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“There鈥檚 no magical healing in this. I won鈥檛 wake up tomorrow fixed and joyful. I鈥檒l still hurt and grieve. But moments like this, with Colton? They make it all bearable. He doesn't fix me, doesn't heal me. He just makes life worthwhile. He helps me remember to breathe, shows me how to smile again. He kisses me, and I can forget pain, forget the urges I still have to cut for the pain that erases the emotions.”
― Jasinda Wilder, Falling Into You

“It鈥檚 not okay,鈥� I tell her. This gets her attention; it鈥檚 not what she was expecting. 鈥淵ou don鈥檛 have to be okay.鈥� 鈥淲hat do you want from me?鈥� Her voice is ragged, desperate. 鈥淚 want you to let yourself be broken. Let yourself hurt.鈥� She shakes her head again. 鈥淚 can鈥檛. If I let it out, it鈥檒l never stop.鈥� 鈥淵es, it will.”
― Jasinda Wilder, Falling Into You

“She closes her eyes, and I can see the moisture. She鈥檚 deep-breathing again, and I notice her hands are clutched around the opposing wrists, nails digging in deep, hard, scratching. Pain to replace pain.”
― Jasinda Wilder, Falling Into You

“But we have to learn to be free. We have to, Nell. Doesn't mean happy all the time, or okay all the time. It鈥檚 okay not to be okay. I told you that, but I'm relearning it myself. But not being okay doesn't mean you stop living.”
― Jasinda Wilder, Falling Into You

“It wasn't supposed to. It was just supposed to stop you from hurting yourself.鈥� 鈥淚t helps鈥斺€� 鈥淣o it doesn't. It just pushes it away temporarily. Just like the booze.鈥� 鈥淏ut I need鈥斺€� 鈥淵ou need to let yourself feel. Feel it, own it. Then move on.鈥� 鈥淵ou make it sound so easy.鈥� Bitterness drips from each syllable. 鈥淚t鈥檚 not. It鈥檚 the fucking hardest thing a person can do.鈥� I smooth a damp strand out of her face and away from my mouth. 鈥淚t鈥檚 the hardest fucking thing. It鈥檚 why we drink and do drugs and fight. It鈥檚 why I play music and build engines.”
― Jasinda Wilder, Falling Into You

“You can鈥檛 hold it in forever,鈥� Colton said, apropos of nothing. 鈥淵es, I can.鈥� I had to. 鈥淵ou鈥檒l go crazy. It鈥檒l come out, one way or another.鈥� 鈥淏etter crazy than broken.鈥� I wasn't sure where that came from, hadn't thought it or meant to say it. 鈥淵ou鈥檙e not broken. You鈥檙e hurting.”
― Jasinda Wilder, Falling Into You

“Let鈥t鈥o,鈥� he whispers, his voice a fierce, harsh sound in my hair. 鈥淣o. No!鈥� The last word is screamed. 鈥淵ou have to. You can鈥檛 bleed it out. You can鈥檛 keep pretending, drinking it down.”
― Jasinda Wilder, Falling Into You

“The door slams in response, and I laugh. I'm glad she can laugh. It means she really is coping. I know she鈥檚 internalizing a lot, though. Putting on a show for me. She鈥檒l have new scars on her wrists soon.”
― Jasinda Wilder, Falling Into You

“I respect the hell out of her for how hard she鈥檚 working to be okay. I just wish she鈥檇 let me show her how to let go, how to let herself hurt. I want to take her pain.”
― Jasinda Wilder, Falling Into You

“Hot heart-blood leaked from my face. From my eyes and my nose and my mouth. Not tears, because those would never stop. This was just liquid heartbreak seeping from my pores.”
― Jasinda Wilder, Falling Into You

“Let me go!鈥� she growls. 鈥淣o.鈥� 鈥淟et me fucking go, Colton.鈥� Her voice is tiny, scared, vulnerable, and vehement. 鈥淵ou let go.鈥� 鈥淲hy?鈥� A hitch in her voice. 鈥淏ecause holding on to it is killing you.”
― Jasinda Wilder, Falling Into You

