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I have a lot to say so please bare with me .
This is a story of a middle-aged british screenwriter , Jay , who decides to leave his wife and two children & the whole book is actually a dialogue by Jay filled with flashbacks to his own past .
I don't know how to feel about this book .
It's daring ,brutal , hard to read , provocative , the characters , or the protagonist , Jay , is not likeable at all , instead you constantly feel like hitting him . But at the same time , it's compelling , irresistible and incredibly moving .
It makes you stop after each page and question yourself , would you do the same thing if you were Jay ? Is it fair for a person to live a miserable life with a woman he doesn't love ?
Although I hated Jay , but i agree with him in certain points , if you're not happy in a relationship , LEAVE. Because life is too short and if you are going to spend it sacrificing your own well being and happiness for the sake of others , it's your loss , and it's not selfishness , maybe you're better off that way , both of you really .
I loved the structure of the book : going back and forth with flashbacks and reality , at first you'll struggle a little bit to keep up , but only then you'll find yourself understanding his style.
The way he objectified women is irritating , he treated them as if they were only a source of pleasure , a way to please himself and his needs , no more.
I loved how honest he wrote , he could've changed things , added things to make this book more ' socially acceptable' , but he didn't .
Such a powerful exploration into someon's mind : i was so absorbed into his life , thoughts , struggles and acts .
This book was wondeful , I enjoyed every single page of it , but at the same time ,after the ending, I'm left with some unanswered questions and dilemmas , my mind is still processing the end and i don't know if i should feel sorry for Jay or punch him in the face .. I don't know ..