“Marcus DeLuca had to be a dangerous man because I was caving in too soon; it was just too soon to feel this attachment, to feel and want him so despe“Marcus DeLuca had to be a dangerous man because I was caving in too soon; it was just too soon to feel this attachment, to feel and want him so desperately. When something seems too good to be true, it’s exactly that.�
Okay so E.L. Montes hooked me with angst from the prologue. To an angst junkie like myself Disastrous delivered my next fix, but unfortunately left me NEEDING to read Cautious soon.
Disastrous begins with Mia Sullivan a highly successful second year Harvard Law Student discovering that she has been recommended for an internship only offered to third year law students at a prestigious law firm by her professor. It looks like all her hard work is paying off, and to her surprise her best friend and roommate Jeremy a third year law student also having the opportunity to fill another internship spot. So what does your typical college student do when they are facing exciting news at the beginning if summer? Well they party at Club 21 the most high class club in Boston and only the best people get into this club. Not only are Jeremy and Mia allowed easy entrance to this club but they are VIP since Mr. McCullen (Jeremy’s father) an architect designed the club. I know that’s how I celebrated in college. I still do!
“The man standing before me was definitely God’s gift to women. He was tall, tanned, and had the most gorgeous big brown eyes I’d ever seen.�
From the instant Marcus DeLuca shows up on the scene it’s as if a magnet was drawing him and Mia together, and they were dragging me along with them. Not that I’m complaining.
“Here we go, it was either up or down from here. It would definitely be a rollercoaster, but I was willing to take the ride.�
This is where the “crazy, stupid love� affair these two have begins, and I couldn’t put the book down once it began, and when I wasn’t reading Disastrous I was thinking about Disastrous Marcus.
He was delicious, powerful, charismatic and everything I enjoy in a book boyfriend. Marcus is an ubber successful attorney in Boston, and not only is he gorgeous and powerful, he’s the true meaning of Alpha-male. If you’re attracted to jealous, POSSESSIVE, passionate, rich, alpha, mouth watering aggressive men then Marcus DeLuca will be high on your lust list. But don’t let all these wonderfully appealing characteristics about Marcus fool you, he’s a man with secrets, and all of those will slowly unravel before your eyes and its a “disaster� when it’s revealed. I gasped when I confirmed his secret lifestyle even though I had suspected it.
“It’s not like me to be a jealous man, Mia. F-*k, I’m never jealous. Though for some reason, when you walked into the conference room with Jeremy’s arm around your waist and when he slapped your a$$, it took every part of me to not stand up and knock him the F-*k out.�
Mia Sullivan is a strong woman that I adored. She doesn’t lay down and accept bad behavior from men, well maybe a little but she holds her ground. When things get rough and plenty of females would stay in a bad situation, she walks away and protects her sanity, but the problem is that as tumultuous as Marcus and and Mia’s relationship is these two can’t stay away. Nor can they get their acts together!
“That pissed me the hell off. I took in a deep breath and blurted out everything without thinking twice. “F-*k you! You want to know who I am, Marcus. Well here it goes! I am temperamental, over-sensitive, and outspoken. I’m honest! I cry at stupid love movies, and I’m a sucker for a romantic novel. I don’t allow people to walk all over me, I have trust issues, and I have insecurities. I’ve slept with four men in my entire life! And the one thing I don’t do is take shit from men who try to act like they’re better than me as if they don’t have any hidden skeletons! I’m not keeping shit hidden, how ‘bout you? You can fuck off. I’ll find my own way home. Have a nice f-*king life!�
At this moment I was cheering Mia for standing up for herself, but I’m such a weak psycho when it comes to Marcus that I felt my chest get heavy here, and the lump in my throat began to form and I willed these two to make up, and the way these two make up is with glorious sex.
"I was gonna f-*k her!� Sprawling his hands in the air, he nodded at my stunned expression. “Yeah that’s right, hard too! But the entire time I was going to think of you!� Gawking at him, my heartbeat raised. “How f-*king romantic!�
Now I’m devastated once again for these two, and my heart is breaking for these two because sometimes its easier to hurt the one closer to you�.:( I’m sick, and slowly dying inside……but keep reading because Mia and Marcus are an unforgettable couple full of passion for one another. Cue the make-up sex…YES please!
“He reached over, placing the palm of his hand on top of mine. “You see, Mia, for a long time I haven’t had anything like that: honesty, innocence, and pureness. After seeing it through your eyes, I never wanted or needed it more in my life.�
Okay I’m happy and giddy once again for these two. E.L. Montes has such a descriptive way of writing delicious sex scenes, passionate love scenes, chaos, disastrous tumultuous relationships that are leaving me DYING for the second book Cautious to further explore their relationship.
Oh my the angst is unbearable at times, but this is one train wreck I’m so delighted I didn’t miss. One moment I was laughing, the next I was having heart palpitations, and the next I was either angry or cheering for these two. When these two were good they were outstanding!!! When they were bad, they were a Disastrous hurricane!!! For angst lovers like myself that crave the turbulent relationships in Crash, Beautiful Disaster, Fifty Shades of Grey, Bared To You, The Mighty Storm and The Opportunist will feel you’ve died and gone to Heaven with this gem. Disastrous was book crack at its finest!!!!
Now I’m counting the days until Cautious the sequel to Disastrous is released on May 23, 2012.
“Thats what love is�.It’s scary not knowing what’s expected, but I know It’ll be the best frightening love we’ve ever had.�
"I've had therapy; I've had three years to..... Get over him. Fester in my guilt."
