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First published January 1, 1969
Oh, that morning burned in the heart! Oh, the illusory nature of calamity. Oh, the irretrievable! What鈥檚 worse about this burden which no one has yet called by any name, what鈥檚 worse 鈥� paralysis, or nausea? Nervous exhaustion or mortal sorrow somewhere in the region of the heart? But, if that all equal, then all the same what鈥檚 worse about it 鈥� tetanus, or fever?
The other passengers looked at me almost indifferently with their round, vacant eyes.
I like that. I like that my country鈥檚 people have such empty, bulging eyes. This instills in me a feeling of legitimate pride. You can imagine what the eyes are like where everything is bought and sold 鈥� deeply hidden, secretive, predatory and frightened. Devaluation, unemployment, pauperism鈥� People look at you distrustfully, with restless anxiety and torment. That鈥檚 the kind of eyes they have in the world of Filthy Lucre.
If I should ever have any children, I鈥檒l hang on their wall a portrait of the Procurator of Judaea, Pontius Pilate, so that they will grow up neat and clean. Procurator Pontius Pilate standing there washing his hands 鈥� that鈥檚 the right kind of portrait.
脦mi place c膬 poporul 葲膬rii mele are ochii at卯t de goi 葯i de bulbuca葲i. Asta 卯mi imprim膬 un sentiment de legitim膬 m卯ndrie. Ne putem imagina ce fel de ochi s卯nt acolo. Unde totul se vinde 葯i totul se cump膬r膬: ...ochi bine ascun葯i, piti葲i, rapaci 葯i 卯nsp膬im卯nta葲i... Infla葲ie, 葯omaj, pauperism... Se uit膬 pe sub spr卯ncene, cu 卯ngrijorare perpetu膬 葯i suferin葲膬 鈥� iat膬 ce fel de ochi s卯nt 卯n lumea banilor pe葯in...
脦n schimb, ce ochi are poporul meu! S卯nt mereu holba葲i, dar n-au 卯n ei nici un fel de tensiune. Deplin膬 absen葲膬 a oric膬rui sens, 卯n schimb 鈥� ce vigoare (ce vigoare spiritual膬!); ochii 膬葯tia n-au s膬 te v卯nd膬. N-au s膬 v卯nd膬 nimic 葯i n-au s膬 cumpere nimic. Orice s-ar 卯nt卯mpla cu 葲ara mea, 卯n zile de 卯ndoial膬, 卯n zile de 卯mpov膬r膬toare medita葲ii, 卯n vremuri de 卯ncerc膬ri 葯i amaruri felurite 鈥� ochii 膬葯tia n-au s膬 clipeasc膬.
De-o via葲膬 卯ntreag膬 m膬 apas膬 acest co葯mar, co葯marul c膬 e葯ti 卯n葲eles anapoda, nu, nu 鈥瀉napoda鈥�, ci strict pe dos, adic膬 de-a dreptul porce葯te, adic膬 antinomic.鈥�
Mai era 葯i Hegel. Asta mi-o aduc aminte foarte bine: era 葯i Hegel. Spunea: 鈥濶u exist膬 deosebiri, 卯n afara deosebirii de grad 卯ntre gradele diferite 葯i absen葲a deosebirii鈥�. Adic膬, dac膬-i s膬 traducem asta 卯ntr-un limbaj ca lumea: 鈥濩ine nu bea acum?"...
Sufletul meu e precum burdihanul calului troian, 卯ncap multe 卯n el.
Ziua noastr膬 de m卯ine e mai luminoas膬 dec卯t cea de ieri 葯i cea de ast膬zi. Dar cine garanteaz膬 c膬 ziua noastr膬 de poim卯ine nu va fi mai rea dec卯t cea de alalt膬ieri?
Trebuie s膬 respect膬m, repet, str膬fundurile sufletului altuia. Trebuie s膬 ne uit膬m 卯n ele, chiar dac膬 acolo nu-i nimic, chiar dac膬 acolo nu-s dec卯t aiureli e tot una: uit膬-te 葯i respect膬, uit膬-te 葯i nu scuipa...
