓维渭蔚喂蟼 蟽蟿慰 蟺位蔚蠀蟻蠈 蟿慰蠀 蟽蟿蟻伪蟿畏纬慰蠉听de听Gaulle听魏伪蟿维 蟿慰谓 2慰听螤螤 魏伪喂 蟿喂渭萎胃畏魏蔚 蠅蟼听Compagnon听de听la听Lib茅ration听(蟽蟺维谓喂慰蟼 蟿喂渭畏蟿喂魏蠈蟼 蟿委蟿位慰蟼) 魏伪喂 蠅蟼 喂蟺蟺蠈蟿畏蟼 蟿慰蠀 蟿维纬渭伪蟿慰蟼 蟿畏蟼 螞蔚纬蔚蠋谓伪蟼 蟿畏蟼 韦喂渭萎蟼.
螇蟿伪谓 苇谓伪蟼 维谓胃蟻蠅蟺慰蟼 蟺慰蠀 伪谓伪味畏蟿慰蠉蟽蔚 蟿慰 伪蟻喂蟽蟿慰蠉蟻纬畏渭伪, 魏慰喂蟿慰蠉蟽蔚 蟺蟻慰蟼 伪蠀蟿萎 蟿畏谓 魏伪蟿蔚蠉胃蠀谓蟽畏, 蟺维谓蟿伪 伪蟻渭伪蟿蠅渭苇谓慰蟼 渭蔚 渭喂伪 蔚位蟺委未伪 伪魏蠈渭伪 魏喂 蔚魏蔚委 蟺慰蠀 未蔚谓 蠀蟺萎蟻蠂蔚 蟽蟿慰谓 慰蟻委味慰谓蟿伪. 螆魏伪谓蔚 味慰纬魏位蔚蟻喂魏维 渭蔚 苇尉喂 渭蟺维位蔚蟼 蟺蟻慰蟽蟺伪胃蠋谓蟿伪蟼 蟺维谓蟿伪 谓伪 蠂蠋蟽蔚喂 渭喂伪 苇尾未慰渭畏 蟽蟿慰 蟺伪喂蠂谓委未喂, 伪位位维 蟺维谓蟿伪 伪蠀蟿萎 蟿慰蠀 尉苇蠁蔚蠀纬蔚, 蟿慰谓 蟺蔚蟿慰蠉蟽蔚 苇尉蠅 伪蟺蠈 蟿畏谓 蟺蟻慰慰蟺蟿喂魏萎 渭喂伪蟼 蟿蔚位蔚喂蠈蟿畏蟿伪蟼. 螖蔚谓 魏伪蟿维蠁蔚蟻蔚 蟺慰蟿苇 谓伪 蟿蟽伪魏蠋蟽蔚喂 伪蠀蟿萎谓 蟿畏谓 苇尾未慰渭畏 渭蟺维位伪 魏喂 蠈渭蠅蟼 蟺维谓蟿伪 尉伪谓伪尉蔚魏喂谓慰蠉蟽蔚 伪蟺'蟿畏 伪蟻蠂萎.
芦螘委谓伪喂 渭喂伪 胃位喂尾蔚蟻萎 伪位萎胃蔚喂伪 魏伪喂 未蔚谓 蟺蟻苇蟺蔚喂 谓伪 蟿畏谓 伪蟺慰魏伪位蠉蟺蟿慰蠀渭蔚 蟽蟿伪 蟺伪喂未喂维. 螡伪 纬喂伪蟿委 伪蠀蟿蠈 蟿慰 尾喂尾位委慰 未蔚谓 蟺蟻苇蟺蔚喂 谓伪 蟺苇蟽蔚喂 蟽蔚 慰位慰谓蠋谓 蟿伪 蠂苇蟻喂伪.
螖蔚谓 蔚魏蟺位萎蟽蟽慰渭伪喂 蟺喂伪 蟽萎渭蔚蟻伪 蟺慰蠀 蟽蠀谓苇尾畏 蟽蟿慰谓 螤伪纬魏伪谓委谓喂 谓伪 蟺蔚蟿维尉蔚喂 蟿慰 尾喂慰位委 蟿慰蠀 魏伪喂 谓伪 渭畏谓 蟿慰 伪纬纬委尉蔚喂 尉伪谓维 纬喂伪 蠂蟻蠈谓喂伪, 谓伪 魏蔚委蟿伪喂 蔚魏蔚委, 渭蔚 蟿慰 尾位苇渭渭伪 维未蔚喂慰. 螖蔚谓 蔚魏蟺位萎蟽蟽慰渭伪喂, 纬 谓 蠋 蟻 喂 味 蔚.
螌蟿伪谓 尾位苇蟺蠅 蟿慰谓 螠伪位蟻蠋, 蟿慰谓 渭蔚纬伪位蠉蟿蔚蟻慰 蠈位蠅谓 渭伪蟼, 谓伪 魏维谓蔚喂 味慰纬魏位蔚蟻喂魏维 渭蔚 蟿喂蟼 渭蟺维位蔚蟼 蟿慰蠀, 蠈蟺蠅蟼 位委纬慰喂 维谓胃蟻蠅蟺慰喂 蟿慰 苇魏伪谓伪谓 蟺蟻喂谓 伪蟺蠈 伪蠀蟿蠈谓, 畏 魏伪蟻未喂维 渭慰蠀 蟽蠁委纬纬蔚蟿伪喂 渭蟺蟻慰蟽蟿维 蟽蟿畏谓 蟿蟻伪纬蠅未委伪 蟿慰蠀, 伪蠀蟿萎 蟺慰蠀 蔚委谓伪喂 蠂伪蟻伪纬渭苇谓畏 蟽蟿慰 蟺蟻蠈蟽蠅蟺蠈 蟿慰蠀, 蔚谓 蟿蠅 渭苇蟽蠅 蟿蠅谓 蟺喂慰 位伪渭蟺蟻蠋谓 伪谓未蟻伪纬伪胃畏渭维蟿蠅谓 蟿慰蠀: 畏 蟿蔚位蔚蠀蟿伪委伪 渭蟺维位伪 蔚委谓伪喂 苇尉蠅 伪蟺鈥櫹勎肺� 蔚渭尾苇位蔚喂维 蟿慰蠀, 魏伪喂 蠈位慰 蟿慰蠀 蟿慰 苇蟻纬慰 蔚委谓伪喂 蠁蟿喂伪纬渭苇谓慰 渭蔚 伪蠀蟿萎谓 蟿畏谓 伪纬蠅谓喂蠋未畏 尾蔚尾伪喂蠈蟿畏蟿伪.禄
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螚 渭畏蟿苇蟻伪 蟿慰蠀, 蔚渭尾位畏渭伪蟿喂魏萎 渭慰蟻蠁萎 蟽蟿畏 味蠅萎 蟿慰蠀 蟺慰蠀 蔚委蠂蔚 蟺维蟻蔚喂 蟺蟻慰蟽蠅蟺喂魏维 蟿畏谓 蔚蟺喂蟿蠀蠂委伪 魏伪喂 蟿慰 渭苇位位慰谓 蟿慰蠀 纬喂慰蠀 蟿畏蟼, 蟺伪委蟻谓蔚喂 维位位蔚蟼 蠁慰蟻苇蟼 蟿畏 渭慰蟻蠁萎 渭喂伪蟼 蟺谓喂纬畏蟻萎蟼 蟺伪蟻慰蠀蟽委伪蟼 魏伪喂 维位位蔚蟼 蔚谓蠈蟼 蠁蠉位伪魏伪-维纬纬蔚位慰蠀 蟺慰蠀 蠈位慰喂 胃伪 味畏位蔚蠉伪渭蔚. 螘蟺喂魏蟻伪蟿苇蟽蟿蔚蟻慰 纬喂伪 蟿慰谓 伪谓伪纬谓蠋蟽蟿畏 渭维位位慰谓 蟿慰 蟺蟻蠋蟿慰, 纬喂伪 蟿慰谓听Gary听渭维位位慰谓 蟿慰 未蔚蠉蟿蔚蟻慰. 危蟺蔚蠉未蔚喂 蠅蟽蟿蠈蟽慰 谓蠅蟻委蟼 谓蠅蟻委蟼 谓伪 蟺蔚蟻喂蟺伪委尉蔚喂 蟿喂蟼 蠄蠀蠂伪谓伪位蠀蟿喂魏苇蟼 蟽蠂慰位苇蟼 蟿畏蟼 渭蠈未伪蟼. 危蔚 蟺蔚委蟽渭伪 蟿蠅谓 蠀蟺慰蠄喂伪蟽渭苇谓蠅谓 蟺慰蠀 蠂伪渭慰纬蔚位慰蠉谓 魏蟻蠀蠁维 蔚纬纬蠀蠋渭蔚谓慰喂 纬喂伪 蟿慰 蟿蔚蟿蔚位蔚蟽渭苇谓慰 蟿慰蠀 螣喂未喂蟺蠈未蔚喂慰蠀 蟽蠀渭蟺位苇纬渭伪蟿慰蟼, 未畏位蠋谓蔚喂 蠅蟼 纬喂慰蟼 芦蟺伪蟻维-蠁蠉蟽畏禄鈭� 未蔚谓 蔚委蠂蔚 蟺慰蟿苇 伪喂渭慰渭喂魏蟿喂魏萎 苇位尉畏 蟺蟻慰蟼 蟿畏 渭畏蟿苇蟻伪 蟿慰蠀.
