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"Apollo will fall
But Apollo must rise again"

well that hurted

before reading this book:
let's pretend i don't cry myself to sleep almost every night thinking about how this book is possibly gonna end

after reading this book:
let's pretend I don't cry myself to sleep almost every night thinking about how this book actually ended

if you know me you know the amount of love i have towards the trials of apollo is unmeasurable.
yes, i grew up with percy jackson, yes. yes, i grew up woth the heroes of olympues, yes. but unfortunately (or fortunately) when i became an avid reader all these books were published and i pretty much knew everything (thank you tumblr) even before i read them. but with these? no. these are the only rick riordan books (well not really if you count magnus chase) i anxiously waited for as they were being published.
with each release i had a ritual: reread the previous ones. at this rate i've read book one like five times and i've been planning on this binge for ages but the truth is that i wasn't ready for this series to end. i was NOT. and with reasons.
i take apollo's character very close to my heart and seeing hiw growth has made me a better person too. seeing him come from the complainy whiny ex god we met on the hidden oracle to the hero he turns into all along his journey and the final battle in tower of nero.
at some point of this book, apollo changes the perspective for this "punishment" saying it was a journey and he would never change his experience as lester for nothing in the world.
these last pages were excruciatingly beautful and meaningful to me in a deep way. i just couldn't believe and i just couldn't stop crying.
this is BY FAR the best riordan series ending EVER!
i'll miss this series, but i've reread it before, so it never really ends.
i'm devastated but happy, sad but relieved and hopeful because this only passes the protagonism to someone else ?
i hope. really.
goodbye, apollo, and thank you. keep remembering what it's like to be human :)

ps, i got this email and honestly SAME



i'll go cry bye