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Big Sky has always had a special place in my heart. Every time i read it,it made me ache,it made me cry,but most of all,it made me feel.
For Veronica,but somehow for Luke as well.
Now,with the re-release,Kitty has added an epilogue where we get Luke’s POV.
It confirms what i’ve always thought about him.
Does it justify his actions? No.
Does it make me feel better about him?
It makes him human,and it does give me hope he’s going to do better in the future�.

Veronica is slowly crumbling under the pressure.
Work,appearances,money.....until it all falls apart.
Just before she loses her job,she has a collision with a stranger.
He thinks he’s polite by holding the door open,she scoffs at the gesture.
After she loses her job,they meet again.
He offers her a job at his ranch,but she doesn’t trust strangers.
She just doesn’t get a choice at refusing......

Forcefully taken,she tries to fight him every step of the way.
But Luke isn’t fazed by her attempts at changing his mind,and instead goes ahead with his plan to make her see she’s his.
He doesn’t give her any choice,but to surrender to his will.
And to that of his ranch hands.....whenever he wants her to.
It soon becomes clear though,why he’s taken her.
She looks so much like his late wife,reminds him so much of her....
And he’s forcing her into that mold,making her like things she never thought she could.
Pushing her further and further down the rabbithole,until she can’t see any way out.
Except looking up at the big sky.....

Seeing Veronica’s struggles to first find a way to escape,and later find a way to obey,to surrender without completely losing herself......it was a painful journey.
But it also showed how strong she really is.
What she was willing to do to survive.
And not all of it was bad�.even if she thought so at first.
By allowing Luke to do what he did,she also allowed herself to acknowledge she did have a darker side�.even if it wasn’t as dark as he wanted it to be�.

Luke…that man is difficult to understand.
Sure,he hurts�.but to go thís far to ease his pain?
To do all those things to Veronica?
Was it justified? No.
Was it fair to her? No.
But did he harm her beyond repair? Also no.
Did he break her spirit? Nearly�.
He changed her,thát’s for sure!
But did she change something in him,too??