芦螞委纬伪 位蔚蟺蟿维 伪蟻纬蠈蟿蔚蟻伪, 维魏慰蠀纬伪 蟿畏 蠁蠅谓萎 蟿畏蟼 渭畏蟿苇蟻伪蟼 渭慰蠀 蟽蟿慰 蟿畏位苇蠁蠅谓慰. 螘委渭伪喂 伪谓委魏伪谓慰蟼 谓伪 渭蔚蟿伪蠁苇蟻蠅 蔚未蠋 伪蠀蟿维 蟺慰蠀 蔚委蟺伪渭蔚 渭蔚蟿伪尉蠉 渭伪蟼. 螇蟿伪谓 渭喂伪 蟽蔚喂蟻维 魏蟻伪蠀纬蠋谓, 位苇尉蔚蠅谓, 位蠀纬渭蠋谓, 未蔚谓 渭蟺慰蟻慰蠉谓 谓伪 蟺蔚蟻喂纬蟻伪蠁慰蠉谓 伪蟺蠈 渭喂伪 苇谓伪蟻胃蟻畏 纬位蠋蟽蟽伪. 螆蠂蠅 伪蟺蠈 蟿蠈蟿蔚 蟿畏谓 蔚谓蟿蠉蟺蠅蟽畏 蟺蠅蟼 魏伪蟿伪位伪尾伪委谓蠅 蟿伪 味蠋伪. 螌蟿伪谓, 渭苇蟽伪 蟽蟿畏谓 伪蠁蟻喂魏伪谓喂魏萎 谓蠉蠂蟿伪, 维魏慰蠀纬伪 蠁蠅谓苇蟼 味蠋蠅谓, 蟽蠀蠂谓维 畏 魏伪蟻未喂维 渭慰蠀 蟽蠁喂纬纬蠈蟿伪谓 蠈蟿伪谓 伪谓伪纬谓蠋蟻喂味伪 蟽鈥櫸毕呄勎� 蟿慰谓 蟺蠈谓慰, 蟿慰谓 蟿蟻蠈渭慰, 蟿慰 蟽魏委蟽喂渭慰 魏伪喂, 伪蟺蠈 蔚魏蔚委谓慰 蟿慰 蟿畏位蔚蠁蠋谓畏渭伪, 蟽蔚 蠈位伪 蟿伪 未维蟽畏 蟿慰蠀 魏蠈蟽渭慰蠀, 萎尉蔚蟻伪 蟺维谓蟿伪 谓伪 伪谓伪纬谓蠅蟻委蟽蠅 蟿畏 蠁蠅谓萎 蟿慰蠀 胃畏位蠀魏慰蠉 蟺慰蠀 苇蠂伪蟽蔚 蟿慰 渭喂魏蟻蠈 蟿慰蠀.禄
螚 违蟺蠈蟽蠂蔚蟽畏 蟿畏蟼 螒蠀纬萎蟼 蔚委谓伪喂 纬喂伪 渭苇谓伪 维位位畏 渭喂伪 蔚蟺喂尾蔚尾伪委蠅蟽畏 纬喂伪 蟿畏 渭蔚蟽蟿蠈蟿畏蟿伪 魏伪喂 蟿畏谓 慰渭慰蟻蠁喂维 蟿畏蟼 纬蟻伪蠁萎蟼 蟿慰蠀听Gary. 螣喂 蟽魏苇蠄蔚喂蟼 蟿慰蠀 魏蠀位慰蠉谓 伪谓蔚渭蟺蠈未喂蟽蟿伪, 畏 未喂维谓慰喂维 蟿慰蠀 蔚委谓伪喂 魏伪蟿伪蠁伪谓萎蟼, 蟿伪 魏蔚委渭蔚谓维 蟿慰蠀 蟽蟿苇魏慰谓蟿伪喂 蟺蔚蟻萎蠁伪谓伪 伪谓维渭蔚蟽伪 蟽蔚 伪蠀蟿维 蟿蠅谓 蟽蟺慰蠀未伪委蠅谓 螕维位位蠅谓 蟿畏蟼 蔚蟺慰蠂萎蟼 蟿慰蠀.
违蟺蠈蟽蠂蔚蟽畏 蟺蠅蟼 胃伪 蟽蠀谓蔚蠂委味蠅 谓伪 蟿慰谓 未喂伪尾维味蠅.
February 27, 2015
丕卮賳丕蹖蹖賲 亘丕 乇賵賲賳 诏丕乇蹖 亘丕 "賱蹖丿蹖 丕賱 " 卮乇賵毓 卮丿 賵 亘丕 亘賯蹖賴 丕孬丕乇卮 "禺丿丕丨丕賮馗 诏乇蹖 讴賵倬乇"貙 "賲噩賲賵毓賴 丿丕爻鬲丕賳 賯賱丕亘蹖"貙"夭賳丿诏蹖 丿乇 倬蹖卮 乇賵"賵...丕丿丕賲賴 倬蹖丿丕 讴乇丿.禺賵賳丿賳 賲毓乇賮蹖 賴丕蹖 丿賵 氐賮丨賴 丕蹖 丕賵賱 讴鬲丕亘賴丕 貙禺賵丿讴卮蹖卮貙 丕爻丕賲蹖 賲爻鬲毓丕乇 賲鬲毓丿丿卮貙爻賲鬲 賴丕卮 賵 噩賵丕蹖夭 賲禺鬲賱賮 賳賵蹖爻賳丿诏蹖 賵 丨鬲蹖 丕夭丿賵丕噩 亘丕 噩蹖賳 爻蹖亘乇诏 爻鬲丕乇賴 蹖 爻蹖賳賲丕貙 乇賵賲賳 诏丕乇蹖 乇賵 亘乇丕賲 鬲亘丿蹖賱 亘賴 卮禺氐蹖鬲蹖 噩丕賱亘 讴乇丿賴 亘賵丿 亘賴 禺丕胤乇 賴賲蹖賳 禺賵賳丿賳 夭賳丿诏蹖 賳丕賲賴 賳賵蹖爻賳丿賴 亘賴 賯賱賲 禺賵丿卮 賵丕賯毓賳 賲賳賵 亘賴 賵噩丿 丕賵乇丿.鬲毓乇蹖賮 乇賵夭賴丕蹖 倬乇 丕夭 亘丿亘禺鬲蹖 丿賵乇丕賳 讴賵丿讴蹖 賵 噩賵丕賳蹖 讴賴 亘丕 趩丕卮賳蹖 胤賳夭 丕賲蹖禺鬲賴 卮丿賴 亘賵丿賵 蹖丕丿丕賵乇蹖 賵 賲賯丕蹖爻賴 卮賵賳 亘丕 乇賵夭賴丕蹖 亘毓丿蹖 賳賵蹖爻賳丿賴 蹖 卮賴蹖乇 噩丕賱亘 亘賵丿.
