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“Dissociation, a form of hypnotic trance, helps children survive the abuse…The abuse takes on a dream-like, surreal quality and deadened feelings and altered perceptions add to the strangeness. The whole scene does not fit into the 'real world.' It is simple to forget, easy to believe nothing happened.”
― Renee Fredrickson, Repressed Memories: A Journey to Recovery from Sexual Abuse

“i hardened under the last loss. it took something human out of me. i used to be so deeply emotional i'd crumble on demand. but now the water has made its exit. of course i care about the ones around me. i'm just struggling to show it. a wall is getting in the way. i used to dream of being so strong nothing could shake me. now. i am. so strong. that nothing shakes me. and all i dream is to soften.
- numbness”
― Rupi Kaur, The Sun and Her Flowers

“When things don't go the way you want them to, sometimes instead of feeling disappointment or heartache, you just become numb.”
― April Mae Monterrosa

“I don't sleep. I just let my body lie itself into numbness and lie to myself that I can't hear, see, or feel anything.”
― Will Advise, Nothing is here...

“Your instincts may tell you that you can’t survive if you experience feelings. But they are leftover child instincts. They’re the ones that first told you to freeze your feelings. They themselves are frozen and haven’t grown with the rest of you. These instincts don’t know that you’re far more capable of learning to cope with overwhelming emotion now than when you were a [child].”
― Maureen Brady

“I was last. Sam walked up and held me for a long time. Finally, she whispered in my ear. She said a lot of wonderful things about how it was okay that I wasn't ready last night and how she would miss me and how she wanted me to take care of myself while she was gone.

'You're my best friend,' was all I could say in return.

She smiled and kissed my cheek, and it was like for a moment, the bad part of last night disappeared. But it still felt like a goodbye rather than a 'see ya.' The thing was, I didn't cry. I didn't know what I felt.

Finally, Sam climbed into her pickup, and Patrick started it up. And a great song was playing. And everyone smiled. Including me. But I wasn't there anymore.”
― Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower

“Oddly, the burned hand didn't seem to hurt much anymore; it was only numb. It would have been better if there had been pain. Pain was at least real.”
― Stephen King, ’Salem’s Lot

“How much had I missed in these months of despair and numbness?”
― Sarah J. Maas, A Court of Mist and Fury

“Should could no longer feel grief. She was now like a Geiger counter that had been subjected to too much radiation, no longer capable of giving any reaction, noiselessly displaying a reading of zero.”
― Liu Cixin, The Three-Body Problem

“Dissociation is numbness and nothingness; it is a feeling of being lost; it is floating on a cloud that threatens to suffocate; it is automatic speech and action without awareness or control; it is looking at the world and blinking to try to remove the blurry fog; it is hearing and seeing the immediate world and simultaneously feeling very far away; it is raw fear; it is unfamiliarity in familiar places; it is possession; it is being haunted everyday by unknown monsters that can be felt but not seen (at least not by others); it is looking in the mirror and not knowing who is looking back; it is fantasy and imagination; and, above all else, it is survival. Dissociation is all of these things and none of them at once.”
― Noel Hunter

“We conform to pain until we don't notice it anymore; it's what you call â€� numb â€� and it tragically blots out our pleasure too.”
― Bryant McGill, Simple Reminders: Inspiration for Living Your Best Life

“Someone is going to tell you to get use to this. That feeling of being scared and sad. They're going to say it'll be better when you learn to ignore it. Don't listen to them. Hold on to it, remember it... Don't let yourself forget it. It's too easy to lose.

-Carl Grimes”
― Robert Kirkman, The Walking Dead #125

“Why don't we stay in love that way all our lives? Why do we turn into corpses with consciousness?”
― D.H. Lawrence, The Woman Who Rode Away and Other Stories

“Then I laughed. It was this sick reflex—to laugh. But that was what people did, right? When they couldn't cry or scream because they couldn't feel enough to do either of those? They laughed. It was what happened to those too numb for pain, who instead sensed only a tickle. They laughed.”
― Laney Wylde, Never Touched

“I had no particular problem about getting divorced. For all intents and purposes we already were divorced. And I had no emotional hang up about signing and sealing the official documents. If that's what she wanted, fine. It was a legal formality, nothing more.

But when it came to why, and how, things had turned out this way, the sequence of events was beyond me. I understood, of course, that over time, and as circumstances changed, a couple could grow closer, or move apart. Changes in a person's feelings aren't regulated by custom, logic, or the law. They're fluid, unstable, free to spread their wings and fly away. Like migratory birds have no concept of borders between countries.