Okay...What would you do if you had the opportunity to be with your on"I've had therapy; I've had three years to..... Get over him. Fester in my guilt."
Okay...What would you do if you had the opportunity to be with your one true love and fix the mistakes you've made in the past.....Would you take it, or would you let fear get in the way of true love? Many of you are probably thinking of course right. Well how many of you would lie, and manipulate the truth to get those results?
"I was a relationship retard. I kicked, shoved, and punched people out of my life, so they never had a chance to hurt me."
Meet Olivia Kaspen, she's my new favorite flawed character. She's witty, intelligent, beautiful,petty, calculating, ruthless, manipulative, self loathing, with a tortured soul and all around Badass but you may also refer to her as "The Opportunist." ;) I found her completely relatable and the sick side of me was salivating at the mouth at the opportunity that is thrown her way. I couldn't put it down, days later and I'm still playing the "what if" game with Olivia's life in my head.
"He was my crack. I could never get enough, and when I had him I was already thinking about when I could have him next."
Olivia's path is a classic example of how each decision no matter how small or large can have huge consequences in your life.
I wanted to be an attorney and put bad people in prison. Now, I was the bad person because I was plotting and scheming for a stupid boy. I hadn't even thought about my dreams lately. It was like Caleb had rooted out my ambition and replaced it with a lusty obsession. >Caleb Drake became her entire world, even prior to their dating.
These two Olivia(I adore and all her flaws) and >Caleb(I adore him with his flaws as well) once dated yet these two can't seem to get their act together. They're so frustrating. Ughhhh. They lie,manipulate, cheat,spy,plot, and basically have no boundaries at what they will do to achieve one thing; LOVE. It's actually very endearing and completely relatable that these two selfish people love one another so hard, and are so self destructive that they will stop at nothing and I mean absolutely NOTHING, to have that love. While reading The Opportunist Tarryn Fisher sent me on a ride in a tumultuous time machine as we go back and forth with flashbacks from the past and present day like another favorite book of mine
, so with that being said you won't be able to put it down, because as this soap opera of life called Hurricane Olivia unfolds you will be glued to this book like I was until the last page.
Caleb was like a hurricane that swept through my life, stirring up things inside of me that I never knew existed. He is a longing I will never cure.
So when the opportunity arises that Olivia can have a second chance with her one true love Caleb after a messy break-up she jumps at the opportunity. There's a catch, (isn't there always) well Caleb has had an accident and now suffers from Amnesia and has NO memories of Olivia. He has no idea they've even dated, so she does what any other calculating ex girlfriend would do...she befriends him LOL and manipulates her way back into his life once again, while in the back of her mind fearing his memory will come back and he will remember that he hates her. :( This was a heartbreaker. I don't blame her at all, and I cheered for her the entire time. Call me crazy, but I've done my fair share of scheming to get a man ;) and I can think of one man in particular that if he had amnesia I would do the same inappropriately scandalous thing she did.....Hey I'm not perfect. ;) lol.
"I don't know what it is with you and that asshole. Four years and a bad breakup later and you're still in a fucking chemical romance with basketball Ken."
I don't want to hear it. Not from Jim. Not from Cammie. In my wildest dreams I never imagined this twist to my story. A thousand girls could tell me that they would have done something different than what I did the day I pretended not to know Caleb, and I wouldn't care. This is my redo.
Only one thing stands in the way of Olivia's true happiness with Caleb, besides herself of course.
"Leah Smith. That was the little beast's name. She was rich as I was poor, as happy as I was miserable, as redheads as I was dark."
Olivia has been mourning the loss of the broken relationship she once had with her college sweetheart Caleb *sigh*. Now Caleb also comes with an abundance of flaws as well that we discover as the story unfolds, however I just love him to pieces. Regardless of how many mistakes and deceitful lies, and manipulation these two share amongst each other I can still can only see these two being made for one another. Oh wow just writing this review is really choking me up right now. Seriously this book has me thinking about it days later, in the shower, with friends, at the gym, driving in my car.....it's completely consuming my thoughts. I keep wondering "what if this happened?"
"Airport blue haunted me. It became a brand to me, a trademark of our broken relationship, and my failure to move on. Airport fucking blue." This quote devastated me. :(
If you're in the mood to have your mind blown with complete WTF-erry and heartache, angst, tears, torture, and depression all at the hands of the talented Tarryn Fisher, then you will LOVE and and HATE this book by the end.
I'm so desperate for book #2 Dirty Red to be released December 28, 2012. It's insane how much this book is occupying my thoughts. Dirty Red better give me some hope, but I don't want to like Leah, because I love hating her. My final thoughts are, this is fiction, not real life so Tarryn Fisher can easily fix this for me. I want revenge!!!I want that Dirty Red Bitch to pay!!!! I want the opposite of the epilogue in The Opportunist!!! Please make it happen. I AM TEAM AMNESIA!!!!
"You can only give your heart away once; after that, everything else will just chase your first love."
P.s. I'm petty and I marked 1/2 a star off and made it 4.5 stars because I hated the epilogue. It completely broke my heart into tiny pieces :( I wanted the opposite of it to happen......
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"I want to be someone's everything. I want fire and passion, and love that's returned, equally. I want to be someone's heart."
Okay so I read this
"I want to be someone's everything. I want fire and passion, and love that's returned, equally. I want to be someone's heart."