丕賱亘鬲賴 讴鬲丕亘 亘乇丕蹖 賲賳 亘賴 丿賵 亘禺卮 鬲賯爻蹖賲 卮丿.賯亘賱 丕夭 噩賳诏 讴賴 乇賵賳丿 丿丕爻鬲丕賳 禺賵亘 賵 噩匕丕亘 亘賵丿 賵 亘毓丿 丕夭 噩賳诏 讴賴 丕賮鬲囟丕丨 卮丿.賲毓乇賮蹖 卮禺氐蹖鬲 賴丕 賵 丕爻賲 賴丕蹖 夭蹖丕丿 賵 鬲毓乇蹖賮 丿丕爻鬲丕賳 賴丕蹖 亘蹖 乇亘胤 貙胤蹖 丿賵乇丕賳 噩賳诏 亘丕毓孬 卮丿 丕夭 丕蹖賳 亘賴 亘毓丿 讴鬲丕亘 乇賵 爻乇爻乇蹖 亘禺賵賳賲 賵 乇丿 卮賲 賵賱蹖 卮蹖乇蹖賳蹖 賯爻賲鬲 丕賵賱 讴鬲丕亘 賴賳賵夭 賴賲 亘丕 賲賳賴
賲賳 賲乇丿賴 蹖 卮禺氐蹖鬲 賲丕丿乇 乇賵賲賳 诏丕乇蹖 亘賵丿賲. 夭賳蹖 丕氐丕賱鬲丕 乇賵爻蹖 賵 賮賵賯 丕賱毓丕丿賴 爻禺鬲 讴賵卮 亘丕 丕乇夭賵賴丕蹖 丿賵乇 賵 丿乇丕夭 亘乇丕蹖 倬爻乇卮 讴賴 亘賴 賴乇 丕亘 賵 丕鬲卮蹖 夭丿 ! 賲賴賲鬲乇蹖賳 禺氐蹖氐賴 噩匕丕亘 丕蹖賳 夭賳 亘賴 賳馗乇 賲賳 亘丕賵乇 賵 丕蹖賲丕賳 賮賵賯 丕賱毓丕丿卮 亘賴 毓賲賱蹖 卮丿賳 丕乇夭賵賴丕卮 亘賵丿..亘賴 丕蹖賳 讴賴 賴乇趩賳丿 丕蹖賳 乇賵夭賴丕 丿賵乇賴 蹖 賮賯乇 賵 賳丿丕乇蹖 賵 亘丿亘禺鬲蹖卮賵賳賴 賵賱蹖 亘丿賵賳 卮讴 倬爻乇卮 亘賴 噩丕蹖诏丕賴 亘丕賱丕蹖蹖 鬲賵 賮乇丕賳爻賴 禺賵丕賴丿 乇爻蹖丿.賵 丕蹖賳 胤賵乇 賴賲 卮丿 蹖賴 趩蹖夭蹖 鬲賵 賲丕蹖賴 賴丕蹖 賯丕賳賵賳 噩匕亘 賵 丕蹖賳 丨乇賮丕
乇賵賲賳 诏丕乇蹖 賵 賲丕賲丕賳 毓夭蹖夭卮:丿蹖
丕賱亘鬲賴 讴鬲丕亘 亘乇丕蹖 賲賳 亘賴 丿賵 亘禺卮 鬲賯爻蹖賲 卮丿.賯亘賱 丕夭 噩賳诏 讴賴 乇賵賳丿 丿丕爻鬲丕賳 禺賵亘 賵 噩匕丕亘 亘賵丿 賵 亘毓丿 丕夭 噩賳诏 讴賴 丕賮鬲囟丕丨 卮丿.賲毓乇賮蹖 卮禺氐蹖鬲 賴丕 賵 丕爻賲 賴丕蹖 夭蹖丕丿 賵 鬲毓乇蹖賮 丿丕爻鬲丕賳 賴丕蹖 亘蹖 乇亘胤 貙胤蹖 丿賵乇丕賳 噩賳诏 亘丕毓孬 卮丿 丕夭 丕蹖賳 亘賴 亘毓丿 讴鬲丕亘 乇賵 爻乇爻乇蹖 亘禺賵賳賲 賵 乇丿 卮賲 賵賱蹖 卮蹖乇蹖賳蹖 賯爻賲鬲 丕賵賱 讴鬲丕亘 賴賳賵夭 賴賲 亘丕 賲賳賴
賲賳 賲乇丿賴 蹖 卮禺氐蹖鬲 賲丕丿乇 乇賵賲賳 诏丕乇蹖 亘賵丿賲. 夭賳蹖 丕氐丕賱鬲丕 乇賵爻蹖 賵 賮賵賯 丕賱毓丕丿賴 爻禺鬲 讴賵卮 亘丕 丕乇夭賵賴丕蹖 丿賵乇 賵 丿乇丕夭 亘乇丕蹖 倬爻乇卮 讴賴 亘賴 賴乇 丕亘 賵 丕鬲卮蹖 夭丿 ! 賲賴賲鬲乇蹖賳 禺氐蹖氐賴 噩匕丕亘 丕蹖賳 夭賳 亘賴 賳馗乇 賲賳 亘丕賵乇 賵 丕蹖賲丕賳 賮賵賯 丕賱毓丕丿卮 亘賴 毓賲賱蹖 卮丿賳 丕乇夭賵賴丕卮 亘賵丿..亘賴 丕蹖賳 讴賴 賴乇趩賳丿 丕蹖賳 乇賵夭賴丕 丿賵乇賴 蹖 賮賯乇 賵 賳丿丕乇蹖 賵 亘丿亘禺鬲蹖卮賵賳賴 賵賱蹖 亘丿賵賳 卮讴 倬爻乇卮 亘賴 噩丕蹖诏丕賴 亘丕賱丕蹖蹖 鬲賵 賮乇丕賳爻賴 禺賵丕賴丿 乇爻蹖丿.賵 丕蹖賳 胤賵乇 賴賲 卮丿 蹖賴 趩蹖夭蹖 鬲賵 賲丕蹖賴 賴丕蹖 賯丕賳賵賳 噩匕亘 賵 丕蹖賳 丨乇賮丕
乇賵賲賳 诏丕乇蹖 賵 賲丕賲丕賳 毓夭蹖夭卮:丿蹖
March 19, 2022
this book is for the burnt-out "gifted" kids whose parents have such high expectations for them that they end up feeling like they're never gonna be good enough, no matter how hard they try <3
( i am said "kids"馃構)
( i am said "kids"馃構)
March 16, 2019
Tra cielo e terra
Caro Romain,
lo confesso, mentre leggevo questo tuo libro, che non sapevo essere una autobiografia parziale, ti pensavo un po' guascone, - un po' sborone come diciamo noi a Roma - un po' viziato e perch茅 no, anche molto cocco di mamma.
Per貌 quella mamma ingombrante e sicura di te 猫 stata anche il tuo faro e tu sei stato il suo, e quella luce e quell'amore illumina tutte le quasi quattrocento pagine di questo libro, attraversandole con la stessa forza e lo stesso ardore con cui avete attraversato la Lituania e la Polonia per poi approdare in Francia, la tua Patria, la vostra terra promessa, con lo stesso spirito indomabile con cui hai combattuto la seconda guerra mondiale, con quel coraggio e con quella modestia con cui ti schernisci di fronte alla crocetta verde della Legione d'onore che portavi appuntata sulla divisa.
Mi hai fatta sorridere caro Romain, mi hai fatto comprendere quanto amavi la vita, come non ti sottomettessi mai a niente e a nessuno, nemmeno quando la vita stessa ti si rivoltava contro e i tre beffardi spiriti, Tatouche il dio della stupidit脿, Merzavka il dio delle certezze assolute, Filoche il dio della meschinit脿, ti si ponevano sul cammino.
Scrivevi, ricordando quei tempi di guerra, 芦Mentre stavo nuotando, per la prima volta mi venne l'idea del suicidio. Ma la mia non 猫 una natura sottomessa, e la mia guancia sinistra non 猫 a disposizione di nessuno禄, ma allora cos'猫 successo molti anni pi霉 tardi da indurti a cambiare idea?
Ma questa, quella avvenuta molti anni pi霉 tardi, 猫 un'altra storia, quella della promessa dell'alba invece 猫 la storia di un amore cos矛 grande, quello tra un piccolo bambino lituano e la sua mamma, una donna sola ma determinata che lo vuole e lo sente predestinato a fare grandi cose nella vita: essere un artista e diventare ambasciatore francese, un piccolo bambino destinato ad essere un grande uomo, solo perch茅 la sua mamma ha deciso che lo sar脿.
Mi sono divertita, ho trepidato con te, ogni tanto mi sono anche sentita un po' presa in giro da quella tua sbruffonaggine da sigaro in bocca e giacca di cuoio, ma anche io mi sono fatta incantare da quegli occhi azzurri e da quell'aria un po' da sognatore alla Saint-Exupery, quegli occhi che la tua mamma amava tanto guardare.
Sar脿 per questo che allora, all'ultima pagina, mi lasci qui con le lacrime che scivolano silenziose sulle mie guance; perch茅 eri un'anima bella e sapere che alla fine non ce l'hai fatta mi lascia una grande tristezza nel cuore.
Vorrei essere anche io sulla spiaggia di Big Sur adesso, e poter dire come te 芦Ecco. Presto bisogner脿 che lasci la spiaggia, dove ormai da tanto tempo sto sdraiato ad ascoltare il mare. Ci sar脿 un po' di nebbia stasera, su Big Sur, e far脿 fresco e io non ho mai imparato ad accendere il fuoco e a riscaldarmi. Ma voglio tentare di restare ancora un poco, ad ascoltare, perch茅 ho sempre l'impressione di essere sul punto di capire ci貌 che l'Oceano mi dice. Chiudo gli occhi, sorrido, ascolto... Ho ancora di queste curiosit脿. Pi霉 la spiaggia 猫 deserta e pi霉 mi sembra popolata. Le foche si sono zittite, sulle rocce, e io resto l脿, gli occhi chiusi, sorridendo, e immagino che una di loro mi si avvicini dolcemente e di sentire all'improvviso contro la mia guancia, o nella piega della spalla un muso affettuoso... Ho vissuto.禄
E poi guardarti negli occhi e dirti che la tua mamma era orgogliosa di te, gi脿 da molto tempo prima.
[edit, 16 marzo 2019]
E ora arriva il film e, lo confesso, un po' palpito e un po tremo.
Caro Romain,
lo confesso, mentre leggevo questo tuo libro, che non sapevo essere una autobiografia parziale, ti pensavo un po' guascone, - un po' sborone come diciamo noi a Roma - un po' viziato e perch茅 no, anche molto cocco di mamma.
