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“But she'd clawed her way out of addiction because she believed that she was destined for greater things than an undignified death slumped over a toilet cistern”
― Louise O'Neill, Idol

“I don’t think an eating disorder is a good excuse for bullying someone, Sam. And if you do, then you haven’t done quite as much “workâ€� on yourself as you might like to believe.”
― Louise O'Neill, Idol

“It feels right. You know I think the idea of “virginityâ€� is a social construct designed to control female sexuality, but I kinda like the idea of doing it on my birthday. That way, I’ll never forget. I’ll be, like, forty and blowing out my candles andâ€�”
― Louise O'Neill, Idol

“What about what’s fair to me?â€� Sam felt tears pricking her eyes. ‘What about what’s fair to real victims? When women like you make false allegations, it just makes everything worse for the rest of us. You have to say the story is bullshit and that you have no idea who wrote the Reddit post.”
― Louise O'Neill, Idol

“the board would have done the exact same thing but because I’m a woman, I’m a “bullyâ€�. It’s sexism, pure and simple. And why is she coming out of the woodwork now? I fired her, like, two years ago.”
― Louise O'Neill, Idol

“bet she doesn’t want her friends thinking she’s a dyke,â€� Jane snorted. ‘I know women like that. When I came out, half my senior year stopped talking to me in case I’d get the “wrong ideaâ€�. Like I would have had any interest in those basic bitches.”
― Louise O'Neill, Idol

“She knew there was nothing more powerful than a woman finally given permission to scream.”
― Louise O'Neill, Idol

“And I made myself into this. I made myself a fucking idol for millions of women around the world. They’ll do anything I tell them to do, anything. I fucking own them. And I’m telling you now, you’re not taking that away from me. Do you hear me?”
― Louise O'Neill, Idol

“Like, it’s so easy for the two of you to forget while I’m broken by it. It’s not fair. I’m done, do you hear me?â€� She put her hands on the back of her head. ‘I’m done with this.”
― Louise O'Neill, Idol

“You got Josh,â€� Sam said. ‘You got everything I ever wanted, and you have the audacity to sit there and talk to me about being sad? You think I haven’t been sad? You think what happened didn’t affect me?”
― Louise O'Neill, Idol

“Jesus Christ. You’re forty years of age, Samantha. When are you going to stop blaming us and take responsibility for yourself? Or maybe that doesn’t suit this “narrativeâ€� you’ve created to make yourself sound”
― Louise O'Neill, Idol

“Lisa had fucked her over when they were teenagers, abandoning her supposed best friend when Sam had needed her most, and now she wanted to destroy Sam’s life. She was like Shiva, the god of destruction, the Tower card incarnate. She wouldn’t be happy until Sam was buried alive and she had dug the grave herself.”
― Louise O'Neill, Idol

“Josh, it’s me again. I’m not fucking joking. The two of you can’t just â€� you can’t just do this to me. You can’t just decide I’m a piece of dirt on your fucking shoe that you can discard whenever you want. Listen to me, Josh, and listen good. You don’t want to push me on this, OK?”
― Louise O'Neill, Idol

“You made my life miserable and I’ve had to watch for the last ten years as you made a career out of being kind, preaching about the importance of “connectivityâ€� and “collectivityâ€� and all this shit about treating others as you’d want to be treated. I thought I was losing my fucking mind.”
― Louise O'Neill, Idol

“You wanted to be in control of everything, Sam. And then when we did hook up, I was afraid to tell you because I thought you’d freak out. Like, how is that normal? What did it have to do with you? Rebecca said—â€� ‘You told Becky about it?â€� ‘She’s one of my best friends,”
― Louise O'Neill, Idol

“You went to Bennford to sort this shit out, like a grown-ass woman, and what have you done? Sat around posting throwback pics on social! This isn’t high school. This is real life.”
― Louise O'Neill, Idol

“What about them?â€� Jane asked, exasperated. ‘They’ll find some other white woman to project all their hopes on to and make her a god instead. Come on. This is as good a time as any to take a break.”
― Louise O'Neill, Idol

“The company will go public in a few months, and you’ll be rich enough to retire and never work again. Listen to me.â€� Her manager was serious. ‘I’ve lived in this city long enough to know that the only thing these people can’t forgive is poverty. If you have enough money, they’ll forget everything. You’ll be fine.”
― Louise O'Neill, Idol

“that’s actually true â€� and I don’t believe a word that comes out of your mouth any more â€� then it’s pathetic, Sam. You’re hung up on something that wasn’t even there in the first place.”
― Louise O'Neill, Idol

“And then you act like the last twenty-something years never happened and you’ve no other responsibilities except to be at Samantha Miller’s beck and call. What about the twins? If she”
― Louise O'Neill, Idol

“God, you’re the same as ever. You always did this. You always tried to control her and make sure you were her only friend. And now that you’re back, Lisa doesn’t want to meet up for coffee, she’s too busy to chat at the school gate, she doesn’t want to come to spinning class and shâ€�”
― Louise O'Neill, Idol

“She always had to be camera-ready for daytime television slots with highly glossed presenters who would, no doubt, also deny their own visits to the dermatologist, crediting their suspiciously smooth foreheads to eight hoursâ€� sleep a night and good genes. Sam was still attractive, she knew, but only because that was what was demanded of her.”
― Louise O'Neill, Idol

“But they just wanted to protect you; it’s what parents do. I’m the same with Martha and Maya, even though I know they’re gonna make their own stupid mistakes and there’s nothing I can do about it. At least they’ll have each other, like we did.”
― Louise O'Neill, Idol

“Missed her? Are you kidding me? We have two beautiful children; I built you the house of your fucking dreams. When did you have the time to miss her?â€� Something muffled, one of them telling the other shh, she’ll hear. ‘You’ve”
― Louise O'Neill, Idol

“I’m a human being,â€� she continued. ‘I’m flawed. I’ve never pretended to be anything else. But we put people on pedestals, don’t we? We expect them to be perfect, to be fully enlightened beings. But we’re all human, we all make mistakes. And that’s OK.”
― Louise O'Neill, Idol

“We’ve all heard the joke â€� Lord, give me the confidence of a mediocre white man. I say, Lord, give me the career of a mediocre white woman. Because that’s what Samantha Miller is. Samantha Miller, in all her bland, basic glory, is the embodiment of white privilege and I, for oneâ€�”
― Louise O'Neill, Idol

“Much has been made this week of the anonymous allegations against Samantha Miller. I can’t speak to that but I do believe we should have a conversation about Miller’s stranglehold on the wellness industry. Where are the Black gurus? Where are the BIPOC leaders in this space? Why are the most successful teachers of yoga â€� a spiritual practice originating in ancient India â€� thin, white women?”
― Louise O'Neill, Idol

“And all seven hundred of them had done just that. It had been so moving at the time but she could see now that it could be easily misconstrued as something odd, even sinister.”
― Louise O'Neill, Idol

“Can you please stop pretending that we’re friends?â€� Lisa pushed her stool away, the feet scraping against the tiled floor. ‘We’re not friends any more. And today is reminding me exactly why. I told you to come at eleven and you just arrived at whatever time suited you. I”
― Louise O'Neill, Idol

“I’m not making a statement,â€� Lisa said, her face paling. ‘I’m not a celebrity. I don’t live in your world, Sam. I just want to ignore this and things will go back to normal eventually. There’ll be a new scandal and who’s gonna care about some housewife in the suburbs?”
― Louise O'Neill, Idol