Okay so I read this a while ago and I'm barely reviewing it now. It took me a while to wrap my mind around Thoughtless due to the mind F--***y it did on me. I mean seriously is S.C. Stephenstrying to kill me from heart palpitations and angst alone? I think so. That's probably why I put off this review for so long because my poor heart can only take so much strain, because this is definitely not a book for the faint of heart. I gave the same warning in my review for Beautiful Disaster, and even though the premise is much different it most definitely rivaled the angst in Beautiful Disaster. Kellan is very much an unforgettable bad boy, and a book boyfriend I won't be sharing anytime soon.
The book begins with happy couple (maybe a bit boring couple in my opinion though) Kiera (selfish) and Denny (meh, but described as gorgeous) moving thousands of miles away from home because Denny landed a heavily sought after position as an intern at a prestigious company in his field.
Don't. Don't ever question that. Of course I miss my family, miss them terribly. But you are worth it, you're worth everything. I love you. I want to be where you are."
Kiera has her whole life wrapped around Denny, and can't picture herself living without him (co-dependant, of course these are my favorite relationships to read about) so she drops everything back at home, transfers college knowing that her parents will not be financially backing her college since she gave up her college scholarship back home. It doesn't matter to Kiera though, because she can't live without Denny. They sound like an inseparable couple right? Well that is until she meets their new roommate and Denny's close friend worthy of a role of "like a brother to him."
Everything about him had screamed, "I'm going to take you right here and make you forget your own name."
Oh Kellan, you can try your hardest to make me forget my name anytime you want....
Enter Kellan, he's your typical bad boy with charming good looks, rockstar appeal, never a shortage of women looking to satisfy his every need even if its only one night, yet he's oh so vulnerable. Yep he's swoon worthy. *
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"Where Denny's body was great, Kellan's was just ridiculous. ....He was, well....hot."
Okay so gorgeous Denny does have plenty of fans out there and hopefully I don't offend too many here, but in many ways I found Denny to be just as selfish as I found Kiera to be. He moves with her across the country where so knows no one except their roommate local rockstar Kellan that oozes sex appeal as his own pheromones. The problem is that he then leaves for a work trip and leaves co-dependant/needy Kiera alone without much contact and you've already guessed it I'm sure but the only person to comfort her would be *gasp* Kellan.;)
"He drew almost every eye to him like a flame. Women-and even a few men openly stared."
See its all starting to unravel about this point. Not only does he severe contact but he then chooses to take a job in Australia (see Denny is originally from Australia and Kellan family home was the home he stayed at in high school as a foreign exchange student) without even consulting Kiera, with no regards for her schooling, or the sacrifice she has made to accommodate his job. See that's where his selfishness comes into play, but just wait Kiera wears the selfish title like a diamond fitted crown.
"I smiled at remembering the day and how, for almost the entirety of it,I hadn't missed Denny.....too much."
Fortunately for Kiera, Kellan was around to comfort her while she was missing Denny, while she stole his heart away.....
Without thinking, I did what I had wanted to do on that very first shot. I grabbed his hand, just as he bent down to lick the salt away. I lightly pressed my tongue against the back of it, the salt pleasantly mixing with the taste of his skin. His breath caught while he watched me down the shit if tequila. I quickly set the glass down and placed the lime wedge in his partly opened mouth. I brought my lips to his. I half sucked on the line, half pressed against his lips. Fire burned through me.
I pulled away from him slowly, taking the lime with me. His breathing was faster and a little ragged. I carefully took the lime out and set it on the counter, licking my fingers in the process. Kellan took his shot of tequila straight, his eyes never leaving mine. He roughly set down his own glass, licked his lower lip once, and grabbed my neck, pulling me back to his mouth.
Very shortly into this story I realized that this crazy roller coaster/nightmare had no exit but by then I had already decided their was no turning back! I had to see how this ended even if it made me cry, gave me chest pains, made me anxious, made me want to slap selfish Kiera in the face, because well it did all those things to me, and still after finishing I had a lump in my throat and a heaviness on my chest that wouldn't go away.
He closed his eyes and a tear escaped, trickling down his cheek. I wiped it away. "What are you thinking about?' I asked timidly."Nothing," he replied, keeping his eyes closed.
I lifted my head higher to look at him more closely. He opened his eyes and gazed back at me. "I'm trying to not think about anything," he said softly. "It hurts too much when I think...."I but my lip and nodded, very sorry that I had even asked. "I love you," I said andnodded sadly. "Just not enough.....not enough to leave him?"
This scene alone made chest feel heavy and the lump in my throat feel overwhelmingly suffocating to me. I was crying no sobbing like a sappy lovesick child. This scene and many others killed me, but I kept pushing through it, because as much as I was overwhelmed with sadness, I couldn't put Thoughtless down for fear I would miss out on Kiera and Kellan's powerfully dangerous story.
"One single tear rolled down his cheek and the thing indie me broke completely. His pain, his suffering, awakened feelings in me for him that I had never felt before. I wanted to protect him, I wanted to heal him. I would give anything to take his pain away. The coldness, the irritation, the women, ----the pain in his eyes, made everything else slip away."
Okay another scene that completely devastated me....:( The best way I could describe how I felt the entire time reading it would be this; It was as if I had weights tapped to my chest and I had ran upstairs causing me to feel a shortage of breath along with the heavy weight pressing against me. You know that feeling right? It's very similar to having your heart broken.....ya well Stevens did that to me the entire time I read it. I wouldn't recommend this book to anyone not in favor of reading about a love triangle, because this has to be the most intense and disturbing love triangle I have had the pleasure to read. To me love triangles are fun, angsty, scary, emotional, exciting, invigorating, thrilling, yet even I found myself crying over it more than once.
"This is wrong, you're not mine." "I am yours."