Per貌 quella mamma ingombrante e sicura di te 猫 stata anche il tuo faro e tu sei stato il suo, e quella luce e quell'amore illumina tutte le quasi quattrocento pagine di questo libro, attraversandole con la stessa forza e lo stesso ardore con cui avete attraversato la Lituania e la Polonia per poi approdare in Francia, la tua Patria, la vostra terra promessa, con lo stesso spirito indomabile con cui hai combattuto la seconda guerra mondiale, con quel coraggio e con quella modestia con cui ti schernisci di fronte alla crocetta verde della Legione d'onore che portavi appuntata sulla divisa.
Mi hai fatta sorridere caro Romain, mi hai fatto comprendere quanto amavi la vita, come non ti sottomettessi mai a niente e a nessuno, nemmeno quando la vita stessa ti si rivoltava contro e i tre beffardi spiriti, Tatouche il dio della stupidit脿, Merzavka il dio delle certezze assolute, Filoche il dio della meschinit脿, ti si ponevano sul cammino.
Scrivevi, ricordando quei tempi di guerra, 芦Mentre stavo nuotando, per la prima volta mi venne l'idea del suicidio. Ma la mia non 猫 una natura sottomessa, e la mia guancia sinistra non 猫 a disposizione di nessuno禄, ma allora cos'猫 successo molti anni pi霉 tardi da indurti a cambiare idea?
Ma questa, quella avvenuta molti anni pi霉 tardi, 猫 un'altra storia, quella della promessa dell'alba invece 猫 la storia di un amore cos矛 grande, quello tra un piccolo bambino lituano e la sua mamma, una donna sola ma determinata che lo vuole e lo sente predestinato a fare grandi cose nella vita: essere un artista e diventare ambasciatore francese, un piccolo bambino destinato ad essere un grande uomo, solo perch茅 la sua mamma ha deciso che lo sar脿.
Mi sono divertita, ho trepidato con te, ogni tanto mi sono anche sentita un po' presa in giro da quella tua sbruffonaggine da sigaro in bocca e giacca di cuoio, ma anche io mi sono fatta incantare da quegli occhi azzurri e da quell'aria un po' da sognatore alla Saint-Exupery, quegli occhi che la tua mamma amava tanto guardare.
Sar脿 per questo che allora, all'ultima pagina, mi lasci qui con le lacrime che scivolano silenziose sulle mie guance; perch茅 eri un'anima bella e sapere che alla fine non ce l'hai fatta mi lascia una grande tristezza nel cuore.
Vorrei essere anche io sulla spiaggia di Big Sur adesso, e poter dire come te 芦Ecco. Presto bisogner脿 che lasci la spiaggia, dove ormai da tanto tempo sto sdraiato ad ascoltare il mare. Ci sar脿 un po' di nebbia stasera, su Big Sur, e far脿 fresco e io non ho mai imparato ad accendere il fuoco e a riscaldarmi. Ma voglio tentare di restare ancora un poco, ad ascoltare, perch茅 ho sempre l'impressione di essere sul punto di capire ci貌 che l'Oceano mi dice. Chiudo gli occhi, sorrido, ascolto... Ho ancora di queste curiosit脿. Pi霉 la spiaggia 猫 deserta e pi霉 mi sembra popolata. Le foche si sono zittite, sulle rocce, e io resto l脿, gli occhi chiusi, sorridendo, e immagino che una di loro mi si avvicini dolcemente e di sentire all'improvviso contro la mia guancia, o nella piega della spalla un muso affettuoso... Ho vissuto.禄
E poi guardarti negli occhi e dirti che la tua mamma era orgogliosa di te, gi脿 da molto tempo prima.
[edit, 16 marzo 2019]
E ora arriva il film e, lo confesso, un po' palpito e un po tremo.
August 13, 2023
(review in English below)
Como assim, n茫o posso dar mais do que 5 estrelas?!
Como 茅 que algu茅m consegue escrever desta maneira ao longo de 400 p谩ginas?
Quando n茫o estava com um sorriso nos l谩bios 脿 conta do humor subtil铆ssimo ou da ironia elegante, ficava enternecida com o amor dele pela m茫e - e com o dela por ele - ou emocionada com os epis贸dios da vida dif铆cil de dois expatriados - uma m茫e solteira com ambi莽玫es desmedidas para o seu filho 煤nico, que parece ter escapado 脿 morte umas tantas vezes por interven莽茫o "divina" - ou seja, da m茫e que o acompanhou sempre, mesmo quando se encontrava fisicamente muito distante.
Parece imposs铆vel que o autor tenha realmente vivido tantas aventuras e sobrevivido a tantos desastres, mas as in煤meras refer锚ncias a situa莽玫es e personagens reais, incluindo colegas aviadores, far茫o certamente prova do que nos conta nestas maravilhosas mem贸rias. De qualquer modo, se 茅 assim que ele recorda a sua vida, quem somos n贸s para o contrariar?
Este foi direitinho para a prateleira dos favoritos, onde se juntou ao outro livro do mesmo autor Uma Vida 脿 Sua Frente.
N茫o sei se chego ao final do ano sem pegar n' As Ra铆zes do C茅u...
What do you mean I cannot give this more than 5 stars?!
How can someone write like this for 400 pages?
When I wasn't smiling on the account of the very subtle humour or the very elegant irony, I was touched by his love for his mother - and by her love for him - or moved by the scenes of the hard life of two expats - a single mom with disproportionate ambitions for her only son, who seems to have escaped death an uncanny amount of times by "divine" intervention - or because of the constant presence of his mother, even when she was very far away.
It seems impossible for the author to have lived so many adventures and survived so many accidents, but the numerous references to real situations and people, including his fellow airmen, should be proof enough of what he tells us in these wonderful memories. And, in the end, if that was how he recalled his life, who are we to say otherwise?
This one went straight to the "favorites" shelf, joining his other book The Life Before Us.
I think I won't be able to keep my hands off The Roots of Heaven until the end of the year...
Como assim, n茫o posso dar mais do que 5 estrelas?!
Como 茅 que algu茅m consegue escrever desta maneira ao longo de 400 p谩ginas?
Quando n茫o estava com um sorriso nos l谩bios 脿 conta do humor subtil铆ssimo ou da ironia elegante, ficava enternecida com o amor dele pela m茫e - e com o dela por ele - ou emocionada com os epis贸dios da vida dif铆cil de dois expatriados - uma m茫e solteira com ambi莽玫es desmedidas para o seu filho 煤nico, que parece ter escapado 脿 morte umas tantas vezes por interven莽茫o "divina" - ou seja, da m茫e que o acompanhou sempre, mesmo quando se encontrava fisicamente muito distante.
Parece imposs铆vel que o autor tenha realmente vivido tantas aventuras e sobrevivido a tantos desastres, mas as in煤meras refer锚ncias a situa莽玫es e personagens reais, incluindo colegas aviadores, far茫o certamente prova do que nos conta nestas maravilhosas mem贸rias. De qualquer modo, se 茅 assim que ele recorda a sua vida, quem somos n贸s para o contrariar?
Este foi direitinho para a prateleira dos favoritos, onde se juntou ao outro livro do mesmo autor Uma Vida 脿 Sua Frente.
N茫o sei se chego ao final do ano sem pegar n' As Ra铆zes do C茅u...
What do you mean I cannot give this more than 5 stars?!
How can someone write like this for 400 pages?
When I wasn't smiling on the account of the very subtle humour or the very elegant irony, I was touched by his love for his mother - and by her love for him - or moved by the scenes of the hard life of two expats - a single mom with disproportionate ambitions for her only son, who seems to have escaped death an uncanny amount of times by "divine" intervention - or because of the constant presence of his mother, even when she was very far away.
It seems impossible for the author to have lived so many adventures and survived so many accidents, but the numerous references to real situations and people, including his fellow airmen, should be proof enough of what he tells us in these wonderful memories. And, in the end, if that was how he recalled his life, who are we to say otherwise?
This one went straight to the "favorites" shelf, joining his other book The Life Before Us.
I think I won't be able to keep my hands off The Roots of Heaven until the end of the year...
May 8, 2020
袩褉械泻褉邪褋械薪 袚邪褉懈 - 懈 胁 邪胁褌芯斜懈芯谐褉邪褎懈褔薪懈褟 卸邪薪褉. 袠褋泻褉械薪芯褋褌, 写芯褉懈 蟹邪 薪械褖邪褌邪, 泻芯懈褌芯 薪懈 褋械 褖械 写邪 锌褉械屑褗谢褔懈屑, 芯褌谢懈褔薪邪 懈褉芯薪懈褟 懈 薪邪泄-胁械褔械 褋邪屑芯懈褉芯薪懈褟. 袠褋泻褉褟褖芯 褔褍胁褋褌胁芯 蟹邪 褏褍屑芯褉. 袠 屑薪芯谐芯 褍胁褉械泻邪褌械谢薪芯.
