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200 pages, Paperback
First published January 1, 1897
鈥漇ingleton stood at the door with his face to the light and his back to the darkness. And alone in the dim emptiness of the sleeping forecastle he appeared bigger, colossal, very old; old as Father Time himself, who should have come there into this place as quiet as a sepulchre to contemplate with patient eyes the short victory of sleep, the consoler. Yet he was only a child of time, a lonely relic of a devoured and forgotten generation. He stood, still strong, as ever unthinking; a ready man with a vast empty past and with no future, with his childlike impulses and his man鈥檚 passions already dead within his tattooed breast. The men who could understand his silence were gone鈥攖hose men who knew how to exist beyond the pale of life and within sight of eternity. They had been strong, as those are strong who know neither doubts nor hopes. They had been impatient and enduring, turbulent and devoted, unruly and faithful. Well-meaning people had tried to represent those men as whining over every mouthful of their food; as going about their work in fear of their lives. But in truth they had been men who knew toil, privation, violence, debauchery鈥攂ut knew not fear, and had no desire of spite in their hearts. Men hard to manage, but easy to inspire; voiceless men鈥攂ut men enough to scorn in their hearts the sentimental voices that bewailed the hardness of their fate. It was a fate unique and their own; the capacity to bear it appeared to them the privilege of the chosen! Their generation lived inarticulate and, indispensable, without knowing the sweetness of affections or the refuge of a home鈥攁nd died free from the dark menace of a narrow grave. They were the everlasting children of the mysterious sea. Their successors are the grown-up children of a discontented earth. They are less naughty, but less innocent; less profane, but perhaps also less believing; and if they have learned how to speak they have also learned how to whine. But the others were strong and mute; they were effaced, bowed and enduring, like stone caryatides that hold up in the night the lighted halls of a resplendent and glorious edifice. They are gone now鈥攁nd it does not matter. The sea and the earth are unfaithful to their children: a truth, a faith, a generation of men goes鈥攁nd is forgotten, and it does not matter! Except, perhaps, to the few of those who believed the truth, confessed the faith鈥攐r loved the men.鈥�
鈥漇ingleton came up, venerable鈥攁nd uncertain as to daylight; brown drops of tobacco juice hung in his white beard; his hands, that never hesitated in the great light of the open sea, could hardly find the small pile of gold in the profound darkness of the shore. 鈥楥an鈥檛 write?鈥� said the clerk, shocked. 鈥楳ake a mark, then.鈥� Singleton painfully sketched in a heavy cross, blotted the page. 鈥榃hat a disgusting old brute,鈥� muttered the clerk.
鈥漌e had so far saved him; and it had become a personal matter between us and the sea. We meant to stick to him. Had we (by an incredible hypothesis) undergone similar toil and trouble for an empty cask, that cask would have become as precious to us as Jimmy was. More precious, in fact, because we would have had no reason to hate the cask. And we hated James Wait. We could not get rid of the monstrous suspicion that this astounding black-man was shamming sick, had been malingering heartlessly in the face of our toil, of our scorn, of our patience鈥攁nd now was malingering in the face of our devotion鈥攊n the face of death. Our vague and imperfect morality rose with disgust at his unmanly lie. [鈥 And we hated him because of the suspicion; we detested him because of the doubt. We could not scorn him safely鈥攏either could we pity him without risk to our dignity. So we hated him and passed him carefully from hand to hand.鈥�
鈥滱nd Donkin, watching the end of that hateful nigger, felt the anguishing grasp of a great sorrow on his heart at the thought that he himself, some day, would have to go through it all鈥攋ust like this鈥攑erhaps! His eyes became moist. 鈥楶oor beggar,鈥� he murmured.鈥�
鈥滻t matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.鈥