This book sort of bothered me in many ways. It wasn’t because it dealt with transgender issues; I was pretty excited to read a book about a trans* teen especially since I haven’t seen or read a lot of YA literature that dealt with that. It was more because of the way it was handled.
Peters is a believer of authentic voices, so she portrayed the narrator as the sister of Luna - a 16 year old boy, Liam, who is struggling with keeping her true identity a secret. Unfortunately, this placed most of the focus on the sister, Regan. It was all about Regan: how tough it was to keep the secret, the pressure it placed on her, how afraid she was when Liam experiments with revealing Luna in public. Although these pressures are very real, I had wanted to read about the experience of a trans* teen, not that of a trans* teen’s sister. Many times I thought it took away the focus from Luna, which was slightly disappointing. It also made Liam/Luna seem selfish and needy, always asking much of Regan. Regan, of course, asked for barely anything in return except a “normal� life.
One major thing that bothered me (spoiler alert): Regan is asked to babysit on the weekend, and having no social life, she agrees. Of course, this is when the hot guy asks her out. As repayment for all that Regan has done for her, Liam offers to babysit so that Regan can go on her first date. Great. Except Regan doesn’t tell the family about the new arrangement. She comes to the house, has the hot guy pick her up there, and Liam arrives after the parents leave. Regan’s plan is to return before the parents get back. Obviously this does not work out, and she walks in the door right when the parents are interrogating Liam about trying on the wife’s clothing.
My problem with this was that first of all, Regan was incredibly irresponsible. No wonder the parents flipped - even if you completely put aside the fact that Liam was wearing the wife’s clothing, the parents basically walked in the house to find some kid they didn’t know. As a parent, I would have been upset to find someone who wasn’t the babysitter in my house, especially with no babysitter in sight, right? So, she loses her job but blames it on Liam, who the parents of course think has some sort of disease and tells their mother (she told them off - props). Anyway, I also don’t think a 16 year old kid would risk his secret to try on the clothing of someone he was babysitting for. Is that just me? I just found that a somewhat unrealistic scenario in general, particularly because it is frequently mentioned that Liam has a secret stash of clothes & Regan allows him access to hers.
Liam’s excuse for this is “I couldn’t help myself�. This is where I started getting frustrated. No you cannot help yourself for being who you are - but I felt that sent somewhat of a condescending message. It should be more along the lines of “This is who I am� not “I couldn’t help myself�. It makes it sound like Liam has a lack of self-control, some sort of drug that she just has to give into. It’s the same excuse people make when they try to claim that homosexuals are pedophiles - “oh they just can’t help themselves�. It makes them sound like deviants. It’s wrong. I thought that Peters should have done without that little passage, because it’s not that she “can’t help himself�, it’s that she was born in the wrong identity. This came up a few times in the story, and it really bothered me every time because I just felt it was the wrong language to use. I was also confused by what the preferred pronoun usage was since it goes back and forth (and if it does in this review, that is why).
Don’t get me wrong - Peters did do some research. I was still compelled, curious as to what would happen. And Regan does learn in the end to truly accept and understand her brother. It’s definitely pro-transgender, and maybe it would help some teens learn a little bit more about gender identity issues in general (even if I thought it was condescending & heavy-handed at times). Through Regan, the reader can learn a little bit about transitioning and the concept of gender. Hopefully, readers will be inspired to do some research on their own. Even though I was not fond of the way the characters were portrayed (I found Regan whiny at times & my issues with Liam/Luna’s portrayal I addressed above), they were still fleshed out and felt (for the most part) realistic. If you give this book to teens to read, be prepared to talk about gender with them.