June 6, 2019
L'Amour maternel
Tutto 猫 iniziato con un brano che nell鈥檈dizione del libro che lessi cinque anni fa non compariva
Con l鈥檃more materno la vita ci fa all鈥檃lba una promessa che non manterr脿 mai. In seguito si 猫 costretti a mangiare gli avanzi, fino alla fine. Ogni volta che una donna ci prende tra le braccia e ci stringe al cuore, si tratta solo di condoglianze. Si ritorna sempre a guaire sulla tomba della propria madre come un cane abbandonato. Mai pi霉, mai pi霉, mai pi霉. Braccia adorabili si chiudono intorno al nostro collo e labbra dolcissime ci parlano d鈥檃more, ma noi sappiamo gi脿 tutto. Noi siamo stati alla sorgente troppo presto e abbiamo bevuto tutto. Quando ci riprende la sete, si ha un bel cercare da ogni parte: non ci sono pi霉 pozzi, soltanto miraggi. Abbiamo fatto, alla prima luce dell鈥檃lba, uno studio approfondito dell鈥檃more e ci siamo documentati troppo bene. Dovunque andremo, porteremo con noi il veleno dei confronti; e passiamo il tempo aspettando ci貌 che abbiamo gi脿 avuto.
Vorrei essere il figlio che l鈥檋a scritto. Non basta la quarantina, occorre che la sorgente si sia seccata, che il posto nel mondo dove la nostra sete poteva essere placata non vi sia pi霉, che ne resti solo il ricordo. Trovai la citazione in rete, ripassai il mio libro da cima a fondo ma non ve n鈥檈ra traccia. Per me 猫 una delle cose pi霉 belle che siano state scritte, 猫 poesia in prosa.
Trovato il brano in rilettura mi 猫 subentrata la sindrome da missione compiuta, in realt脿 sapevo di averne una pi霉 importante da intraprendere (riconciliarmi con Gary) e che per farlo non mi sarei potuto fermare dopo cinquanta pagine. La mia prima impressione (copio in calce il commento di allora) risent矛 sicuramente anche della traduzione.
Che capacit脿, che mescolanza di poesia, ironia e sentimento. Per forza un giorno si mise a scrivere fingendosi qualcun altro, non gli era sufficiente una sola personalit脿 per esprimere tutte le sue potenzialit脿. Avevo un bel dire da monolite, in merito alla franchezza di quest鈥檜omo tormentato, di cui anche in questa autobiografia non si capisce dove finisca lui ed inizi il personaggio letterario, chi dei due sia stato modellato sui destini dell鈥檃ltro. Gary era un russo che scriveva in francese, io voglio ringraziare Marcello Venturi per come lo ha tradotto perch茅 questo 猫 un altro libro rispetto a quello che lessi cinque anni fa e contemporaneamente sono io ad essere un altro; pi霉 vecchio, pi霉 portato a pensare che un uomo fa del suo meglio con gli anni che gli sono concessi in sorte ed 猫 scusabile e forse perfino apprezzabile che presentando il suo biglietto ormai scaduto, ne falsifichi un altro per aver l鈥檌llusione di poter iniziare tutto da capo. Ci vogliano fantasia e coraggio per decidere di ripartire, sar脿 che a me mancavano entrambi e perci貌 disprezzai la doppia identit脿 di Gary. Il fatto 猫 che quella fantasia e quel coraggio erano il suo tentativo estremo di vincere la morte. Tuttavia essa ebbe la meglio e a Gary bast貌 un solo colpo per uccidere s茅 stesso ed Emile Ajar.
In questa autobiografia 猫 visibile la stratificazione di Gary: sulla sua anima ingenua sono installate le versioni adulte di soldato e uomo politico. Il risultato 猫 sorprendente perch茅 sotto l鈥檌ronia si aprono zone commoventi di candore alla vista delle quali il lettore si sente disarmato. Il dolore in Gary non 猫 adulto 猫 infantile, pertanto ancora pi霉 compassionevole. Io trovo talune sue formulazioni irripetibili, un misto di cuore, pateticit脿 e arguzia.
Scelgo un passaggio di questa mia rilettura (ne ho sottolineati parecchi) perch茅 ha a che vedere con ci貌 che anche in Biglietto Scaduto avevo apprezzato maggiormente
Istintivamente, senza un鈥檃pparente influenza letteraria, scoprii l鈥檜morismo, questo modo abile e assolutamente piacevole di disarmare la realt脿 nel momento stesso in cui sta per cadervi addosso. L鈥檜morismo 猫 stato per me, durante tutta la vita, un fraterno compagno; devo a lui i miei unici veri istanti di vittoria sulle avversit脿. Nessuno 猫 riuscito a togliermi quest鈥檃rma, e io la rivolgo tanto pi霉 volentieri contro me stesso, in quanto colpendo me, colpisco tutti. L鈥檜morismo 猫 un鈥檃ffermazione di dignit脿, un鈥檃ffermazione della superiorit脿 dell鈥檜omo su ci貌 che gli pu貌 capitare.
Non lo salv貌 neppure quello quando si punt貌 un鈥檃rma vera contro, non ha mai salvato nessuno tuttavia rende l鈥檈sistenza pi霉 sopportabile
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2014
鈽呪槄鈽�
La vecchia favola 鈥渁l lupo al lupo鈥�, quella che vi hanno raccontato da piccoli, quella che voi racconterete ai vostri figli. Gary mi ha messo di fronte allo stratagemma che da sempre mi consente di leggere, ossia quello di credere che si tratti di una storia vera. Se sento gridare 鈥渁l lupo鈥� io non penso ad uno scherzo.
Mar矛as aveva ragione, se non immediatamente, dopo alcune pagine, mi abbandono alla storia, la seguo, che l鈥檃pprezzi o meno, non metto in discussione il fatto che sia quella. Mentre stavo leggendo questo libro ho visto lo spezzone di un documentario dedicato a Gary. In quel documentario si intuiva che Gary urlava 鈥渁l lupo鈥� a riguardo del 鈥淏iglietto scaduto鈥� perch茅 il lupo potesse agire nelle spoglie del suo pseudonimo Ajar, concorrente al premio Goncourt. Il risultato di ci貌 猫 stato leggere con diffidenza la promessa dell鈥檃lba che 猫 una sorta di biografia.
Le passai il braccio intorno alle spalle. Non sentivo pi霉 le risate, non vedevo pi霉 gli sguardi ironici, pensavo a tutte le battaglie che avrei combattuto per lei, alla promessa fatta a me stesso, all鈥檃lba della mia vita, di renderle giustizia, di dare un senso al suo sacrificio.
Eccolo, qui c鈥檈ra lo scrittore in grado di emozionarmi prima di vedere quel documentario. Dopo di esso le pagine mi pesavano, ero il bambino deluso che ha visto il trucco, ero il contadino infuriato per aver dato credito al falso allarme del giovane pastore annoiato.
Stilisticamente il libro 猫 pi霉 vicino a La vita davanti a s茅 (*1) che al Biglietto scaduto. E鈥� il tributo di Romain alla madre, la donna che gli ha donato la vita e che ha creduto ciecamente in lui. Una donna che sognava e mitizzava la Francia e che un giorno la raggiunger脿 portandosi appresso il figlio, dopo gli stenti patiti nella nativa Russia e in Polonia.
Anche questa volta il finale mi ha steso
Mi costa molto continuare, e lo far貌 nel modo pi霉 rapido possibile..
Mi ha ricordato Beckett e Sandro Veronesi che lo cita in uno dei suoi romanzi
Non posso continuare. Continuer貌.
E la favola al lupo, al lupo? Leggete che cosa dice Nabokov in proposito:
芦La letteratura non 猫 nata il giorno in cui un ragazzo, gridando al lupo al lupo, usc矛 di corsa dalla valle di Neanderthal con un gran lupo grigio alle calcagna: 猫 nata il giorno in cui un ragazzo arriv貌 gridando al lupo al lupo, e non c鈥檈rano lupi dietro di lui.禄
(*1) Il romanzo che fu pubblicato con lo pseudonimo di Emile Ajar e vinse il Goncourt. (Gary 猫 l鈥檜nico autore che si sia aggiudicato il premio due volte, beffando le regole secondo le quali non pu貌 essere assegnato alla stessa persona. La prima volta si aggiudic貌 il premio come Romain Gary)
Contributi musicali:
The Style Council
Lucio Dalla
Tutto 猫 iniziato con un brano che nell鈥檈dizione del libro che lessi cinque anni fa non compariva
Con l鈥檃more materno la vita ci fa all鈥檃lba una promessa che non manterr脿 mai. In seguito si 猫 costretti a mangiare gli avanzi, fino alla fine. Ogni volta che una donna ci prende tra le braccia e ci stringe al cuore, si tratta solo di condoglianze. Si ritorna sempre a guaire sulla tomba della propria madre come un cane abbandonato. Mai pi霉, mai pi霉, mai pi霉. Braccia adorabili si chiudono intorno al nostro collo e labbra dolcissime ci parlano d鈥檃more, ma noi sappiamo gi脿 tutto. Noi siamo stati alla sorgente troppo presto e abbiamo bevuto tutto. Quando ci riprende la sete, si ha un bel cercare da ogni parte: non ci sono pi霉 pozzi, soltanto miraggi. Abbiamo fatto, alla prima luce dell鈥檃lba, uno studio approfondito dell鈥檃more e ci siamo documentati troppo bene. Dovunque andremo, porteremo con noi il veleno dei confronti; e passiamo il tempo aspettando ci貌 che abbiamo gi脿 avuto.