But these were all just generalizations, and I couldn't easily grasp the individual case here-that this woman, Yuzu, refused to love this man, me, and chose instead to be loved by someone else. It felt terribly absurd, a horribly ugly way to be treated. There wasn't any anger involved (I think). I mean, what was I supposed to be angry with? What I was feeling was a fundamental numbness. The numbness your heart automatically activates to lessen the awful pain when you want some-body desperately and they reject you. A kind of emotional morphine.”
― Haruki Murakami, Killing Commendatore

“Depression means self-loathing, self-disgust, and the kind of emotional numbness that feels like psychic death.”
― William Deresiewicz, Excellent Sheep: The Miseducation of the American Elite and the Way to a Meaningful Life

“She now felt an incessant and universal numbness.”
― Gustave Flaubert, Madame Bovary

“For us, fear comes where terror comes to others because we are anesthetized to the guns constantly pointed at us. And the terror we have known is something few Westerners ever will. Israeli occupation exposes us very young to the extremes of our emotions, until we cannot feel except in the extreme.

[...] Our sadness can make the stones weep. And the way we love is no exception.”
― Susan Abulhawa, Mornings in Jenin

“Parched by the deprivation of your love for so long made me forget what a cup brimming with love, on my lips, felt like. Everything that now wets it, only wrinkles it with a bland taste.”
― Abhita Jain

“No aching
Just numbness
Sadness
That feeling as if
U miss him
But then you realized,
Maybe he wasn't yours
To begin with.
And
There were no memories
To Reminisce,
Only pain.
Because you knew
From the very beginning
He didn't love u as much
As you loved him.
And that isthe most painful
And crucial part.
Or maybe not.
Maybe it's the truth
That there is
Still an ounce of
Love that shouldn't
Be there at all.

Not after everything.”
― Marianne Escobar

“MOMENTS

I saw you first
You looked exactly
The same as before
Tall and awkward and shy
I walked towards you
My hands clammy
I felt cold inside
My insides were shaking
Cant run
This is it.

U saw me
Your face brightened
A smile painted on your face
I missed it
Your smile
It brought back the past

You walked
I walked
Nearer
It feels like in the
Movies
Two people
A boy and a girl
Meeting halfway
Hoping for a happy
Ever after

I stopped
Right before I reached you
I realized
This isn't like the movies
I turned
I told myself
Don’t smile

You reached me
Close
So close
I felt the urge
To touch you
Hug you
And maybe
Kiss you

There weren't Hellos
Only silent prayers
Smiling
You reached for my hand
Giving me something
You knew I love

It was awkward
You standing there
Me standing there
So close
Too close
Yet so far

I looked up to you
I tried to ask myself
Are you for real?
You smiled wider
Shy but happy

You left as fast
As you came back
It was for a second
I hated time
I wished it was
A little bit longer

With that,
I knew
I still want you.”
― Marianne Escobar

“Pleasure and pain are on the same side of the coin of human experience. The opposite is indifference or numbness.”
― R. N. Prasher

“He was right. It didn't hurt. There was a feeling in the center of Molly's chest like falling, but it wasn't her that was falling. Instead, every sensation and emotion seemed to tumble out of her, up toward the machine. First her panic ebbed away into it, and then the discomfort of the harness digging into her back. Her fear for her family. Her fear for herself. Her exhaustion. The physical sensations from her body flickered out piece by piece, like someone turning out the lamps in a house. It never hurt, not for a moment.

It was the single worst thing she had ever experienced.”
― Shane Arbuthnott, Terra Nova

“I walked back to the window to look down at the people who shared this city with me. The people who made every day a series of mediocrities.

The unreformed murderers masquerading as businessmen in borrowed suits and debt-laden cars. The voluptuous bimbos floating around in an inexplicable mix of vacuity and despair.

The crumbling face of my building looked pretty enough from across the street, but from here I could see how worn it was. I peeled off a satisfying chunk of paint, cement and matter. And I let it fall to the street below.”
― Nasri Atallah

“For this nirvana, I willingly
give in to the numbness of
my wrist.”
― A.P. Sweet, dead, but dreaming

“The DFA and organizations like it have pushed and squeezed and elbowed out all the feeling in the world. They have clamped their fists around a geyser to keep it from exploding.
But the pressure eventually builds, and the explosion will always come.”
― Lauren Oliver, Pandemonium

“I wasn't glad that I hadn't died. And I wasn't sad that I hadn't. I wasn't anything.”
― Kathleen Rooney, Lillian Boxfish Takes a Walk

“.."I let people walk away, the one who loved me, the one who cares for me, I push them to their limits but the saddest part is...I felt nothing, too much pain makes me numb..”
― gracetamio

“Ties are straightened and expressions banished.”
― Rana Dasgupta, Solo

“Everything boiled down to alcohol and guns.”
― Nisi Shawl, Everfair