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295 pages, Paperback
First published October 5, 2022
"It rendered her more shameful, she felt, to stand in this sharehouse with her hangover and the delusion that she was somehow different. It made her feel as if adulthood was just an affectation and her commitment to it tenuous." (p. 89)I've come to the conclusion that I might just have to accept that I'm no longer in the target demographic!
"But the self is relational. It depends what other people want from us. (p. 171)Eleanor and Charlie Hamor are very different people, despite their closeness as sisters. Eleanor is rather straight-laced and following a "sensible" career trajectory as a business analyst. Charlie, meanwhile, lives a more bohemian existence, a talented actress who's struggling to find work in the aftermath of the Covid-19 pandemic, she lives in a fairly chaotic share house with like-minded artistic souls. The book opens with Eleanor reeling from the dramatic end of her longstanding relationship with solicitor (lawyer) Mark, after he admitted to misbehaving with a stripper during a stag night with friends. Meanwhile, Eleanor's younger sister Charlie is appearing onstage in an independent theatrical production, which she's hoping will restart her flagging career. She's becoming increasingly infatuated with the play's director, Helen, who also happens to be her housemate.
"Conformity, Eleanor thought, was depressingly inevitable. All these people - baring their unique individual snowflakeness in the fearless flash of naked cheeks, nipples, chests - looked, to her, interchangeable. (p. 77)A series of drunken and drug-fuelled parties and hungover trips to the beach lead to interrelationships between the characters becoming somewhat tangled, bringing Eleanor and Charlie's different approaches to life into a type of conflict they've never had to deal with before. One plotline of deception unfolds over the course of the narrative, while another lurks below the surface, hinted at, but not revealed in its entirety until a confrontation late in the book.
"After all, a story only becomes a secret when there's someone to keep it from." (p. 181)As readers, we're presented with a sticky moral conundrum: to what extent should we allow self actualisation - following our heart's desire - to eclipse our feelings of protectiveness and obligation towards our closest family members?
"Her unhappiness - although, infuriatingly, she was happy - her unease, then, was a price she wanted to pay. It was her only evidence of a conscience. If she did terrible things, at least she felt bad about them." (p. 180)I became much more engaged with the characters and their stories in the second half of the book, and ultimately found this a thought-provoking read. The style and attendant gravitas of 's prose is evident, despite the subject matter often feeling a little lightweight. Recommended for readers of contemporary Australian fiction and higher-brow "chick-lit".