Vorrei essere il figlio che l鈥檋a scritto. Non basta la quarantina, occorre che la sorgente si sia seccata, che il posto nel mondo dove la nostra sete poteva essere placata non vi sia pi霉, che ne resti solo il ricordo. Trovai la citazione in rete, ripassai il mio libro da cima a fondo ma non ve n鈥檈ra traccia. Per me 猫 una delle cose pi霉 belle che siano state scritte, 猫 poesia in prosa.
Trovato il brano in rilettura mi 猫 subentrata la sindrome da missione compiuta, in realt脿 sapevo di averne una pi霉 importante da intraprendere (riconciliarmi con Gary) e che per farlo non mi sarei potuto fermare dopo cinquanta pagine. La mia prima impressione (copio in calce il commento di allora) risent矛 sicuramente anche della traduzione.
Che capacit脿, che mescolanza di poesia, ironia e sentimento. Per forza un giorno si mise a scrivere fingendosi qualcun altro, non gli era sufficiente una sola personalit脿 per esprimere tutte le sue potenzialit脿. Avevo un bel dire da monolite, in merito alla franchezza di quest鈥檜omo tormentato, di cui anche in questa autobiografia non si capisce dove finisca lui ed inizi il personaggio letterario, chi dei due sia stato modellato sui destini dell鈥檃ltro. Gary era un russo che scriveva in francese, io voglio ringraziare Marcello Venturi per come lo ha tradotto perch茅 questo 猫 un altro libro rispetto a quello che lessi cinque anni fa e contemporaneamente sono io ad essere un altro; pi霉 vecchio, pi霉 portato a pensare che un uomo fa del suo meglio con gli anni che gli sono concessi in sorte ed 猫 scusabile e forse perfino apprezzabile che presentando il suo biglietto ormai scaduto, ne falsifichi un altro per aver l鈥檌llusione di poter iniziare tutto da capo. Ci vogliano fantasia e coraggio per decidere di ripartire, sar脿 che a me mancavano entrambi e perci貌 disprezzai la doppia identit脿 di Gary. Il fatto 猫 che quella fantasia e quel coraggio erano il suo tentativo estremo di vincere la morte. Tuttavia essa ebbe la meglio e a Gary bast貌 un solo colpo per uccidere s茅 stesso ed Emile Ajar.
In questa autobiografia 猫 visibile la stratificazione di Gary: sulla sua anima ingenua sono installate le versioni adulte di soldato e uomo politico. Il risultato 猫 sorprendente perch茅 sotto l鈥檌ronia si aprono zone commoventi di candore alla vista delle quali il lettore si sente disarmato. Il dolore in Gary non 猫 adulto 猫 infantile, pertanto ancora pi霉 compassionevole. Io trovo talune sue formulazioni irripetibili, un misto di cuore, pateticit脿 e arguzia.
Scelgo un passaggio di questa mia rilettura (ne ho sottolineati parecchi) perch茅 ha a che vedere con ci貌 che anche in Biglietto Scaduto avevo apprezzato maggiormente
Istintivamente, senza un鈥檃pparente influenza letteraria, scoprii l鈥檜morismo, questo modo abile e assolutamente piacevole di disarmare la realt脿 nel momento stesso in cui sta per cadervi addosso. L鈥檜morismo 猫 stato per me, durante tutta la vita, un fraterno compagno; devo a lui i miei unici veri istanti di vittoria sulle avversit脿. Nessuno 猫 riuscito a togliermi quest鈥檃rma, e io la rivolgo tanto pi霉 volentieri contro me stesso, in quanto colpendo me, colpisco tutti. L鈥檜morismo 猫 un鈥檃ffermazione di dignit脿, un鈥檃ffermazione della superiorit脿 dell鈥檜omo su ci貌 che gli pu貌 capitare.
Non lo salv貌 neppure quello quando si punt貌 un鈥檃rma vera contro, non ha mai salvato nessuno tuttavia rende l鈥檈sistenza pi霉 sopportabile
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2014
鈽呪槄鈽�
La vecchia favola 鈥渁l lupo al lupo鈥�, quella che vi hanno raccontato da piccoli, quella che voi racconterete ai vostri figli. Gary mi ha messo di fronte allo stratagemma che da sempre mi consente di leggere, ossia quello di credere che si tratti di una storia vera. Se sento gridare 鈥渁l lupo鈥� io non penso ad uno scherzo.
Mar矛as aveva ragione, se non immediatamente, dopo alcune pagine, mi abbandono alla storia, la seguo, che l鈥檃pprezzi o meno, non metto in discussione il fatto che sia quella. Mentre stavo leggendo questo libro ho visto lo spezzone di un documentario dedicato a Gary. In quel documentario si intuiva che Gary urlava 鈥渁l lupo鈥� a riguardo del 鈥淏iglietto scaduto鈥� perch茅 il lupo potesse agire nelle spoglie del suo pseudonimo Ajar, concorrente al premio Goncourt. Il risultato di ci貌 猫 stato leggere con diffidenza la promessa dell鈥檃lba che 猫 una sorta di biografia.
Le passai il braccio intorno alle spalle. Non sentivo pi霉 le risate, non vedevo pi霉 gli sguardi ironici, pensavo a tutte le battaglie che avrei combattuto per lei, alla promessa fatta a me stesso, all鈥檃lba della mia vita, di renderle giustizia, di dare un senso al suo sacrificio.
Eccolo, qui c鈥檈ra lo scrittore in grado di emozionarmi prima di vedere quel documentario. Dopo di esso le pagine mi pesavano, ero il bambino deluso che ha visto il trucco, ero il contadino infuriato per aver dato credito al falso allarme del giovane pastore annoiato.
Stilisticamente il libro 猫 pi霉 vicino a La vita davanti a s茅 (*1) che al Biglietto scaduto. E鈥� il tributo di Romain alla madre, la donna che gli ha donato la vita e che ha creduto ciecamente in lui. Una donna che sognava e mitizzava la Francia e che un giorno la raggiunger脿 portandosi appresso il figlio, dopo gli stenti patiti nella nativa Russia e in Polonia.
Anche questa volta il finale mi ha steso
Mi costa molto continuare, e lo far貌 nel modo pi霉 rapido possibile..
Mi ha ricordato Beckett e Sandro Veronesi che lo cita in uno dei suoi romanzi
Non posso continuare. Continuer貌.
E la favola al lupo, al lupo? Leggete che cosa dice Nabokov in proposito:
芦La letteratura non 猫 nata il giorno in cui un ragazzo, gridando al lupo al lupo, usc矛 di corsa dalla valle di Neanderthal con un gran lupo grigio alle calcagna: 猫 nata il giorno in cui un ragazzo arriv貌 gridando al lupo al lupo, e non c鈥檈rano lupi dietro di lui.禄
(*1) Il romanzo che fu pubblicato con lo pseudonimo di Emile Ajar e vinse il Goncourt. (Gary 猫 l鈥檜nico autore che si sia aggiudicato il premio due volte, beffando le regole secondo le quali non pu貌 essere assegnato alla stessa persona. La prima volta si aggiudic貌 il premio come Romain Gary)
Contributi musicali:
The Style Council
Lucio Dalla
February 22, 2021
5/5
Gyvenimas kra拧tutinumuose gali b奴ti labai li奴dnas. O gali b奴ti ir baisiai juokingas. Romainas Gary sugeba viena koja stov臈ti viename spektro gale, o kita 鈥� prie拧ingame, apie baisiausius, skaud啪iausius, li奴dniausius dalykus pasakodamas taip, kad ne寞manoma jei ne juoktis, tai bent nesi拧ypsoti 寞 奴s膮. Ir istorijos, da啪nai laviruojan膷ios ant absurdo ribos, tuo pat metu yra tokios gyvenimi拧kos, net jei ir ne visada tikros. Ir Gary veikiau ne pasakoja apie tai, kaip gyveno, o daro 拧寞 t膮 ilgaam啪i拧kesnio 鈥� kuria mit膮. O mitas, jei tinkamai papasakotas, gali gyventi am啪inai. T膮 啪inojo jis. O svarbiausia 鈥� 啪inojo jo mama. Ar ne jos visada 啪ino geriausiai?
