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Absent father. Beloved grandfather. Country walks. Edelweiss stirring in the alpine breeze. "He had frayed trousers, as is shown in photographs taken at the time." A deceived woman. "My mother was destined to be a Prima Ballerina." Lies. "The most terrible child in the world." Schubert. "Getting back to my warm bed was sheer delight." National Socialism. Incompetence. "'Man's most precious possession', grandfather said, 'was his freedom to take leave of this world by suicide.'" Singing lessons. The study of musicology. Chamberlain's umbrella. Schopenhauer. Anschluss. Strudel. Air raid. "’There's an arm,� I said, and on the arm was a watch." Five-hundred pounders. Incendiaries. All clear all clear. Americans. The Marshall Plan. Scherzhauserfeld Project. The dipsomaniacal lost, dispossessed, walking wounded. A criminal element that goes straight to prison. Death. Loss. Requiem. Burial. Grief. The Wildspitze. The Großgrogen. "But all he [the grandfather] got from his relatives, and from the citizens of Salzburg in general, was calumny and contempt." Haydn. Grafenhof. Sputum, x-rays. Surgery. Pneumothorax. No anesthesia. Crushing the nerve. Near-death-experience. Incompetence. "He spoke in the matter-of-fact tone that head physician’s employ when speaking of the horrific and the unspeakable.� “I had to make sure of getting out of this place--and quickly." Dostoyevsky's Demons. "We studied the great oratorios of Bach and Handel."