"wild to think how much i and my opinions have changed over the past 3 years lol

past me was really hyped for this release and read it in 24 hrs, loving the taboo nature. present me... not as into taboo shit and more into well plotted/paced stories with clear character growth. soooo many people like this, and i guess i get it. but it's not a favorite from this author for me."

"it's the pedophilia�� for me

idk why PD insists making their female mcs underage (for at least the first part of the book) and at this point i'm too afraid to ask.


i'd beat up uncle jake for free but you will have to pay me a considerable amount of money to finish this

every male character in this is disgusting, and i have only met two out of three. i hope the reason is because the third one is in jail where uncle jake will follow


from the insinuation that he will keep her locked up in the house:

"Maybe", he taunts. "Or maybe I'll decide that you'd benefit from some time here and that you can't leave after all."
"I'll be of age in ten weeks." "We'll be snowed in in eight." And he laughs."


to his and his son's creepy obsession with her smiling - girl lost her parents, just shut up:

"You have a pretty smile. If you stay, I'll make you smile some more."

"I wish she'd smile."


to just the general vibe that these two adults (one in his forties, the other in his twenties) see this seventeen year old as a piece of meat and are just counting the days until they can finally legally fuck her:

“So, when do you turn eighteen?�� Noah asks."

"I stop, an image of Tiernan in the backseat of some car—sweat on her face, hair sticking to her cheek, eyes closed, breathing hard—pops into my head."

"She better not. I’m not supplying this town with new pussy."

"If for no other reason than to burn off my exceeding supply of frustration with her father. To make her work off his debt to me. To fuck up her life just a little bit. To make her�� She wets her pink lips, and my breath catches for a moment. If I were a worse man..."


there is also this scene where she unbuttons a shirt she is wearing in front of dearest uncle jake - mind you, she is wearing a whole ass t-shirt underneath - and he is like "She should be doing this in the privacy of the bathroom."
the only reason she should be doing this in the bathroom is because he is a disgusting creep who sees his teenage niece as a sex object. he is one of those people other family members would tell their daughters not to wear shorts around cause the entire family just knows he masturbates to the thought of underage girls in the shower.


mind you i am only 16% in but shall we make some predictions?

- it's a whole ass ten weeks until her 18th birthday - no one can wait that long. uncle jake is already thirsting after some teenage 🐱, there is no way he won't at least try to do something. and if not him then one of his twenty year old sons

- at least one of them is going to r*pe or sexually assault her in any way shape or form, i mean, "It does get boring in the winter... when the beer runs out."

- she's probably going to fall for tall dark and handsome - so the dude i haven't met yet. who will probably do something to her that's at least questionable if not full on jail worthy


there is no way i'm wrong about those predictions so consider this read. dnf @16%"