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4.5 Stars
2 Spice
Single mom of twins, Ella MacKenzie, has been living her life in rural Colorado running her family's vacation property. When her brother, Ryan, who is stationed overseas, asks her to write to one of his platoon brothers with no friends or family outside of the Army, callsign: Chaos, she decides it's worth her time to try to make a new friend. It takes Chaos a while to come around, but when he finally read her first letter he was hooked and they continued writing. That is until, Ryan is KIA and gives his last letter to Chaos, asking him to take care of Ella because of all the loss she has experienced, she would need assistance. When Chaos shows up as his real self, Beckett Gentry, he tries to get to know her all over again, while helping her navigate a litany of soul crushing life events.

OH. MY. GOD.

This book WRECKED me. I had been warned this was an emotional read, and to be honest - that's true. This book hit me right in the feels within the first 60 pages. Then, I had thought I made it out alive. There's still some ups and downs regarding my feelings - trust needing to be rebuilt, lack of communication, worry about another character etc. But we made it out...and then the last 5% of the book hits and I have never cried they way I was sobbing at the end of this book! It hurt every feeling I've ever had, and I'm not sure I'll ever be over it. Well written, beautiful themes and characters and absolutely worth the read. Just...be ready, lol.