Po vienu sk臈膷iu pas Romain膮 Gary telpa, rodos, viskas: grandioziniai u啪mojai (pavyzd啪iui, nu啪udyti Hitler寞), vaikyst臈s prisiminimai (kas gi gal臈t懦 pamir拧ti pirm膮j寞 kart膮, kai mat臈 kep臈j膮 kirkinant tarnait臋?..), meil臈s istorijos. Pastarosios 鈥� pa膷ios 寞vairiausios. Nuo gra啪iausios moters, sutiktos per kar膮, kalio拧o valgymo epop臈jos d臈l 啪avingiausios kiemo gra啪uol臈s (ir kaip dabar netur臈ti nerealisti拧k懦 standart懦 Tam Vieninteliui, kuris d臈l man臋s kalio拧o (ne)suvalgyt懦????), iki tinkamai paraugt懦 agurk臈li懦. Per vis膮 savo ilg膮 skaitymo karjer膮 d臈l neai拧ki懦 prie啪as膷i懦 buvau 寞sitikinusi, kad Gary 鈥� baisiai rimtas k奴r臈jas, o Au拧ros pa啪adas 鈥� baisiai rimtas k奴rinys. Vis d臈lto, autorius moka daryti kaip tik tai, k膮 m臈gstu labiausiai 鈥� giliomis, skaud啪iomis ir asmeni拧komis temomis kalb臈ti be savigailos, paverk拧lenim懦 ir dejoni懦, b奴damas pa膷ia geriausia 寞manoma susireik拧minusio narcizo forma. Jis sugeba pasakoti istorijas 寞domias ne tik jam vienam, nors ir neai拧ku kiek tikras, bet tiesiog malonias klausyti. Ir d臈l man臋s Romainas gali reik拧mintis kiek tik nori 鈥� yra d臈l ko. Tiesa, negalvokit, kad viskas tik agurk臈liai ir bajeriai: daug lyri拧kumo, subtilumo, 拧velnios melancholijos, bet ji tokia neperspausta, ne erzinanti, o vis tiek 拧viesi ir viltinga 鈥� kur kas viltingesn臈, nei tik臈jausi. Ir, 啪inoma, visk膮 vainikuoja nuostabus V. Tauragien臈s vertimas.
Ai拧ku, b奴t懦 galima tomus prira拧yti apie Romaino ir jo mamos Ninos santyk寞, jo toksi拧kum膮 ir labiausiai smaugian膷ius l奴kes膷i懦 pan膷ius. Bet tie meil臈s deimantai, kuriuos autorius mini, ta bes膮lygi拧ka meil臈, kuri tikriausiai tik mam懦 ir yra sugebama i拧jausti, yra tokia visa apimanti, kad truput寞 net pavydu. Gi jei tav臋s nemyl臈jo 拧itaip nuo pat prad啪i懦, nebemyl臈s jau niekada, niekada. Ir galima 膷ia b奴t懦 psichoterapi拧kai pjaustyti Romain膮, skrosti ir j寞, ir jo mam膮, narstyti po kaulel寞, bet man per gra啪u, kad to im膷iausi, skauda truput寞 ir skruostus, ir 拧ird寞. Ir pasirenku tik臈ti Romano kuriamu mitu. Nes 啪mogus, kuris 啪ino gero agurk臈lio svarb膮, vertas to, kad juo patik臈tum.
Gyvenimas kra拧tutinumuose gali b奴ti labai li奴dnas. O gali b奴ti ir baisiai juokingas. Romainas Gary sugeba viena koja stov臈ti viename spektro gale, o kita 鈥� prie拧ingame, apie baisiausius, skaud啪iausius, li奴dniausius dalykus pasakodamas taip, kad ne寞manoma jei ne juoktis, tai bent nesi拧ypsoti 寞 奴s膮. Ir istorijos, da啪nai laviruojan膷ios ant absurdo ribos, tuo pat metu yra tokios gyvenimi拧kos, net jei ir ne visada tikros. Ir Gary veikiau ne pasakoja apie tai, kaip gyveno, o daro 拧寞 t膮 ilgaam啪i拧kesnio 鈥� kuria mit膮. O mitas, jei tinkamai papasakotas, gali gyventi am啪inai. T膮 啪inojo jis. O svarbiausia 鈥� 啪inojo jo mama. Ar ne jos visada 啪ino geriausiai?
Po vienu sk臈膷iu pas Romain膮 Gary telpa, rodos, viskas: grandioziniai u啪mojai (pavyzd啪iui, nu啪udyti Hitler寞), vaikyst臈s prisiminimai (kas gi gal臈t懦 pamir拧ti pirm膮j寞 kart膮, kai mat臈 kep臈j膮 kirkinant tarnait臋?..), meil臈s istorijos. Pastarosios 鈥� pa膷ios 寞vairiausios. Nuo gra啪iausios moters, sutiktos per kar膮, kalio拧o valgymo epop臈jos d臈l 啪avingiausios kiemo gra啪uol臈s (ir kaip dabar netur臈ti nerealisti拧k懦 standart懦 Tam Vieninteliui, kuris d臈l man臋s kalio拧o (ne)suvalgyt懦????), iki tinkamai paraugt懦 agurk臈li懦. Per vis膮 savo ilg膮 skaitymo karjer膮 d臈l neai拧ki懦 prie啪as膷i懦 buvau 寞sitikinusi, kad Gary 鈥� baisiai rimtas k奴r臈jas, o Au拧ros pa啪adas 鈥� baisiai rimtas k奴rinys. Vis d臈lto, autorius moka daryti kaip tik tai, k膮 m臈gstu labiausiai 鈥� giliomis, skaud啪iomis ir asmeni拧komis temomis kalb臈ti be savigailos, paverk拧lenim懦 ir dejoni懦, b奴damas pa膷ia geriausia 寞manoma susireik拧minusio narcizo forma. Jis sugeba pasakoti istorijas 寞domias ne tik jam vienam, nors ir neai拧ku kiek tikras, bet tiesiog malonias klausyti. Ir d臈l man臋s Romainas gali reik拧mintis kiek tik nori 鈥� yra d臈l ko. Tiesa, negalvokit, kad viskas tik agurk臈liai ir bajeriai: daug lyri拧kumo, subtilumo, 拧velnios melancholijos, bet ji tokia neperspausta, ne erzinanti, o vis tiek 拧viesi ir viltinga 鈥� kur kas viltingesn臈, nei tik臈jausi. Ir, 啪inoma, visk膮 vainikuoja nuostabus V. Tauragien臈s vertimas.
Ai拧ku, b奴t懦 galima tomus prira拧yti apie Romaino ir jo mamos Ninos santyk寞, jo toksi拧kum膮 ir labiausiai smaugian膷ius l奴kes膷i懦 pan膷ius. Bet tie meil臈s deimantai, kuriuos autorius mini, ta bes膮lygi拧ka meil臈, kuri tikriausiai tik mam懦 ir yra sugebama i拧jausti, yra tokia visa apimanti, kad truput寞 net pavydu. Gi jei tav臋s nemyl臈jo 拧itaip nuo pat prad啪i懦, nebemyl臈s jau niekada, niekada. Ir galima 膷ia b奴t懦 psichoterapi拧kai pjaustyti Romain膮, skrosti ir j寞, ir jo mam膮, narstyti po kaulel寞, bet man per gra啪u, kad to im膷iausi, skauda truput寞 ir skruostus, ir 拧ird寞. Ir pasirenku tik臈ti Romano kuriamu mitu. Nes 啪mogus, kuris 啪ino gero agurk臈lio svarb膮, vertas to, kad juo patik臈tum.
November 5, 2019
Pa啪int寞 su Romain Gary prad臈jau nuo jo 寞sp奴dingos autobiografijos. Tema apie nenutr奴kusias bambagysles ir t臈v懦 projektuojamus vaik懦 gyvenimus itin aktuali ir 拧iandien. Romain'o ir jo mamos Ninos istorija tikrai ver膷ia kilstel臈ti antak寞, 啪av臈tis ir kartu nepritarian膷iai purtyti galv膮, jie abu -nepaprastos asmenyb臈s, sumanios ir niekada nepasiduodan膷ios, kiekviena aklai besistengianti 寞gyvendinti sau ir kitam duotus pa啪adus.
Off topic truput寞. Su Romain, pasirodo, turime kone identi拧k膮 santyk寞 su j奴ra: "Ma膷iau m臈lyn膮 j奴r膮, akmen臈li懦 papl奴dim寞 ir saul臈je d啪i奴stan膷ias 啪vej懦 valtis. 沤velgiau 寞 j奴r膮. Ir man ka啪kas nutiko. Ne啪inau kas: ap臈m臈 begalin臈 ramyb臈, jausmas, kad a拧 gr寞啪au. Nuo tada j奴ra visiems laikams tapo man kuklia, bet pakankama metafizika. Nemoku kalb臈ti apie j奴r膮. 沤inau tik tiek, kad ji vienu moju i拧laisvina mane nuo vis懦 寞sipareigojim懦. Kiekvien膮 kart膮, kai 寞 j膮 啪velgiu, tampu laimingu skenduoliu."
