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160 pages, Paperback
First published January 1, 1947
I overwhelmed myself with tragedy, it broke out everywhere, from all sides. And I鈥檓 to blame. At least you might think that, but I, I know that it doesn鈥檛 matter to me. There鈥檚 nothing to do about boredom, I鈥檓 bored, but one day I won鈥檛 be bored anymore. Soon. I鈥檒l know that it鈥檚 not even worth the trouble. We鈥檒l have the easy life.
I didn鈥檛 say anything else to Maman. But J茅r么me had to disappear from Les Bugues. So that Nicolas could begin to live. It had to stop someday. That day had come.
My life: a fruit I must have eaten some of without tasting it, without realizing it, distractedly. I am not responsible for this age or for this image. You recognize it. It must be mine. I鈥檓 all right with that. I can鈥檛 do anything differently. I am that girl, there, once and for all and forever. I started to be her twenty-five years ago. I can鈥檛 even hold myself in my arms. I am bound to this waist I cannot encircle. My mouth, and the sound of my laugh, never will I know them. Yet I wish I could embrace the girl that I am and love her.
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I feel the proud weariness of being born, of having come to the end of this birth. Before me, there was nothing in my place. Now there is me in place of nothing. It鈥檚 a difficult inheritance. Hence the feeling that I am an air thief. Now you know it and you welcome being in the world. I steal my place from the air, but I am happy. Here. Here I am. I sprawl. It鈥檚 beautiful out. I am flour in the sun.