In reality both Kellan and Kiera truly deserve to be unhappy with all this sneaking behind Denny's back, but quite frankly I'm selfish and I blamed Denny for avoiding Kiera while out of town working and Kiera for holding two devastatingly handsome men's hearts in her hands and oh so unwillingly able to let one of them go. I wanted to make "my" Kellan have a happy ending, because he stole my heart.
"He had said I was his heart, and you don't leave your heart behind. You can't live without your heart."
At some point as much as I adored obsessed over Kellan, I just wished she would break it off with him, and put him out of his misery. But at the same time I found Kiera easily relatable and the way Stephens wrote her character, as much as I may have disliked her at times I still had her heart in my best interest while feeling all her devastatingly toxic emotions, angst, guilt, confusion and pain the entire time reading Thoughtless that I still found her likable.
"Will it bother me if you have sex with your boyfriend?" He asked softly. I blushed again and nodded. "Just answer the question."He laughed and looked away. Sighing, he finally answered. "Yes, yes it will bother me...but, I understand." He turned to look at me again. "You're not mine," he said wistfully.
Okay so I've now lost my mind and my morals because I'm now screaming back at my ipad screen, YES it will bother him Kiera, and it bothers me too!!!! So can you please sustain from having sex with your boyfriend to protect my boyfriend Kellan's heart and my heavy chest since I'm suffering along with you.
"It was intoxicating and beautiful and heartwarming...and maybe, if at that moment I allowed myself to feel it, a little sad."
Although all you Denny fans, something he does disturbs me in such a horrific way towards the end of the book that I found myself cringing while reading and re-thinking my first thoughts of Denny being the typical "happy go lucky" boyfriend. I mean if you have read it then you know what I'm referring to. :( However, it makes sense when people are hurt they do the unthinkable sometimes and people get hurt.
"He was my home.....and I missed him terribly."
Overall I absolutely LOVED this book and S.C. Stephenswill forever be remembered as the author that introduced me to another "almost as good as Travis" bad boy and almost as angsty as Beautiful Disaster, and for that Thoughtless deserves 5 sparkly stars. She took me for a ride on a crazy train, and held me captive for several hours until I was so emotionally distraught and wrecked I had no other choice but to start Effortless immediately. ;) hehe See I'm a glutton for punishment. When a book has been described as angsty, I say bring it. I recommend Thoughtless for fans of angsty books with emotionally damaged characters such as Beautiful Disaster, Avoiding Commitment, Fifty Shades of Grey, Crossfire series, Fallen From Grace and Crash. P.s. I'm now a D-Bag groupie!!!!
"Forgive me..please. I tried to forget you. It didn't work...I just wanted you more. God, I've missed you. I'm sorry I hurt you. I've never wanted anyone like I want you. Every girl is you to me. You're all I see...you're all I want. I want you so much. I want you forever. Forgive me...I love you so much."
Another Mature YA/College MUST READ contemporary romance! Do yourself a favor and read Thoughtless immediately so you can share in my love Lust for Kellan Kyle.�
"I knew he had a dark side; I'd learned long ago how to spot and avoid men who had dangerous shadows in their eyes. But the familiar alarm bells didn'"I knew he had a dark side; I'd learned long ago how to spot and avoid men who had dangerous shadows in their eyes. But the familiar alarm bells didn't ring around Gideon ad they maybe should have."
Bared to You by Sylvia Day is a book I simply cannot seem to get out of my head. I'll admit my reason behind my curiosity for this book was the recommendation for fans of Fifty Shades of Grey, and anyone that knows me well will understand how deeply my passion for that series goes. Well yes this series is most definitely for fans of Fifty Shades of Grey, but not because of any similarities but because they both deal with those emotionally immature characters with a scarred past and charisma that well exceeds them both. I prefer my reads to be dark, gritty with plenty of emotionally angst and upheaval and lucky for me Sylvia Day gave me just that! From the moment I picked up Bared to You I became a hermit and locked myself in my home all day hiding from the world as I immersed myself into this colorful and tumultuous world starring Eva Tramell and Gideon Cross.
"Your objections. What's it going to take to get you beneath me?" "A miracle. I find your approach crude and offensive." And a major turn on, but I was never going to admit to it.
Bared to You begins with Eva Tramell freshly relocated to NYC beginning a new career, in close proximity to her mother and her billionaire step father and her roommate and best friend Cary. Eva's best friend Cary whom I adored also a victim of an equally damaged background as well lives an advantageous lifestyle ensuring this story will filled with loads of fun, plenty of drama and great friendship. Of course Eva meets Gideon Cross the day prior to her first day at work inside the Crossfire building without the knowledge that yes Crossfire is owned by Gideon Cross. She finds him über attractive and yet she manages to walk away even though this is how she described him.
"He wasn't just beautiful; he was....enthralling. He was the kind of guy that made a woman want to rip his shirt open and watch the buttons scatter along with her inhibitions."
However, it's plainly obvious that Gideon Cross is not only Man Candy-Licious he's also Charming, Captivating, Charismatic and a super successful Billionaire entrepreneur that's used to having women fall at his feet. I'll be honest throughout this entire amazing story, I wanted to fall at his feet in hopes that he would pick me too! I'm a bit obsessed with Gideon Cross SHOUTY capitals. LOL. However, Eva is much too confident, with her own charming attributes, Witt, and self respect to do such a repulsive move. She instantly bedazzled Gideon,and made her stand out to him like a diamond in the rough.
"Take a good look at me and tell me if you see a man that's easily deterred?"
From then on she challenges him, makes him yearn to be something better than he already is; he gladly accepts that challenge and seeks impress her, protect her, and possess her, mentally, physically and emotionally.
