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Dear Jesse,

I went back in time. Your time. To the 19th century. I know, I know. It was dangerous and could've cost my life, but I still went. I mean, really, since when did I ever listen to what someone told me to do.Whatever. The real reason for this is to say goodbye. Why? You ask, well because, in the future you and me, well we'll never meet. you know I'm actually smiling right now because, if you were here you'd probably get all mad and say , "Susannah. it's 'you and I.'"

At first I considered of keeping my dad from dying. But then, my life wouldn't be the way it is. My mom wouldn't have met Andy and get married to him, I wouldn't have any brothers, well David. And I'd never move to Califorinia. Meet Father Dom,CeeCee, and Adam, and most importantly you. I wouldn't have met you Jesse. My dad, said it was okay. That it would be alright if I didn't keep him from dying. It meant so much to him that I actually considered doing something like that.

At first I came to stop Paul from stopping Felix from killing you. Or else I'd never have met you. But then I met you Jesse, the real you. And how could I stand and see you die? Even if, you had made me cry my eyes out. I'm sorry, but you did. Come on, you didn't believe me. You thought I was a nutcrack. And then you called me "Mrs. Susannah."

I wish that instead of you being from the 19th century and instead of you'd have been born in the 21st century, so then you wouldn't be a ghost or anything. And it would be perfectly fine if we'd had actually gone out or something. But then I think, would you actually have hung out with me? Would we ever even meet eachother? I doubt it, you'd probably have hung around some other college girl, the same age as you and not 5 years younger.

This is probably the most hardest thing that I've ever done in my life.

The thing I hate mostly about this is that when I get back to the 21st century I'll never ever remember you. But even though I would never have actually known you I'd know in my heart that their was someone that I was wupposed to meet. Someone I was supposed to be together with. So I'd be waiting for that person all my life, and never have met him. Because that person would be you. So I would never, ever, ever be able to be in an actual relationship with someone because I would know that that person is not you.

And if I go back in time, and Paul's plan actually happens to work, and I do fall for him. And we end up together. Please don't get mad. Because somewhere, someday I'll know that you are the person I'm supposed to be with. That you are the person I was supposed to love and have a future with.

I hope you finally get to Rest In Peace. But look in the bright side, you don't get killed. Your not married to that skanky bitch Maria. And now you know.

I love you, Jesse. I love you so much, that I can prove it to you. I'm doing this for you. RIP. And maybe we'll be together soon, in both of our next lives.
Don't worry I'll make sure that I find away to beat up Paul.

With all my love,

Suze Simon (also known as Susannah to Jesse de Silva)
I love you so so so so so so so much.