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182 pages, Paperback
First published May 9, 2006
تنها زندگی کردن انتخاب خودش بود، ولی نه تا این اندازه تنها. بدترین جنبه ی تنهایی این است که مجبوری تحملش کنی.یا تحمل می کنی، یا غرق می شوی.باید سخت تلاش کنی تا ذهن گرسنه ات را از نگاه به گذشته بازداری
”There’s no remaking reality,� she told him. “Just take it as it comes. Hold your ground and take it as it comes.� p.5This line is uttered by the narrator’s daughter Nancyby his second marriage. She is the only two � the other being his older brother Howie who seems to have loved the narrator, her father, sincerely. I loved Nancy because I hope or I know to some extent that my own daughter would be like her when I become really old and gray.
”You wicked bastards! You sulky fuckers! You condemning little shits! Would everything be different, he asked himself, if I’d been different and done things differently? Would it all be less lonely than it is now? Of course it would! But this is what I did! I am seventy-one. This is the man I have made. This is what I did to get here, and there’s nothing more to be said!�pp. 97-98While Nancy is sprinkling the dirt (soil) unto her father's coffin, Roth presents the back story of the narrator, told in the narrator’s (corpse) point-of-view. So, the narrator speaks to the reader in monologue akin to Hamlet spewing his innermost thoughts mostly in anger, pain, regret and utter loneliness. There are many lines like this and so the narration could really be depressing. Don’t read this book if you want a happy read!
”Old age is a battle, dear, if not with this (drug), then with that (weariness). It’s an unrelenting battle and just that when you’re at your weakest and least to call up your old fight.�pp. 143-144The words in parenthesis are my interpretation based on the previous statements in this hospital scene when the narrator’s health condition is turning from worse to worst. This metaphor of battle for old age is introduced in the portion but will be reversed by Roth later in the next quote like a two-step ascending crescendo in a dark funereal orchestra.
”Old age isn’t a battle; old age is a massacre.�p. 156Probably the most quoted part of this book’s narrative. It is a reality that old age leads us to death. Prior to that, it makes us ugly: wrinkles, expanding waistline, stooping posture, white hairs, shrinking, fluffier face, swollen joints, pigmented and dull skin, etc. However, for me, focusing on these is forgetting that: Old age is a bliss too. If you played your cards well when you are young and strong, chances are you are financially-secured when you become old and frail: no more children’s education to support, debt-free so you can sleep all you want, you can get up in the morning really late, you can read all the books you want, you can see all the movies you fancy seeing and you can do nasty things to young people and they would ignore or forgive you quite easily compared when you were younger and so people were less forgiving.
”Look back and atone for what you can atone for, and make the best of what you have left.�p. 171Even if we do our best, as human beings, we cannot avoid hurting people. So, we say sorry. So we learn from our mistakes. Yet, we always stumble. We always fall. But we raise up again and again. As life goes on and on.