"My gaze was locked to his, unable to look away, riveted by the fierce masculine triumph that flared in his eyes. In that moment he owned me. I'd do anything he wanted. And he knew it."
Gideon Cross is the ultimate Alpha male that I cant stop thinking about. He's intoxicating, successful, damaged and vulnerable and we see all his sides. The good, the bad, and the ugly and I loved it all. Sylvia Day has a way with words that made her characters relatable, likable, fascinating and oh so lovable.Although Gideon oozes sex appeal, charm and arrogance I love when he opens himself up emotionally to Eva, it's ugly, it's dark, quite frankly these two are a hot mess, triple the hot and triple the mess!!!!He knows what he wants and he goes after it with full tenacity including Eva. He has a troubled dark past that is slowly but not fully unravelled for us readers and I adored hearing just how emotionally ruined he is yet he manages to keep it all pulled together on the outside looking as successfully and dapper as ever.
"The way he moved, with animal grace and arrogant economy, was a major turn-on.I couldn't imagine him not fucking well and being aggressive about it, taking what he wanted in a way that made a woman wild to give it to him. "
Eva has just as dark of a past and that to me made this story believable, and instantly made me root for Gideon and Eva. What I enjoyed about Eva was that she wasn't a virgin; she's a woman who doesn't mind losing her inhibitions with a man, and knows her way around a bedroom as well as a charity event. She's intelligent, successful in her own right, confident and assertive.She is the daughter of a police detective but also a step daughter to a successful Billionaire entrepreneur so Gideon Cross had to work harder to get her attention because designer labels and red bottom soled shoes are not going to impress a woman that can purchase her own pair.
"Go spend time with a woman that salivates at your feet and makes you feel like a god. Fuck her until neither of you can walk. When you see me on Monday you'll be totally over it and your life will return to its usual-obsessive compulsive order."
The sex scenes between these two are scorchingly hot, and full of passion and eroticism. Anyone that loves me knows I prefer a good romance with sizzling sex, but these were incredible.Some characters have chemistry and then there are those like Eva and Gideon who take it to a whole entire new level. If you're looking for a dark read with two irresistible fucked up emotionally damaged characters with spellbinding moments, HOTsex, and a plot you can't help but be fascinated with then Bared to You will be your new favorite read. Prepare yourself for a sassy female protagonist and an alpha male you can't help but fall in love with. Deeper in You is to be released in October 2012 and that day cannot come any sooner.
"I'd bared my emotions in the limo and I still felt horribly vulnerable, a state I'd spent countless therapy hours learning to avoid. I wanted nothing more than to be home and hidden, freed from the pressure of acting like I was completely pulled together when I was anything but."
I'm ashamed to say that I've beencheating on Christian Grey with Gideon Cross and I've felt guilty about it because up until now I had no idea there would be another member of the Billionaire Boys Club capable of making me obsess about with my book buddies and gushing about ways to stalk him like I did and still do with Christian Grey. However after long thoughts I hope he forgives me because I plan on keeping both men.
"I sucked on his tongue, having learned how much he liked it, having learned how much I liked it, how much it made me want to suck him elsewhere with the same eagerness."
Warning: This book is a drug, and it will suck you in, bleed you dry, break your heart, make you fall in love and then at the end you’ll be left emptyWarning: This book is a drug, and it will suck you in, bleed you dry, break your heart, make you fall in love and then at the end you’ll be left empty, and doing exactly what I’m doing now, re-reading this book, making it difficult to say goodbye to this Beautiful and glorious Disaster.
Have you ever read a book before that felt like an autobiography of your embarrassing, and painful, yet exhilarating and the most romantic memorable moments of your life? Well Beautiful Disasterwas that book for me. From the moment I began reading, I was hooked. It was like I became addicted to these characters, for a whole 24 hours of reading they were my drug of choice, and two days later I’m still in awe of this beautiful story of two of the most dysfunctional characters I’ve had the pleasure to read about. See for me that was the instant attraction with this book. Anyone that is familiar with my preferred reading taste knows I am infatuated with tumultuous, codependent, and self destructive characters in love, most likely because I can relate to those volatile relationships most. Instantly this book brought me back to my early 20′s in college, living in a sorority house and partying at out of control at the fraternity parties, and loving life so hard.
“I like the Au natural thing you have going on. Girls don’t come over here like that.””I was coerced into coming here. It didn’t occur to me to impress you,� I said, aggravated that my plan had failed. “Im already impressed. I don’t normally have to beg girls to come to my apartment.�
This book is classified as YA but it is so NOT YA, and it contains everything from jealousy, drunkenness, frat parties, sex, gossip, and dramatic misunderstandings that left me wanting to slap some sense into them, however if we didn’t have those misunderstandings then we wouldn’t have Beautiful Disaster and it’s on my list of favorites read during 2012.
“Shake in your boots, boys, and drop your panties, ladies! I give you: Travis Mad dog Maddox!�
Abby Abernathy whom I will later refer to as �Pigeon� (OMG I love this nickname) in this review and you’ll understand just why later has traveled far away from her Kansas hometown with her best friend America(whom I absolutely adore) to start a new life, forget past childhood horror stories and experience college life as a freshman. So when America asks Abby to accompany her and her boyfriend Shepleyto a secret fight club match to watch Travis ‘Mad Dog� Maddox (also Shepley’s cousin and roommate) a bare-knuckle, gorgeous, tattooed, Smart, undefeated fighter, Harley driving man whore champion yet another fight.
It had always been a dream of America’s for us to date friends, and roommates-slash-cousins, for her, was hitting the jackpot.
