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i think i just had a fever dream where i was transported into a melanie martinez music video while tripping out on acid.

i honestly might change this rating but i’ve never had a book leave me so confused pretty much the whole way through. sometimes it was too confusing to the point where i didn’t know why i was reading it and i felt like the dumbest person for not understanding, but other times i was just intrigued and wanting to finish it so i can get the answers i wanted.

about halfway (?) through you get a little idea of what’s going on when she’s on the bus, and i definitely caught on and went oh my god that’s what this all is! but then there were so many other things in the story that had me confused and still asking questions. like what is this school? what happened between her and the professor? who exactly are the bunnies?

i had a couple theories i dismissed early on which ended up being right, but it didn’t even matter because the way this is written is just meant to confuse you. even if you kind of understand what’s happening. like the randomest shit just gets thrown in here. i felt like i was going crazy. i think i felt my brain altering. i might be a little bit crazy now. will i never be the same again?

would i recommend this book? i don’t think i can really say yes or no. i personally don’t regret reading it. and i will definitely never forget this book. because it’s fucked. lemme tell you that. i loved some parts and disliked others. i personally love the way it ended. it suits the book very well. but i can see why some people could hate this book.

this was a wild ride to say the least. was confused 99.8% of the time but twas a once in a lifetime experience if i do say so myself. i mean, hey, understanding the plot of a book can be so overrated sometimes you know what i mean??