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Well, I was curious, but OMG, I don't even have words on this one. What in the fresh fuck?!

Don't y'all judge me... (Who am I kidding, I'm judging myself!)

Let me begin by saying that Kitty Thomas is one of my OG FAVE dark romance authors. Comfort Food and Guilty Pleasures are two of the absolute HOTTEST books I have ever read. She has a way of luring the reader out of their comfort zone with dark, questionable situations that are wrong AF but you like them, and you're not sure why. At least for me.

I've read some kinky books in my day, don't get me wrong. Daddy kink, pony play... there's nothing that I shy away from and I have no hard limits because I've found that if it's written well, I can "go there" with just about any topic. Until this one, apparently. When I read the blurb, I thought it would be like some reverse pony play book like Pony which was a kinky topic done VERY well that I really ended up enjoying. This book, however.....just, no. I can't go there. This might be a kink (I had no fucking clue it was, if it is), but I just can't go there, no matter how hard I tried.

The writing was strong, as always. I just couldn't get on board with the hero's motives and what this story was ultimately all about. (view spoiler)[Milk play, I guess? The hero injects the heroine with hormones to enable her to produce milk so that he and all his ranch hands can milk off her. He also brands her...like a cow. And they all refer to her as their "good little cow." YEAH. (hide spoiler)]

Because I love this author, I kind of stuck with it and began skimming to see what the resolution was. Had it been that this was something they were going to get through in order to grow together, I maybe could've gotten through it? Maybe? But yeah, no.

Warning, MAJOR spoilers ahead: (view spoiler)[At the end of all THAT, the hero is still very stoic and cold towards her and can't help being disappointed that she isn't his dead ex. But she still stays with him because she figures it's better than nothing and feels that she cannot go back to her former life and at least she can see the sky from his big, huge ranch, so that's a plus.... (hide spoiler)] It's one of those totally unresolved endings (kinda like the one in Comfort Food actually) that just piss you off because, what was the fucking point of all this really? He's still not over his ex. She didn't grow, or move on, or find love. Just had a few orgasms. And now she has this totally obvious, permanent, and hard-to-explain brand on her ass.

I don't know. Still scratching my head and wanting to scrub my brain of what I exposed it to here. Feeling disturbed and in need of a shower or 10.