Abby stands out as she’s the only one wearing a cardigan to such a barbaric event, but she’s enamored instantly by the atmosphere in the rink, and never does she guess that the shaved headed, tattooed, ripped muscled, ruthless fighter and mouthwatering sex pot such as Travis would even be interested in anything more than “bagging� with her “on his couch� and then never to be used again, because lets face it; with his gorgeous looks and bad boy charm all the college co-ed females are basically pushing each other aside just to remove their panties for Travis, because while he may be undefeated in the rink, he’s off the charts un-denied and undefeated with the ladies on his couch as well. *sigh*
“Oh my God! You’re killing me! That’s it. We have to be friends. I won’t take no for an answer.�
So when she meets Travis she has no intention of ever giving him the time of day much less a friendship because she’s determined to turn over a new link. She’s from a family of alcoholics and her father is an overzealous gambling addict that has no issue with using his daughter to settle his gambling debts, so she decides without even a second glance that she needs a “nice guy�, charmer that can give her the “normal� life she’s always wanted. As deluded as she was with her fantasies of a normal life, I can almost see her point except on in the first chapter we meet Travis Maddox and I’m immediately, swept away by everything and I mean everything about him. But I’m sure you can easily see that with Abby’s determination and Travis� charm that this book is going to be filled with angst, and emotional turmoil that leaves me with a heavy chest at many times during this read. Remarkably I survived those moments, and I’m left to tell you that this is the book to read if you love emotionally codependent characters, who have irresistible charm and can’t walk away, yet can’t just meet in the middle.
“I meant what I said before. You need to walk away, Pidge. God knows I can’t walk away from you.�
Travis is a heart-breaker, oblivious to his effect on women because well lets face it, he’s infamous amongst the college co-eds as the undefeated bare knuckle fighter, with a flock of females relentlessly following him everywhere, doting on his every move almost as if he’s a rock star, yet they each seem to be surprised and upset when he doesn’t ask for their phone number after randomly hooking up with him on his couch! For reals? His reputation proceeds him, so this should come as NO surprise yet, it always does.
Here is an example below of his man whorish ways�
Travis rounded the corner in a pair of boxer shorts and yawned. He looked at his guest, and then patted her backside. “My company’s here. You’d better go.”She smiled and wrapped her arms around him, kidding his neck. “I’ll leave my number on the counter.� “Eh�.don’t worry about it,� Travis said in a casual tone.”What?� she asked, leaning back to look in his eyes. “Every time!� America said. She looked at the woman. “How are you surprised by this? He’s Travis Fucking Maddox! He is famous for this very thing, and every time they’re surprised!”The girl narrowed her eyes at Travis, and then grabbed her purse and stormed out, slamming the door behind her.Travis walked into the kitchen and opened the fridge as if nothing had happened. Travis stood behind the breakfast bar, crossed his arms over his chest”What’s wrong Pidge? Hard day? ”No, I’m thoroughly disgusted.� ”With me?� He was smiling. I should have known that he expected this conversation. It only made me less inclined to hold back.“Yea, you. How can you just use someone like that, and treat them that way?””How did I treat her? She offered her number, I declined.� My mouth flew open at his lack of remorse. “You’ll have sex with her, but you won’t take her number?”Travis leaned on the counter with his elbows. “Why would I want her number if I’m not going to call her?””Why would you sleep with her of your not going to call her?””I don’t promise anyone anything, Pidge. She didn’t stipulate a relationship before she spread eagle on my couch.� I stared at the couch with revulsion.
He’s instantly captivated by Abby, because she doesn’t go out of her way to impress like all the other females, actually she does the exact opposite of them, and that just charms her way into his heart faster, the way no other before her has. She has made it clear to him that she is not interested in being one of the girls “spread eagle� on his couch, so when he offers her a friendship she reluctantly accepts, and they become the cutest more adorably charming best friends ever. I just love their friendship. This friendship becomes a shock to everyone at school and the highlight of the daily gossip because Travis doesn’t have “female friends� and yet they’re inseparable and he nicknames her “Pigeon� (oh be still my heart) you’ll love that nickname and the reasoning behind it, hopefully as much as I do. He actually refers to her as “My Pigeon� *swoon*
They’re daily routine consists of eating lunch together daily, at every female on campuses dismay, partying together, study partners (surprisingly he is a straight A student so basically he’s her tutor )below is an example of his enthusiasm for her getting top grades in her classes after he tutored her.
He tossed me over his shoulder, making his way through the crowd behind us. “Make way! Move it, people! Let’s make room for this poor woman’s hideously disfigured, ginormous brain! She’s a fucking genius!�
She becomes his good luck charm at fights, he says wherever he goes Pigeon goes, and he’s falling for her fast AND hard, yet the two involved (Travis and Pigeon) are reluctant to make any moved that will dissolve their precious friendship.Especially when she often reminds him that their friendship better be based on friendship and not an elaborate scheme to get her into bed. Ahhhhhh the angst in this book nearly killed me!
But this is just the beginning…�
After being so close over the past two weeks, he makes a bet with Pigeon (unbeknownst to him she cannot resist a good wager) that if he can go an entire fight without the huge monster of an opponent getting one hit on him, then she must move in with him for one month (in a way to ensure their friendship remains) and if he loses then he must remain abstinent for one month. Oh boy, this is where the excitement begins and I’m left wishing I could erase about ten years off my life and experience the college life once again. As a matter of fact my friend Cimmaron said the same exact thing to me once we had both read it. She and I discussed and reveled in the idea thatwe should get us some fake ID’s, Botox, and enroll back into college as undergraduates just to experience this lifestyle and maybe a Travis Maddox for ourselves.
