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5/5 stars.
This book, this book SHATTERED me.
I couldn't write a review for the first two days because I was speechless.

This book, this world - so abandoned, so fucked up. And still, people continue to live in it. I'm amazed at people's survival. Even if they are rebels, even if they are soldiers, even if they are just plain poor citizens who still manage to live through terror. It amazes me.

I know a lot of people don't like Juliette. I read a lot of reviews that said Juliette was weak. That she thinks only of herself and the chaos called her life. That she always whining about herself and her troubles, so much so that she forgets that others have issues too. But I can understand her.

It happens to most of us, to be honest. When we live this useless life. A cruel life where we find it hard to find ourselves, difficult to cope with, and therefore difficult to deal with ourselves.

Juliette is strong.
She went through a brutal life. All her life she was treated like a monster. So how can she see herself as someone who isn’t a monster? So what if she found a way out? So what if she got to a point in her life where others actually see her as a human being? She forgot about it. She forgot how to live with people, she forgot how to be human. She didn't know what touch was, or love. The turnaround in her life - from a monster who went through hell, bullying and isolation, to a regular person - was fast. These were only a few weeks. Weeks versus 16 years. It‘s nothing.

She found a person who loved her, who could touch her. And even that was taken from her. And fast.
She knew what touch was for a very short time, and she held on to that knowledge. It made her realize that she might be an ordinary person. But once she discovered that this touch that made her feel human, is hurting the person she love, she took a step back.

There's a quote that says - “If you really love someone, let him go.�� And you know what? It rips you from the inside.
She isn’t selfish, she is not a monster and she is not weak.
She’s a human being. Completely human.
And that's the hardest thing, letting a person you love go. Sure enough when he's the only one who ever made you feel truly loved.
In addition, you can see how she cares about others, how she cares about humanity.
Adam said- “You are one of the bravest, strongest people I’ve ever met. You have the best heart, the best intentions. You’re the best person I’ve ever known. You’ve been through the worst possible experiences and you survived with your humanity still intact.��
And I think he’s right.

Now let's talk about the relationships between Juliette and the boys.
In my review for the first book, I wrote that the love between Juliette and Adam isn’t real. I wrote that Juliette fell in love with him because he was the only person who could touch her and the only one who loved her. Touch and love are things she never received. Once she found out that a person could do both things, she “fell in love�� with him.

In the first book, I noticed that Juliette liked his touch more than him specifically. I thought maybe, MAYBE in the second book, it would go forward. but no.
You know, there are a lot of books where the main characters "fall in love" right away and become couples quickly.
It makes no sense to me.
You can't fall in love with someone so quickly because you don't really know him. You can be attracted to him, sure, but not to love his personality completely. It takes time.
Rare are the books where the main characters take time to fall in love, which is a shame.
In these rare books, you can notice how the characters get to know each other, understand each other, and then they fall in love.
It didn’t happen with Adam.

In the second book, too, Adam and Juliette’s relationship was focused on the touch. Where is the acquaintance? Where are those conversations you get to know each other? All the conversations between them were pleas of "I can't do without you, let's stay together" and "Juliette, please don't leave me."
It's pretty pathetic.
“I really wish you wouldn’t waste your affection on someone who has to beg for your love.�� Said Warner to Juliette. “At least I still have my dignity.�� He said to Adam.
And he couldn't be more right than that.
That's the difference between Adam and Warner. Between these two relationships.

Juliette hated Warner in the first book. I can understand that, he's a psycho (but a cute one, shall we agree?). Without conscience. "Without emotions."
But I was from the minority who really liked Warner from the very first book. I understood it from the beginning. I understood where his insensitivity came from. I realized that this was all a mask and walls he had built for himself because of the shit he had been through.
Juliette understood that too. Why? Because although her caring for people remained, she also went through a difficult past. I think the reason she didn't build walls was because she didn't have a chance to do so, she spent her life in isolation. Warner, on the other hand, has always been in the company of people. He was educated to be a ruler, he has learned to be cruel. So he built walls to hide his feelings and become a good warrior and commander.

In this book you can learn about Warner's life. And why so? Because unlike Adam, Juliette did speak to Warner. The conversations between them taught her who he is, she got to know him. And that, THAT’S how we usually get to know a person. This is how we learn to LOVE a person. I even find Warner and Juliette’s conventions much more intimate than Adam and Juliette’s kisses and touches.

And of course I have to put the legendary Kenji into this review. Is there anyone who doesn't like him? I don't think so, it's just not possible.

You know, I have my own Kenji.
My best friend also learned to laugh at everything, bringing joy to blur the brutal world we live in. This is amazing.

Kenji isn’t only funny. He’s also caring, smart and loyal. Kenji and Juliette have the healthiest relationship in my opinion. He can be honest with her, tell her the painful truth in her face and open her eyes. Juliette tends to listen to him, take a step back and try to see if what he says is true. We, as people, find it hard to accept truth that is unpleasant, and if we tend to listen to a person in such a way, it’s because we love him, because we care about his opinion, and trust him. I'm sure if Kenji wasn't in Juliette’s life, she wouldn't be who she was designed to be in this book.

And that's it, I think.
I really enjoyed this book and I can't wait to go on to the next books.