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** spoiler alert ** Definitely read the trigger warnings before reading this one. I loved it. Maeve Fly, while a psychopath, is a shockingly human character. She is 27, and her world as she knows it is crumbling. Her grandmother is dying, her best friends career is taking off, and Maeve knows her life is about to change. She knows she will lose both of the people she cares about at once. Enter her best friend's brother: Gideon. Over time and against her will, she develops feelings for him, throwing her precarious world completely off-kilter.
This book explores feminist themes through the horror genre, as well as female friendships, grief, growing into your thirties, your full adulthood, coming to be fully yourself (even if you are a raging murderous psycho), and how scary it can be to really fall in love, to really be seen for the first time. Somehow, this book does all of this and still manages to be gory, sometimes sickening, and terrifying. I would almost put it under the label of "extreme horror."
On the cover, there is a quote from Grady Hendrix: "An apocalyptic Anaheim psycho." And I feel that is a perfect description--almost. While Maeve is inspired by Patrick Bateman and tries on his identity, she is so much more. The thing is, I felt for her, even as she did heinous, truly gruesome things that I cannot name but will forever live rent-free in my head. This human quality is something I missed at times in American Psycho. This book is a mindfuck because it makes you care about a character that you have more than enough reasons not to care about. And it has this insane character FALL IN LOVE? Like, what? It shouldn't have worked, but somehow, it did.

"You are what you are what you are."
Maeve Fly becomes completely herself by the end of the novel, and we love that for her. I have so many good things to say about this novel, but I'll leave it at this: I feel this is a rare book I enjoyed reading so much that I want to come back and read it again.