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For how short this book is, it's unbelievable how much it has stuck with me since I've finished it. I think what sealed the 5/5 star fate was the Acknowledgments - the Cascadia earthquake is real, my friends. Regardless of whether of not you're a mother, that's terrifying.

In hindsight, the natural disaster plotline took a back seat to the profound unveiling of motherhoods' countless dimensions. How Emma Pattee was able to articulate the dualities mothers face daily is beyond me. It was done so seamlessly, too. I was so busy holding my breath for Annie that I couldn't prepare myself for the emotional toll this book would take on me with each chapter.
At one point, my kindle kept slipping through my hands they were so sweaty. Next, I'd have to take a second to breathe so I didn't cry - the sentiments hit THAT close to home.

I bring up motherhood in my reviews (almost to a fault) because your lens is forever smudged by tiny fingerprints once you enter it. BUT I can say with certainty that you have a mom somewhere. Even if you don't want to become a parent yourself you still have that one vital link to someone's motherhood, at the very least. So, you start from that place of understanding. Maybe you've felt a baby kick inside their mom's belly? Okay, now you have a little more understanding and can identify more closely with mentions of baby's kicks. You've had a baby in your own belly kick? Okay, now you can remember the strange sensation of little schools of fish flipping around, bumping into your bladder. You see what I mean? I know this is a simple idea to grasp - I only mention it because SO MUCH of the beauty I found in the book lies in that idea. Beyond the living roles (pregnant, freshly postpartum, toddler mom, etc as they grow up) the absolutely heartbreaking exploration of becoming a mother without having a living mother to guide you is yet another perspective to be had. I'd bet you could read this book over again with each shift of roles in your personal life, and find your appreciation for it deepening each time.

Thankfully, the intensity was broken up really well. Annie is only a few years older than I am and I can confirm the millennial vibes were immaculate. We've grown up embedded with such a fun (this is sarcasm) mix of shame and need for validation, seeing something and immediately thinking "I need to Instagram this" or "I can't wait to tell so-and-so this story" instead of actively participating in the world around us and helping where we can.

I don't know much about writing, but I'd think that taking on a novel with a timeline of A SINGLE DAY is hard. I only said "there's no way this would really happen" 2x; I usually hit at least 5x when reading anything remotely dystopian. I could keep writing about this book forever probably, and am very willing to if anyone else would like!!! Buuut for my review, I'm going to call it after mentioning... This is Emma Pattee's debut novel!?!?!?!?!? No way??? Can I have dibs on #1 fan?

{Thank you bunches to NetGalley, Emma Pattee and publisher for the eARC in exchange for my honest review!}
Editing to add a thank you to Marysue Ricci & Emma Pattee for sending me a print ARC as well, it's beautiful 😍