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2 stars

Not only did I age about 10 years while reading this, but the amount of enabling by both Lily and Loren was starting to trigger me. I understand addiction, I’ve seen it, but enabling someone’s addiction and knowing that you’re doing it makes you partially responsible for anything that happens to them.

Lily was just a bad person all around. She’s extremely fucking selfish and she’s selfish enough where it wasn’t possible to justify all of it by her sex addiction. The girl refused to acknowledge Loren’s alcoholism until Ryke forced her to because what? She didn’t want to lose him? Because his existence enables her and she needs that? I couldn’t stand the way she refused to seek help despite understanding that she has an addiction and that it’s debilitating.

He enables my addiction. Always has. And the longer we’re together, he always will.

I also wanted to acknowledge a particular moment where Lily states��

“But you don’t need me to drink. You don’t have to ask me to fix a whiskey sour. Your addiction doesn’t infiltrate my life like mine does yours.��

→I mean is she serious right now? The fact that she’s refuses to talk to Loren about his addiction IS putting her at the very center of the problem.

Lily is also just a hypocrite. She brings random guys to her and Loren’s apartment (even escorts) and has sex with them while Loren is in the next room, listening to everything. BUUUUUT, the second he does the same thing with one girl she goes off the deep end???

Loren was definitely the better MC, but he was still extremely fucked up. He would purposely tease Lily and arouse her throughout the entire book, but especially before they entered their relationship. He did it because he wanted her to ask him to have sex and not use random men. That’s seriously not fucking okay and he would also do it constantly during their relationship, in front of other people and in public!

Between Loren and Lily egging each other’s addiction on and Lily constantly being in heat, I didn’t feel anything for their relationship. To me it just felt like 2 very fucked up friends that started fucking, not 2 people in love. There wasn’t even a big ‘I love you�� scene, it just sorta…happened.



Ryke, Connor and Rose are definitely the standouts for me. Connor and Rose are absolutely adorable and I dig their enemies to lovers while Ryke is just perfect?? At this point I couldn’t care less about Lily and Loren’s relationship because they’re the type of people that should never ever be together.

Personally, I have a hard time enjoying romances where characters are suffering with addictions. I think it has to do with me not being able to love characters when they love their addiction more than each other. But that's just me 🤷‍♀��