“I don't even know how long she sobs. Time ceases to pass, and she cries, cries, cries. Clutches me and makes these sounds of a soul being ripped in two, the grief so long denied taking its toll. Fermented grief is far more potent.”
― Jasinda Wilder, Falling Into You

“Oh, god鈥︹€� I whimper. 鈥淚 haven鈥檛 done anything yet, baby,鈥� Colton growls. 鈥淚 know,鈥� I pant. 鈥淚 was just saying your name.”
― Jasinda Wilder, Falling Into You

“But I think you鈥檙e beautiful. You鈥檙e lovely.鈥� I shifted uncomfortably under the intense scrutiny and prickling heat in his eyes. 鈥淭hanks?鈥� He thinks I'm鈥ovely? The idea that Kyle thought I was not just hot, but lovely, sent pangs of something like fear through me, an intense pressure in my heart.”
― Jasinda Wilder, Falling Into You

“My thoughts are free to roam back to the way she leaned her head on my arm for a split second, as if wishing she could let herself go, let herself lean farther. But she didn't, and I can鈥檛 help but respect her for that, even I know her strength is false, propped up by the shaky girders of Old Man Jack. One day soon, those girders will collapse, and her world will crumble, and I know I have to be there when that happens.”
― Jasinda Wilder, Falling Into You

“Yeah. I know why she cuts. I just don鈥檛 know the seed-reason. It鈥檚 deep inside her, and it鈥檒l take time and patience to get it out of her.”
― Jasinda Wilder, Falling Into You

“I did answer. I said a little. I'm afraid of what you can do. I mean, I feel safe with you, though. I know you鈥檇 never hurt me.鈥� I take her face in my hands. It鈥檚 too familiar, too affectionate, too soon. I can鈥檛 help it, though. 鈥淛ust the opposite. I will protect you. From others and from yourself. Always.鈥� 鈥淲hy?鈥� Barely audible. 鈥淏ecause I want to. Because鈥︹€� I struggle to find the right words. 鈥淏ecause you deserve it, and you need it.鈥� 鈥淣o, I don鈥檛.”
― Jasinda Wilder, Falling Into You

“You done a number on him, Colt. He needs a doctor, or he ain't gonna make it.鈥� 鈥淗e tried to rape her, Split. Then he punched her.鈥� 鈥淭o be fair,鈥� Nell puts in, 鈥渉e only punched me after I put a knife to his throat.鈥� Split coughs a laugh. 鈥淵ou what? Girl, you crazy.”
― Jasinda Wilder, Falling Into You

“Dan moans behind me, reminding her of the problem. She straightens in fear at the sound of his voice, peers over my shoulder at the chunk of bloody beef that is Dan Sikorsky. She looks slowly from him to me. 鈥淲hat did you do?鈥� I duck my head, embarrassed. 鈥淚 sort of lost my temper.”
― Jasinda Wilder, Falling Into You

“I should have seen it coming.鈥� The words don鈥檛 surprise me, but they piss me off. I pull away and glare down at her. 鈥淒on鈥檛 you fucking dare, Nell Hawthorne. Don鈥檛 you dare put this on yourself. You should never have to see shit like this coming.鈥� She backs away, stunned and afraid by the intensity I know is radiating off me. 鈥淐olton, I just meant he鈥檚 always shown鈥斺€� 鈥淪top. Just stop right there. Granted, you should鈥檝e never gotten involved with a douchetard like him, but that鈥檚 no excuse for what he did.”
― Jasinda Wilder

“I love you, Nell, sugar. I love you with no demands. Nothing held back. I love you to the exclusion of all others. I love you now, when you are the most beautiful woman I've ever seen. I loved you when you were a tree. I will love you when you grow gray haired and your leaves are brittle and brown. I want to make love to you. When you happen to be ready. When you know you love me that exact same way.”
― Faith Hunter, Circle of the Moon

“We have had this discussion before. You are my son. I love you. I will always love you. But I also love Nell, and if you give her the chance and stop rejecting her advances, she will take you into her heart as well."
"Oh, yeah, like he's going to allow me to do that," I muttered”
― Katie MacAlister, Sex, Lies and Vampires