“I don’t want to sleep with you Pidge. I like you too much.�
He admires Pigeon, and she’s the only female that can “put him in his place� make him crazy with jealousy, he’s overprotective over her, and well I always love that in my heroes, but she is so dense that even though she is resisting his charms outwardly on the inside she is caving because she is catching feelings for him along the way (can you blame her? he’s incredible) she takes his overprotective behavior for being a “big brother� factor when in reality, it’s goes beyond that and he’s trying to hold back with her because he made her a promise that they’re friendship would NOT be a ploy to sleep with her, yet he’s slowly unraveling and can’t picture his life without Pigeon as his girl forever.
“I’m sorry, Shepley.”� He froze and wheeled around, with the face of a man that had reached his limit. “I wish you and Travis would just get your shit together! You’re a goddamn tornado! When you’re happy, it’s love and peace and butterflies. When you’re pissed, you take the whole fucking world down with you!�
This is an example of how their tumultuous relationship causes not only for them to suffer but everyone around them suffers including Shepley (Travis� cousin and devoted boyfriend to America) and you can’t help but feel for him, as he suffers as he winds up in the middle of this beautifully disastrously charismatic relationship I fell in love with.Enter Parker, that’s the only introduction he needs Yuck because I don’t like him at all and Pigeon begins dating him right in front of Travis, oh and we get to witness the tragedy unfold. I especially grow fond of America, shes the ideal best friend, completely loyal, full of drama, yet sincerity and she is simply a delight though out the entire story.
“You’re not jealous, are you, Pideon?� “Jealous of what? The STD-infested imbecile you’re going to piss off in the morning?�
Over the time the lines between friendship and lovers gets muddy and it’s not only an emotional roller coaster to read, it’s also so much fun too.
“But I�..that wasn’t the only reason I took you to the fight. I wanted you there with me, Pidge. You’re my good luck charm.””I’m not your anything,� I snapped, glaring up at him.His eyebrows pulled in and he stopped dancing. “You’re my everything.�
I can think of a couple times I had to put this book down and walk away just to get my motions under control because the brilliant way that Jamie McGuire writes this story made me feel like I was the person involved in this romance. Travis tries hard to be a good boy, but he can’t help it he’s jealous, has a temper, and he does a few things that will once again cause that lump in your throat or heavy feeling in your chest to resurface, while he breaks her heart and she breaks his heart. I cried so hard in public at the gym nonetheless that when a woman accosted me in the bathroom as I fled the stationary bike much to my embarrassment, when she asked what was wrong, I was left with no other choice but to lie (I mean c’mon am I supposed to tell her that my book boyfriend in the book I’m reading started to cry and so I’m crying for him? I didn’t think so) and say my boyfriend has broken up with me and that I’m sorry to have disturbed her with my bathroom freak out (at the gym *gasp*) she proceeds to pat me on the back and tell me to cheer up, and things will work itself out�.Well now that the sweet unsuspecting woman has no idea that I’m actually crazy LOL, I went back to reading and didn’t put it down until I finished! And then I re-read it again while writing this review.
“A toast!� he yelled.“To Douschebags!� he said. “And to girls that break you’re heart,� he bowed his head to me.”And to the absolute fucking horror of losing your best friend because you were stupid enough to fall in love with her.�
This moment made my chest heavy once again, and put my stomach in knots again…�
So despite Travis charm, and confident ways, deep inside he’s vulnerable and not sure how to proceed considering he’s never been in love, unsure of himself but all he knows is that without Pigeon by his side, his life will no longer be complete, now that he’s realized, his life was meaningless before her. He’s my favorite bad boy and I couldn’t resist his charms ever, and surprisingly because this rarely happens I blamed the Pigeon for the majority of their problems because shes a “runner� and even though he’s the “bad boy� his vulnerability with her leaves me broken for him a bit more than I was for her, even though many times my eyes watered for her, I was shocked that the times I was most distraught was when he was hurting the most!
His fingers lightly grazed my cheek. “I didn’t know you before. When you’re not there, I can’t concentrate. I’m wondering where you are, what you’re doing�.if you’re there and I can see you, I can focus. I know it’s crazy, but that’s how it is.””And crazy is exactly the way I like it,� I said, leaning up to kiss his lips.
When I finished this book all I wanted to do was tell all my book buddies that if they have yet to read this then they must!!!!!! But I must warn you, this book is NOT for the faint of heart. It’s for those of you that wish to spend the entire day in angsty romance that will hold onto you relentlessly even days after you finish reading it!
“You know why I want you? I didn’t know I was lost until you found me. I didn’t know what alone was until the first night I spent without you in my bed. You’re the one thing I’ve got right. You’re what I’ve been waiting for, Pigeon.�
Most everyone knows I’m a HUGE Fifty Shades of Grey, and Bared To You fan, and while these books are very different than Beautiful Disaster yet it’s recommended for fans of those two books because the relentless dysfunction of characters in love are displayed withvery similar when you think of insecure, confident, powerful, hot mess of totally dysfunctional characters, so if you can handle and enjoy a good emotional read that tugs at your heart strings the entire time you read it, yet at the end your left wanting more but the ending is completely beautiful nonetheless?
“I belong to my beloved, and my beloved is mine.�
Well if you can then please read Beautiful Disaster. Travis might be the boy your momma warned you about but I can assure you, he will leave you breathless and looking for key to his heart immediately upon reading this. If you like bad boys�..and lucky for me, I revel in them. This book is one of my ultimate favorite reads of 2012 and it was disastrously beautiful!! Please do me a favor when you do, and come back to share your love for this book with me.