袧械 褋屑械泄褌械褋褜. 校 屑械薪褟 斜芯谐邪褌褘泄 芯锌褘褌 胁 褋芯蟹写邪薪懈懈 泻芯泻褌械泄谢械泄. 袨褌 袦芯褋泻胁褘 懈 写芯 袩械褌褍褕泻芯胁 锌褜褞褌 褝褌懈 泻芯泻褌械泄谢懈 写芯 褋懈褏 锌芯褉, 薪械 蟹薪邪褟 懈屑械薪懈 邪胁褌芯褉邪; 锌褜褞褌 芦啸邪薪邪邪薪褋泻懈泄 斜邪谢褜蟹邪屑禄, 锌褜褞褌 芦小谢械蟹褍 泻芯屑褋芯屑芯谢泻懈禄, 懈 锌褉邪胁懈谢褜薪芯 写械谢邪褞褌, 褔褌芯 锌褜褞褌. 袦褘 薪械 屑芯卸械屑 卸写邪褌褜 屑懈谢芯褋褌械泄 芯褌 锌褉懈褉芯写褘. 袗 褔褌芯斜褘 胁蟹褟褌褜 懈褏 褍 薪械械, 薪邪写芯, 褉邪蟹褍屑械械褌褋褟, 蟹薪邪褌褜 懈褏 褌芯褔薪褘械 褉械褑械锌褌褘; 褟, 械褋谢懈 褏芯褌懈褌械, 写邪屑 胁邪屑 褝褌懈 褉械褑械锌褌褘. 小谢褍褕邪泄褌械.
携 胁 懈褏 谐芯写褘 写械谢邪谢 褌邪泻: 胁械褔械褉芯屑 胁 褔械褌胁械褉谐 胁褘锌懈胁邪谢 芯写薪懈屑 屑邪褏芯屑 褌褉懈 褋 锌芯谢芯胁懈薪芯泄 谢懈褌褉邪 械褉褕邪 鈥� 胁褘锌懈胁邪谢 懈 谢芯卸懈谢褋褟 褋锌邪褌褜, 薪械 褉邪蟹写械胁邪褟褋褜, 褋 芯写薪芯泄 褌芯谢褜泻芯 屑褘褋谢褜褞: 锌褉芯褋薪褍褋褜 褟 褍褌褉芯屑 胁 锌褟褌薪懈褑褍 懈谢懈 薪械 锌褉芯褋薪褍褋褜? 袠 胁褋械-褌邪泻懈 褍褌褉芯屑 胁 锌褟褌薪懈褑褍 褟 薪械 锌褉芯褋褘锌邪谢褋褟. 袗 锌褉芯褋褘锌邪谢褋褟 褍褌褉芯屑 胁 褋褍斜斜芯褌褍, 懈 褍卸械 薪械 胁 袦芯褋泻胁械, 邪 锌芯写 薪邪褋褘锌褜褞 卸械谢械蟹薪芯泄 写芯褉芯谐懈, 胁 褉邪泄芯薪械 袧邪褉芯-肖芯屑懈薪褋泻邪. 袗 锌芯褌芯屑 鈥� 锌芯褌芯屑 褟 褋 褍褋懈谢懈械屑 锌褉懈锌芯屑懈薪邪谢 懈 薪邪泻邪锌谢懈胁邪谢 褎邪泻褌褘, 邪, 薪邪泻芯锌懈胁, 褋芯锌芯褋褌邪胁谢褟谢. 袗 褋芯锌芯褋褌邪胁懈胁, 薪邪褔懈薪邪谢 芯锌褟褌褜 胁芯褋褋褌邪薪邪胁谢懈胁邪褌褜 薪邪锌褉褟卸械薪懈械屑 锌邪屑褟褌懈 懈 褋芯 胁褋械锌褉芯薪懈泻邪褞褖懈屑 邪薪邪谢懈蟹芯屑. 袗 锌芯褌芯屑 锌械褉械褏芯写懈谢 芯褌 褋芯蟹械褉褑邪薪懈褟 泻 邪斜褋褌褉邪泻褑懈懈, 写褉褍谐懈屑懈 褋谢芯胁邪屑懈, 胁写褍屑褔懈胁芯 芯锌芯褏屑械谢褟谢褋褟, 懈, 薪邪泻芯薪械褑, 褍蟹薪邪胁邪谢, 泻褍写邪 卸械 胁褋械-褌邪泻懈 写械胁邪谢邪褋褜 褝褌邪 锌褟褌薪懈褑邪.
鈥� 袧械褌, 胁褘 屑械薪褟 薪械 褌邪泻 锌芯薪褟谢懈, 褉械斜褟褌邪鈥� 锌褉芯褋褌芯 褟鈥�
鈥� 袧械褌, 屑褘 褌械斜褟 锌褉邪胁懈谢褜薪芯 锌芯薪褟谢懈鈥�
鈥� 袛邪 薪械褌 卸械, 薪械 锌芯薪褟谢懈. 袧械 屑芯谐褍 卸械 褟, 泻邪泻 胁褘: 胁褋褌邪褌褜 褋 锌芯褋褌械谢懈, 褋泻邪蟹邪褌褜 胁芯 胁褋械褍褋谢褘褕邪薪懈械: 芦袧褍, 褉械斜褟褌邪, 褟 鈥π把傃� 锌芯褕械谢!禄 懈谢懈 芦袧褍, 褉械斜褟褌邪, 褟 鈥π把傃� 锌芯褕械谢!禄 袧械 屑芯谐褍 卸械 褟 褌邪泻鈥