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252 pages, Paperback
First published January 1, 1957
She sensed a promise of tenderness, the quality she always searched for and so often brusquely rejected, not knowing how to deal with its effects upon herself, suspicious of the emotions it aroused in her.
Her vanity had been stunned by the way in which her book had been received. No trumpets have been thrusting out from behind clouds, proclaiming 'genius' and 'masterpiece'. For a long time nothing at all had happened, and then, slowly, the abuse and sarcasm had begun. The very passages of which she had been most proud, had been printed as if they were richly humorous; her dialogue, her syntax, her view of life, her descriptions of society were all seen to be part of some new and quite delicious joke.(69)
She turned her back to him, examining the cactus plant again, afraid for herself lest the house, just like another childish toy, was to be the sum of her good luck.
"I comfort myself with material things," she said in a muffled voice, her long fingers pressed to her brow, covering her eyes. He knew then that she was about to risk everything and see what he himself would now have no need to say.
"What other things do you want?" he asked gently.
" Love." The word came with such a gasp that the St . Bernard for the first time looked surprised. (150)
Arrogant and absurd she had been and had remained: she had warded off friendship and stayed lonely and made such fortifications within her own mind that the truth could not pierce it. At the slightest air of censure in the world about her, up had gone the barricades, the strenuous resistance begun by which she was preserved in her own imagination, beautiful, clever, successful and beloved.(226)
...at sixteen, experience was an unnecessary and usually baffling obstacle to her imagination.
"A holiday wouldn't do any good, or make any difference. I should have to take myself with me."
"And what is so very wrong in that," he tried to sound robust, but the change in her disconcerted him.
"It is myself I need a holiday from," she said.
Until now she had thought of love with bleak distaste. She wanted to dominate the world, not one person.