Off topic truput寞. Su Romain, pasirodo, turime kone identi拧k膮 santyk寞 su j奴ra: "Ma膷iau m臈lyn膮 j奴r膮, akmen臈li懦 papl奴dim寞 ir saul臈je d啪i奴stan膷ias 啪vej懦 valtis. 沤velgiau 寞 j奴r膮. Ir man ka啪kas nutiko. Ne啪inau kas: ap臈m臈 begalin臈 ramyb臈, jausmas, kad a拧 gr寞啪au. Nuo tada j奴ra visiems laikams tapo man kuklia, bet pakankama metafizika. Nemoku kalb臈ti apie j奴r膮. 沤inau tik tiek, kad ji vienu moju i拧laisvina mane nuo vis懦 寞sipareigojim懦. Kiekvien膮 kart膮, kai 寞 j膮 啪velgiu, tampu laimingu skenduoliu."
August 9, 2007
The main thing that remained in my memory is what Romain Gary said about his mother love to him: when you grow up with love as big as the ocean, you keep looking for such love all your life and end up dying from thirst beside the well. I hope he'll excuse the liberty I took with it-it's been years since i read it. But this is the idea.
September 16, 2021
A arte maior de um escritor n茫o est谩 em encontrar uma boa hist贸ria para contar mas em encontrar uma boa forma de contar uma hist贸ria.
Foi um pouco a isto que me soube este livro - 'A Promessa' - de Romain Gary. Uma vida que se tornou extraordin谩ria n茫o s贸 pela sua participa莽茫o na II Guerra Mundial, mas tamb茅m pela expectativa que a m茫e colocou sobre os seus ombros e a influ锚ncia que esta exerceu sobre si.
Se em grande parte este livro deveria ser um petisco para os psic贸logos mais freudianos, tal n茫o 茅 o "trauma da m茫ezinha", o "menino da mam茫" ou a "m茫e dominadora" que atravessa toda a obra, a verdade 茅 que nele coabita tamb茅m uma bela homenagem 脿 m茫e do autor e aos esfor莽os que encetou para nele ver cumpridas as suas expectativas. Ele n茫o esconde o facto de tal carga lhe ter roubado a sua pr贸pria personalidade (pela descri莽茫o e motiva莽玫es das viv锚ncias relatadas), mas a escrita de Gary 茅 t茫o fluida que desculpamos quase tudo, pelo prazer de ler.
Foi um pouco a isto que me soube este livro - 'A Promessa' - de Romain Gary. Uma vida que se tornou extraordin谩ria n茫o s贸 pela sua participa莽茫o na II Guerra Mundial, mas tamb茅m pela expectativa que a m茫e colocou sobre os seus ombros e a influ锚ncia que esta exerceu sobre si.
Se em grande parte este livro deveria ser um petisco para os psic贸logos mais freudianos, tal n茫o 茅 o "trauma da m茫ezinha", o "menino da mam茫" ou a "m茫e dominadora" que atravessa toda a obra, a verdade 茅 que nele coabita tamb茅m uma bela homenagem 脿 m茫e do autor e aos esfor莽os que encetou para nele ver cumpridas as suas expectativas. Ele n茫o esconde o facto de tal carga lhe ter roubado a sua pr贸pria personalidade (pela descri莽茫o e motiva莽玫es das viv锚ncias relatadas), mas a escrita de Gary 茅 t茫o fluida que desculpamos quase tudo, pelo prazer de ler.
July 8, 2019
Un examen de conscience tout 脿 la fois tendre et implacable, une confidence brusqu茅e, o霉 tout est dit de ce qui doit l'锚tre pour faire la somme d'une mesure, d'une justice, d'un sens dont la recherche forme le th猫me de ce roman en forme de rhapsodie obs茅dante.
"Je suis sans rancune envers les hommes de la d茅faite et de l'armistice de 40. Je comprends fort bien ceux qui avaient refus茅 de suivre De Gaulle. Ils 茅taient trop install茅s dans leurs meubles, qu'ils appelaient la condition humaine. Ils avaient appris et ils enseignaient 芦 la sagesse 禄, cette camomille empoisonn茅e que l'habitude de vivre verse peu 脿 peu dans notre gosier, avec son go没t doucereux d'humilit茅, de renoncement et d'acceptation. Lettr茅s, pensifs, r锚veurs, cultiv茅s, sceptiques, bien n茅s, bien 茅lev茅s, f茅rus d'humanit茅s, au fond d'eux-m锚mes, secr猫tement, ils avaient toujours su que l'humain 茅tait une tentation impossible et ils avaient donc accueilli la victoire d'Hitler comme allant de soi. 脌 l'茅vidence de notre servitude biologique et m茅taphysique, ils avaient accept茅 tout naturellement de donner un prolongement politique et social. J'irai m锚me plus loin, sans vouloir insulter personne : ils avaient raison, et cela seul e没t d没 suffire 脿 les mettre en garde. Ils avaient raison, dans le sens de l'habilet茅, de la prudence, du refus de l'aventure, de l'茅pingle du jeu, dans le sens qui e没t 茅vit茅 脿 J茅sus de mourir sur la croix, 脿 Van Gogh de peindre, 脿 mon Morel de d茅fendre ses 茅l茅phants, aux Fran莽ais d'锚tre fusill茅s, et qui e没t uni dans le m锚me n茅ant, en les emp锚chant de na卯tre, les cath茅drales et les mus茅es, les empires et les civilisations. "
La promesse de l'aube, Gallimard (1980), p.329
Assaisonnement :
Fly From Here Album - Yes
"Je suis sans rancune envers les hommes de la d茅faite et de l'armistice de 40. Je comprends fort bien ceux qui avaient refus茅 de suivre De Gaulle. Ils 茅taient trop install茅s dans leurs meubles, qu'ils appelaient la condition humaine. Ils avaient appris et ils enseignaient 芦 la sagesse 禄, cette camomille empoisonn茅e que l'habitude de vivre verse peu 脿 peu dans notre gosier, avec son go没t doucereux d'humilit茅, de renoncement et d'acceptation. Lettr茅s, pensifs, r锚veurs, cultiv茅s, sceptiques, bien n茅s, bien 茅lev茅s, f茅rus d'humanit茅s, au fond d'eux-m锚mes, secr猫tement, ils avaient toujours su que l'humain 茅tait une tentation impossible et ils avaient donc accueilli la victoire d'Hitler comme allant de soi. 脌 l'茅vidence de notre servitude biologique et m茅taphysique, ils avaient accept茅 tout naturellement de donner un prolongement politique et social. J'irai m锚me plus loin, sans vouloir insulter personne : ils avaient raison, et cela seul e没t d没 suffire 脿 les mettre en garde. Ils avaient raison, dans le sens de l'habilet茅, de la prudence, du refus de l'aventure, de l'茅pingle du jeu, dans le sens qui e没t 茅vit茅 脿 J茅sus de mourir sur la croix, 脿 Van Gogh de peindre, 脿 mon Morel de d茅fendre ses 茅l茅phants, aux Fran莽ais d'锚tre fusill茅s, et qui e没t uni dans le m锚me n茅ant, en les emp锚chant de na卯tre, les cath茅drales et les mus茅es, les empires et les civilisations. "
La promesse de l'aube, Gallimard (1980), p.329
Assaisonnement :
Fly From Here Album - Yes
November 5, 2019
鈥濶esijau膷iu kaltas: 寞vykd啪iau savo pa啪ad膮 ir vykdau j寞 toliau. Pranc奴zijai tarnavau i拧 visos 拧irdies, nes tai - visa, kas be tos ma啪yt臈s paso nuotraukos, man liko i拧 motinos.鈥�
Tai pirmoji ir labai s臈kminga mano pa啪intis su R. Gary. Lenkiu galv膮 u啪 toki膮 nuostabi膮 istorij膮. Labai gra啪iai apra拧yti mamos ir s奴naus santykiai. Ji nor臈jo, kad jis tapt懦 Pranc奴zijos ambasadoriumi, Nobelio premijos laureatu, menininku, Garb臈s legiono ordino kavalieriumi, Imperatori拧kojo teniso klubo nariu. Jis nor臈jo tik vieno - pateisinti visas jos viltis.
Tai pirmoji ir labai s臈kminga mano pa啪intis su R. Gary. Lenkiu galv膮 u啪 toki膮 nuostabi膮 istorij膮. Labai gra啪iai apra拧yti mamos ir s奴naus santykiai. Ji nor臈jo, kad jis tapt懦 Pranc奴zijos ambasadoriumi, Nobelio premijos laureatu, menininku, Garb臈s legiono ordino kavalieriumi, Imperatori拧kojo teniso klubo nariu. Jis nor臈jo tik vieno - pateisinti visas jos viltis.
August 16, 2019
A拧 nesitik臈jau nieko gero i拧 拧ios knygos (nu ko galima tik臈tis u啪 paik拧io, valgiusio savo kalio拧膮?), ir kaip ji mane nud啪iugino! Ne啪inau, kiek i拧 ties懦 geras buvo Gary humoro jausmas, ta膷iau pasijuokti i拧 sav臋s jis tikrai sugeb臈jo.
Nuostabi knyga, nuostabi ir ironi拧ka s奴naus od臈 apie motinos meil臋.
Nuostabi knyga, nuostabi ir ironi拧ka s奴naus od臈 apie motinos meil臋.
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