“WELL I BELONG TO YOU!� The veins in his neck bulged as he shouted, and I met his glare, refusing to even flinch. He looked at my lips, panting. “I belong to you,� he whispered, his anger melting as he realized how close we were.�
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"You want hearts and flowers. Anastasia.� His voice is soft. “It’s not something I know.� Gasp, and I’m Eve in the Garden of Eden, and he’s the serpen"You want hearts and flowers. Anastasia.� His voice is soft. “It’s not something I know.� Gasp, and I’m Eve in the Garden of Eden, and he’s the serpent, and I cannot resist. Who can resist temptation in the Garden of Eden?? I know Eve sure couldn't, and guess what, she was just as guilty of consequences as the serpent, because she knewbetter.
Anastasia is a brilliant, charming, beautiful, witty, easily relatable protagonist that I simply adored. From the moment Anastasia Steele meets Christian Grey, the fun, sexy, dark, scary, challenging, beautiful, thrill ride began. She was warned by Christian to stay far away from him, he was no good for her, but she couldn't resist the temptation for this beautiful "Fifty shades of Fucked" up man.
"Anastasia, you should steer clear of me. I’m not the man for you."
Let me just start out by saying that E.L. James took me on a dark, spectacular, sexy, scary thrill ride that I never want to forget. In Fifty Shades of Grey were introduced to chivalrous bad boy Christian Grey *Fan girl scream, jumping up and down, screaming* CEO and multi-millionaire entrepreneur.
"Because I’m fifty shades of fucked up, Anastasia.�
Anastasia is a wholesome twenty one year old college graduate with goals, values, and self respect. She's completely smitten with this lustworthy Christian Grey immediately. What I found so fascinating about her was that she wasn't willing to bow down and succumb to Christian's rules and regulations. She's intelligent, and doesn't take no for an answer and pushes the envelope when she should.
"You know, when you fell into my office to interview me, you were all ‘yes, sir�, ‘no, sir�. I thought you were a natural born submissive. But quite frankly, Anastasia, I’m not sure you have a submissive bone in your delectable body.� He moves slowly toward me as his speaks, his voice tense."
Whereas Christian is wealthy, gorgeous, arrogant, charismatic, bossy, domineering and is unfamiliar with boundaries and the word NO. Since Anna is the first woman willing to love him in spite of his darkness, while showering him with love, but not bowing down to his demands while exposing his vulnerable side hes had hidden behind his dark vices for too long. This throws Christian for a loop and he can't help but stay fascinated with the intelligent, and charming Anastasia Steele.
This book explores love, lust, pain, fear, trust, and pushes the boundaries while doing it.The succulent Domineering Christian is an emotional virgin, a victim of sexual abuse by an older woman as a young teen has left him empty, and hollow, and unable of having a relationship based on love and not pain, that is until he meets feisty fun-loving Anastasia Steele.
Poor, fucked-up, kinky, philanthropic Christian � though I’m sure he wouldn’t see himself this way and would repel any thoughts of sympathy or pity.
This an adult romantic fantasy book, and those that disagree with the behavior of the the female protagonist and her male love interests are forgetting one very important detail: Anastasia NEVER SIGNS THE SUB/DOM CONTRACT Christian gave her.
This is not a book about abuse, or rape, calculated anger, this is a book about a broken man, a lovely woman, who enter into a consensual BDSM relationship. This is a couple who engage in a romantic relationship with an advantageous sex life, and here thanks to E.L. James, we get to witness first hand, the wonderful, the unbelievably sad and tumultuous nature of the that relationship.
I agree to the conditions Angel, because you know best what my punishment ought to be; only-only- don't make it worse than I can bear.
Fifty shades of Grey contains some of the most fun, playful, loving, whirlwind exciting romantic scenes and my most cherished moments in this book was the playful loving interaction between Christian and Anastasia via email. Those I won't spoil for you, but the at where my love affair with these two progressed.
"I don’t do the girlfriend thing. ‘I’m not a hearts and flowers kind of guy.‘I don’t make love.� This is all I know."
I am completly obsessed with this trilogy. From the gorgeous Christian Grey *takes up all the space in my fantasies lately* Anastasia is a wonderful character, that I feel represents a strong willed, positively portrayed female.
When I wasn't reading Fifty, I was thinking about it. I was enamored with this book immediately and I'm now obsessed with this series! This book is not for the faint of heart but it is beautiful, passionate and by the last chapter left me broken and hollow myself, I was sobbing; but those tumultuous love stories are always my most cherished, memorable, favorite, obsessive and fascinating reads. I loved Fifty Shades of Grey!!!!!
Oh � what have I done?
I fall onto my bed, shoes and all, and howl. The pain is indescribable� physical, mental� metaphysical� it is everywhere, seeping into the marrow of my bones. Grief. This is grief � and I’ve brought it on myself. Deep down, a nasty, unbidden thought comes from my inner goddess, her lip curled in a snarl� the physical pain from the bite of a belt is nothing, nothing compared to this devastation. I curl up, desperately clutching the flat foil balloon and Taylor’s handkerchief, and surrender myself to my grief.
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This book was recommended to me by my Terrible Girls; Aly, Ange, Mrs. Vishous, Samina, Marulette, Merita, Emmy The Fiction Vixen, Jade, Roxanne, HeatherJay......I can't believe I waited this long to read this, but Laura gifted me these books so that's what finally persuaded me!;) XO...more
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